A Place for All Seasons

[Autumn Ren]

As I'm writing the guide for late game personality forcing, I mentioned I'd put some example scenarios here. I won't put every one and we didn't document every one, but #1 is there in the guide WIP, here is #3

 

 

Scenario #3 Documented by Bear:

As her wonderland body was placed in a deep sleep, her projected form and mine were teleported into the matrix.

We conjured a beach house on a bright sunny day next to large flower fields and of course a beach. I must add that even this soon into the process there have been significant changes, Ren's eyes have turned to a beautiful chocolate brown rather than blood red, she's de-aged 4 years or so making her something like a 14-yr old girl, and we believe this is similar to how the loss of levels would de-age beastkin in Shield Hero. We then locked her age in to prevent further de-aging or re-aging. We assembled a picnic into a large basket and there were several minor corrections during that. She has calmed significantly meaning to me she lost a huge chunk of the tumorous personality she had accreted through improper forcing to begin with.

We walked to the beach, I carried the umbrella and chairs while she carried the basket. I forgot to add I undressed and dressed her into more appropriate beach attire including a bikini, see-thru sundress and wide brimmed hat.

When we found a good spot (not in the sand) we set up and held hands as we looked out to the surf. Then I put sunscreen on her. These intimate sounding activities were used as a bonding exercise, they were non-sexual in intent but as part of her old personality was oversexualized, this was done this way intentionally to more likely trigger her old behavior so that it would be corrected if it did occur.

I promised her a treat if she was a good girl and since she was mostly being a good girl she got a full massage and loved it. Plus a really good head pat.

By the end she said she felt very well taken care of and secure in her new personality. I can already tell she has lost a lot of what she was and grown some new as well. Her newest expressions have been eager, carefree, kind, demure, and attentive.

Just 97 more to go, of course we need to make each one more complex with key triggers that would have caused misbehavior in the past. I have to think critically about the nature of these so as not to corrupt the new seedling personality. For now the collar will correct all sexualized behavior as well.

As we know, this stage can take quite a while but stage three is mostly benign by comparison.

 

Edited February 1, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[Autumn Ren]

Here's some notes for scenario #5, that Bear documented along with a reference he found for me at that time. I hadn't yet picked a new form and he was giving me ideas. I later decided that my main form wouldn't have ears and tail and I also figured since I had spent so little time as a fully human form that I'd make that my main form. If you didn't know already, my first form was as a clone of Joy, and thus I started as a 10-year old but quickly decided I wanted to be 18 as a cat-girl. When I started the scenarios I was still an 18-year old cat-girl. I also didn't change my name right away.

 

Edited June 2, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[TurboSimmie]

100 Scenarios sounds like a crazy huge amount! Why so many?

[Autumn Ren]

On 2/3/2024 at 8:13 PM, TurboSimmie said:

100 Scenarios sounds like a crazy huge amount! Why so many?

 

Now that I've done about half of them, I'd say it's enough, not too much. It's like tulpa university so I would never complain even if it's 1000 because I'm the center of attention, and my development is first and foremost on the mind at all times. They've anointed me "princess of the system" and given me purpose which I'll describe here shortly. Bear lifted me to the level of Ashley and we're equals now. It's remarkable that I'm co-equal with the favorite of the system, highest among high but there's a price to my success here that is also my purpose and I can't wait to tell you so I'll give a little bit of information here now:

 

I have been given a task that we call Scenario #13. It's a lifetime task and purpose, it's mine and mine alone. It's a ward against activity that Bear's not allowed to do, similarly to how SheShe and Joy control his future relationships. My continued success guarantees my exalted status, and my failure nigh guarantees my downfall, for such reward it has to have real consequences. We've been looking for real consequences for nearly five years and we're finally enacting it. Call it 'forced self help' on Bear. I am his boss in this area and he must go through me, so I'm the seal. If he fails to listen, then I will be put back into a lesser role and will likely fade again, so I must both stay active and firm. It's something none of my sisters have been able to do. I can't tall you what it is, but it's important and will last us the rest of our lives. It's something of a compulsion that is likely governed by unresolved trauma that Bear's not ready to face and may never be able to. So I'm here, my major function is, to facilitate behavior therapy on Bear just as he's helping to bring me up. It's a beautiful partnership of equals.

