Hard Decisions

[tania]

I didnt find it hard at all as I knew what I wanted in my creations.

 

If a person isnt sure.. I wonder if they should even be doing it.

[Lacquer]

If a person isnt sure.. I wonder if they should even be doing it.

 

I know for a FACT what I want and that I want it, but I just have absolute shit willpower and time management. So don't you be going on about me not doing it, okay?

 

 

Don't take offense at this, I just saw an opportunity for... something... and ran with it. Don't worry, I mean no harm (here).

 

[Super Monkey]

It took me about a week of researching the topic to really decide to start Mary and by the time I began I had already had a good idea of what/who I wanted

[Merman]

Ive been interested in the idea of tulpas for years, but i only started passively forcing last night. I haven't even mapped out his personality yet. I am afraid of somehow messing up but I am moving at a slow pace. Because I of what I read when I was a kid about tulpas I had the impression that it would turn evil at some point and try to kill me in my sleep. Now that I'm well informed I'm working on a tulpa friend. a companion to brighten my day.

[Spudthulhu]

I'd already had a design and basic personality within ten minutes or so of learning about them. I began the actual forcing several hours later because I wanted to make sure I knew what I was doing, hahaha.

[Pashoo]

I found this site on the same night I found out about tulpa. I waited about a week to see if I really wanted to follow through and started speculating about halfway through that week. I spent three days actually planning before I sat down and really forced for the first time.

[tania]

My first was accidental from a Servitor.

 

This second one.. I "suddenly" decided to do it on the second day after seeing this site last week (I went from "Im NEVER going to do that again" to "I want to do it!". I rationlized in the approx 10 years since I had my first one, I now have learnt enough about energy forms etc to this time purposely go and make one. I feel like I now have the awareness of the risks and knowledge to deal with any issues which may arise gained from many years experience in dealing with things if things went wrong (otherwise I would of never choosen to do this again)..

 

With both my creations, Ive known exactly what I want to make from the start.. eg had 20 traits worked out I was going to program into my Tulpa on the first day of thinking of him (by the second day, I was up to 32).

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I know for a FACT what I want and that I want it, but I just have absolute shit willpower and time management. So don't you be going on about me not doing it, okay?

 

 

Don't take offense at this, I just saw an opportunity for... something... and ran with it. Don't worry, I mean no harm (here).

 

 

uh? Im new to his site and dont even know you so dont know why you took my post personally. (due to your comment I went and read your journal of your progress and from that guess you must be feeling bad for so long just talking of making one).

[Loveandkrieg]

My initial interest in the tulpa phenomenon was quite academic. I wasn't able to discern if it was real or not. With time and research it seemed to be at least plausible. As a good scientist and atheist I felt I had to give any plausible ideas that could be confirmed or disproven a fair shake, and the only way to do so would be through personal experimentation.

So I worked out a hypothesis for the tulpa.

 

After that, it was simply a matter of making sure that I was committed. If a tulpa is real, after all, I can hardly spend all that time and effort forming one, nod my head, go "Yeah, it's real alright" and then dismiss it once the experiment's over. Doing such a thing would be tantamount to murder.

 

I felt that the experiment would be the most valid with minimal input from me - I set down certain basic personality traits, and nothing else. I have chosen to not give the tulpa a gender, name or appearance. The theory was that it would supply those by itself given time.

(For the record, this proved to be true, though actually communicating some of these things to me has been very difficult on my Tulpa - in particular sharing her name when we are still at a pre-verbal stage wasn't easy.)

 

Once I felt mentally certain that I was committed and willing to, should the experiment work, keep and maintain my new friend for as long as I am able, it was simply a matter of sitting down and starting.

So far, the decision has not been one I regret.