MagicHats' tulpa digest

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3/28/30

 

Thess sounds a little more stable with her voice(it's been fluctuating but now sounds like katara from the first in that avatar series, young katara with some twilight sparkle.).

 

Kuroka's voice also got stable but Cora's and Theo's voices have been very consistent with no problems.

 

Found out that thess can do full possession but refuses to unless it's playing cards(and she's a card shark, she's good at card games).

 

Now that Cora's using one of my many cat characters I have, they all want cat characters. I guess they really like cats but they say it's like a persona thing(or should I say a fursona thing.) I think they just want the cats just for the novelty of it. Nothing else to report.

[MagicHats]

3/29/13 - 3/31/13

 

Me and thess have been working on possession and she can't completely posses me, just my upper half, it's because our legs are different(her Unguligrade/digitgrade hooves and leg shape versus the human plantigrade.) due to the biological differences it will take a while for her to master actually walking on plantigrade legs verses the ungulate digitgrade legs she has(she's best comparable to a satyr with deer/goat hooves though woodkin((her imaginary species she's labled herself as along with my other tulpa excluding cora)) aren't satyrs.).

 

One of these days I'm going to put up well drawn referances to them, once kuroka's gotten a bit more stable in his looks as well as me drawing horns better along with their anatomy. I can wip up something now for cora because she's a sparkly cat but for the others I can't do that immediately due to lack of drawing experience.

 

Theo's surprisingly artistic for somebody who likes to think of themselves as about 7 years old. She sometimes seems just as wise as thess. Something she said was very interesting and it makes me think that she'd love gardening.

 

When we were at some person's house doing yard work(my dad was doing work for a friend) there was a pause and a slight bit of fear and anger from her when he started cutting down the tree. As she said then "a magnificent life was lost today". She was a little upset and she had good counter arguments for my explanation of why trees need to be cut down. She then brought back a memory of a song way back when I did in school choir last year, when I had to be in a medley of the secret garden(specifically wick). She really cares about plants while thess cares for art and literature(along with culture) and cora being her/our tulpa she's a bit of the sense/advisor when thess can't give a reasonable output on something. I don't know about kuroka at the moment, he's nice and shy but he hasn't really shown interest in anything that I've been doing.

 

I think i've still made progress just because i've meddled in mind stuff for a while(lucid dreaming and phantom limbs like I mentioned earlier) and because of the experience it seemed easier. I need to get on narrating more but on the flip side they've been giving commentary to my day to day things to try and spark it, which is nice.

 

And suddenly now kuroka has three legs. Why three legs I dunno but he seems to be wanting something drastic. The thing itself is like there are two more frontal legs and one hind leg but it's confusing on a bipedal creature stance which should already just be standing on two hind legs.

[MagicHats]

4/1/13 - 4/2/13

 

Settled on a form with kuroka, or at least a base idea of what it should look like if Xe would stop messing with the hair. He's still of the indeterminate gender because he's a bit of a hermaphrodite. Essentially Kuroka is both a boy and a girl, he's got the parts of both but looks androgynous. He's generally the usual woodkin design, and now his three legs seem to be really functioning(though he keeps shifting between three and two legs. He won't explain and I'll mention why later). I still call kuroka a boy but he says it's fine to call him a girl. and with the leg it seems like he's a triped(it seemed like three legs pointing in the same direction but now it's like a literal triped stand)

 

Not much happened today because they were all asleep. This is because I did not get any literal sleep at all (I wound up staying up a whole day straight and maybe over two if I'm not careful) and they got tired of being "awake" and passed outside their wonderland house. I tucked them into their beds and I did not get much out of them besides a few comments from thess when she woke up and something from cora.

 

On the other hand I may post up some pictures of my tulpae here soon since I finally mastered drawing them.

[MagicHats]

4/3/13

 

Decided to walk around the wonderland with them and talk. The time of day and how it works there is different, or at least I assume it is. They say it's very sunny there and since I went there today I realized I always thought about it as day time there. I guess I've never been there at night. So we were walking around at night there talking about stuff and it was amazing.

