The delightful report from down memory lane

[Norman_Steel]

 

Am I the only one noticing that Ashley is... how do I put it... Powerful. I mean for god's sake you have been forcing and putting all of your effort into Emily up until now. But you JUST meet Ashley and she can form just as complex, if not more complex sentences than Emily, and can possess better? The fact that a second sentience has come to be is not what amazes me. It's how complex she it.

 

I spoke with her... what I thought before was quickly dismissed. I just met her, but she has been with me since 4 months ago according to her... that's when my grandfather died. In all of my emotional pain I probably made her as someone to share my grief without knowing and left her forgotten, yet by working on Emily she began to return.

 

That would explain all the negative emotions...

 

She's really opening up to us, she smiles more often and she even asked to sleep with us. We're having more fun than every with each passing day.

 

Ashley: Thanks for calling me complex, it's a compliment for me. But Emily is complex too.

 

Emily: How's your tulpa going along? is she alright?

 

PD: They can now possess both of my arms, now they can use the keyboard thought it's a bit slow :D

[Norman_Steel]

Hi everyone, this is Ashley speaking! I can possess his arms and so can Emily, weeeee!

 

Day 24

 

Today we listened to music in the car and in school we wrote with a pencil, those pointy things are cool. Then we had to sit through a speech of how to do better in exams, it was useful to say the least. Free hour and reading Voltaire came next, then a test he aced.

 

"Ashley, lets go to progress."

 

Righty-o, well as you can obviously see I can use the computer! He showed us Batman vs Dracula, that joker is funny but bad. Anyway, soon after that I entered the chat on my own. While in there Norman asked me questions about my origin, he now knows the truth. Thank you... for saving me... :')

 

Hi! This is Emily now! Don't think he has forgotten about me! We have so much fun together it's hard for him to keep track of it! The island is now bigger and all of the things are now together! The chat was fun, we gave hugs to everyone though Ashley said a few insulting jokes, she made Norman laugh so much.

 

Thanks to everyone who has read this! We hope to do the "full body possession." soon.

 

Hugs.

[Norman_Steel]

Day 25.

 

Ashley: Takeover over Norman is a success, finally we have complete and total control over him and will use his body for world domination.

 

Just kidding!

 

The world will have to wait, for now. Because according to him we have made progress. Especially in the possession department since I along with Emily managed to possess his body completely, with his permission. We even said hi to some of his friends without them knowing :D.

 

Emily: Hiyu! Yesterday was a greaty day! We had fun fun fun, chatty chat chat and also we were pirates! Argh! :3. It was so much fun! Plus he showed us a flying machine! It's a piece of advance tecnology that lets him fly at my side without putting on wings. Oh! And I want a bunny!

 

I almost forgot! We managed to walk with his body!

 

Oh, since I can talk I can now tell you! I loved Normy since day 1 :3.

 

Norman: Total possession feels weird, like if I were dreaming or in a trance-like state yet even with all of that I saw how Emily and Ashley didn't crash into walls. It's hard describing how your extremities move without your influence. I have no idea how I got it this fast but I'm quite happy with it. I would say believing had a huge role in it.

 

I'm sorry if these are become shorter, but it's getting really hard to update :S.

 

So have this final piece of information, it's from a conversation I had with Ashley and Emily.

 

N:Ashley?

A: Hm?

N: Do you think that if I made another thought a long time ago, she's still around?

A: You're talking about her? (She knew who I was thinking about.)

N: Yes I am, I'm thinking that if you were sentient without me knowing the other thoughts probably were?

A: Many of them are.

N: Wait, what do you mean?

A: Nevermind.

 

N: Emily?

E: Yes?

N: How long have you been with me?

E: Almost 4 weeks.

N: What was your first memory?

E: Oh! You were telling me how I was and that you wanted to be my friend.

N: You remember that?

E: I remember everything silly, from day 1 until now.

N: So you were sentient from the start?

