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Tulpa Log, will be updated weekly.

 

5/28/1013- Got bored at the dentist and decided to make a tulpa. Based her off of an oc of mine, Rynee.

 

Forced her for about half an hour. Focused on personality. Then got a headache >.>;

 

5/29/2013- Tried to force her again. Found she turned into a he o.O Started calling him Aiden, an alias I use for art sometimes.

 

Narrated and passively forced as much as possible. Sometimes did a little bit of unconsious parroting. And to those who say that doesn't exist, well, I mentally poked him to say something and then heard a response. Less "what was that?" suprises and more "why would I think that?" suprises.

 

Think I heard a "Hey!". Kinda scared me o.o I'm gonna assume it was him.

 

Continuous headache.

 

5/30/2013- Continued passive forcing. "Ayden" popped into my head. Gonna start calling him that now. Continuous headache.

 

5/31/2013- Continued passive forcing. Active forced for fifteen minutes in biology class. Focused on visualization. Brown-haired young boy. Got another headache.

 

6/1/2013- Continued passive forcing. Headache/Pressure.

 

6/2/2013- Continued passive forcing. Headache/Pressure.

 

6/3/2013- Continued passive forcing. Headache/Pressure.

 

6/4/2013- Continued passive forcing. Also actively forced a bit more. Focused on visualization. Found he grew cat ears and a tail o.O May have also heard him. Couldn't understand anything though.

 

Headache/Pressure.

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Same damn thing still going on. Kinda forgot about him a little bit on Thursday and Friday cuz i was at a con ^^; But i still tried to keep him there.

 

Also, i think the pressure has moved places o.o

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Soo~~~ I forgot about this, but let's start it up again! I'll do my next update in a following post :P

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So, I have two tulpas now actually. Muse and Forseen.

 

Muse basically looks like this:

Her skirt is shorter, black, and kinda sparkly, that flowery thing on her belt is a gold double eight note or whatever they're called, the ribbon and bow on her hat is white, her boots are heeled, and she doesn't wear anything underneath that sweater. Also, her hair's a bit darker and more saturated. She is a literal ball-jointed doll.

 

As for Forseen, um... well, he's still a neko boy. However, he loves to change so often, I can't really give you an accurate picture cuz he'll change the next day ^^; All I have is this:

http://th01.deviantart.net/fs71/PRE/i/2013/176/2/b/forseen_by_superfloree-d6amofn.jpg

Which are the two basic hair styles he keeps. The one on the right is his natural hair colour (I call it natural cuz it's what I originally forced him with). It's brown and kinda long. The one on the left is basically dyed black with a streak of red in it. As for his clothes, that changes daily too. It can range from something like this to this to this to this. (Don't ask why most of the examples are from musedoll, they just are, he seems to just dress that way a lot.) He also looks anywhere from 10-16, which is really ironic cuz he claims he's 17 but never looks like it XD Right now what he's wearing's actually pretty simple than usual. It's a white t-shirt and a pair of black jeans with some fancy-shmancy belt and two chains hanging off his right side with black and white high-top sneakers. His hair's brown too and he looks about 15 or 16. lol if I wasn't do sure he was straight I'd accuse him of being gay XD (no offense intended). He's just a freaking fashion diva.

 

Oh, and Muse and Forseen are actually twins, or at least I call them twins ^^ Muse was sorta split and created by Forseen, who basically just took every trait he didn't like that I gave him and gave it to Muse. In the end, you end up with polar opposites who fight about everything lol. Muse likes indie and pop music, Forseen likes metal and rock. Muse is nice and open, Forseen's a total tsundere, acts cold, and doesn't like to be bothered. Muse likes hugs, Forseen doesn't. Muse is christian, Forseen's an athiest. Total freaking opposites. Still love them both though~

 

So yeah, that's all with that.

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A Forseen Outfit Update lol:

 

Soo~~~ after checking, I'm gonna try to sum it up.