 

There's a lot more flora then fauna there but it's not like it's not existant(and the wildlife itself is all servitors, nothing with any sense of sentience but people can argue that servitors can have intelligence. Needless to say all the servitor fauna have no sense of sapience/sentience). The only wildlife that's really different is that there's nerds and furbies running around(nerds like the ones from on that wonka candy). I'm very happy that the furbies don't actually talk at all and seem much more like wild animals then muppets from hell.

 

Their pet house plant Clarice hasn't been doing to well so we got a mcdonald's cup and turned it into a little habitarium. I hope it perks up but I know theo'll get really depressed about it if it dies. Kuroka's gotten a bit less depressed and Xe's been paying attention to my classes whilst I go to school like my other tulpae, he seems more interested in the business area.

 

As for how possession with thess's going, She can posses my whole upper body but she can't walk or do much besides give my leg a twitch. When I asked her why she said it's a bit harder. She said it took a lot of practice by herself in the wonderland and observations to get how the upper body portion worked and it was simple enough because we're both very simmilar from the waist up. It ends there because she's like a satyr and has deer/goat legs from the waist down and I'm a perfectly normal human with normal /human/ legs. It's because she walks in a digitigrade(more specifically a mix of digitigrade and unguligrade) legs and has hooves for feet while humans are plantigrade and walk on feet(toes and heels touching the ground). She compairs it to people who are just learning to walk/had parts of brain removed and are re-learning how to walk. She's not used to it and would need much more practice before she can really do much besides play cards, write and draw.

[MagicHats]

4/4/13 - 4/5/13

 

Nothing much more besides thess getting the basics of walking.She says it feels clunky and strange but she can handle it. I've been giving them "sensation treats" by sharing my senses with them while doing things and I think they enjoy it and it helps them progress as tulpae very well. I think they've got an acquired taste for arty stuff besides kuroka, who seems to be all about business.

 

I got the hang of drawing them(both traditionally and digitally) and Now I can at least put up something that might count as a visual. It's just theo and nasi(she likes her "full" name xylanasi but she likes cora as a nickname). I'll attach that really quick after posting this.

 

I can't say my tulpa like the rest of the family in their choices of movies(they like my family a lot as well as my friends and they want me to be more extroverted) but with movies they just but heads in opinions(everybody besides me and the tuppers likes thrillers/horrors. They're not my cup of tea to put it shortly.).

 

I've been narrating with them and they say they want to spend some more time with having adventures in the wonderland(they're house seems to have changed back into an apartment but the few characters/servitors there are just happen to be at a hotel that's not to far away to access).

 

Cora's been a bit down because she feels that her life is but a single and thoughtless dream that is only a blip in the big picture. it's more than just being a person(cat) inside somebody's head but also not being recognized by anybody outside of my head. I think I should get her talking to people sometime or doing something that she would get recognition for.

 

P.s. Theo's the one on the left in that picture, Cora's the one on the right. Not all of my tulpa's have bright blue eyes but they coincidentally do.

[MagicHats]

4/5/13 - 4/10/13

 

been very busy and very stressed out(I won't go into all the details because this is a tulpa progress report, not a blog). Thess's pretty witty and she really talked on her own one morning commenting on how bad I let things get(again, won't elaborate because this isn't a personal blog). There's been a servitor that's popped up and keeps trying to be a tulpa but I won't let him. at first I thought it was kuroka being annoying(which is strange given him) and it turns out it was a servitor that cora made that was trying to be a tulpa(his name's axael apparently). Since I don't want more than 4 tulpa I kept telling him no but he's stubborn.

 

I'm going to sum up my tulpa's now for my own record(essentially a name, a description of species and individual looks, personality traits that are narrowed down and their voice.

 

Thess

Species - Woodkin(a species me and her created eventually since she could not come up with anything that stuck for a long time) with a purple long coat, red shirt and green jeans. About 17-ish and she's a girl. Has Dark red hair with interesting eyes(one dark purple the other dark green)

Personality - Adventurous / Focused / Responsible / Confident / Imaginative / Leader

Voice - a mix between my own and RD/twilight sparkle(from my little pony, I'm okay with the show but I'm not an avid fan, I've seen enough of it for her to pick voices though which is convenient,)

 

She has outside interests in art(specifically games and literature but she likes art) as well as the study of economics

 

Theo

Species - woodkin(she was originally a clone of thess that popped up so she also adopted the woodkin thing until she changed it a little), Wears a pink sundress with a light green neck scarf. About 7-ish and also a girl. Light purple hair and very bright blue eyes.

