To this day, with my Tulpa; Forcer's Block

[N1ghtSl4yer]

[Just a quick question]

 

Sometimes when I'm doing something, I'll get odd thoughts related to my Tulpa, is this her?

 

Example:

I watched the RWBY trailers for the 1000th time last night, and in my mind clear as a bell I thought out of nowhere;

"Wren wants to be like Blake." But I had never considered that, nor had the idea for her to even be that type.

Then later,

"Wow dude those gloves would be fucking epic for me to smash shit and assholes with - I could save you a lot of trouble."

 

Now while I agree with Yellow's fucking badass shotgun gloves, these thoughts were like, from Wren, I guess. No different voice or speaker-like sounds in my head, just hugely dominant thoughts.

 

Also we did a day of music enrichment at school in which I was placed on drums today. I had jack shit of an idea what to do seeing as I can't play drums, but then I felt the head pressures like when I try to force, and I had a thoughtform or something of a beat. It was like.... It's like remembering how something feels, like a muscle memory of playing a song, or even how it feels to pedal a bike... And I just replayed that.

Turns out I'm a beast at double bass pedalling and pretty decent at drums.

 

Is this her by chance?

Couldn't have been me as I was sort of overwhelmed by the OH SHIT WE HAVE AN HOUR TO LEARN LIP GLOSS AND BLACK SHIT SHIT IVE NEVER PLAYED DRUMS SHIT CLUSTERFUCKING BULLCRAP SHIT FUCK TITS UGH and unable to think until I literally got a knock on the conciousness.

 

Her? Or just my mind slapping me into the present?

 

(Oh wow, I can write too much about too little @.@ no wonder I'm so good at English assignments...)

[Zer0.iNSaNiTY]

Bro, i LOVE your new icon, loool XD

 

And dude, i think so? Similar things happen to me, Muse sometimes randomly possesses me when im playing piano and makes something up that sounds awesome, and sometimes when i look at someone i suddenly focus on their clothes with thoughts like "thats pretty awesome" and "those do NOT go together, what?" which are both things id never think (since i have next to no fashion sense) but are very dominantly Forseen. They usually just feel like its from either one of them, even though they may not be much different from my usual thoughts. I dunno.

[N1ghtSl4yer]

You would expect to know pretty much everything about this/these extraordinary extension(s) of your mind and soul off the bat, right? Wrong.

 

I'm learning something new about Wren everyday, and every day we make a little progress. And it might just be me here, but my wonderland is real-time updating using my body clock - lest I think that's what's happening. That in itself is freaking awesome. Also, she is able to influence my thoughts, as I mentioned previously.

 

Today, while only 10 minutes into my hour long 11pm fitness session, I sort of sprawled out on my front and just lay there - palms up, feet out, on my left cheek. Then I could just sense her giggling, and so I scorned at how I have a physical body to upkeep - too much effort. >.>

Then I said "Y'know what? You try. Move my frigging body." Seeing as every time before she couldn't.

 

I got feelings of warmth in my feet, and in my fingertips, and then my left ring and index finger started flexing in and out - about 5 times.

Creeped me out o.o

 

Then I went to ask her about it and the pressure was gone.

 

I jumped to the wonderland and it was dark, (The trend regarding updating the time there had been going on now, so I posted it.) I found her hidden under blankets at her computer desk on the forums. She just said "Hey, whenever something great happens you cut the session and update, why can't I?", in a sort of 'fuck you' tone. Like when a teenager answers back their butthead parents.

 

And I'm just like,

"Dude I love you."

And she's like

"Dude I know. You even embarrassed me with that message dude."

And I'm all like

"Sorry dude."

And she's like

"Its ok dude"

 

Dude.

 

As I write this I'm trying to overlap realities - as in trying to visualise myself first person in Wren's room with her, in the dark, on her cherry red laptop, updating.

It's working okay.

We're hugging and sitting under blankets by the light of the laptop. shes talking all whisper-ey are her cheeks are so red and really warm because she's remembering I posted that message on a public forum. XD Hehuehehue.

 

We also added a new feature to the wonderland, and it's sort of hard to describe - I'll do my best.

Okay, so it's like a bubble which fits perfectly to Wren (she stands inside.) so she can touch the top and bottom at the same time, and it doesn't pop. What happens then is I leave the wonderland, and she concentrates on my memories. She then brings up a floating HUD, and uses this to browse my memories (Seems to make it easier.). Then, the wonderland goes dead black, and we both concentrate on the place - by doing this I can try to re-live old memories from a different perspective, using my knowledge of my environments, and have Wren with me, as if we were passers by. (Reminds me of when you're hiding in a crowd in Assassin's Creed with somebody locked on, if that helps. Plus the whole re-living memories is just Assassin's Creed all over again.)

 

It's a useful and pretty darn awesome thing to have, along with all of these new techniques and wonderland objects. Heck, even jumping into a black abyss to enter your mind like Ganju from Bleach says to access your spirit energy helps me ._.

This thingamabob also works for games, as I had her hunt a Brachydios because she put me off SO FUCKING MUCH when I killed my first one. HAHAHAHA.

