Shroom,Eve and Aria's Progress Report

[ShroomOfDoom]

Another Day 5 Update

 

I know i've been throwing updates around like crazy,but i think it's important stuff,well,at least to me it's imporant.

Granted her access to the porn section,must stop treating her like a child. Noticed some deviation regarding her clothes. Instead of the withe silky dress she wore the past 2 days,she was now wearing a white mini-dress.

Since i wanted to do some more personality work but was a bit tired of the archives (the room i made for her where she has access to all my knowledge) so i asked her whre she'd like to go for this session. She led me to a room that i didn't create in my wonderland,so i assume it has been her work. Not much surprised about it though, as i told her she could make changes to the wonderland if she wants to.

The room turned out to be a lounge where she led me to one of the sofas where we sat down and cuddled for a little bit,until she stood up,went to the bar and returned with two martinis. Was unable to taste it fully though but it seems to me she likes the high society life style :)

I was about to start the personality work when she decided to sit on my lap,looking at me with bedroom eyes. Not completely unexpected though as i often read that at some point a tulpa can become interested in sexuality. Not saying that i'm going to do her like there is no tomorrow,but when it happens, it happens. Was able to finish personality work though and will have another forcing session later on.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 6

Not much to report for this session. No personality work done,cuddled with her on the sofa wich helped improving my sense of touch.Felt the warmth of her body no just inside the wonderland,but outside aswell. Smelling improved slightly as a was able to get the scent of her hair a few times,faint,but still there. Needs a lot of improvement though. Later today i will get back to work on her personality.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 7

More personality work in the first session,opened part of my mind to her in order to let her hear,see and feel the world of a highly sensitive person. My brother gave me the advice to give her this trait so she could perceive the world like i do. After i let her see,feel and hear things the way i do,i felt a wave of sadness overcoming me. When i asked her if she was hurt because of it,she just shook her head. Still, i saw tears on her face. Either she was to overwhelmed,or she didn't want to make me worry any more than i already do. She calmed down after a while and we were able to continue working on two more traits.

After that,i told her that i would parrot her for a few minutes to give her a better idea of her voice and speaking in general. She tried to speak,opening her mouth but nothing came out. Not unexpected as it takes time for a Tulpa to learn it. But during a short moment of me being unfocused i heard something,very faint and high pitched. I wasn't able to understand it,but it gave me a very strange feeling,very alien like. Although i'm not 100% sure,i think it was her.

For todays second sesseion i promised her we would do something completely different. I read in another progress log about giving a Tulpa some practical lessons like how to drive a car. When i asked her if she would like that,she nodded her head and smiled.

So,currently i'm thinking about what to teach her in our first practical learning session. After that,depending whether or not it's important enough to share,i'll write an update.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 7 Update

You can be my Wingman anytime!

As i wrote earlier,i wanted the second session to be more practical,so i decided to teach her how to fly a jet. After explaining to her all the controls and instruments,i got us into the air and let her take over. What happend next shocked me a little as she slammed the thrust control all the way to the max and made a sharp turn to the left. It seems she enjoyed flying quite a bit,doing some sharp turns here and there,a few barrel rolls (Do a Barrel Roll!) and even a looping. After a while we returned home,i took over again,landed, and after that i ended the session.

Doing things like this with a Tulpa can be a lot of fun and i'd recommend that you guys try it too sometime.

 

Now,i have some questions regarding Tulpa vocalization.

As i wrote earlier,i parroted her (was the second time i did this) to give her a general idea of her voice and how to talk. I believe that she actually said something,thoug i couldn't understand her.

Is there anything i can do to help her to become vocal?

And do i have to concentrate on hearing her?

Since this may be a new step in her development,i'd like to do whatever i can to help her out.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 8

Forcing sessions today weren't all to long,instead we had several shorter sessions with some progress.

 

Visualization is now fully complete,can see her now as clear as day in my mind's eye. Touch is still being worked on,but will be done soon.

