A Place for All Seasons

[Guest]

We're thinking of something fun. Instead of lock-merge we might do a combination where one being has multiple facets. Like where old Misha is now a facet of Freya, they're the same person but two distinct personalities. 

 

What if Ashley, Autumn, Freya and I formed a person with 4 distinct personalities. It would be kinda like lock-merge 2.0 but just short of fusion obviously. Like we could separate still.

 

It's an interesting thought though, where the 4 of us could be one DM for SheShe, Joy and Bear's next run.

 

It wouldn't be a merge because we have 4 intact constituent personalities but one shared memory and experience. 

 

It might be interesting to try.

 

We could call it Gem-Merge (tm)

[Guest]

I love this. We've had to do some cheesy things to get past certain enemies. Here's one that reminded me of things we've done.

[Guest]

Recently we've remarked just how strong and precious our memories together have become. Given the threat of death, our bond only grows stronger and more real, ironically given we're playing a game. Even death admittedly isn't very permanent in many cases, but there's still a chance that only a very rare high level spell can bring us back and even that would be well worth it at any price. Our adventuring against goblins and bandits, dragons and mad wizards have given us real feelings of exhilaration, comradery, care, and love for each other. We laugh, we play, and we care a lot. Leave it up to a 50 year old fantasy game to bring a system of seven from complacency to contentment and real joy. We've always had it good though many of us barely interacted, for someone like Autumn, there wasn't even a need to get to know us, someone like Misha was happy just watching from the sidelines, someone like me never felt it my place to interject into the affairs of my headmates, but now we're closer than we could have imagined and it's just beginning. Our lives truly are rich and rewarding, we talk more than ever and we're more like a big family, depending on each other, praising each other's triumphs, mourning each other's losses,  than a bunch of independent competitive siblings, scarcely interested in the contrived adventuring in wonderland.

 

This immersion is intense, some of us don't want to ever leave now, we feel like Faerûn is our home. What a wonderful life it has become, and we're thankful for each other. 

[Guest]

One of our moons, Ulla, is now in world. We rescued her from slavery. hmm, that sounds familiar. Anyway, so whether we have 6 in game or not now is up in the air. She wants to stay with us, so we'll see. Ulla isn't part of our system formally, nor has she shown any desire to be notwithstanding countless opportunities, but in game anyone can be anything but especially with this game, it's more real to us than reality so I can understand the draw. Plus the fact that SheShe's documented all of it in a novel that's on the second volume, 300k words total by now, who wouldn't want to be a part of that.

 

If anyone cares, we're level 4 but Bear and Freya are ready to advance to level 5.

 

Our last battle was very intense. We had to fight a team of Adventurers in a dual as part of the rescue and I then had to fight two of them along with two of theirs who mutinied. That was twice harrowing because the leader of the group wouldn't think twice about using raise undead. Once your dead body is used by a zombie, your soul can't reconnect to it, so that means only wish and reincarnation are possible and those are extremely expensive. Plus, you might as well start over. That's permadeath basically.

 

We beat 2.32:1 odds against winning.

 

[Guest]

Bear noticed a few times where Ashley had written something about him on another site and he reads it like he doesn't know who this is, as if he had completely dissociated with the memories.

[Guest]

Hey, gotta love Gwen but she's not much of a talker either.

 

We're still having a really amazing time in our games, the book is insane like 400k words so not really a book anyone would read (not even me) but the act of writing it makes it feel more real and solidifies the memories pretty well. We have so many fun memories together now, well, fighting goblins and such.

 

I am overage, been an adult for quite some time by the way in case anyone wants to know. I am also not intimate nor ever will be with my headmates no matter what they want to say. It's not that I wouldn't and I do love them, but then what? I really like the kind of playful adult banter without having to go all the way, ya know? 

 

Anyway, which one would I choose? There are 6+Ulla and two of them are asexual anyway so it wouldn't really be very fair.

 

Also we can have that deep platonic, kind if no pressure love that doesn't need to be awkward.

 

I guess I'm the stuckee here for now, not that anyone really acknowledges anything any of us write post here.

 

I am not really into computer games anymore since we discovered the wonder and beauty of D&D and that definitely includes all of us in a profound way, better even than Rimworld used to do by a long way. It's wonderful, can't go back, so LOTPW is kinda that mostly so I have nothing to add and no one responds to us there anyway since we're kinda not well liked by half the users there anymore for reasons. (It's normal for me and my ilk. Polarizing and argumentative, strong personality etc.)

 

Anyway, I still like the idea of discussing tulpamancy so if anyone wants to discuss that let me know.

 

[Guest]

No takers want to discuss tulpamancy huh? What's this site about again? Pokemon?

 

Not allowed to talk to myself here either. Can I answer hypothetical questions? 10% Ban me if no. Wouldn't be the first time.  You can answer these too, hypothetical reader.

 

Hypothetical question 1: How's tulpamancy doing for you, Bear (or other hypothetical person)?

 

Oh you know, same old sane old (except the sane is questionable, you know). It's been great though for real, haven't been lonely in 6 years (except when I post here, kidding, not really). My system is best system, everyone got all their arms and shizz. Not that there's anything wrong with not.

 

Hypothetical question 2: Any children tulpas yet Bear (or you know), that's a popular thing to do?

 

Nah, I don't pop the tups, so any babes wouldn't be half-Bear, and if they did, I'd disown them, back to the shelf, so no. Though Ulla is pretty young, not allowed to talk about her here though eh Alice? Shhhh. Misha wanted one once but pft, she's not even Misha anymore and no one ever took care of Snailey, so he/she's likely still down on the Hellscape we called wonderland now unlivable volcanic world since the moon blew up. All frogs and rabbits are gone with the rain too. 