[N1ghtSl4yer]

She finally figured out how to use the necklace that alters time etc.

Not sure if me gusta.

 

You see, ever since, she's just made it night and sat wrapped in blankets on her laptop ._.

I'm not one to judge, but COME ON, WE'RE SUPPOSED TO DO FUN STUFF TOGETHER YOU BUTT - WHERE THE HELL'D YOU EVEN GET A LAPTOP!?

 

Also the necklace contains some magical cosmic ruby I am yet to name. Basically, the necklace's platinum skeleton houses the ruby (Obviously), and also a portal to another dimension. It looks a lot like when the Time Gear is removed from somewhere in Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers Of Time on the other side.

It's part of a great big slab covered in marks and carvings coming out of the ground (Dimensions; meter deep by 8 meters high by 3 meters wide approx). Moving the ruby around like a mouse-scroller in the necklace basically moves this portal over the slab - and having different combinations of symbols appear in our original dimension causes environmental changes (She made everything purple >.> ) \(>__<\)

I made a bigger portal so we could investiniggle.

Logical developments, people. Logical developments.

 

That was a 5-minute "Interweb Bwake" for her.

 

I plan to try her finger-controlling "wizardry" at guitar hero sometime. But I am too lazy to get her up. She made shackles to her bed.

WTF man this is serious totally not insane in any way or kinky business .m.

 

 

We just have random conversations throughout the days which last from three lines to 20 minutes or so. We seem to be using her form and the wonderland a minimal amount - also I'm rarely able to concentrate strongly enough to get a strong, worthwhile, active session in - but she doesn't seem to mind. I think that's just her preferring the laptop though.

 

Maybe she's acting upon the part of my subconcious trying to better me as a person. It all makes sense, so I shall explain, but prepare for a ton of my life and bullshit.

 

I'd say, from about year 8, to early year 10, I was pretty popular. I had plenty of friends from surrounding areas and i knew a lot of people. I had plenty of close relations and I always had a girlfriend. I was very, very, happy. I was used to a pretty high life, getting attention, girls, going out and having fun, I was used to it.

From say, December last year, I just sort of stopped. I broke up with someone i'd been with since that May or so and just died. A lot of bullshit just made a huge knock-on effect from there, including Anaemia and even more people I needed leaving. That and being taken to a BLISTERING HOT SHITPIT OF FLIES AND NO SPACE AND NO WIFI AND NO ELECTRONICS AND NO FOOD AN ENDLESS COMPLAINING AND HAYFEVER THAT IS THE CARAVAN EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND.

After a short while, I caved in inside, collapsed, and was sucked into a whirlpool of misery and tears. Even now, I can't forget my time with her, I can't go out and meet people - I just see them happy with their others and it reminds me, so I end up drifting out with my bestie when I do go out, or just avoiding the outside world. I always remember her - she made too strong an impact on me, and what i have now is nothing like how it used to, im not used to it and my standards have gotten too high. Had plenty of reality checks and mental breakdowns due to how much of an ignoramus twat I am. Most every night, I wish I could go back to last summer, because it was the best of my life - it's like i'm having social life withdrawl symptoms or some silly sounding shit.

For a while, i've been depressed (I would say). I have all of the symptoms (insomnia, oversleeping, loss of appetite, to name a few), and I generally end up teary by the end of my nights laying awake, thinking about jack shit. When I first began forcing, about two weeks in, I swear one night I felt the warmth of a hug around me, coming from behind trying to comfort me from my no-named Tulpa. Wren won't answer about that, though - she blanks me.

After much searching I tried to get out and try Parkour - because I find it to be the most awesome thing in the history of the outside world, and i'm pretty good. However, if my blood isn't pumping from running, even fighting, or arguing, I just feel sick, sad, and lonely.

So recently, I've decided that i'm going to try to find someone. It's just that I know everyone around me. They're either too close, known for too long, someone I wouldn't go out with, or taken. So, I weep over the start line, with nowhere to go.

 

I started my Tulpa in February, Parkour in May, and this plan for self-improvement and such about June. I find that as a Boyfriend, I tend to be a little pushy - not sexually, but like, enforcing my mind on people without meaning to. Like trying for 20 minutes to pull a girl over a ditch I can sooo jump over (I can.), which is not attractive to them. However, not being adventurous is boring so screw them.

 

As such, whenever I cut forcing sessions abruptly, spend excessive amounts of time zoned out of the wonderland, Wren gets bored and feels like punishing me in one way or another. The first, was using teleknesis to push me over in the library and having me break my toenail irl some time back in my log. She now ignores me when I leave for ages, and perhaps this temperamental talking is something to do with it. Bitches be schemin', but I be foilin'.

 

I suppose it's better than breaking my body, as when she ignores me or WAKES ME UP IN THE MORNING WHEN I MANAGE TO FUCKING SLEEP BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO, I actually get a sense of empathy for whoever I condemned to such an equally horrid fate by enforcing my own law. I hate it, as in the feeling I get. But I love her for it too.

I'm thus going to be more self-conscious and use these abilities granted by Tulpas to read body language better and see if I can't be a better, and more attractive person. The fact it's my Tulpa who is supposed to show unconditional love is kinda mean though, but it's probably the only way.