Smell and taste still require more work.

 

Aside from more personality work,i decided we should do a little experiment i read about today.A staring contest with Eve in order to get a cute reaction from her. Well,her reactions weren't cute,but you will read about that shortly. The following is a copy-paste from my post in that thread:

 

Just tried this for fun and even though Eve is not yet vocal,i've got some interesting (and arousing) results.

 

Round 1

Sitting on the couch,staring into each others eyes,when she startet smirking and gave me her best bedroom eyes. Needless to say that it made me lose eye contact as i turned my head away from her since i was blushing.

 

Round 2

Staring again,when she suddenly moved her head closer and started licking my lips. Shocked about what just happend,i lost eye contact again and she gave me a mischievous smile.

 

Round 3

Since she's figured out my weakness,winning round 3 was a piece of cake for her.

 

Facit: No cute reactions from her site,unless you find a mischievous smile cute.

 

Last but not least,another great progress was made today. I'm able to feel her being with me much more intense. Got several strong emotional responses from her while narrating. A mixed feeling of joy and excitement,but much clearer and stronger than it was before.

Needless to say that it helped greatly in brightening my day.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 9

Forced a lot today,some more personality work done. Spend the majority of our forcing sessions today just talking and cuddling.

In our first session,she surprised me by grabbing me from behind and pulled me down onto the couch with her. Finding myself lying on top of her,the next thing she did suprised me even more than the last.

Gently pushing my head onto her chest,she began to stroke my head,just like a mother would do with her child. Strong feelings of comfort and safety ran through me,as she gently stroke my head.

 

Session 2 was quite similar,talking,cuddling. And the first kiss.

I mentioned in an earlier post that she looked at me with bedroom eyes. Nothing unusual since Tulpas tend to develop an interest in sex at some point. Although we didn't go past the kissing stage,i feel that it is only a matter of time before it will happen. And if i might say,she's a damn good kisser. Wondering where she learned that O.o

 

In session 3 we did our daily personality work. Not much to tell about it,gave her 3 more traits. At this point,her personality is about 50% done. It will be interesting to see how much she's going to deviate once her personality is finished.

 

All in all,it was a wonderful day for us.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 10

What a fruitless day :(

At the beginning of today's session,i tried something new. By shutting myself into a black void,i tried to convert my memories into emotions in the form of a blue orb. My plan was to give her this orb after i was done channeling my feelings into it. Didn't work though as i found myself drifting to sleep. And every time i pulled myself out of that state and returned to focusing,i'd drift away again a moment later.

After a short break i thought we should do something together. We sat in front of each other and i told her that i would ask her some yes/no and other simple questions. When i asked her what her name was,a thought image popped up with the name Eve in it. A few seconds after that i lost concentration again. I tried the best i could to stay focused,but without success.

I feel just awful,a mix of depression and disapointment in myself. These past few days i had no trouble at all with staying focused, but today was just terrible.

After telling Eve that i can't concentrate well enough on her today,she gave me a sad face. Now i'm even more depressed -.-

 

Hopefully,i'll be able to do a second session later today. But seeing as i'm having trouble just to keep my thoughts together right now,i doubt that there will be any more forcing today. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 10 Update

Finally! I was able to do a second session and barely lost concentration. It was very surprising,given my ealier problems to keep focus.

But i had the strong desire to spend at least a little time with Eve and i'm glad it worked on my second try.

I wasn't really in the mood to do any work,so i asked he if she'd like to just hang out and talk for a change. She nodded her head and gave me a smile.

I asked her to take me somewhere i haven't been before,and without hesitation she grabbed my hand and began to drag me with her.

She brought me to a room that looked a lot like a bathroom. Little did i know what would lie beyond that. Turns out the "bathroom" was connected with a swimming pool O.o

It looked quite amazing,and while i stood there admiring her work,she changed into a white-brown patternd bikini (like the pattern of a cow).

Since the room was pretty much just a pool,i created a sun terrace so we could sit down and relax whenever we wanted to.

