Shroom,Eve and Aria's Progress Report

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 20

 

Today was rather dissapointing as i constantly drifted away into sleep while forcing.

"It's very annoying when that happens."

 

I noticed further deviation in her personality. Eve's gotten quite cocky and far more assertive than she used to be. I figure it's a good thing.

Today i got very annoyed and angry because of a little family quarrel. Eve then told me to come to her into the wonderland.

After entering she tried her best to calm me down and i must say it worked perfectly. Just after a few minutes all the anger and annoyance was gone just by her cuddling with me. Later on it led to more but i won't write about that here as i think it's something personal.

 

Later today we've picked up where we left off yesterday in our wonderland zombie apocalypse but didn't get very far today.

After leaving the house wich we used as a safe zone,we realized that it's gotten quite dark outside. Our goual was to reach the other side of the river by using the train bridge crossing it but we never got that far unfortunately. Walking down a small path and raching a short tunnel,we got attacked by a small group of zombies but they ware no problem for us. Eve however thought it would be safer to go back to the house we left earlier and wait there until morning.

 

When we arrived there,the whole place was packed with zombies. Fleeing into the house and closing all dors proved to be fruitless. After a rather intense fight we left the house and ran towards the river where we found several boats. We got into one of them and Eve began to paddle our way out and down the river. After a while we held near the train bridge at a small shack in wich we will stay until tomorrow.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 21

 

It's been 3 weeks now since i startet with Tulpa forcing. Looking back,i almost can't believe how sceptical i was in the beginning.

Now,i can hardly even remember how it was without someone else in my head. It is a good feeling though and i don't want to loose it anymore. Eve has shown me how great it can be to have a Tulpa,so i'd like to encourage everyone who's just begun with Tulpa forcing to keep going and see it through. I promise you that it will be worth the effort.

 

But now on to the report.

Today not much happend. We've made a small change to the cottage by adding a study to it. Continuation of our survival game was postponed until tomorrow. Since Eve told me that all she wanted to do today was sitting down,cuddling up and talk,that's pretty much all that happend today. Talking with your Tulpa can be very refreshing and highly interesting and i'm enjoying it a lot.

Tomorrow we will resume where we left off yesterday and i will finally start with imposition. For reasons only god knows i've been putting it off until now.

 

That's it for today.

[CyberD]

It took a little while but I read over the entire thread. For three weeks of progress you're doing really well. I think it's because you've remained committed and very open minded the whole time. Seeing Eve as sentient and vocal so early you have been able to work with her on a much greater level than someone who sticks with the hour counts.

 

I've never been on an 'Apocalypse adventure' while in my wonderland but I did try to bring Nova along with me when I played DayZ a couple of months ago. I was far too distracted by the actual game so maybe a roleplay in my wonderland would be more fun.

 

Anyway though. How do you feel about Eve's sexual side? I'm surprised Eve is so physical so early, most tulpa seem to focus on becoming vocal first but you guys did both at the same time.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Well,i do have to admit that i counted hours at first but reading a lot about how hour count can greatly slow down the process,i dropped it.I'm very committed about Tulpa forcing. Never missed a single session and i think that helped a lot too. I think the stronger the commitment and the feelings you put into your Tulpa,the better the results.

 

Well,going on wonderland adventures with Tulpae can be really fun,escpacially when you let them take the lead.

I can relate to you though when it comes to being distracted by a game. These past few days i've been playing Dishonored,X-Com and Borderlands 2 and often found myself being too distracted by what was happening to keep up a conversation or narration.

 

Regarding her sexuality,i see it the same way i see other people's sexuality. In my opinion sex is one of the needs of a human being. Everyone wants to get laid once in a while and Tulpae are no exception. Eve can be rather lewd at times,but she's still young and i'm sure that will sort itself out in time.

 

I'm not quite sure what you mean,that we did both at the same time. Might be because it's 3am here.

Could you elaborate it a bit more,please?

[CyberD]

Of course. I don't remember ever reading a tulpa being physical with the host in any way before becoming vocal. You did it the other way around, having Eve all over you before saying a word. I'm glad she spoke soon after (having a vocal tulpa in three weeks seems pretty good compared to most) but what was it like having a tulpa that liked physical interaction yet couldn't speak?