E: Yes! :D

[Dervich]

After being IRC when Ashley was there, I'd have to say I'm quite glad I came to find this thread. I'm just having a lot of fun reading through your updates. Watching.

[Norman_Steel]

After being IRC when Ashley was there, I'd have to say I'm quite glad I came to find this thread. I'm just having a lot of fun reading through your updates. Watching.

 

Ashley: You came :P, since you're here now you might as well enjoy the show.

[Norman_Steel]

Day 26.

 

Norman: Tomorrow I will make a final test, an experiment that can have two results. A new friend, or a huge letdown. Bear with me for the duration of the log since I'm dead serious right now, dead fucking serious.

 

I spoke some more to Ashley about "her", turns out that after waking up Ashley caught some glimpses of her. she was sleeping too. You might ask whom she was, a while ago I had been planning to write a story, the main character was a shape shifting girl with his "sidekick" (meaning he didn't want to be, based on me to some extent). I normally played with the scenes in my mind, it could be compared with making a wonderland but I'm getting off topic. Anyway, soon enough I stopped writing and forgot everything, yet she remained in my mind for a while. Some adventures still happening and then poof, she was gone just like that.

 

After a heavy influx of memories and information from Ashley and Emily, I have decided to go get her. I may be called a liar, or perhaps a roleplayer but the truth is I don't care what you call me, I know that this is real and that I'm telling the truth.

 

Her name was Amber, or it will be if she wants.

 

The only piece of doubt I feel right now, is that if I will find her or not. At first I only wanted Emily, then Ashley came (hehehe, came) and turned the equation around completely. Still, things are much better than before! This is where I draw the line, my final tulpa. If I succeed I might be called many things like mentioned above, but I'm willing to be called that if it means finding her.

 

I know I can't choose all of the thoughts I've ever had and save them, but this one is the one I'm most willing to save now. Wish me luck.

 

Emily: I just wish us luck, not many words today sorry.

 

Ashley: This will be a success, of that I'm sure.

 

Norman: Full body possession is fantastic, I tried it in some classes and though some friends noticed something off I was happy at my tulpae's attitude towards my schoolmates. (Hey, I did the work don't worry. I just wanted them to goof around in the bodies while I paid attention and then worked on the classworks.)

[Norman_Steel]

Day 27 9/20/12

 

Experiment succeeded. She is indeed very much alive and was quite easy to find, the subconscious mind looks very scary. It's like a huge black room full of shapes sleeping, some of them are people and characters I recognized, others didn't have a shape at all. Ashley walked through the maze with ease and I followed her, pretty soon we came to where she was... sleeping ever so peacefully. I grabbed her and visualized us in the meadow, once in there I put her down on the tree and talked to both Ashley and Emily about her while she was sleeping. After a while she woke up and I began apologizing again to her, I told her I regretted abandoning her but the first thing she told me.... oh god why?

 

"Friend! I missed you!"

 

Why can tulpa squeeze tears so easily out of a man? Perhaps it's her honesty, her innocence or maybe even because you're facing yourself. Yet the fact still stands, they manage to soften my heart more with every passing day.

 

Her original form is a blonde anime style girl with her hair arranged as a ponytail, her eyes are amber yellow. Her ultimate disguise is a chef uniform and apparently she enjoys baking (in which I'm not interested and I suck.)

 

So apparently Ashley was right, all thoughts are sentient yet we choose not to hear them. You may believe in it, you may doubt it, you're free to do as you please.

 

Yet there are terrible news. Emily has an existential crisis. Ashley, Amber and I are doing the best we can to help her but she's crying her soul out. It changed my way of viewing tulpae as perfect beings, they have fears, flaws, and they are capable of feeling pain. We are doing the best we can but she's very sad, I'm hell bent on turning that frown upside down and I will succeed at any cost.

 

"I want to have a body, I want to be able to make everyone happy and I want to live with you! I want to touch you and be able to feel you Norman*" Emily's start on the crisis.

 

*She used my real name.