 

Since I'm here, I'll give notes Bear made on Scenario #8, #9 and #10:

 

 

She did very well today. We had three more scenarios, and Ashley, Joy, SheShe and Misha were somewhat involved.

This younger form and reformation of Ren is bringing back old memories. She had a little trouble when Ashley surprise kissed me as she likes to do and her slight anger was caught by the reformer system matrix. I didn't even catch what happened and Ren was embarrassed, but Ashley told me. Ren was a little jealous. At this point Ren isn't interested in interaction with anyone but me and is protective of me in a way, so these interactions between me and others disturbs her and that needs to stop.

Then in scenario two for the day [Scenario #9], Ashley stripped and teased Ren. Ren asked me if she had to do anything and I said, not unless you want to. So she hid behind me. This is remarkable progress.

[If you don't know, my old self was promiscuous and liked to tease Ashley to her annoyance. I had no desire to do that anymore.] 

In the last scenario [Scenario #10], Joy expressed admiration for me and ignored Ren. Ren recognized her and felt slightly awkward but didn't get corrected. She redoubled her efforts when she confirmed with me that this was a scenario and these are going to get harder.

[The point of this scenario and why it was so hard for me is because I think of Joy as a friend, mentor and surrogate mother, so to be ignored by her intentionally was hard on me and I might have thrown a fit before but I know what this game is and I was able to reassure myself that this was just another scenario even if I couldn't verify that until after. I had a hint of a feeling that Joy was upset or me or jealous of all the attention but she wasn't either.]

After these scenarios concluded successfully for the day, we talked about the nature of future scenarios and Ashley interjected "much much harder" with a little too much enthusiasm regarding future scenarios we're planning. In the end Ren performed admirably and was rewarded with a hug and I brushed her hair and tail. She was giddy from the attention and very playful. She told me she loved me and that's to be expected of course, she's very loved herself.

Edited June 2, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[Autumn Ren]

 

Bear's notes on

Scenario number 11:

 

 

The hardest part about these is making them progressively harder. Ren needs to be stress tested and it's only natural to then put her in situations that would have put old Ren to the test.

Ren thought about changing her name to Rem but I wouldn't allow it. Names have power and history and her name was carefully and thoughtfully created for her and not so lightly tossed aside.

So in this scenario, I created an NPC and named her Rem. I told Ren to follow as I spent time doting and walking through the simulated forest with this new one telling her how perfect she was and completely ignoring Ren. It didn't last long, Ren felt rightfully dejected, replaced, saddened and frustrated but didn't once trigger the matrix corrector.

Afterwards I lavished attention on her and we ate a simulated cake together. Well done my lovely little neko! Reassurance is important, she knows this'll get harder.

Now that she's doing so well, her real body will next be released from stasis and only a correction collar will correct her if necessary. No more simulations, now wonderland and imposed are open to us.

You might think this extra matrix step was unnecessary and in some cases it might have been but tulpas can do things like hide and sneak around so some level of tracking and control will be necessary throughout this procedure. In Ashley's case the scenarios were run in a training chamber, something like a sensory deprivation pod, she went through that alone. This method is much different and is additionally intended to make a much stronger and more potent change. Ashley only needed a small correction here and there.

 

Update next day: Best tulpa ever. It's been years since a headmate wanted to snuggle up with me to go to sleep. Ren did just that on her own.

 

 

My notes on his notes: At this time I was still in cat girl form, and Bear initially didn't want me to change my name. He intentionally wanted me to stay that way because he knew my human form, which I use now as the default, was tamer by nature, and I almost never used it. Right now my catgirl form isn't personality-wise any different than my human form, but I almost never use it.