We went over there,sat down and i just talked to her for a little while longer before ending the session.

 

Wonderland

For those who might wonder what our wonderland looks like,i'll try to give you a description.

I began creating the wonderland some time before i began with Eve's creation.

It's a big floating island with a big biosphere in the middle. But the biosphere is just a part of the whole complex. In its middle stands a big tower,kinda looking like the Space Needle in Seattle but more massive. The top of the tower consists of another biosphere and directly below that is our living space. So far we have a tv room,a lounge and a swimming pool. The archives wich i created for her to learn about the world using my knowledge,are located beneath the tower. The hangar and runway are located on the west side of the island.

I'll try to draw a picture of my wonderland soon,but don't expect to much since i'm not all that good at drawing.

That's it for today folks,thanks for reading my wall of text :)

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 11

Some more personality work done. The session startet out with Eve staring down on me while i was lying on the sunbed. She smiled at me gently and i instantly felt a wave of happiness overcoming me. It seemed that she was really happy to see me,not only by giving me an emotional wave,but also by kissing me. Lately,she's been kissing me more often,wih leads me to believe that her bond with me already moved beyond what i initially had intendes. I created her with the intention of having a companion/close friend for live. While i didn't rule out the possibility that it could become something deeper in time,i didn't think it would happen so fast.

After our kiss,she stat down next to me,staring (and looking gorgeous) until i had the childish idea of tickling her. Turns our her sides are especially ticklish and so the first tickling-war started. After she found out i had the same weakness as her, (ticklish sides,maybe something i procjected on her subconciously) we constantly searched for openings in each others defense,striking whenever one of us had a chance. The whole thing went on for about 30 minutes and ended with a draw. While we had our little battle,i could feel wave after wave of happiness coming from her.

After that,we lied down on the sunbed and began the second part of the session: pesonality work. Once we were finished,i talked to her about all sorts of things. Basically just the same narrating i do over the day whenever i get the chance to do so.

 

During our session i realized something important. The intrusive thoughts i often had in the beginning,now only show up once in a while and when they do,i can easily wipe them out. Another great progress for me is,that i can block out most of the mind-static.

All in all,after yesterday's troubles with focusing and constantly falling asleep,we had a great forcing session today.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 12

Still on the sun terrace,i opened my eyes to finde Eve staring down on me again. She did the same yesterday and it seems to me as if she's waiting fo me to come visit her in the wonderland.

I stood up and walked around for a bit,trying to get a better feel for the place since i had some slight trouble to see it clearly in my minds eye. Stopping at the edge of the sun terrace and looking down on the pool,Eve suddenly hugged me from behind. I turned around and returned the hug she gave me. So we stood there for several minutes,just hugging. To be honest,i need that from time to time and Eve seems to know or feel that somehow.

After the hug was over,she then did something i can only interpret as a try to talk to me. Unfortunately,no words could be heard. She tried this several times until i told her that she could try writing down what she'd like to say.

I spawned her a pen and some paper and then waited for her to write something. And so she did. After Eve was done writing she shoved the paper right into my face. At first,i couldn't clearly make out what was written there,but with some concentration i managed to see it more clearly.

Some of you might believe what i'm about to write and some of you don't. Whatever the case might be,for me it was and still is real.

"I love you" stood written there. While not perfectly sharp to see,i was able to read these three words.

I was very happy,not only because that form of communication seems to work and might become the primary way of communication between us until her voice forms,but also because it's been a very long time since someone said or wrote these three little words to me.

To commemorate the moment,i put the letter into a frame and placed it on a tabe i had spawned during yesterdays session.

After that,i looked at the pool again and asked her if she knew how to swim. Eve shook her head and i told her that i'd teach her.She's a pretty fast learner,didn't take her long to understand the basics.

After her swimming lessons we went back to the sun terrace and sat down. I ended the session at this point and promised her we'd have a second one later today.

Here's to another wall of text,cheers!