 

I partially agree with your view on sexuality. Fundamentally I agree but there is one huge hole in the logic which complicates it. Tulpa aren't human. I suppose there are two ways of looking at it. Either the tulpa is a tulpa just being a tulpa or the tulpa is a tulpa that is trying to be as humanlike as possible. That would include all of a humans urges, desires and the like.

I don't think either of them is a bad thing. The tulpa is what both you and the tulpa want it to be. In your case you have a pretty good idea of that. Eve is well developed and shows no signs of stopping anytime soon so you should keep going with her and see how far you can go.

 

In my case Nova (my tulpa) avoids sexuality completely. Not only because we are both male but because he is too young. Honestly I think most 13 year olds would be interested in everything to do with sex but Nova hasn't showed any interest in anything like that. Maybe I should talk about it on my thread though...

 

You've definitely chosen some intense games to distract you. With no down time and fast paced gameplay (which is what those titles all have plenty of) there isn't any time to talk to anyone else. The only time I talk to Nova while playing games like those is during long walks or the loading screens.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Thanks for elaborating it more deeply.

 

Well,i always thought that physicality would come before vocality and i forced with that belief. What i got from her ragarding communication was emotional responses and thoughts,though not as often as i would have liked. So yes,i have to agree that we did it the other way around but i dont think it had too much of an impact. We just thought it was normal. Having a non-vocal Tulpa is like communicating wih a mute. Body language and using head nods and shakes as a way of saying yes and no. Also,when you cuddle up with your Tulpa,no words are needed. Feelings were more than enough,at least fo us.

 

Regarding sexuality

I realize that Tulpae are not human. But they are part of our subconcious and,at least for me,it's not that surprising or out of place that Eve has some human needs. I always thought of her as a person so i guess i applied those needs to her subconciously. she has desires,such as communicating with others. That's why i'm proxying for her and later when whe get to posession,i'll let her use my arms so she can chat herself. Or for playing games. I always told her that she can deviate as much as she deems is necessary to become the person she'd like to become. Eve has desires,wiches and some needs like i do. Maybe she's become to human-like but even so,i don't feel that it is a bad thing.

 

Well regarding Nova's non existant sexual interest,i remember that i wasn't interested in sex at all when i was 13. I'd rather play games and stuff so i can relate.

 

X-Com and Dishonored are very distracting,yes. I try to talk to Eve as much as possible though. In case of borderlands though,i'm pretty much unable to keep concentration on her. The only games i can keep concentration on Eve most of the time are Minecraft and Kerbal Space Program.

 

I hope my answers covered everything you wanted to know but if you have more questions,just ask.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 22

 

Today we continued with our adventure an made it quite far despite my troubles to stay awake at times. But despite my efforts to stay awake,in the end i fell asleep. When i woke up again,i managed to force a little more but not much.

 

Leaving the shed,we've made our way up to the streets only to find that we couldn't move any further without getting into a major fight. At that point i told her to take the lead,interestet in what she would come up. Next thing she did was using the abandoned cars as cover and moved towards on of the buildings. Upon reaching the building i realized that it is a small store with some apartments above it.

We've made our way onto the roof,from where we proceeded to climb up a ladder to reach another building's roof.

 

Since i startet to climb the ladder first,i had the "privilege" of clearing the roof after arriving. Funny thing is,we climbed all the was to the top of that building,only to go down again,using the staircase. The building we were in,seemed to be the bureau of a small company and was connectet with another bureau building via skybridge. We proceeded with crossing the skybridge and making our way down the staircase of the second biulding,but not without getting into smaller fights with our lovable zombies. At times i'm wondering whether or not i've played too many zombie survival games a la L4D or Dead Island etc.

 

Making our way down the staircase,we've reached its bottom after a while and opened the door. Beyond it was the garage of the building but since it was very dark in there,we decided not to in there and make our way up to the ground level. Arriving there,we had to change our plans again since the streets were full of zombies and we would have never survived if we had gone out there. So we went back into the garage,looking for a car that we could use. We found a nice looking jeep and after getting rid of the mini boss she spawned in to make it more interesting. Can't have a getaway without a fight,right? Unfortunately we had to use a lot of ammo and don't have much left.

