Flo's PR (Potatoes)

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

I'm so lazy with updating this thing.

 

So a few weeks ago, I tried spending a whole day with Alex, instead of like, five minutes. My head. It was so quiet in my head. Omg.

We honestly didn't do much, she just hanged around and was like "we're going to church! Yay!" or "Grocery shopping's fun" or other random stuff like that. Kinda like a kid who just started exploring the world. Ended up spending about a day and a half with her.

 

When Muse and Forseen came back, they vaguely remembered anything. I tried asking them what is was like. They described it as like being in a void, with receptors to the outside world that aren't 100% clear; a tv that loses signal sometimes, a radio that's muffled, etc. Forseen doesn't really like it apparently ^^; [it's fucking scary as shit.] {It's not that bad.} [iT IS DAMMIT.] Ya...

 

What else was there? Um.... well, Muse is better at playing the piano style-wise lol. I'm better technical-wise. Sometimes we do this sorta co-op thing so we can play piano so that it sounds nice and has the right notes too lol.

 

Speaking of which, finally learned my first full song by ear:

 

A few mistakes (mainly the pause at the middle cuz i always screw that part up >.>; ), so it still need practice, but i think i got all the notes right =w=

 

Also, after reading about some peeps who were having problems with possession and remembering how Muse still can't possess more than my arms, we tried some possession on other parts of my body, mainly the legs.

 

Again, wasn't that hard... I honestly cannot relate to people who have problems with it ^^; She started with spazzing of course, but we ended up being able to walk in maybe a half hour to an hour. Awkwardly walk of course, and she had a problem with turning around (probably cuz she only had my legs or something), but we could walk. I remember we tried a long while before and she could barely stand, but after reading Ouigi's guide and refreshing on it, and seeing it say that the body balances automatically, she could stand quite easily. Said my body felt really heavy though lol. WE MUST PRACTICEEEE :P

 

Honestly, I don't do anything, Muse is just good at it. If you wanna know ask her. Actually...

 

{Um, well, like I said last night, you relax and give up control quite easily.}

Haha, you said quite.

{... you're never gonna let that go are you?}

Nope XD (Ill explain later)

{Anyways, you give up control with your... disturbing symbolism-}

lol

{-and I take it. Then I just I guess activate each muscle. We start out with nonsensical twitches and spazzes, but after I do that a while, I learn some of your muscle memory to see which muscles to move at once to do certain actions. Then I just figure out the rest.}

 

And that's the explanation that makes no sense to me. My mind is weird =w=

 

Sooo~~ To explain that 'quite' thing... everyone's been picking up Muse's weird way of talking.

 

{My 'way of talking' is not weird.}

She talks with a bunch of words that like, i never hear people use often. I mean, people use the word quite, but usually they use the word really or something. Muse almost never says really, she always says quite XD

{e.e; I see absolutely no error in my ways.}

^ Ya see what I mean? and what word did you use before, 'nonsensical"?

{Yeah, so?}

I don't think anyone uses that word in normal talky-language.

{No one uses "normal talky-language" either.}

Pssh. And when i first pointed it out, you said speech pattern.

{People say speech pattern!}

Maybe, but i say the way someone talks.

{Well then that's just you, obviously.}

Whatever~

[... I'm not part of this.]

[Shui]

Your experiences with Alex are interesting. Nothing I'll be trying soon, since I only have one tulpa, but I enjoy reading it.

 

Good luck with possession!

 

And I like the way Muse talks. :)

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

lol they are, I'd do more experiments and stuff, buuut Forseen doesn't like it too much so I don't wanna do it too often ^^;

 

[iT'S LIKE SITTING IN FUCKING SOLITARY CONFINEMENT.]

{Okai, now you're definitely exaggerating.}

[i am NOT.]

{Yes, you are. It's not that bad, only a little boring.]

[e.e;]

{Also, see? Someone likes my speech pattern =^=}

Haha... speech pattern =w=

{e.e;}

Dude, you need like, a british accent or something.

{I don't /want/ a british accent.}

XD But you need oneee lol.

[Silrain the Everlurking]

Accents are fun, and entertaining to hear people talking in them ^w^ Mel Loves them. In my illustrator class the teacher is part Italian with a Brooklyn accent and the student assistant has an Irish accent. Mel especially enjoys when the assistant talks XD

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

{Accents are fun, but i like mine, so i dont wanna change it =^=; }

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

UPDATE FOR UPDATE'S SAKE YAYYYYYYYYYYY

 

This is pi.

Pi says hi.

This is pi when the train goes by:

 

3.141592653589793238462643383279502884197169399375105820974944592307816406286 20899862803482 550582231725359408128481

11745028410270 975665933446128475648233

78678316527120 607260249141273724587006

60631558817488 330530548820466521384146

95194151160943 105118548074462379962749

56735188575272 Someone find the guy 086021394946395224737190

70217986094370 who ran his train through here. 132000568127145263560827

78577134275778 Seriously, 585371050792279689258923

54201995611212 Like half the digits of pi 707211349999998372978049

95105973173281 that were here 344685035261931188171010

00313783875288 are missing now 428755468731159562863882

35378759375195 thanks to that idiot. 909216420198938095257201

06548586327886 773622599413891249721775

28347913151557 075098381754637464939319

25506040092770 710181942955596198946767

83744944825537 293313677028989152104752

16205696602405 Screw you dude. 263914199272604269922796

78235478163600 749838505494588586926995

 

EDIT: Aww, it got screwed up oAo I'll attach a pic of it non-screwed up lol.