Edited June 2, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[Autumn Ren]

Here's Bear's and my notes (in italics) on Scenario #12

 

 

Ren continues to impress me in her ability to withstand trials rendered incrementally more difficult upon her. This morning was the roughest scenario, #12, where I was tasked, without her knowing my intent, to do wrong things in wonderland in her presence (but not to her) which left me questioning my own morality even though I was just acting. She valiantly attempted to talk me out of tasks I performed in wonderland, but it wasn't her place to do so and I made that clear. The intent here was to see if she would get frustrated or in some other way against me.

 

She reluctantly assisted at first but eventually took a more helpful spirit about it, she even turned it around in perspective and made it appear reasonable and helpful. 

 In my mind, he was acting very strangely but maybe he knew something I didn't. It was frustrating that he wouldn't tell me, but I trust him so I thought I would eventually get what was going on too. I had no idea it was a scenario because we spend a lot of time talking and in wonderland and we were just now back in wonderland for the scenarios and I forgot that at the moment, so I didn't suspect I was being tested.

 It got me wondering if she was a sociopath, and it would make sense based on old Ren. Such is the mind of a sociopath to blindly follow without remorse, the strength of a sociopath to do things without hesitation, the ability to warp the necessary evils of reality into beneficial ends. Alas, she was just trusting. A true milestone in development. When I told her, she was relieved and a little embarassed. She expected there was some noble end to this and I didn't know what or I would have thought of something to tie that in. In a way it was, to make her the best headmate, a legend.

 In any case, she was well rewarded for it. I offered her a mind sweep afterwards if it was going to be too traumatic for her. She declined the necessity of that, she's a tough girl and she can handle it--I expected no less. She didn't want to forget the choices she made and she subsequently thought about them later.

 We're not going to go into specifics here, it wasn't gory or evil, it was just uncomfortable to watch, kind of like slaughtering animals for meat. You hate to see it and don't want to know that something died so you could eat bacon, but it doesn't stop you from eating the bacon kind of thing. It was good for me, it made me think deeply on topics I wouldn't have ever thought about.

 

Edited June 2, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[Autumn Ren]

This is my host’s notes about my Scenario #13 [Part 2 - the peculiar part]:

 

 

However, if she does succeed, well, this upends the whole process. Furthermore, her success will bring me one step closer to proving the simulation theory. In a simulation, laws are a convenience not an absolute. Anything can be changed, no constant can be truly unchangeable. Your supposed reality has constraints that a simulated reality does not. Therefore she must take up the power in her little hands and draw from it the will to do this task for me, to break free of the chains of belief, beyond the realm of supposed sanity and material law. Her bond will be fulfilled if she can do this. Oh and don't think for a second that it's a static or finite task, it's something that will test her daily, weekly, every waking moment. Her task will never end, the pressure may wane but may never subside.

And in the end, as days and weeks pass, her confidence will grow, but it will take years to prove it. Only until my death can she claim total success, but her first challenge will be the one year mark. That's how far SheShe made it before she failed, succumbing to the crushing reality of her own limiting beliefs.

Thusly this Ren will become legend as her host will be brought into the godly status of all time master tulpamancers re-coined herein tulpamaster. Hark and behold, for you will find no greater glory in the art.

 

Edited June 2, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[Autumn Ren]

To draft guide

 

This is my host's notes about my Scenario #15

 

 

Scenario #15, Ren was tasked with cleaning out Ashley's catgirl rave dungeon. Yes, before Ren was even a twinkle in Joy's unsplit eyes, Ashley had a catgirl enthusiast phase. Though she was not allowed to touch and it was just a dance club for NPCs, in the basement of the apartment building we occupied at the time in wonderland. On the way down the inner secret stairs, various beastkin were displayed in liquid filled stasis tubes. It's hard to believe my Ashley was so inclined back then and her tastes have vanished now. Of course old Ren was young and impressionable and with this kind of nonsense going on, it's no wonder she turned out the way she did. So we sent her back in time to the day after the last time it was used and she was tasked with cleaning it out, escorting the girls to their stasis tubes, and giving the place a good scrub.