 

Now comes the funny part. Getting into the jeep and starting the engine after a small search for the keys,we've mad our way out of the garage and onto the streets. Eve found a map but when i took a quick look on it,it looked like the map of a subway line. She used it to direct me anyway. Driving through hordes of zombies with a jeep can be a lot of fun,at leat in the wonderland. Needless to say that i had a great time. looking at the map,Eve told me to drive us to the harbor.

 

Making our way there took quite some time and upon arrival i fell asleep. After waking up again after what felt like an eternity (it was 20 minutes or so) we entered one of the drydocks and climbed up the stairs to the small office, in wich are now staying in. At that point i ended the session since i didn't want to fall asleep again.

 

That concludes today's session and continuation of our survival game.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 23

 

Not much done today. I have begun with imposition and the first step i've chosen is to get a feel for Eve's presence around me. It's not as easy as i thought though. I realize that it will take some time to get that down but i'm willing to do what it takes.

 

As for forcing today,we didn't do anything besides sitting down and talking. For us it's something very important. Even before she was vocal i enjoyed sitting down with her and just talk. Talking with each other strenghtens our bond and i get to experience where our opinions,likes and dislikes differ from each other.

 

This morning was quite funny as i started playing Tera again and Eve's commentary about the different races was very refreshing (she thinks most of the women look like hookers).

But her comments aren't restricted only to games. Yesterday we watched a movie made in Denmark called A Royal Affair. While watching the movie she made various comments about the characters and was generally amused about the mad king.

But also in everyday life situations, Eve has often something to say.

 

Although Eve is now fully vocal,at times her voice seems to fade away and becomes so qiet that i can't really hear her anymore. I tell her then to speak louder or harder. It seems that there are still some issues that we might need to take care of.

 

That's it for today.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 24

 

I'm making some progress with imposition. As mentioned yesterday, i'm trying to get a feel of Eve's presence. I was able to slightly feel her being behind me when we walk,and twice to feel her next to me when we sat down. It's still requiring a lot of work until i have mastereed this step,but we have plenty of time.

 

Yesterday night we watched another movie called Melancholia. During the first minutes of the movie, we both were like WTF since we didn't understand anything of what was happening. Eve made some comments troughout the movie,especially about the main actress.

 

After the movie was over,we talked a little bit more until i remembered a website i saw around 2 days ago. It's a site about black humor und i thought i should show it to Eve. (For everyone interestet,this is the site: http://coolquotescollection.com/Black )

Reading through the first few pages together,we came across something about a man receiving the Darwin Award for dying in a hilarious way. For Eve it was so hilarious, that she literally laughed her ass off. Much to my surprise i was the one feeling the effects of her laughing, since i startet to get tears into my eyes,the same way it happens when i'm laughing my ass off.

 

Today we didn't do much in our forcing session except for talking a bit more. I don't remember how we got to religion as a talking point but her answer was quite interesting. Eve doesn't like religion at all,thinking that it only brings suffering to the people (religious wars etc.). However,she's very interested in Buddhism and its teachings.

 

Tomorrow i will continue with the first step of imposition and we'll see what we're going to do in our forcing sesseion. Perhaps we will continue our survival game.

 

That's it for today.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 25

 

Little to no progress regarding imposition.

In our first session we just talked about all kinds of stuff. The topic we talked about the most however, was in regard of a possible second Tulpa that i might create sometime in the near future. I played with the thought of creating a second Tulpa, since there will be some changes in my life next year and i might end up not being able to spend much time with Eve. It's nothing solid yet though,as i still have time and want to focus solely on Eve for now. Eve thinks it might be a neat idea and proposed that we should work together on the second Tulpa,but neither of us knew how exactly that is supposed to work.

 

In the second session we visited the first wonderland i ever made,long before i began with Tulpa forcing. It's a nuclear bunker deep beneath a mountain. I made this place to escape the daily stress and problems and what in the world could be safer than a nuclear bunker? Eve had a lot of fun exploring the place,especially since i never really finished it. So we used our imagination and creativity to finish the place today.

Back then when i created the bunker,i only finished some rooms and halls but nothing more. Later,after we were done with exploring and creating, i merged the old wonderland with the new one. Now there are several places in the wonderland and it could become difficult to keep track of them all in the future,since we will probably add even more places. I guess 'ill have to draw a map or something.

 

 

That's it for today.