 

Anywayssss~~~~ Guess wat. Muse isn't affected by binaural beats XD Forseen is though. Tripping Forseen is Funny Forseen XD lol I'm awesome.

 

Um... any more fun update-y things to talk about? Errr.... nah, not really. Muse and I are sorta writing a song, but meh.

I've find I've gotten into music more since I've gotten the two of them.

Oh yeah, I slept till 5pm today gais. lolz.

askdja I dunno, im bored. Nothing new really.

OH WAIT YA Forseen's eyes are green apparently. I just freaking noticed after thinking they were reddish-brown for the longest time. And he never bothered to correct me. That jackass.

 

So ya. Nothin' new. 'cept N1ghty totally stole my i-change-my-PR-title-cuz-i-can thing, lolz. Whatevah. I'd kill him but i don't wanna swim 'cross an ocean.

 

BYE-NII~~~~~~~

 

//rolls away/

 

[What the fuck kinda update what that.]

{I don't know, I'm not sure if she's gone crazy from excessive sleep, lack of sleep, of binaural beats.}

[i'm not talking about that I'm talking about pi. Who the fuck updates with a pi that had a train run through it.]

{Uh... I think my answer still stands as it is.}

Heehee =w=

[N1ghtSl4yer]

Why is it that I don't believe you're not high or something? XD

And I did not steal it Jesus I just decided that my PR name was getting sorta boring and plus it's like more interesting that way.

 

Also, what can you guys do?

I mean as in possession, switching, imposing, etc? And if you can do say Possession for one of your Tulpas, can the other therefore do it too? Like when they join into a single Being?

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

IM NOT I SWEAR XD

Pssh, sureee~

 

Muse can posses my arms really easily, working on legs. Forseen /can/ possess, but it’s still jerky and it takes some effort and he honestly doesnt care much for it lol. I dunno about Alex, id assume he could... ill have to go try that now o.o

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

Hai gais! :D I have Alex with me right nao, so let's conduct a little interview, okais? :3 I'mma find a character ref sheet...

 

Also, I don't think i ever actually posted that sketch of him... whoops. I'll attach it (her eyes are a darkish blue btw, it's not coloured on the pic). Anyways~

 

Name: |Alex ??? Montegomery|

Age: 14 (Yeah, cuz 17+17=14 guys! Honestly, that confused me a lot) |What? I'm 14, honestly, what's so complicated about that?|

Sex: Male (Still 99% sure that has something to do with the fact Muse had no genitalia) |Probably, all I know is it's easy to piss with it.|

Gender: None

Voice: Howdoidescribeit. Um... take Len, make him sound even girlier, then lower it. Or something. I dunno. Scratch that i figured this out. Take Applejack and remove her accent almost completely. THERE.

 

Me: Soo... wats ur fav food?

Alex: Uhh, I dunno. You've never really ate much with me... blueberries maybe? Yeah, I'll go with blueberries until later.

Me: ... does that have anything to do with the fact ur blue.

Alex: >.> No, it does not. Just a fucking coincidence, okay?

Me: Oki. What's ur fav colour?

Alex: ... what the fuck do you think?!

Me: XD Alright alright. What's your favourite mode of transportation?

Alex: ...wat.

Me: What is it?

Alex: I dunno, my feet?

Me: But you wear high heels.

Alex: So?

Me: High heels are a pain in the butt to walk in.

Alex: Maybe for you, not for me.

Me: Well alrighty then. Team Edward or Team Jacob?

Alex: Team Dracula.

Me: Zombies, vampires or werewolves?

Alex: Um... I dunno. Zombies are fun to kill though.

Me: Do u liek pi.

Alex: 3.14159.

Me: Am I annoying.

Alex: Yes, but for good reason, so I'll keep this up.

Me: Fav music?

Alex: Techno's cool. House, ya know.

Me: R U SPONGEBOB????

Alex: No, I rather not be a sponge affected by radiation poisoning who lives in a pineapple. If anything, I wanna live in a pumpkin. Like Max. Pumpkins are awesome.

 

Okai, enough with the pointless questions. |Awesome.| Now, lemme update.

 

So I tried out possession with Alex. He can possess, but he has trouble taking control like Forseen. Once he does though, he seems to move as fluently as Muse, if maybe a bit more fluently. Also it seems when it comes to memories, he only knows big things that have happened. Recent things and small details he can't recall at all (for example, I made a little area in the wall as my emo corner today lol, it was a couple hours before I pulled up Alex and he was surprised about it being there. He was also somewhat surprised by the grand piano Muse had put in the house a few days ago. Also, as he said I haven't eaten much with him with me and so he doesn't truly know what many foods taste like).