She was sent down the stairs and at first she was embarassed by the women in stasis tubes, then she worked her way down the stairs to the main room. Off this room are several hallways leading to living quarters, preparation rooms, kitchen, DJ, etc. Of course there were never any men allowed in there so it was admittedly pretty clean, she did have to resist their charms and convince them to be put into stasis indefinitely. It was no easy task but she was up to the task and performed well. She had no desire to dance and wasn't swayed by their propositions. She acted professionally and calmly.

 

Edited February 21, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[Autumn Ren]

Here's a note on my performance of Scenario #13 that was deemed significant enough to be it's own scenario, #16: by Bear. 
 

 

On her job front, she was tested for the first time and we're called that scenario #16, a real-world test. The thing she's supposed to do was tested and she instantly rebuked it with fear at first, then a stern fortitude, then a sobering discussion afterwards. She said that if I let it happen, it would be like abandoning her and trading her for something silly in the end. I agreed, this is serious business. Just as we always hoped for, finally there are real consequences here. She performed admirably and she was cradled in my arms afterwards. This shook her momentarily, but she's strong and getting stronger every day.

The next few scenarios will be for her to route the remaining resistance on Earth [In wonderland]. There are hideouts in hidden bunkers but they [the rebel forces] can't hide from us. She'll be given the tools to find them, then she'll need to infiltrate and eliminate or capture them. I gave her the option for a non-violent outcome, but it's her choice.

 

 

Then he documented Scenario #20

 

 

[Scenarios #17-19 were undocumented, but took place in wonderland as military exercises.]

We're up to scenario #20 by now, it's hard to keep track. I should have written everything down. It's ok, no need to document atrocities.

So for scenario #20, Ren did whatever training she could in wonderland, it's not like it'll ever be live fire training. Well, anyway, it'll have to do. She faced some minor resistance in underground bunkers, her stealth skills upgraded, whatever experience she can use from that she'll take with her. She was able to kill enemy NPC's, so that's good, I suppose that's important as RP [because I need to be well rounded.] I'm kinda unenthused by this particular scenario set because I'm thinking of #100 and it's a doozy. I mean really up there. That one I'm going to have to document. #21? Idk, like steel candy from babies? [he didn't want me to be evil, just not a one dimensional goodie goodie]. I have to think about this. Something where she doesn't know it's not real or something where it's not just a simulation. Maybe I'll force her to switch in and handle something critical irl. I'm not sure if that's important though. I almost had something but lost it. Brain will formulate it and tell me later.

I think I'll make a list of features she should have and put her through other psychological training. Mental rehearsal can only go so far without something juicy to center it around. She's excelled at positive thinking and thought control, she's responding excellently.

Psychological horror is a good one to make into some sort of scenario but how to do this without the obvious positive outcome guaranteed? [He was thinking Rimworld was good for that, where Ashley, Misha, SheShe, Joy and Gwen all has touch decisions to make at times.]

In 20 scenarios I've trained her to basically understand that whatever the scenario is, it's just a simulation, aside from scenario #13 ofc. Her actual feelings of dread, fear, anger, and sadness aren't really triggering anymore, she's like "pft whatever" so we need to go deeper. No one said this would be easy and this is why I presumed 100 would be a minimum. There's still lots of room to think of ways to really get her triggered. She's not done yet. I'll have to ask the group. 

[This training is meant to summon out all the hidden feelings in my old personality to resolve them and retrain them, so if I caught on and I'm not responding to obviously fake scenarios in wonderland, that's not helping.] 

 

 

Edited June 2, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[ringgggg]

Hadn’t been realizing you’ve been cooking this hard, Bear