Personality - Approachable / Kind / Imaginative / artistic / philosophical / Dreamer

Voice - Ponyo

 

She's got interests in art(drawing/painting/sculpting) as well as gardening.She loves nature.

 

Cora

Species - Cat of indiscriminate age, with purple fur(a white tail though), pink hair and bright cerulean eyes(my drawing of her is a bit misleading).A girl and about the general size of a cat, nothing too much out of the ordinary besides intelligence and her looks

Personality - Focused / practical / A fast learner / Considerate(so is thess but cora is more-so) / a bit quiet

Voice - a bit like rarity's(so much ponies, I dunno why but I guess they like the show for the voices they could use)

 

A bit reserved but she likes giving me advice on what to do. Mostly hangs out with theo.

 

Kuroka

Species - woodkin(I don't know how he popped up but he popped up as a woodkin as well as being unstable).He's got dark green hair and eyes that are some kind of dark brown/glowing orange/bright\light yellow mix that makes it really pretty. He's an indiscriminate gender but I call him a him though he could also be a her from time to time.

Personality traits - Quiet / Reserved / empathetic / Self-doubting(it was a big problem bit he's gotten better) / Reliable / Serious / Generous.

Voice - wheatly from portal(he just picked it out today, it certainly doesn't seem like the voice he had but i'm okay with it)

 

He's more into business then the great outdoors or art but he get's along great with thess and they've had debates.

 

Then there's axael who's a cat like cora, except black and red and he's wacky and the whatnot(Also a bit sadistic). I think I might keep him around as a servitor but he's not going to be a tulpa. He kept bugging me with the song devil went down to georgia(either version), he likes it but I find it annoying.

[MagicHats]

4/11/13 - 4/23/13

 

A lot happened and I'm sorry I never updated.

 

Thess loves going shopping aparently(at larger stores/malls too.Figures after going to a mall and having to be out for most of this last weekend).I guess I'll have a buddy to go shopping with.

 

The wonderland got quite a bit of renovation.I guess it happens after walking through an Ikea.

 

Kuroka's kind of stepped down from serious tulping/being a tulpa.He's stilll around and all of that and I can talk to him but He's quite stable now and he wants it because I made him a tulpa just to help him cope and not be suicidal.I still count him as a tulpa though, or at least a sane person to talk to if I need to.

 

Cora's voice changed a little but it's still the same, as did the others.

 

They've been very quiet but when questioned about it they say I need to get school stuff done, which is good that their prioritizing.

 

Thess says she finally got done with the basic idea for her book(she wants to be a writer, I see nothing wrong or detrimental from this given that it's fantasy writting she likes doing and not some kind of publicated tulpa inquirery.)I'd like to get her to type it up on the computer so I could flesh the basic idea out before really writing it out.

 

I'm very happy to say that they've all been very stable, which is good.It's also good that they respect the fact I don't want a whole bunch of tulpa(besides the dubbed axael). Thess's been having tome extra fun with me this last weekend as our little treat because I've been neglecting her.The others tagged along but I think I gave them some decent attention too(even kuroka).

[MagicHats]

4/23/13 - 4/28/13

 

Thess has a love/hate relationship with light rails. was going to go to the zoo with her and my friends but we got stopped at the gate for security reasons(which is good but sucks for me). It was a shame since she really did want to go to the zoo. On the other hand she got to see some lord of the rings(which she likes but this is based off of the first movie and the half of a movie she saw).

 

Admittedly I haven't been giving them a lot of attention but they know it's because i've been in a tight spot with school for a while.I feel bad for not documenting as much but it's okay. Thess possesed me for the first time completely(she wanted to hang out with my friends and I decided to let her).With possesion both me and thess want to do it in moderation, which is good.

 

She's also gotten most of the plot for her fantasy novel down, she just wants to have some more inspiration to really flesh it out.

