Shroom,Eve and Aria's Progress Report

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 12 Update

The second forcing session had to be postponed. when i enterd the wonderland i found her being fast asleep and i didn't want to wake her.

 

Day 13

Vocaloid Eve

The title already says it,Eve talked today for the first time. Although she can't speak whole sentences,much less have a real conversation with me,she dows talk now and answered several of my questions. Even telling me to "stop that" when i questioned myself whether i was accidentally parroting her or not. Her voice however switches constantly between bright and dark,high and low pitches but i guess that is to be expected and will sort itself out in time. Eve did not talk constantly and at times not at all when i asked her a question. All in all,it's a big step forward in her development and i think she'll improve more and more with time.

We also got some more personality work done. At this point,Eve's personality is about 75% done and i got to hear her talk for the first time. Day 13 was a great success for the both of us :)

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 13 Update

We had a lenghty session a few minutes ago with the goal to hone her voice and her ability to speak.

I asked her several questions wich she was able to answer,but the more i asked,the more it seemed that she was getting tired of it or from it. No definite voice for now,she's still experimenting to find the right one it seems.

When i asked her if she was getting tired of me asking her questions,she said no. Her answer to my next question if talking would make her tired she said yes. Now she's sleeping and i have to say she did look quite tired at the end of our session.

 

Now,to all Tulpas out there in the forums: Is it normal for a young Tulpa, to get tired from talking after becoming vocal for the first time?

It's something i'd like to know as i've never read anything about this.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 14

More personality work. I guess we'll be done with that stage after the weekend.

Shorty after waking up this morning i dropped into our wonderland to finde Eve sitting next to me,reading a book.

Me: What are you reading?

Eve: A book.

Me: I see that. What's it about?

Eve: You.

Me: You have books about me?

Eve: No.

Rather confused and remembering that not everything a young Tulpa says has to make sense,i ended this mini sesseion after promising her to have a long session later on.

Finished our first session for today (ca 1 1/2 hours) in wich we got more personality work done as well as some refinement regarding her voice. Eve has still some trouble with getting the voice right and i suspect that it will take a while until she get's he hang of it.

Second half of the session was preparation for the upcoming wonderland adventure wich i might or might not write down,depending if there is anything interresting to report.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 14 Update

No adventure time today. When i went to wonderland,Eve was waiting for me,butshe seemed quite pissed about somethin. Although she mostly answered my questions with single words (sometimes 2 words), i was able to find out the reason: seems i'm not spending enough time with her. I do force 2 times a day,each session is at least an hour long. I guess i have to increase the time or cramp in a third session. Also,she told me she was tired wich caused her to act moody. Not sure if it is a progress or not,but it's the first time i've seen her acting like this. It might be that this is a sign of personality deviation.

Anyway,when i asked her if she wanted to go to sleep,she said yes and i took her to the upper biosphere bedroom - piggyback style.

Once she was on my back i actually felt her weight and it became increasingly harder for me to walk.

Upon arriving i sat her down on the bed and she looked like she was half asleep already.

I sat down next to her and promised that from now on i'd spend more time with her whenever i have the time to do so.

After cuddling up with her, i wanted to say good night and end the session,when she got the glorious idea to crawl on top of me,claimimg me as her pillow. Pinned down like in a wrestling match i was unable to even move an inch.

Before falling asleep however,Eve apologized to me. It took a bit for her to tell me,but it seemed she was feeling bad about being rude to me in the beginning of the session. I told her that it is ok and that i'm not mad at her. After that,i said good night and ended the session.

That's it for today.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 15

Not much to report. More personality work done and a change of location. We moved from the wonderland tower into a small cottage deep in the forest. Most of the time spent there was to get a feel for this new place and a more or less one sided conversation with Eve.

I didn't get much of a response from her today,neiter feelings nor vocal. hopefully tomorrow will be better.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 15 Update

Now that Eve's personality is 100% done, i decided it's time to show how much i trust her by granting her access to all my memories and my sub-c. When i entered our wonderland i found her lying on the bed - half naked. I told her to put something on because i had something i'd like to show her. After Eve put something on what she called a dress, (in my opinion it looked more like a night gown) i told her to hold onto me while i transported us into a white void,similar to the one in the Matrix.