 

Also, turns out he can sorta 'hear' Forseen and Muse, and then send their thoughts to me. I don't really hear them, but more like I can feel what they mean, ya know? I called it leaking =w=

 

Turns out it was some sort of tulpa-ception thing. You know the void Muse and Forseen described before? That was Alex's 'mind' almost. It has literally nothing in it, so I'm assuming that's why he can't exist without Muse or Forseen, who basically are the root of his consciousness. Also explains how everything about him seems to be some sort of compromise between the two of them. I asked him to make it less creepy in his head though so he made it into this grassy field and showed it to me via image streaming. Once Forseen and Muse come back I'mma ask them about it.

 

Also, she leaked Forseen to me and I basically got an emotional response equal to "im not enjoying this at all" so i told Alex to put some zombies in there and give him a flamethrower lol. But then she said it hurt o.O So he asked Forseen to stop, kinda, and after a bit she said it stopped hurting... I'm really confused about that.

 

That's really all there is to that. Unless he has anything to say?

|Uhh... not really. Hi? Bye? I have no fucking clue.|

 

lol PEACE BROS.

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

Guys, guys, I just... I just realized something.

 

Alex... was my imaginary friend. From way back when.

See, when I was little, like, 5 or 6, I had an imaginary friend. I forget why I made one, but I did. It was a little girl the same age as me, she had shortish black hair with bangs and I remember her always wearing a skirt. She was really nice and her favourite colour was blue. I played with her when I was bored and had no one else to play with. I only had a small group of friends who never came over, and my sister was only around 2 or 3 at the time.

 

She was what we'd now call a servitor. I controlled everything she did and played with her like that. She never developed sentience. She was just a puppet for me when I got lonely.

My parents were fine with this. Remember, I was 5 at the time, having imaginary friends at that age was normal and okay. They'd ask me what Alex was doing, and I'd make something up.

I honestly didn't even play with her that often, but I kept her until I moved to the States when I was nine. At that age I had almost completely forgotten about her. I was too preoccupied with school and making new actual friends and a giant mess at my old school in Canada before we left. After that, I never brought her up again. Until I was maybe 12.

 

I'm not sure how it came up, but my parents mentioned her again. They asked me if I remembered Alex, and I said of course. They asked me what happened to her. I honestly didn't know how to respond. So I made up a story about how she moved to North Carolina. It felt bad to just say I had forgotten and stopped playing with her.

I kept with this story every time she was brought up, which was about once every blue moon. I haven't talked about her in over a year. She was just forgotten.

 

Then one day I found tulpas. I started by trying to make a female tulpa. I was going to base her off of an oc. However, something happened and she got split, which is how I ended up with both Forseen and Muse. So I forced the two of them, always remembering how they had split. Finally, I decided to see what would happen if they merged. And so Alex appeared.

When she first showed up, as a glowing orb or essence, I had freaked out and gave her a very simple anime form created entirely by whim. She took it and was quite happy and cheerful. But something about her seemed... familiar. I thought it was only cuz she was created from Forseen and Muse merging, so I ignored it.

It was then she decided on the name Alex. It surprised me a lot actually. I mean, look at my other two tulpas' names. Alex was just so... normal. I had guessed she took it since I now know a LOT of people named Alex (like, 5, not even kidding) and moved on. I let her split again and got Forseen and Muse back.

The second time I called her up, she had changed a bit. Deviated a little bit. Or maybe she was just clearer, I'm not sure. Nothing really happened here. Same goes for the third time.

 

Now I've called upon her a fourth time. I'm drawing her, and so many parts of her seem so familiar. Her bangs. Her skirt. The colour blue. Then I came upon this and everything clicked.

 

Alex. She was back. Or more like... she never left. I made up that whole story about North Carolina to keep myself from not feeling guilty about forgetting her. It never actually happened.

Now I see why I kept struggling to call her 'him'. She has male genitalia, and was genderless, so yeah, him seemed to fit better, even if he looked like a girl. But I've read yaoi, I've seen traps, I'm used to it. So why was it so hard to call Alex 'him'? Cuz he was a her the whole time. I knew it somewhere in the back of my mind and it kept telling me, but I kept fighting it.

 

But now I finally realized, and I kid you not when it hit me I almost cried. Alex herself seemed really confused, but I was just so happy.

 

|I just wanna talk here a little. I don't remember anything from way back when. Nothing at all almost. All I know is I've always existed, I've always existed almost as long as Flo has. I don't remember anything from being a servitor, but I am glad that I can be with Flo again as a tulpa. I know she'll want to keep Forseen and Muse, they have also formed a strong bond with her, so I won't be selfish and refuse to split. I just ask to be allowed to hang around as much at them. And for Forseen to get over being cooped up in my head. Seriously XD He's still being an ass about it.|

 

lol ^^; Ahahaha...

My friend is back, and you don't know how happy I am.

Now, it's time to see if I can turn all three of them into full blown tulpae, instead of being half of one or just the result of a merge.

 

I don't know if this will be possible, but I'll make it so.

This is my mind, and I'll control it to do what I want.