[MagicHats]

4/28/13 - 5/2/13

 

My tulpa have really been happy about how spring is finally coming. As it turns out, Thess is a great test taker and also has better handwritting then me(granted she's not great at math and needed my help but she felt proud that she could do a few math problems). Theo also managed to posses me(she says by copying thess, granted neither of them posses me much if at all, only when I let them. And that's after they ask). She didn't do much besides collect a bunch of maple seeds that had landed in the yard(she managed to get half a ziplock bag full of them). She really likes nature related things and aside from choosing to be seven years old biologically, can be very smart and a bit inspiring. She wants to try and grow trees by planting them in a seed tray with the peat pellets(we did something like this earlier in the week with some flowers and she was amazed at how fast they grow with that stuff).

 

 

 

And as of now I've gotten a handle for my tulpa's tastes.

Thess likes earl grey tea as well as art(specifically literature but she's also great at drawing). She doesn't like the idea of being constrained to a routine day in and day out as well as soda.

Theo loves the outdoors as well as movies(mainly musicals, all my tulpae enjoy them but she particularily likes kid related ones).

Cora likes Chai spice tea as well as a good grown up novel to read

Kuroka can't be shifted out of his liking for bad food drinks(he likes gatorade now in addition to his fondness for 7up/sprite/sierra mist/etc. he particullarily likes Frost Glacier Freeze along with thess. Soda is a rare treat for them.)

 

Besides them there aren't really many people in my head. There are flora and fauna servitors which don't do much more then just flora fauna business. There's also the characters, which are more like concepts and fiction(my characters in particular, they liken them to cardboard cutouts in sentiency. Then there's axael who wants to be a tulpa but I don't let him because he's really not the kind of guy you'd like for a tulpa.

 

All my tulpae like it when I read to them, Thess and cora have been very happy about me reading the great gatsby to them. I need to make a list of things to read to them in the fiction department that's not for children. Theo even likes them, granted she 's about 17 mentally and just chooses to have a 7 year old body. I'd like a few suggestions if that's okay with the public(nothing too much in the horror either, as much as i'd like to expose my tulpa to literature and culture from outside my head, i'd rather them not getting to many ideas about that).

 

I got thess into videogames as well as good movies and her impact on lucid dreaming shows this(she can enter my lucid dreams, my other tulpa's can but just choose not to most of the time.). Just recently she, kuroka and Cora jumped into what was starting to be a nightmare and turned into a night time ride across a cool desert and I have to admit it was amazing(only complaint is that it looked like a stylized cartoon and for a few glimpses was in third person.Not that I don't like it but i'd like it /more/ if it were more like real life.Granted that's how my tulpa say my mind is like sometimes). We were riding on glowing horses (servitors) through a desert at night and we came across a temple. We were denied entrance because apparently it was a hospital. It was pretty funny watching her yell out some person in my dream(again I regard them as servitors of a more interesting kind but servitors nonetheless)

 

 

She's also taken an interest in Bioshock 3. She's a bit of a game nerd like me but she's at least got some great tastes in games as well as tea(bioshock 3, assasin's creed, journey, shadow of the colossus and a few others. I'm okay with her tastes in zelda just because those are classics in games.)

[MagicHats]

5/2/13 - 5/8/13

 

I've been thinking about a lot of character concepts and ideas for things and in the wonderland they're mostly like cardboard cutouts.

 

I also found out the name for Thess's glowy horse servitor - Celestream.

 

On that topic I really haven't heard from my other tulpae lately but thess says they're fine. They've kinda just decided to make a giant mosaic. I really don't know why but they turned the outside of their apartment into a castle. The inside's just about the same, it's just now the outside looks aesthetically different.

 

Theo managed to gather a whole ziplock bag of maple seeds via me proxying and she's very happy about it. Got real sad when I had to tell her we can't keep the seeds because they'res no real use in them and trying to get maple seeds to germinate would take to long.

 

Cora and thess helped me out when I had to go to an interview as well as helping me study for math. I find it really nice that they've been such good help. Kuroka on the otherhand decided to go off on some vision quest in my mind. He's still around in my head, I guess he won't be around the apartment area for a while.