Air Dance

[NeonKnights]

General mind's eye visualization has recently been excellent, probably owing to the increased focus on her form. My mind house is so realistic at this point that I managed to get lost in other mind-locations while exploring it, and had a sort of daydream within a daydream.

 

Isis is also acting a bit different than usual today, as evidenced by our recent interactions.

 

In a nutshell, I decided to show Isis the trampoline which used to be at the actual house. She immensely enjoyed it and the few trampoline games I taught her, just as she enjoyed picking lemons from the lemon tree with me right after. We made lemonade out of the lemons, and then she thanked me for spending time with her, and told me (in more words) that us spending time together is the most special thing in the world to her.

 

It's funny, usually she just does her best to turn me on. She doesn't normally say things so... Touching. Though there was still plenty of the former earlier on in the morning.

[NeonKnights]

Last night she appeared in another dream, during which I was back in high school talking with a few of my friends. She was there, making conversation with all of us, asking about things like whether we watched any Japanese TV shows, but she had a particular interest in my answers. I recall feeling like I had to vie for her attention when she was focusing on chatting with the dream character representations of my friends, but at the same time she was vying for my attention.

 

When I asked her about her role in the dream, mere minutes after waking up, she gave me groggy, raw-thought answers which felt very fake when I auto-translated them, but she confirmed that that was just her being lazy about speech since she was so tired. She later confirmed that, indeed, she had been there, talking to my friends and I.

 

 

 

Anyways, that aside, this is it. It's been a year since I set out on this wonderful journey, and I'm so glad that I did. I've found great happiness in having Isis with me, and as she becomes more and more a part of my reality, I'm sure that happiness will only increase.

 

 

I know a lot of people probably wouldn't approve of the type of relationship I carry on with my tup-tup, both here and outside of the community, but after so much time has passed and my bond with her has grown so strong, I find that I just don't care. After nearly a year of test-driving a sort of passionate romance with Isis, I can definitely say that I've finally wound up with a girl who I can tolerate, and who lovingly tolerates me. Someone who understands who I am, and loves me because of it. She's a lot more than just a romantic partner, often to the point of emotional confusion and crisis, but in the end that's fine by me (even preferable, looking at how such situations have built on her personality).

 

I've finally achieved my objective of spending every possible free moment of my day with her, or at least with full awareness of her presence, and to my surprise she actually enjoys that level of attention. She's proven her sincerity in the matter by being with me all the time of her own volition, even when I sleep, having appeared and taken a part in just about every dream that I can recall lately. I eagerly await what lies ahead, but at this stage I think it would make sense to conclude this progress report so I can direct more of my focus towards her.

 

I'm uncertain at this point, but I might cease activity in the community altogether. There really doesn't seem to be a point in continuing to dawdle on the forums or IRC channels when I could be spending time with my tulpa, since my assistance is often unneeded and I've probably soaked up all of the knowledge I'm going to find useful. At the very least I might find a proper place on here to share the probably controversial method I devised which helped me overcome the final obstacles which tripped me up for the longest time. It's a bit similar to Fede or JD's methods, but with a few twists to it.

 

Isis wanted to throw something in:

"Thank you for reading about our journey. It means a lot that others out there were able to hear about our story, even if my host might have shared some rather confidential details now and then. Good luck on your own travels, everyone. I love you all!"

 

I checked with her, and that final statement is staying, regardless of what I have to say about it.