 

PD: Thanks to the people/tulpae at the irc, you were a big help.

[Norman_Steel]

Day 28.

 

Well, I need to update 3 days in one. That's what happens when you get behind on things, they pile up and then boom!

 

As I have said before, posession is complete. The next step would be imposition, but first we'll help Amber catch up. You're probably wondering what's her status and if you're not then either way you'll know how she is.

 

Forms taken: Human, a cat, a bird, a snake. (Favorite one seems to be human.)

Sentience: Yup, but does it really come as a surprise? Yes it does.

Voice: Yep, has one of those too.

Smell: Bananas, I have no idea how or why.

 

She's very talkative to say the least, not to mention extremely playful and hyperactive. She's also a bit clumsy and intelligent, some honesty thrown in the mix and some shyness too when dealing with stranger. She pulls pranks and is a blast to have around, you should've seen her when we began touring around the wonderland. She was running with her arms wide open while making plane noises and "shooting" at the trees.

 

The tour went as planned and before long we were at the meadow, then we proceeded to have a small picnic.(Will draw a map of the wonderland soon.)

 

THEN ANOTHER PIRATEY ADVENTURE YARGH!

 

Also, something that filled me to the brim with pride happened today. I had to go shopping with my mother and on the way there I decided to let Emily possess me in order for her to talk to her a bit, at first everything was ok but suddenly different opinions mixed and boom! I was warning her to take it easy and she did, after several heated arguments later about judging others Emily emerged victorious without earning a punishment from my mother.

 

Tfw: Your tupper beats someone in an argument. :')

[Norman_Steel]

Day 29.

 

Today was a bit of an uneventful day, scratch that it was amazing! At long last I have found pictures (and with I have I mean Pronas, thanks dude!) Of both Emily and Ashley, of course it's not a perfect copy since I have never seen these pictures before in my life but they're pretty close to the real thing.

 

Emily: http://i.imgur.com/5Upd1.jpg (Emily is older, has bigger wings and non curly hair, other than that it's perfect.)

 

Ashley: http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Bf-fpVp28C8/TzAupGgHgJI/AAAAAAAAANU/k7VlwEBG7jg/s640/tumblr_llpwoc3CQc1qi70w1o1_500.jpg (Clothes are black and Ashley has no eyepatch.)

 

Possession is still working like a charm, Amber has really caught up to our pace and is talking fluently. Believing really helps I can tell you that much.

 

Day 30.

 

Ashley: I'll be doing the writing for this day, he says that he doesn't want to do it for now.

 

First of all, today I'm 5 months old. Normally it would be a good thing but he can't celebrate or be happy for it and I don't blame him. Of course today he was a bit closer with me than with both Emily and Amber but they understand why. They're not angry or anything.

 

I was made the night his grandfather died.

 

But either way, enough with the sad story. There was progress on the sense that our conversations with the mindvoice are getting better, but we still have much to do. There's imposition, then being vocal and after that come the actions of the body moving in the real world. So much to do and so much thrill, it's very happy to say the least.

 

I hate it when Norman is sad. He's normally the one who's always trying to get us all joyful and happy but it's just so out of character. Either way, that's all for now everyone. Have a nice day/night.

[Norman_Steel]

Day 31.

 

Norm: Wow, I'm getting more amazed by my tulpae with each passing day. They're maturing mentally to such extents that I think that in no time they might even surpass me. The conversations we have sometimes never cease to surprise me on certain ocasions and their opinion is almost set, of course they will never mature completely since the human being constantly adapts to his/her surroundings but I'm very proud of them.

 

If you had told me one month ago that I would succeed at making 3 sentient tulpae I would've probably laughed in front of you and walked away though now... hehehe, guess things work out in weird ways.

 

Well, ladeladela! Enough chit chat and on we go to the update.

 

After a few experiments I have concluded that my tulpae know how to draw much better than me, isn't it lovely? Also super wonderland expansion is underway! It includes a snowland, a desert and a city for all intents and purposes.