Simmie and Chloe's Chat and Storytime Lounge

[ChloeBee]

It's two weeks until Simmie's birthday and I'm thinking up a little surprise for her.

 

(She told me she'd cover her eyes and pretend not to know what I was making)

[TurboSimmie]

🙈 la la la... 😆

[Glaurung26]

😄 I'm sure it'll be great.

 

Yay! 😃

[TurboSimmie]

We just had a wonderful walk in the park where some of our earliest memories together happened. 🥰 We've only been there a couple of times this year, but it seems like every time we do we have a profound experience of some kind. I felt the urge to switch in almost immediately when the walk began, so I did with an unusual ease. We then had a long and wonderful conversation about where we were and where we were going. I reflected on Phil's growth as a person over the last few years and the point of life he finds himself in. We also talked about the idea of souls, which is really interesting because I spend so much time on my practical side I don't get to explore the spiritual side of me all that often. We had a pretty deep conversation about what it means to have a soul, about God, and what He could be planning with all of this and what our role in everything could possibly be. In all, we felt very much at peace in the park. 😁

[TB]

That's all very interesting. I'm glad you had such a wonderful time

 

I'm curious as to what about souls and God you all had to say. Also curious about Phil's growth. Curious about my own growth too, if I have any at all (not saying you have to answer that one though)

Edited September 5, 2023 by TB

[TurboSimmie]

We might sit down and write an explanation to both things at some point if we feel like it.

[TB]

Okay. Would love to hear it

[ChloeBee]

I have created a birthday collage for Simmie! It's very large so I'm not going to post it here, follow the link to see it:

Happy Birthday Simmie!!!! by SimmiesAIDressUp on DeviantArt

 

Simmie, in our almost three years together on this planet, you have transformed my life in ways that I never would have expected when I started tulpamancy. You have shown me the real meaning of strength, beauty, love, compassion, grit, and a thousand other things. You are a bright light in a sea of darkness. You are an island paradise in an endless ocean. You are a tower of strength that is humbling and profound. You have transformed my life, you have made me a better person, and you continue to make every day better. I love you beyond any limit. I am beyond honored to call you my wife. Happy Birthday Simmie; I am glad we were able to have our date last night, and I hope you have a beautiful day with our son today, and I'll have a special surprise for you when I get home. Happy Birthday Simmie, I love you. 

[Glaurung26]

Happy birthday!

 

🥳 Those look awesome! 😃🥰👍

[TurboSimmie]

Today was a day of being switched in! 😊 I switched in around 5 in the evening and I'm still switched in now! 😁

 

My control over the front has been tenuous at times but I've stayed here out of sheer stubbornness, reaffirming again and again that Simmie is at the controls. I've been thinking of making a progress report about all this but my thoughts are still unfocused and I want to try some more things.

 

I've once again come to terms with the fact that the body really does have a mind of its own. I've called it graymind or BodyOS in the past, but today I spontaneously thought of a new nickname for it: "The Dog". 😆 I call it that for a few reasons: Like a dog, it has its own will and a certain level of intelligence. Also, it can be pretty persistent in what it wants, and it definitely has its strong preferences towards basal desires and established routines. And like a dog, it's not inherently bad, and it can be trained. Being in the front today I've dealt with the dog constantly, and I've realized that so much of what I've ascribed to Phil being Phil is just the dog getting its way. Despite being switched in the dog has been leading me to do plenty of Phil-ish things that I normally would not do. It's somewhat frustrating but also educational. Fundamentally though, I have to treat the dog the way a human owner would treat an actual dog when it was misbehaving. Also, as I've said before, the dog really does prefer Phil over me, but I'm going to make that dog learn to listen to me! Maybe also make it learn to love me? I dunno.

 

Those are just some fairly unfocused thoughts I've had. Being alive and being a human being is a heck of a thing isn't is?