Flo's PR (Potatoes)

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

Guys, the weirdest thing happened last night.

 

So I was reading Jimmy's log. I've heard about it, but I haven't ever actually read it, so I was just skimming through it. He talked about removing stuff from his tulpa's souls. Also, lotta splitting and merging and tulpas rotating in and out. Wow, just wow.

 

Anyways, afterwards I was talking with my tulpas in bed. Neither one of them were tired or felt like sleeping, so they were gonna just stay up. I wondered about the soul thing, and asked if I could see theirs.

 

I started with Muse since with her bjd form, kinda 'cutting her open' seemed less, uh, sadistic ^^; She took off her sweater and I sorta 'cut' two door-like flaps on her chest with my fingers, like I did when I was dissecting her pig. Then I opened it like cabinet doors and looked inside. It's hard to explain what her essence or soul looked like. It was like a round glowing ball/orb thing, but it wasn't exactly solid. It was pink and light blue at the same time, and it kinda just... floated there.

Now being the idiot I am, I pulled it out (don't worry, I asked Muse first, she trusted me ^^; ). It didn't really feel like anything. Muse's form kinda just slumped there like an empty shell. So after a while of just examinng, I put it back inside her, closed her up, magically got rid of the lines, and poof, she's totally back to normal. She described it as feeling 'weird'. Like she was pretty conscious the whole time, but couldn't really do anything.

 

Then I begged Forseen if I could do the same thing. Blah blah blah, I cut him open and the glowy orb soul thing was underneath her heart. Yeah, cutting him open was a bit more disturbing ^^; His was kinda darker, more red than pink, but still kinda bluish. Then I took it out too. Kinda did the same thing, looked at it, he kinda sat there like a dead empty shell, then I put it back in and closed it up.

 

Omg, he was like, freaking out. He said it was the scariest thing ever XD I think I started laughing actually by how much he was over reacting lol. I'm such a bad host. Don't really think I'm gonna do that again ^^;

 

I'm not exactly sure what caused it, but I thought about them merging and asked them about it. I promised them that they would be able to go back to normal, I just wanted to see what happened. Kinda just going "this is my mind, i can control everything in it, i can split you guys back again" and stuff like that. I even materialized this glowing axe thing and started waving it around going "this is my soul splitter, see it? I'll use it to split you guys up again". In the end, I think I just scared them into doing it ^^;

 

They held hands and sorta pressed their foreheads together. I don't remember exactly wat happened... just a lot of lights flashing about and then another glowing orb. This was was almost white, but it still ad traces of blue and red/pink in it. Their forms were empty shells again e.e;

 

Anyways, at this time I was kinda freaking out going "CRAP CRAP WHAT DO I PUT THIS ORB THING IN" and so ended up quickly thinking up a basic form and putting the orb thing inside it. Gave it a manga face since they're easier for me to imagine and some hair. Honestly didn't bother to look at much anything else. It was a trap, aka a dude who looked like a girl. Why? Well, I wasn't sure what gender to do... so that was my version of a compromise ^^;

 

The new merged tulpa immediately blinked a few times and smiled. I asked him for his name, and he basically asked "well, i dunno". He came up with some name that started with an I (I forget what it was exactly), which to me sounded like a girl's name, so I asked if he was actually a girl? He blinked in surprise and replied with something online the lines of "Oh, that does sound like a girl's name doesn't it? Guess I should choose something else. How about... Alex?"

 

And so I met Alex. I talked with him a little bit and immediately aw both Muse and Forseen-like traits in him. She seemed quite joyful and outgoing like Muse, but also gave off the aura of "don't mess with me or you'll get your ass kicked" like Forseen. After a bit of talking I wondered if she knew where he came from. I forget I actually asked or not, but it turns out she knew he was from Forseen and Muse. He explained to me about how I originally only created one tulpa, and how I was trying to force opposite traits, and how some traits overpowered the others and like, kicked them out or something. Asking me questions like "haven't you noticed how one-sided they could be?" and stuff like that. She knew about Forseen and Muse and their history and everything, it was so weird o.o

 

And so I asked her if she could split back. I honestly expected her to say no and refuse, but instead she just blinked again, said "ok!" all bright and happy-cheery and stuff, and did that weird Naruto shadow clone thing. This time, less lights and more smoke. But I saw Forseen and Muse's two essences reappear and float back to their forms. They woke up and I asked if they were okai.

 

They were fine, but really tired and ended up going straight to bed and sleeping even later than I did. Like, legit sleeping, not their usual fake sleeping where they would still talk to me sometimes.

