MagicHats' tulpa digest

[Lacquer]

http://www.wikihow.com/Eat-Maple-Seeds ?

[MagicHats]

5/8/13 - 5/13/13

 

My tulpa's been kind of quiet but she's been giving me advice and commentary on things. She really likes pokemon and I would not be suprised if she whips up her pokemon team in the wonderland. But enough about pokemon.

 

My other tulpae have been kind of busy, the mosaic looks very good. Thess's tastes in music has been growing very fast, she likes an assortment of popular artists. I've been meaning to read to her a few good books. I read the great gastby to her and she just loves it, and I also read to her of mice and men. She likes very grown up/realistic fiction sometimes as much as she likes very fictional books like the hobbit or the lord of the rings.

 

Things never seem to go well with my tulpae whenever my subconscious gets involved, especially in dreams. I lucid dream a lot and there's only been one dream where my tulpae came in and they weren't making the dream go spazzy. I think it's mostly the fact that you usually snap out of the dream and become fully conscious(and thus wake up) for a normal person. I think the fact that there's another fully conscious person waltzing in gives a scrambling effect(like slenderman to electric items). In short the two don't work out to well together at first(it's completely possible).

 

That and I think a reoccurring theme in my nightmares is that some stranger guy/girl kidnaps/attacks/has me at gunpoint/etc. Thess tried to come into my dream and sparked lucidity in me. It was fun mostly because we were at a house party. Then some guy managed to get me and thess into a car and drove us off. It then proceeded into being kidnapped at gunpoint(and for all thess knew, it was like a real situation. She doesn't understand that sometimes with lucidity comes powers to control the dream itself). I remember briefly having my face shoved into a(specifically white) fire and said I was going to join the little soul as a little soul/ghostie myself if I didn't "behave". It went on like that for a little longer until I woke up. Neither me or thess really enjoyed it.

 

I really want to talk to my other tulpae but they won't until i'm done with school, since they know it's very important. Most of them have gone into a servitor like mode except for thess(granted kuroka's a servitor and he just hang's around with the other two sometimes).

 

by the way, theo's voice now wavers between bubbles(power puff girls) and ponyo. It's adorable.

 

http://www.wikihow.com/Eat-Maple-Seeds ?

 

I really should try that sometime(when there are more maple seeds to be found. Me and theo did pick up most of them). It was a shame they were bringing in some kind of bug that was biting me(the maple seeds. Maybe there was a bug in the bag that got out somehow.). It gives theo all the more reason to like nature.

[Phi]

Even if your other tulpa won't talk to you until your classes are over, keep giving them attention. Even if it's just a little thing, like a wave. If you ignore them completely, there could be some negative effects later on like a lapse in their development. Anyway, it couldn't hurt to at least say hi if you aren't already.

I hope that they're at least communicating with your other tulpa and not completely isolating themselves.

[Lacquer]

Suddenly Phi outta nowhere.

[MagicHats]

Even if your other tulpa won't talk to you until your classes are over, keep giving them attention. Even if it's just a little thing, like a wave. If you ignore them completely, there could be some negative effects later on like a lapse in their development. Anyway, it couldn't hurt to at least say hi if you aren't already.

I hope that they're at least communicating with your other tulpa and not completely isolating themselves.

 

I have been popping in a lot with them and giving them attention while doing classes, it's just more of a "How you doing, you okay?" kind of conversation along with little things, like what you said. In fact they're talking to me more now that my classes are coming to a close. I'll go into more detail about that on the update

 

Suddenly Phi outta nowhere.

 

Indeed, the only commenter I get is usually laquer. Not to say it's bad, it's just nice to see that my little log of my tulpa progress has somebody reading it. Anyways on to the update

 

5/13/13 - 5/17/13

 

Now that i'm finally doing good in my classes and they're coming to a close theo and cora have been talking to me more. From what i've gathered they do talk to thess and each other so it's good to hear they're not isolating each other besides kuroka who just came back from his little vision quest.

 

Theo's asked to have a name change since I keep mixing her name up with thess's(which is alright by me, If she wants a name that I won't mix up it's actually pretty good). The thing is she hasn't come up with an alternative name quite yet. I've run a few names by her so she can come up with something. She's leaning on a name like Vega or Robin. Not to mention she's taken a liking to birds besides plants and nature.(by the way, she's enjoyed my general science class because it's gotten into environmental related things). She also likes the name Elyse, which is pretty nice and fitting for her.

