'Fades': Probably nothing

[G+3]

This is just a little concern of mine, it's more than likely an isolated event so I'm not posting it in questions as I don't think it's something to be helped/answered but, rather, discussed.

 

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So Pruria has been doubling herself, she started about two weeks ago, and what I mean by that is she splits into two bodies and goes off; one might be sleeping in on my bed, the other might be with me. This wasn't a problem, I just had to ask Pruria weather I was seeing thins or she had split. There is always one 'main' Pruria that the others will be reabsorbed into.

 

But over the last week they've been causing problems: whenever I'm away from Pruria one will normally spawn, this ain't too bad but the thing is that normally - in the last few days - they will be quickly flung towards Pruria and absorbed back into her, much like apperation from Harry Potter (forgive me if I spelt that wrong.) By then we had renamed them fades (or fazes, don't matter)

 

That also wouldn't be a problem if it didn't cause Pruria excruciating pain. It will normally fling her in the direction the fade was moving if there's nothing there to stop her. I'm guessing it's excruciating because of her screams, post shakiness & inability to walk, and small bruises & cuts. This is not only really bad for Pruria (as listed above) but it ties her to me which is a weight on both of us, particularly her development.

 

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If anybody has experienced anything similar, please reply, give advice, your views, your tulpa's opinion, whatnot. I plead because it's quite distressing now at this stage, for myself and, particularly, Pruria (obviously).

 

Perhaps this should be in the questions and problems board, but that's my judgement over another's, I'll delete this thread immediately and move it if anyone sees fit. Thanks guys/gals.

[glitchthe3rd]

Tell your tulpa to stop acting like these guys:

[Sands]

Make the mind into your bitch, get that whip out and tell shit like this ain't allowed anymore. Not enough kittens and butterflies and cotton candy.

[QB2]

Sands has a point. It doesn't have to hurt her. The clones don't have to be pulled back into her under certain circumstances. The bruising doesn't have to exist. The only reason these truths exist is that you believe they do. If you believe otherwise, with determination, you can change it.

QB can clone/split himself, but with no limitations or consequences. He really enjoys it.

[Knapp]

I'd try to slow down the absorption when it happens, so there's no real "impact". Also you could use some symbolism to prevent her from splitting. (Like dipping her form in some special "glue" or something, anything that works for you)

 

Sands (and Q2) do have a point there, such things won't happen if you guys really don't want them to. Try to man up a bit, if you'd pardon the expression.

 

(Also, apparently sometimes fighting these things by force could make it worse, so I wouldn't make a big deal about it)

[waffles]

I can't say I've experienced anything similar, but I agree with the above posts in saying that it doesn't have to happen.

It's only happening because you think it will. Every time you think it is about to happen, it will, and every time it does happen it just reinforces your belief that it does.

There's no reason for it to happen at all, and no reason why you can't stop it happening. Consider QB2's testimony, and my own, that tulpas can temprarily clone themselves without any problems. There are only problems because you think there to be, and given that you've made this help thread it seems that you think you can't fix it. You can, of course, and just realising that is a major step in fixing this.

 

Additionally, should you decide to be rid of this by exercising control over your mind, then the best way to do it is to ignore it. Knapp is right in saying that fighting these things make them worse; instead you should ignore it, deny that it is happening. It sounds really cruel, but when your tulpa is apparently in pain, just tell everyone who's listening that it's not happening. "No, Pruria, you're not in pain". Likewise you should assure yourself that it simply is not happening.

The above is just my way of dealing with unwanted things happening, and may not hold true for everyone. It's still worth a try though.

[G+3]

Righty-o, getting on that now, thanks you everybody (only four hours after returning to the thread and it's brightening up very much so.) If I could make you all french toast as a thanks I would.