 

His hair's completely black right now and he looks... 14 or 15. He's wearing this blackish jacket that reaches about right below his elbow and has a cuff-like thing and sorta like laces on the sides, kinda like, uh... *goes googling* .... this guy's sleeves in the brown jacket. the collar's up high and it's trimmed with red. Underneath is a white shirt with uh... Metallica? I think? I dunno. He also has one of those dog tag things around his neck like a necklace. Got one black fingerless glove on his right hand. Or something. I dunno there's something black on his hand, it's either a glove or a bracelet (I just woke up my brain ain't functioning).

Pants are kinda like this guy's, except he's not really wearing any boots to stuff them in. Same high tops as before, except I think they have a little red on them now. Has a... gold (I think) chain hanging off his left.

 

Holy crap dude. My head hurts now. I might update this with more details as the day goes on, but that's about all I can get right now.

 

I'm not lying though, I kinda have a headache ^^;

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So it's like midnight here. Muse is asleep, Forseen... doesn't sleep, so he's still kinda on his video game thing. Yeah. Too lazy to drag him off of it right now.

 

Speaking of sleep, this reminds me of the first time Muse decided to take a nap. She was actually outside sleeping on a mushroom in our wonderland lol. Either way, while she was sleeping and the weirdest crap started happening. I don't really remember the details, but I think it had something to do with a ballet dancer and a music box playing in the background. Creeped the hay outta me, but right after I woke Muse up it all poofed. It was odd, hasn't happened again though.

 

Muse sleep schedule is slightly off from mine. She doesn't fall asleep when I do, and when I wake up she's usually still asleep. Right now she's asleep though, cuz im staying up way late XD

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Dude, I think Forseen gave himself an ombre or something e.e; Either way, wearing a white t-shirt, red tie, a thick black bracelet on the right wrist, red and black striped fingerless arm warmer on the other, and black jeans stuffed in some black boots. He's got some weird complex-looking belt with a... skull? on it and some, uh... i dont know o.o It's like, belt-ish things connecting his legs at the back, and there's three of them. Just uhh.... you ever look at the book Digital Manga Techniques? There's a part in it, the contemporary teen boy, like his pants almost. Looks... 13. Or 14.

 

Also, so I was bored yesterday or something so I did that surpise me thing with Forseen. Since he was in the middle of playing his video game when I bothered him, i think I pissed him off, which basically led to him agreely and then turning in a black blob thing, swallowing me, running into the wall a few times, then spitting me back up. e.e; It was odd and I got covered in goop.

 

Still working on some independence and such, using flashcards and narrating. I can usually still feel my tulpas think, so yeah ^^; If anyone has tips besides narration to help with independence don't be afraid to tell me~

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Unless people care, i'm gonna stop listing Forseen's outfits lol. Too annoying dude.

 

Either way, this morning I woke up before Muse and went outside with Forseen. I looked at one of those giant mushroom things and wondered if they were bouncy, so I climbed onto one XD THEY WERE LIKE TRAMPOLINES IT WAS AWESOME. Forseen said I was being an idiot though XD I ended up dragging him up there with me though. I told him to have some fun so he bounced around going "DIE MUSHROOMS DIEEE" XD I have a great tulpa.

 

Muse is awake now, she cooked some stuff and right now... I dunno actually o^o *checks* She's watching Forseen play his game :P

 

Also I had the most random thing pop into my head, so now I'm wondering if I eat one of those mushrooms if I'd get high. So gonna try that tonight lol.

 

Also, some stats for the fun of it:

Forseen Montegomery (Yup, that's their last name)

Claimed Age: 17

Height: 4'9"-5'10" (changes the age he looks at lot, so his height goes up and down)

Birthday: May 28, 2013

Voice: Kinda stereotypical shota, but a bit older. Almost like Kagamine Len, except without the robotiness and japanese and blah. Canadian Accent.

 

Muse Montegomery

Claimed Age: 17

Height: I think somewhere around 2ft. She can grow to around regular human size at around 5'-something though.