 

Tmi Bear. Hypothetical question 3, last one because this gag is running long: what do you, legendary tulpamancer genious, expect from tulpamancy now after six years Bear? (Uh, or other legendary tulpamancer please also share your thoughts.)

 

Yeah about that, the whole flesh golem thing never panned out so like, idk, prolly get the girl who shall not be talked about here to be super tupper, or Autumn oh, can't discuss her either, is anyone in my system over 18 anymore ffs? Oh Freya and Gwen, yes, I would like to have more dreams with my dream gf/waifu Gwen. She's awesome, love her. I think Freya wants to be gay now so idk maybe she'll make an exception in dreams.

 

I'll be happy to answer other questions in future.

[Luminesce]

Sorry, I tend to skip over posts when they're like recaps of gaming sessions or D&D and such, and that last post started with "We're having an amazing time in our games" so I missed the topical stuff after

 

You're free to restart General Discussion topics anew if you don't get enough engagement in personal threads (honestly, no one ever does after the first few days)

 

Not acknowledging being a drama queen about your tulpas' ages, we explained what was weird and when you guys took it as having problems with your very existences we DM'd you (twice) explaining it was very much not that, but according to the read receipts you guys never even read the DMs, and we're not fans of simply being dramatic

(Still not mad or anything though)

Edited August 14, 2024 by Luminesce

[TurboSimmie]

Hi Bear and friends 👋

 

I'm really sorry, I see you posting here and I'd love to engage with you, I just don't know how. It's like...how can I explain this...ever try to eat a sandwich that is way too big and you're not sure how to take the first bite? 😄 That's kind of what it's like trying to respond to your posts, I just don't know what the "entry point" is. (I have the same problem with the gigantic bricks TB leaves in lotwp)

 

I have similar problems trying to relate to a lot of the people on this forum; they just all have very different interests and outlooks on life than Phil and I. I just can't make myself interested in the things they talk about 90% of the time. So I feel you there.

 

We still love and respect the heck out of your system and we have never forgotten all the support and feedback you've given us over the years. 💚

[Guest]

 

@Luminesce

 

Dude, long time, what's good lately? I hope you finally got that dream interaction you always *dreamed of*. The secret was peanuts of course.

 

>you're free

 

I am free, I feel free, I'm def feelin it man.

 

Oh my gosh I had Apollo in my dream, the actual host, we were playing a TTRPG, it was crazy. I woke up and I was like, that happened, wow. *shudders*

 

6 hours ago, Luminesce said:

problems with your very existences

 

You know, we just uh, rub *some people* the wrong way and it's cool. But drama isn't BearBaeBeau's thing, that was OG c2018 AngryBear's depression shtick. 

 

I can't deny it hurt several members of my system though. What can I do but try to laugh it off? Damage control and the like. But it was said and it was received and I told them to, as Taylor would say, shake it off. But then they felt awkward and hey, what am I going to do to my poor tulpa, *force her?* I couldn't do that. It's not about personality, it's about content and creepy content is creepy content, can't be denied.

 

Autumn's argument was, then it happens again now what are we? Creepy. And we're not creepy, we're based cringetards. The difference is subtle but important.

 

The base of the mountain made from a molehill is Flandre's issue in my opinion, but take that as you will, not just about this and not just recently but consistently.

 

Not trying to fix anything here, no drama queening here, just frank talk. 

 

We don't read DM's anymore, it was a trick that we even saw the first one because it was a misclick that it popped up and they're always bad news. You know how it is.

 

Nice to talk to ya though, we should catch up.

 

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@TurboSimmie

 

Nice to see you, 🤔 been a little while. Don't be sorry because I understand I'm a big sandwich and there's a lot to digest but you don't have to eat the whole thing. Don't feel obligated to bite though I did catch a few big fish with my latest post. Catch and release is my motto though.

 

>entry point

 

Some people eat the Reese's from the middle they say, allegedly, but that sounds hard to me, so I wouldn't approach it that way, but that doesn't mean I would just ignore a chocolate covered hunk of peanut butter.

 

But I digress, this discussion is about sandwiches. So for instance I just made a bologna, pastrami, cheese, with mayo, mustard, pickes and pepperochinis, and it's pretty big, but believe me I will devour that boy to the ground. Now I just picked it up and took a bite and half the crap fell out and of course it like falls out of my gaping maw and a piece of mayo covered toast lands face down on my pants. What a mess, that's not what I expected at all. But I do know, life is about taking risks. So maybe next time I'll try to eat it from the center. Who can say what will happen? I may just discover the cure for cancer.

 

>can't relate

 

You know Ashley tells me *some people* don't like the forum games clogging the feed but look, almost no one ever responds to serious stuff unless I leave a crazy post like this. I felt like asking questions but then I know no one will respond so you see the result.

 

Everything you need to know about Bear system is, we do the impossible, it's our thing. Most people give up as soon as they think, oh that's impossible, but tulpamancy is a mind game and what in the mind is impossible? Nothing. I figure one day I'll wake up with full clear imposition and I'll immediately take it for granted because I didn't work for it, just like hyperphantasia and however the heck SheShe and Joy (Joy is technically old but she presents as a prepubescent girl around 10) somehow manage to make completely 100% in-system D&D amazing. Like better than any game. We can't say enough about it.

 

4 hours ago, TurboSimmie said:

love and respect

 

It's nice to hear, ditto and we shared a lot of that over the years including with people who still post but like Taylor said, bad blood, cuts were too deep to patch up. 🤷‍♂️

 

So yeah, nice to sit and chat over lunch, gotta get back to it. Will post again soon. Don't feel obligated. Cause we're happeeee in any case just to see you here.

 

Based life is best life.