 

Theo's also gotten that mosaic done with cora, it's essentially celestream(the only real servitor I allowed in my mind, the other ones have just kind of wandered off and won't talk to me unless I interact with them). It's really nice in the colors and the shape(celestream is essentially a mint/blue green horse. And I do mean /horse/, not any little pony).

 

Kuroka's suddenly deviated from his little trip on finding himself since he wanted the alone time(he's kind of been weird about that, sometimes he likes his space and other times he likes company). He went from the stark white template to a black tuxedo pattern on his looks(he's not human at all, keep in mind). His clothing also changed, he wears a simple travelers robe/cape besides a loose fitting shirt and pants.

 

Since there will be a few big things coming up next week.I'm going to go see the new great gatsby movie on monday(i've read the book in school as well as to the tulpa and we all want to go see it. I made sure they understood what was going on, so they don't get confused or anything). My school is also going to throw a field day like party on thursday and I'd like them to enjoy that as well(and hopefully it'll be good like the one I attended the first year I went, two years ago to be exact. Last year's wasn't so good because there wasn't as much to do.). Essentially a lot of planned stuff to do with my tulpae as a group.

 

I've been thinking about the fact that I essentially have 4 tuppers(and one servitor). I kind of cringe at the thought a little having so many tulpae but my tuppers have been very manageable which makes things much easier. I think it's because i've layed down some standard rules they need to follow(things go crazy without rules sometimes, a rule of thumb). I'm just happy that most of my characters/other concepts haven't turned into tuppers but are just like cardboard cutouts(I like art and I draw a lot).

 

The standard rules themselves aren't to hard to follow since i've kind of organized my head accordingly. They can't go running around in my part of the head(as in my thoughts/memories/etc.) with out permission and that's restricted. They can still talk to me and I can talk back but it's talking(sure in my head but it's talking, not telepathy). They shouldn't make more tuppers/servitors without thinking things through completely or with my permission, I don't want a million people in my head. They may posses me but they have to have permission to do so(thess is the only one that really posseses me, the others have no interest). And finally, no messing with my subconscious/dream stuff, it just tends to not go very well whenever they do so it's precautionary.

 

I'm still working on that list of good books to read to thess. She loved the hobbit and the great gatsby, so i'm hoping I can get some older/classic books rather then modern ones(not saying there isn't any good modern books, I think she'd like the older ones more).

[MagicHats]

5/17/13 - 5/22/13

 

The closer I got to getting my classes done the more my tulpae were talking to me, so that's good. Just on monday I went out with my friends(and tulpae) to go see the great gatsby movie. They absolutely loved it(mostly because it was the first movie they've seen and also we got the whole theater to ourselves). I think they'll at least like Thursday since it's a field-day like event going on that day at school.

 

Me and thess hung out in a lucid dream just last night along with the other tuppers(and theo picked out her other name as Elyse). We had a good time.

[MagicHats]

5/22/13 - 5/28/13

 

Not much to mention besides a lot of activity. Thess wants to get into being visible as well as a few friends besides me, elyse and cora. As good company as Kuroka can be, he's kinda been a little bit of a rascal as of late.

 

We went to the field day thing at my school only to have it moved inside because it rained. I wound up watching the avengers and thess liked it because she liked iron man's personality(I can't understand why she likes him of all those guys but i'm not going to press her for info).

 

They've also gotten into art, or at least most of them besides kuroka. It seems like I have 2 tulpa and 2 tulpa/servitors. I really need to get back on the saddle with narration, because though I think they're fine, I think that they need some quality time that I just could not give them right now due to intense school. I don't hear from them a lot besides thess but the fact that they're all completely vocal and seem to have a good vocabulary is a sign that they've at least been paying attention to what I say/read and have been getting better.

 

Cora now sounds like rosalind lutece from bioshock(It sounds a bit nicer then rarity but she does have her notice). She at least seems to have the general voice of a slightly upper-class lady.