Birthday: May 28, 2013

Voice: This is gonna be really ironic, but similar to Kagamine Rin XD Except less brassy and rough, and all the stuff said above about Forseen. Canadian Accent.

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I look at others' progress reports and think "oh god what is wrong with this person's mind". then I look at mine and go "Oh". Honestly, I haven't bothered to tell you most of the weird crap that happens in my head.

 

So I tried the mushroom thing. Turns out the stem was like a tree trunk and I couldn't exactly knock it down e.e; So Forseen (Muse was asleep at the time cuz it was like, 1 in the morning) told me to go get the chainsaw from the shed in our backyard.

 

Okay one, since when did I have a shed? Two, since when did I have a backyard? And three, why the hay do we own a chainsaw?!

 

Either way, took the thing out, heavy as lead, and but somehow I managed the cut the thing down. Most of the mushroom was as hard as the stem, the only part that wasn't was the top squishy part I was jumping on before. So I just take a bite outta it.

 

Didn't really taste like anything, just kinda chewy and a bit slimy. But basically I started feeling like waves of calmness go through me before I started twitching like a madman. Which, I should say, is exactly what happens when I listen to Fede's tulpatone. So yeah. That was odd. Forseen took a couple bites too. I kinda forget what happened to him, I think he started laughing.

 

Onto the next thing, both of my tulpas have chosen middle names. Why? Not a clue. They just saw signs with the word and they liked it and claimed it as their middle names. so now their full names are Muse Novi Montegomery and Forseen Wixom Montegomery. Yeah. If you wanna know, Novi was the name of a city and Wixom the name of a street. Honestly, their names are longer than mine.

 

Also I don't think I mentioned where Montegomery came from. Basically, I decided "hey, you guys should totally have a last name" so I told them to talk and think of one. I especially told Muse to make sure that they end up with something at least somewhat normal sounding, cuz otherwise Forseen comes up with the weirdest things e.e; Like his first idea for a name? Instanculus. Daflip.

 

So I let them be and maybe twenty minutes later Muse says "hey" and they tell me they agreed on Montegomery. The extra e's there probably cuz Forseen just likes super long words and quirky stuff. Whatever, like I wanted it's normal-sounding lol

 

I've found when I proxy my tulpas I know exactly what to type. Like, of course I type what they say, but I mean smiley-wise. Muse uses more complex smileys than i do (Like ^w^ when i'd just type ^^) so I'm pretty sure it's them, but honestly they never tell me when or which smiley to type, I just kinda feel them telling me to type whatever smiley and I do. It's really odd o.O So like... Is this normal? Or am I parroting them or something without even knowing?

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I think I'm annoying my tulpas a bit XD How? Well, you know how sometimes you try to play conversations in your head? I do that with my tulpas, and they kinda get annoyed cuz they're like "dude, im right here, just freaking talk to me" lol. Habits are hard to break yo.

 

Either way~~ Still just doing crap. Nothing really interesting. Hopefully they'll develop a stronger independence quickly~ ^^

 

Also, if someone could answer that parroting question from before, that'd be great ^^

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So besides the fact Muse drew a moustache on a friend's facebook icon mentally in my head and therefore not allowing me to look at it now without laughing, things have still been pretty normal. But I've found something else out with the help of that icon.

 

When Muse popped the icon into my head, I realized I could visualize it almost perfectly, and after a bit, I realized it was the background. It was a somewhat bright red, but not so bright it was distracting. So I tried to visualize Muse with that colour in the background and, what do you know, somehow visualizing her became waaay easier ^^ So yeah, the things you learn from facebook lol.

 

Also, Muse and Forseen have gotten into a really odd argument about souls... while they both say they probably don't have one themselves, Muse says humans (and other things to a degree) have souls and that they exist, while Forseen thinks souls don't exist at all. They're also blaming me for the lack of knowledge they have on either side of the argument e.e; Honestly for tulpas who haven't developed strong independence yet, they sure act independent a lot.