 

I walked around the wonderland a little bit afterwards, kinda thinking. Ten I realized the merged tulpa's form had appeared in front of me. I took a closer look at some parts, the sex of the form was male, but he really looked like a girl. Then, this caught me totally offguard, the form kinda got pissed at me for touching and feeling it, turned around, walked off towards the door, and just dissipated. Two more tiny little specks of light then flew off into Forseen's room (Muse was sleeping there too). I rand outside and found this keychain thing on the ground. It was the key ring with a little flat charm thing that looked similar to the merged tulpa in a sort of minecraft form and a blue/white/teal feather sort of charm. I still have it.

 

Next day (aka today after they decided to wake up), I asked them about what they remember and they don't seem to remember much. Forseen could recall the name Alex and Muse could recall the image of a blue-haired girl. Honestly, before I asked them I thought it was some really crzay dream I had, but turned out it actually happened o.o

 

I'm still trying to process everything that happened. It sounds like some sort of role-player's plot, but I it seemed to have actually happened.

 

So like, IS THIS NORMAL?????

[Silrain the Everlurking]

Your guess is as good as mine. What is "normal" anyways? XD Can we say anything about what we do here is considered "normal?" :P

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

XD I guess that's true, it was still weird though. Not a thing I thought could happen. Anyone else had really weird crap happen to them?

[Shui]

Normal? It's an experience most people will never have in their lifetimes, but I don't think it's unusual, or that it indicates something bad.

[Silrain the Everlurking]

But yeah that is a strange thing to happen, I can't say I've had anything like that happen. I haven't even been at this a month yet.

 

For me I guess just something interesting was when first starting to practice possession with Mel, One of the first things she did after gaining control of my hand and arm was put my hand on the side of my face then hold onto my left hand which I still had control of.

 

A funnier story is that I give Mel control of my left hand during class as I'm about to fall asleep so she can poke me in the face to keep me awake

Even when I don't have to wake up as early as I do in highschool I'm still not a morning person

 

 

Normal? It's an experience most people will never have in their lifetimes, but I don't think it's unusual, or that it indicates something bad.

 

agreed, doesn't seem like anything bad.

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

XD Well okai, it was just so odd and it kinda freaked me out. But if you guys think it's nothing bad and my tulpas still seem okai (if maybe still a little tired) then that's good ^^

[N1ghtSl4yer]

You're welcome xD

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

XD wtf dude, i already drew your tulpa! Lol but fine, if there’s anything else you want me to draw just pm me k?

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

GUYS GUYS GUYS IT HAPPENED AGAIN OAO NOT EVEN ON PURPOSE THIS TIME.

 

They went to sleep right? So I'm just kinda lying in bed, bored, still thinking about the weird crap that happened. I tried to recall what their souls looked like, and was just sorta visualizing them. then I tried to visualize Alex's soul to see if I could recall it, and so merged Muse and Forseen's souls to make it. Apparently this set off some symbolism in my head and poof, Alex showed up again. "Hii!!"

 

O.O Dafaq. Where did you come from.

 

Anyways, I tried talking with her a bit more, asking about her. I also figured out what colour his skirt was lol (Muse and I were kinda having a debate about it earlier cuz she said it was blue but I thought it was black, it was a dark blue :P). I also took a closer and more detailed look at her form besides the blocks of colour I saw before. I'll try to draw her later and update this.

 

Also asked about his gender. He sex was male I knew that, but I asked about his gender and he didn't really give me an answer ^^; Kinda why I keep switching between him and her here. Just typing whatever I feel like.

 

Also noticed my keychain disappeared when he poofed in. Same goes for my other two tulpae e.e; It was so weird. Like, Forseen was napping on the couch right? So we're talking and she's like "let's go sit on the couch" and I'm like "okai" so we head over there and sit down. It actually took a second for me to realize HEY HOLY FACK DAFRICK DID FORSEEN GO O.O Totally freaked me out, but she told me I could poof up their forms if I wanted to, so I just conjured Forseen up and his form kinda just stood there awkwardly. Didnt do anything, cuz he was, well, inside Alex at the time e.e;

 

Honestly this happened a few days ago so I really don't remember what happened, but I really just talked with him and after a while I got really tired so I'm like "Yo, can you like, go? I wanna sleep" and he disappeared and poof, my sleeping tulpas are back.

 

I asked them if they remembered anything this time... nothing. Forseen said he was dead asleep the entire time and Muse doesn't remember anything.

 

GUYS MY MIND IS WEIRD AS SHIT O.O

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

{Hey guys Flo's feeling a little down and she says we need to update but she doesn't feel like it, so I guess Ill type something up. Okay? Okay! ^w^

 

Honestly, I worry about her >.< I can't type anything she doesn't like or she'll just delete it, but you know... she has her ups and downs. Usually ups, but sheesh, when she crashes she crashes HARD.}

 

Stop right there or I'll delete it.

