Could I have created a tulpa without realising?

[BauerBird]

Not too long ago I met someone who I absolutely adored, she was amazing in every way, but she had very crippling social anxiety and would have constant panic attacks when out and about around people, and due to that our relationship just slowly faded as she couldn't keep up with my need for social interaction and going out. And so months after that I kept thinking what if a few things about her changed, and if then a person like that could become the perfect companion, and I kind of used what I believe you guys call mindvoice to kind of talk to this ideal person as another sentient being without really realizing it. and not soon after I'd start to get twitches in random parts of my legs for no particular reason whatsoever, and I'd get thoughts that didn't seem to be mine which was weird, and sometimes I'd hear things but in mindvioce that I'd already heard that day, like say for instance I was at a football match for a few hours with my brother, and then later on that night a few time I'd occasionally hear the whistle from the referee earlier that day, and I'd get random emotions that don't make sense to me as to why I'm getting them, but I dismissed that because I've always been kind of moody and have mood-swings. I only came across this whole tulpa concept last night and became really interested and read on it till 4AM; and only this morning kind of thought that all those things could be explained by this? I'm not sure if that's really possible but I had spent A lot of time thinking about this ideal person for at least 8 months now? I just someone more knowledgeable on the subject might know if this sorta thing can occur if I'm just going a little bit crazy?

[ElliAn]

I think it can occur, and no, you're not crazy(cuz I also think the same way as you did when I first talked to my tulpa XD). The whistle thingy could be a way that your emerging tulpa tried to communicate with you.

 

When you thought about the ideal person you could be unconsciously developing a tulpa, and now maybe she wants you to know that she exists so she sent you her thoughts and voices. Be aware that you are not making a tulpa(if it has been proven that you are having a tulpa)that are totally based on your friend or else your tulpa is going to face identity crisis. You can google about identity crisis if you don't know.

 

And yes, you can create a tulpa without realising it.

 

Sorry, I am not really knowledgeable about tulpa XD just sharing my opinions here. I just discovered about tulpamancy a few months ago.

[BauerBird]

I think it can occur, and no, you're not crazy(cuz I also think the same way as you did when I first talked to my tulpa XD). The whistle thingy could be a way that your emerging tulpa tried to communicate with you.

 

When you thought about the ideal person you could be unconsciously developing a tulpa, and now maybe she wants you to know that she exists so she sent you her thoughts and voices. Be aware that you are not making a tulpa(if it has been proven that you are having a tulpa)that are totally based on your friend or else your tulpa is going to face identity crisis. You can google about identity crisis if you don't know.

 

Sorry, I am not really knowledgeable about tulpa XD just sharing my opinions here. I just discovered about tulpamancy a few months ago.

 

Well I didn't think of her as a person that I know but it feels more like an imaginary person with the perfect personality for me to have as a friend, as in with no memories or me having memories of her as a living being, so really if it is a tulpa I'd imagine she shouldn't have an identity crisis. I kind of thought up all of her base personality traits and at times I remember imagining her interacting with me in certain situations that would attribute to one of those traits. A lot of the things I've being doing in my imagination seem to come out of a lot of different guides I've been reading, It kind of just makes sense if it is a tulpa.

[ElliAn]

It's good to know that. :D Then in this way your tulpa should be fine. For the mean time I cannot answer that whether the voice is a tulpa or not, you should wait for a few days more, maybe weeks, to come out of an answer. Just a suggestion, you can try directing some random questions to the voice in your head, if you receive an answer which is not your own then she is a tulpa. It's hard for a new tulpa to be sentient and vocal, but it's not impossible. You can try it though XD or maybe you can wait for others' better replies.

[Temar]

She sounds like a thoughtform of some flavor, at least. We can't really tell you whether she fits the "tulpa" model, but tulpamancy had enough guides and support systems to help you out, even if she deviates a bit. Most tulpas created outside the guides on this site--such as accidentally--will deviate a bit, and that's all right.

 

One thing I'd keep an eye on? Once she's starts thinking for herself, ease up on that "perfect personality"stuff, yeah? It's fine for the development stage, but once she's sentient, that's a lot of pressure to put on a person, you know? ;)

[BauerBird]

Yeah, I think it was more that her, say, assigned attributes were more that they were perfect for me than a perfect personality, I'm not saying it is a Tulpa but it's the only thing that fit's my 'symptoms'.