Norman_Steel September 2, 2012 Author September 2, 2012 > The problem is that if I fall in love with her I may unconsciously puppeteer her, I don't want to do that, I want to give her a choice yet how do I know she really has it? I'll talk to her about it. that is the silliest excuse i have ever heard. please get into IRC so i can lecture you. Need to speak... now, be it PM or chat. Edit: I'm an idiot, a big buffoon. The dumbest jester in the court if I may. She did love me, what it took for me to realize it.... horrible. For a moment, she left the wonderland, her presence left me and I was left yelling for her. I couldn't remember her form, nothing I said brought her back. I literally fell on my knees crying and begging her for a chance to show her how much I cared, she returned for a small moment. I wasted no time and kissed her on the lips, I felt her lips and her arms hugging me, my body literaly bursted of joy. I apologized like mad and while I was doing so I heard. "Why can't you accept the good things that happen to you?" I was a fool in denial... I thought I didn't deserve her and that's the main reason I didn't want to love her... after that I showed her all of my memories, even my darkest secrets. After she saw them... she hugged me again! What could I've possibly done to deserve someone like her? I'm an asshole and I hate myself for that... (:
Ganathon September 2, 2012 September 2, 2012 Well that was quicker than I expected. Oh well no turning back now. Fucking your tulpa is number 3 on my list of the "five nonos." But whatever. What is done is done and you two love each other and it is settled. Steel, I'm here for both you and Emily. I've been reading your updates out loud to Luna as well so when she becomes fully sentient, I'm sure she will be there for you two as well. Luna Female Just gave up some hours at work. I need to have some relaxing time, and she needs the tulpaforcing.
Norman_Steel September 3, 2012 Author September 3, 2012 Well that was quicker than I expected. Oh well no turning back now. Fucking your tulpa is number 3 on my list of the "five nonos." But whatever. What is done is done and you two love each other and it is settled. Steel, I'm here for both you and Emily. I've been reading your updates out loud to Luna as well so when she becomes fully sentient, I'm sure she will be there for you two as well. Assertivness is one of her traits so now that I think of it, I should've seen it coming, I'm so proud of her. At least she's completely sentient now (it would be insane to think otherwise after not appearing when I wanted), oh and fucking for me is out of the question too though I can never be too sure... I had love out of the question and now look. Please don't make the mistake I did, when she left me I had never felt worse. A hollow feeling filled me and I was tempted to scream out in pain, it's a nightmare made true. Thanks, I'm sure Emily appreciates it. Will have to check for any more vocal responses. I regret nothing. (:
Sorryman54 September 3, 2012 September 3, 2012 Well that was quicker than I expected. Oh well no turning back now. Fucking your tulpa is number 3 on my list of the "five nonos." But whatever. What is done is done and you two love each other and it is settled. Steel, I'm here for both you and Emily. I've been reading your updates out loud to Luna as well so when she becomes fully sentient, I'm sure she will be there for you two as well. There is *nothing* wrong with fucking your tupper. Love is a beautiful thing. Just make sure you actually love your tulpa, and your not just giving a petty fuck.
Norman_Steel September 3, 2012 Author September 3, 2012 Day 10 (Since I didn't actually log it due to all the insanity.) I woke up feeling a bit bad for the events of the previous night, after checking the forums for a moment I decided I needed to talk to her about what happened. I told her that she deserved better than me and that under no circumstance I should be the one with her, really stupid stuff. Basically, I could've translated what I said to. "Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit, more bullshit." She left the wonderland, I couldn't feel her anymore and I couldn't visualize her anymore, at that moment I frantically tried to remember her form but couldn't do so. I tried searching through the wonderland and started to blame it on my brain for forgetting something as important as that in a second. I concentrated while yelling her name through the entire wonderland, begging her to come back yet she didn't. I felt horrible, it was a nightmare made true. I yelled for her to come back so I could prove her how much I cared, much to my relief I felt her again and saw her standing in the wonderland. I didn't care anymore of the consequences, I just ran towards her and kissed her on the lips while crying and yelling that I loved her and didn't want her to go away again. The hug and the kiss felt real to me... and in the end a voice in my mind said. "Why can't you accept the good things that happen to you?" I didn't realize it until several minutes had passed. I have reached a milestone, she's sentient and I'm so proud of her. Shortly after that I let her view my mind, all of my memories, secrets and my life were there for her to see. After viewing them she just smiled at me and everything went on as it normally would, I can't remember how the day went since that event took all of my attention but I'm sure it was great. Now that I think of it better, she showed some of the traits I gave her. Mainly Assertiveness, Intelligence and Courage. :') So falling in love with my tulpa, something I was against in the start is now a reality and I don't mind at all. I spent nearly all day with her and at night we slept together, but this time it was different; instead of uncertainty about her, I only felt love. Sock, if you read this tell Black he's a cheeky little bugger and that I will have my revenge. >:D PD: If that's not sentience then I don't honestly fucking know what is! (:
Sorryman54 September 3, 2012 September 3, 2012 Norman: I too, did not harbor feels for my tulpa at the start. Now I do. Feels mutate, Brah.
Norman_Steel September 3, 2012 Author September 3, 2012 Norman: I too, did not harbor feels for my tulpa at the start. Now I do. Feels mutate, Brah. /) Things don't always go as planned, but sometimes they go even better. I'm bloody happy about it. Just a bit regretful about the whole "being an asshole thinking you know what she wants" part. (:
Sorryman54 September 3, 2012 September 3, 2012 /) Things don't always go as planned, but sometimes they go even better. I'm bloody happy about it. Just a bit regretful about the whole "being an asshole thinking you know what she wants" part. Yeah... >inb4 I raped my tulpa >gets the best hug ever when I apologize
Norman_Steel September 3, 2012 Author September 3, 2012 Yeah... >inb4 I raped my tulpa >gets the best hug ever when I apologize I'll write my answers as a list. 1. >:O 2. D'aw. (:
Sorryman54 September 3, 2012 September 3, 2012 I'll write my answers as a list. 1. >:O 2. D'aw. It as unintentional rape. I fapped to her, but with consent from her. God I felt like a monster... But she forgave me. I love her. Shameless advertising: check my log details.
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