 

{ ^-^; Anywayss... I haven't done much, I've just sort of floated around. I have wings now! ^w^ I gave myself a pair. Er, well, sort of two pairs. When I'm at my normal height I have fairy-like wings since I'm so small, but when I grow to around the same size as an average teen girl, you know, 5' or something (but I guess that's a bit on the short side), I switch them out for more angelic wings. They're pretty too and better suited for a larger body in my opinion ;P Haha, I freaked Flo out the first time she saw them, I was just flying around when she saw me with a "O.O" expression on her face XD I don't really keep them on all the time though, they make it a bit hard to sit, especially since I almost always sit back with my back pressed against something. More natural for me.}

 

She honestly sits way more proper than I do. You see me on the couch with my hands wherever and my feet up, she sits up straight like a lady. Or just like flops there like a doll, lol.

 

{Haha, yeah, I guess that's true. You need to learn how to sit better >.<;

 

Anyways, Forseen and Flo did something quite peculiar but amazing last night. Now, I don't know HOW they figured out how to do this, nor do I want to know, but he can give her a sort of dopamine shot that releases endorphins to her. The symptoms are, well, similar to the pleasure felt during sexual intercourse, along with feeling the urge to laugh, apparently.}

 

Dude, like, omg, ew, don't put it that way. It makes me sound sick.

 

{... you are sick.}

 

I am not sick.

 

{When you get bored your first idea of entertainment is to read or watch hentai.}

 

... okai, shuddup. It's just awesome though, I get all loopy and I cant thinkkkk loool XD

 

{I love how this conversation's making you feel better.}

 

>.> omg, just like seriously, shuddup.

 

{Forseen's laughing.}

 

[You guys... oh my fuck you guys...]

 

adajksd gimme my hands back e.e;

 

ANYWAYSSSSSS, it does not feel like the "pleasure you get from sexual intercourse" or whatever the hay she said. I don't even know what that feels like, I mean, dude, I'm 14. All i know is it's fun and I can't think. I'm just kinda like "WEEEEEEEEEE" and I tremble/shiver a lot. Whatev's gais, whatev's. It's just kinda cool that Forseen learned how to do that.

 

{How did he learn how to do that? ... wait, I don't wanna know.}

 

XD Relax dude, he was just teasing me when I was trying to read and somehow triggered it by accident.

 

Yeah, ignoring them for a moment (im so nice) so I can explain this properly. He did trigger it by accident, I felt really weird for a moment and asked him if he was doing it. He said he thought so so I asked him to stop and poof, there, stopped. then I told him to try to activate it again and poof, back the feeling came. Before it did though, he was like "K, lemme find it first" so afterwards I asked him what exactly he was trying to find. Turns out he was like, poking at this thing that i honestly don't know where it came from. Asked him to show me and I couldn't see anything. He said something around the lines of "well, i can't really see it either, but i just can kinda see it there, you get it?"

 

That's honestly the best way to describe it. I could "see" it after trying again, like I knew it was there and stuff, but I couldn't really like, physically see it in my mind's eye, so I honestly have no idea what it looks like. Maybe I should give it a form or something. ... eh, I'm lazyyyy.....

 

Also, gais, tulpa logic is like, the most faulty logic ever. Like, I was making Forseen say some metrosexual test and one of them was like "do you comb your hair" and he was like "i dont need to, i just keep it in place". Honestly dude? Y CANT I DO DAT IN REAL LIFE. And like, wings. Outta nowhere. She just poofed them onto her back and flied around. I was like "wat did you do, cut two slits in your sweater?" and she said no she just gave herself wings. HOW DOES THAT WORK. WAT. GAIS.

 

{ *giggle-laughs* You mind doesn't follow real life rules you know.}

 

Dude, it's so weird and annoying. Like, I was reading something about physics, and just to be a butt you decide "hey im gonna float in the air" REMEMBER THAT?

 

{Um.. sorta? Not really.}

 

e.e; My mind has no scientific laws gaisssssss oAo

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Ay, got so caught up with things that happened before, I forgot about today XD

 

Lemme just say I went to church and FORSEEN IS LIEK THE MOST DISRESPECTFUL ATHIEST DUDE EVER.

 

[You talk to a guy. In the sky. .. hey that rhymes! XD]

 

>.> But yeah. Like, praying for two seconds, guy on the stage praying outloud, Forseen mocking the dude in my head. I say Amen, he goes "Fuck you". Dude, wat, that's just mean.

 

[God does not exist. And it's not like anyone else can hear me. I know for a fact you can deal with it quite easily. Plus, you're not even that hardcore of a Christian.]

 

e.e; Still.

 

[Don't worry, it's not like I would've said that if anyone else could hear.]

 

DUDE YOU LIVE IN MY HEAD ANYTHING YOU SAY MIGHT BE USED AGAINST ME.

 

[Damn, chill girl.]

 

e.e; Don't be rude like that again.

 

 

[Fine, fine...]

 

-_-;