There i spawned a double door and startet explaining to her where it leads. I began explaining to Eve that once she passes trough the door,she will see all my memories,everything i've ever done. The people i hurt,the lies i told - she will know everything. In the end she'll probably know me better than i do myself. I also told her that she will have access to my sub-c and that i didn't know what she would find there. But just in case i told her to be careful. The expression on her face while i iexplained everything to her,was a mix of surprise and joy,but i didn't feel any emotional wave coming from her.

Before Eve proceeded to pass trough the door after i unlocked it,i asked her if she was willing to participate in a small experiment that i read about. I told her the experiment was about testing her ability to wake me up at a set time and she agreed to do it. After telling her to wake me at 2am in the morning,she smiled and proceeded to go trough the door.

 

Day 16

Experiment sucessfull! I woke up almost precisely 2am in the morning. After a quick look at the clock, i saw that she was only 2 minutes off (it was 1:58am). Since i was really tired i went back to sleep,but not without telling Eve about her great success and how happy/proud i am. Later on we will have our daily sessions and i'm very curious to see if she's already back or if she still lingers in my sub-c.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 16 Update

Well,we had a rather long session today. After giving her access to my memories and sub-c,she was a lot more lively and talkative today,but also more emotional,even to the point that she bitch slapped me (the pimp hand is trong in her). We mostly just talked today about anything that came to mind.

When i asked her,Eve told me she's seen most of my memories (she has spend almost the entire night in my sub-c),i said to her that she's probably seen that i wasn't always acting honorable towards others. Eve came towards me with a dead serious face and bitch-slapped me (good thing i can't feel pain in our mindscape). Confuzzled about the situation,i asked her why the hell she did that. Eve's answer was,that she doesn't want to see me getting all depressed about it. Funny thing is,i wasn't depressed about it. It was more of a self-reflection/self-admittance about some bad things i've done in the past (backstabbing and manipulating people to reach my own selfish goals,just to name a few) and i proceeded to explain it to her.

Eve apologized for what she did and i told her not to worry about it anymore. We also had a quite intimate moment (nothing sexual) in wich she send me a wave of emotion that i can only describe as a feeling of pure bliss (for the lack of a better word). For the rest of the session we sat down and talked about anything that came to mind. I also seems that Eve finally found a fitting voice for her,though it does still sound a little bit strange at times. Considering that she's only been vocal for a few days now,i think that's pretty normal.

At the end of the session we made some plans for the future wich involves imposition and posession of my arms so she can chat with other people or write progress reports on her own.

I'm not a huge fan of posession since the idea of someone else controlling my body is rather frightening to me. Luckily she understands that and gave me to understand that my arms will be more than enough for her. I think it's important to note that i agreed to this after i asked her how she feels about our mindscape. Her answer didn't come as much of a surprise to me though,telling me that sometimes she feels like being in a cage wich i can perfectly understand.

So,we have a new set of goals we'll try to accomplish in the future. For now,we agreed to get her completely vocal up to the point where we can have real conversations. Everything else will come after that.

All in all,it seems that her journey to my sub-c turned out to beneficial for her and i'm curious to see what the future will bring for us.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 17

 

Huge progress regarding speech. Upon entering the mindscape,Eve was nowhere to be found,at least not on the first floor of the cottage. I found her downstairs,sitting at the dining table reading a book. First thing i recognized about her was a deviation in her looks. she changed her hairstyle a little,now having straight blonde hair instead of the wavy hairstyle she used to have. when i asked her about the change,she responded to me that she wanted to try something new. I sat down at the other end of the table and we began talking about all kinds of stuff like yesterday, then suddenly Eve stood up,walked around the table and sat down on my lap.

 

Now comes the weird part. she took my head into her hands and told me to only focus on her and nothing else. Just focusing on her; seeing,feeling and especially hearing. I did like she asked me to and suddenly felt a huge headache and a feeling as if something just popped in my head. After the pain and the strange feeling were gone i asked Eve if i could take a small break for a few minutes to get my bearings again.