 

Thess can now completely posess me and wants to work on imposition in the dark as a start. I can do it naturally if I simultaneously empty my mind and think of nothing AND focus on a particular thing being in a particular spot(for example, a rabbit with a person's face on a table infront of me, though rather blurry). Since that method takes to much time I will look into an easier method to do this.

 

I showed them the golden compass and the newer alice in wonderland. They liked it a lot, even kuroka, who's hard to impress. I need to get back into the swing of things.

 

And speaking of kuroka he's become quite the rascal when he's messing around, a bit of a cocky daredevil when not being serious. He can't talk for the life of him anymore, though, which is giving me pause for talking to the other three tulpae as much as I do. It's not that he isn't getting what he wants to be said across, it's just like reading a sentence on a book without any visualization, no voice. He really wants to get back into the swing of things but he can't because I seem to be the only one who can understand what he's trying to get across. He can be a sweet guy and I really feel bad for him loosing his voice. He's kind of gotten it back but it's not quite the same as it was and he really can't seem to get much out of his mouth.

 

Me and thess are going to help him out in establishing himself a voice and re-learning how to talk. When sampling voices while I was listening to stuff on youtube, he seems to really like the rock genre of music(which I can't disagree with either, you need a little rock every one in a while). He wants to sound something like that since he says it's like part of his personality but I really hope we can help him. The other tulpae say that when trying to talk to him all the noise seems to be muted around him, and that's how I hear it too when I try to talk to him.

 

Thess misses going on those road trips my dad would take me on(I can't go see him much anymore because he is a really BAD influence and partially why i'm in such a bad position about my school in the first place). She misses the house a lot because she feels it to be her home and her room in the wonderland is exactly like my room there. That's where I first brought her into existance and where we had our biggest achievements and breakthroughs. It's a very special place to her, though she doesn't like my dad(again, bad influence and really starting to lose his marbles).

 

I really hope I can get them happy for the summer since all of this is really getting them down. Besides thess who's most notable commentary was making a boner joke.

[MagicHats]

5/28/13 - 6/1/13

 

Not a whole lot happened besides cora waking me up this morning by saying my name, it was in mindvoice but it was also in an auditory hallucination, which is surprising but not too bad. My tuppers have been coming out more and more, interacting with me and each other.

 

Good news is that kuroka can talk now, the somehwat bad news is that he kinda used axael(a servitor that randomly popped up) by kind of absorbing him. Not a lot's different besides kuroka's cat form and him now sounding like a rock star type guy.

 

On that topic I really wish all my tuppers weren't turning into cats sometimes. Granted Thess says her cat form is like an alter ego, as the case is with kuroka. Since cora was already a cat to begin with, she's kind of okay with this while elyse doesn't have a cat form.

 

They've also really developed their tastes for things. While thess still loves tea(vanilla, chai, cardamon/cinnamon, etc. Just not green tea for some reason), Elyse now likes banana milkshakes(granted that's after a bit of a treat for me, I don't get junk food much). Cora's got no real drink that I associate their taste with(as in how they taste). Kuroka now tastes like dr. pepper, and while I'd rather him not get me into junk food I'll make an exception.

 

My wonderland's quite beutiful but really devoid of much in servitors besides small things like birds and Celestream(thess's glowing green majestic HORSE). There's also Tikise, a black dragon mount thess also made recently.

 

Needless to say they want another tulpa but i'd rather not push it past four since they are quite the hand full. If I want to make another tulpa I'm going to do it the old fashioned way, not quite spontanios as was with elyse and kuroka.

 

Thess says that she made cora the same way I made her, which would be your standard tulpa making guide. I think i'll look over some guides before I really get down to making my second serious tulpa(Thess was my first serious, elyse and kuroka popped out of thess[as a younger and male version of herself] and thess made cora).

 

I've really nailed narrating down but I think i'll look into a guide for that as well, just to make sure i'm doing it pretty well.

 

And looking back at that first post, That's so dated in comparison to what's been going on. sure the concepts for ysos and jiko still exist to some extent as what I call "closet servitors" or essentially characters/ideas/servitors/etc. that aren't really fleshed out and are put in a mental closet. It's not like I can't interact with those it's just that since they aren't the focus of my attention they're a bit like cardboard cutouts, like i've mentioned several times. I just like making that point so I don't confuse people or make it seem like I have a million tulpae and only listen to 4 of them.