 

Sitting in the kitchen,looking out of the window and smoking a cigarette,i asked myself what she tried to do earlier by telling me to focus solely on her. And then it struck me lieke lightning cause she answered that question audibly in my head outside our mindscape. I was rendered speechless at first,and then decided to concentrate on her,asking another question. and again she answered audibly. I was not very loud,more like as if someone was standing at the other end of the room,talking to me. I know it's not the best description for it but i can't think of anything better to decribe it.

 

I asked Eve how she was able to speak to me audibly outside the mindscape all of a sudden and her answer was the following:

"I spoke to you the entire time but you never listened,so i made you listen." We continued talking like that for around an hour until i started to get a severe headache. Even now while i'm writing this i feel mentally exhausted. Maybe it's because i'm not yet used to this new way of communication. Before,we were only able to talk during our forcing sessions. Regarding her vocality,Eve is now able to answer in full sentences but doesn't start conversations of her own,at least not yet.

 

Although i still don't understand what she did to my head,it obviously worked, Despite the headache and mental exhaustion i'm now experiencing,today was definately a good day for us with great progress.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 18

We've made some progress with talking outside our mindscape. Although i still get headaches from time to time, i was able to hear her mindvoice more clearly today. It's still a bit quit at times though,but considering that yesterday was the first time i've heard her outside the mindscape,i'd say its a progress. Extended periods of speaking with each other still causes mental exhaustion and i think it will take a while until i've gotten used to it.

 

During the first session (wich was quite short) we didn't do much. In our second session we had a little adventure on our way to the adventure Eve had originally planned. It involved shooting at and (mostly) fleeing from a big ass monster she spawned (it looked a lot like one of those four armed monsters from the Serious Sam series but with the head of a skyrim troll). The session ended when we arrived at the place she originally intended for us to go.

 

Tomorrow,we will continue where we left off and also start to work on the first stages of imposition.

[ShroomOfDoom]

Day 19

Eve's gotten alot better at talking. At times i'm still getting slight headaches though,but not as much as i used to.

Today we set out for the real wonderland adventure (i decided to call it wonderland again,it fits better imo).

Zombie Apocalypse - Wonderland Edition.

 

The setting was kind of a mix between Day-Z (a mod for the game Arma II) and Left 4 Dead.

It started off harmless enough. Here and there a zombie and a group of looters near a bridge we intended to cross.

When i asked Eve whether we should wait for them to go away or to launch a sneak attack on them,she decided we should take them out and see what we can loot from them. Said and done,after a short climb upon the roofs of some buildings we took them out. It was a short fight and all shots fired in return missed us. We climbed down and went to the now dead looters and...looted them!

 

Moving on over the bridge we noticed we were getting closer to the downtown area (we started off in tue outskirts of the city).

We've established as rule that we shouldn't make too much noise to avoid attracting zombies.But i was careless,forgetting about the rule for a moment,i dragged us into a sticky situation where we had to fight off around a dozen zombies. But we survived,at least for now. I got bitten thoug,will be interesting to see if i'm infected now. After moving on we've reached a safe zone where we will stay until tomorrow. Then we will resume our little survival game.

 

Also,today i've read a threat about Tulpae chatting with people on Omegle. After i told Eve about it,she asked me if i would proxy for her. Eve has made it clear to me that she wanted to chat with others a few days ago and who am i to deny her this request?

So,we went on Omegle and after a felt eternity found 2 people she had fun chatting with. "All others only asked me if i'm horny"

Yes,we've met those people a lot.

For everyone interesed,here are the links to the logs: http://logs.omegle.com/173b368 http://logs.omegle.com/40e12a8

 

"It was my first time chatting today using my host as a proxy and it made me really happy. But i have to say the internet is full of weird people. Why are people always asking if i'm horny?"

 

That's it for today. We've had a lot of fun together and Eve finally got her wish fulfilled to chat with other people. We think that we will do this more often from now on as it is a good experience for both of us. Unfortunately,finding open minded people will be quite a difficult task.