 

I think I might edit that post to let people know that was then and to make sure that if you do read this, make sure you stay current or it would probably confuse people.

 

I've been narrating a lot but now that summers comming close I can get into some good forcing sessions(I have been doing them but with my busy school schedule I haven't had a lot of time to get a good session in for a while.).

[MagicHats]

6/1/13 more stuff

 

Forcing adventure was fun, I went down to the beach with my tuppers and went swimming in the warm waters in what looked like a sunset. Before then I rode around on celestream with thess a little down to the beach and before that I rode tikise with elyse and cora for a little.

 

Kuroka was against swimming because he didn't want to get his clothing wet. I decided to dive down into the water and grab a blue glowing pearl and turned it into a necklace for thess. Seeing this kuroka jumped into the water, still grumpy about the clothing and asked for one, as did elyse and cora. I used my mind powers here and shape shifted into some kind of plesiosaur/alligator creature and dived down even deeper to the bottom of the ocean, the warm waters becoming steadily cooler. I managed to grab three more, one for each of them and noted how serene it was under the ocean in my wonderland. Had to swim quite a ways to surface again and I did, switching back to human and giving them glowing pearls of their respective colors(elyse got a pink/green one, cora got a white one and kuroka got a dark red one).

 

Kuroka, cora and elyse then decided to go back to their cool apartment building on a hill by flying on tikise. Me and thess rode towards it to there through a nice wood/forest. When we got back there it was cool because the steps up to it were floating but there was another entrance through the garage/stable where they keep tikise and celestream. After thess told tikise not to eat celestream when we went inside, we went up the stairs and hung out with the others for a little bit before deciding to put this all here.

[MagicHats]

6/1/13 - 6/7/13

 

Me and thess did some more work on audio imposition since she thought it would be possible.I managed to do it once but she was just using the skull kid's laugh from majora's mask, which made things awkward. Besides that things were okay, had some conversations with my tuppers, they're happy the school year's over because it's been so busy for me. It was a notably tough year.

 

Now they want to watch the lion king and a ghibli movie or two. Since it's the weekend I think I'll indulge them.

 

My tuppers know that while they're in my head I'm the superior being so most of my actions in my body can't really be stolen/taken so it seems like I won't worry about going on a joyride but they say that it makes them sad that I may just outlast them mentally. I'm not trying to be superior but they say that it's more likely they'll all be long gone before I wind up having my control over this body lost. Thess seems to be the only one who even tries possession and she only does it for card games.

 

Those notions make me sad. Most of my tuppers seem to be sort of tuppers. While thess is a full tulpa my other tulpa's seem to be on the line between tulpa and servitor. It's not that they're not getting attention, I so talk and listen to them a lot and give them energy but I didn't really intentionally create them, they all just essentially flaked off of thess during her development and I let them stick around. They're worried that because I'm thinking of making a seccond full tulpa that I'll forget about them. I've assured them that it won't be the case but they seem nervous still(besides thess).

 

I think i'll call their position as a secondary tulpae something along the lines of a muse/aspara/tennin since it goes a long with the idea that they are there and I can call upon them for stuff. Still they're important to me and thess and the both of us would like them to know that they're just fine. I would not forget about them.The names also go along with the original name meaning from tulpa.

 

On the otherhand they're been figuratively reading over my shoulder when I read things and they seem to have developed tastes for literature too. They don't understand human history very well. Granted i'm now going over the 1950's in english through the literature(or in this case the movie version of a raisin in the sun).We've been doing this all year, also going over other types of reading/writing(like realism vs early american fiction, etc.), hence me reading the great gatsby and of mice and men.

 

I've been really thinking about that seccond real tulpa i've been making and I think I shall read a few guides to get a good feel before I start with the process.

 

-edit, I think i'm going to be calling the seccondary tulpa idea familiars, because that makes the most sense. more then servitors yet less then full tulpa. it's not to say I don't care about elyse, cora and kuroka, it's just that they've all kind of came from my first tulpa thess, I didn't really /intentionally/ create them, or at least in the same manner as a regular tulpa would be made, they just sprang into existence and i've kept them around-