 

For now, I suppose when I crave a cuddle and somebody to cling to, Wren will do (She's warm, cute, and willing XD ), so I got this, less sadness for me, more Tulpa exercises for US \M/

 

 

End of shitty not-actually-progress report.

Sorry for personal bullshit. It's context, people.

[N1ghtSl4yer]

I suppose I should update with our soul experiments, seeing as I see plenty of people doing that.

 

I did it before bed, so about 1am.

After asking her consent, I sat her against our tree stump facing the house, and took of her top. I pulled up a set on tools on a table that came out of the ground, and went to cut her open. I did what I saw on the forums - cut straight down the middle of the torso, then open like doors.

 

The problem with this being the way I created her.

 

Because I had trouble at first with looks, then proportions and natural looking movement, I started with a skeleton, organs, muscles, then skin.

Aaaaand all of that was still there. No soul in sight. Just a bad smell and some pulsing insides. Nice to know it was intact though.

So I did the next best thing I knew.

I used some needles to stitch her up, and sewed myself a copy of Rukia Kuchki's glove she uses to remove people's spirits from their bodies.

I stood her up, put it on, and promptly punched her in the forehead.

 

Surely enough, she fell over and landed on her back, with her knees bent and her hands sprawled above her head just going "auagaagaugaggaaiaisiddgdudhdbdjdjdjddbhdhdhdgdiddjuduuuuuuu" and looking sort of retarded.

Where her head was floated a soul - it looked the same as a soul from Souleater. A blue fiery orb/wisp. It was the same spectral blue aswell, but more fiery.

Although it had no solid interior, I cracked it open and there were some coloured pieces inside - about 20, thumbnail sized, no specific shapes.

I pulled out my briefcase from the table, and opened it up. It was silver with a black interior - split into 8 segments with 8 different colour pieces like the ones in Wren's soul. The thing was, she had none of the black ones in it - I thought it would be balanced, but I still had no idea what they were.

 

Being the idiot I am, I emptied her soul and filled it with a handful of black pieces. The previous ones turned to dust in the breeze. I clicked it shut and the flame went dark red and black. I pushed it into her dribbling mouth and her eyes opened wide. She convulsed and began shouting, before turning into some kind of volcanic monster, completely unrecognisable. She tried to kill me for about an hour, destroying a lot of our forest and field.

I finally managed to punch her out again, and her body slumped and it returned to normal.

 

This time I added one black, eight red, and a white. To see what it would do.

She woke up this time with a confidently sly impression and said "oh, look at you - won't you help a poor girl up?"

She used her hand like a wand to change her clothes into a red flowing dress, showing her leg, and to put on some sorta vampire looking makeup. Kinda odd.

I started talking to her but she just agreed with everything I said, and started nipping at my chin. She called me sweetie a lot and I got a bit weirded out. Seems the red and black made her some kind of gothic vampire seductress, I didn't even know what was happening.

 

Once again, I punched her into next week, and tinkered. But this time I just wanted my Tulpa back - who knows how it felt for her.

I tried to remember what she had inside.... Eight whites, two purple, one green, a red, five orange, and a few yellow.

I put in a black, forgetting that she didn't have one before.

When she woke up this time she choked and spluttered in the ground, I picked her up and held her, asking if she were okay.

She didn't reply, but instead pushed me off of her.

She walked back to the house and said she wanted to sleep.

 

I found her later in a new room, with a huge bed with orange quilts, and a panoramic window showing the sea and garden. The lights were off and she was reading by a bedside lamp in a nightie.

 

"You don't read and you don't wear anything but underwear to bed, are you okay?"

[Don't tell me who I am, I just feel like it. I feel that I need to keep at least some sense of dignity.]

"This... This isn't like you, did I mess up putting your soul back?"

She didn't reply, going back to the book.

"Can.. Can I check it? Maybe I did it wrong..."

She quickly stood up.

["No! I know that you may have reign over any dimension or world I am able to co-exist with you in, but at least leave me to the privacy of my own soul!"]

 

She pushed me into the smaller bedroom down the hall and shut the door. After a while I sat in the infirmary, just a few floor beds and cupboards with medical supplies in - like Kisuke from Bleach's shop, and tried to start desensitising myself from needles again, seeing as I'm scared shitless.

I thought that maybe I could whack it out of her and check it out in her sleep, but after that thought I was met with an intense head pressure and thoughts of ["I know what you're thinking you blithering idiot, keep away from my stinkin' soul."]

 

Lately she's just been sort of evil eyes all the time, and seemingly uninterested in me or my actions. Just judging me.

"You're an Idiot for not using the lift."

"It said use the hidden blade you fucking numbnut."

"Stop getting hit so much, no wonder you're always out of freaking antidotes."

 

I just mentally shoved her out of the front of my mind and we haven't talked since.

 

Help?

---

Hey, at least she talked...

;__;

[N1ghtSl4yer]

She's now just acting like a moody teenager. She sits apart from me and makes occasional remarks. This all sucks shit. As if I weren't alone enough as it is.

I planned to throw some huge party because I feel now she's got a strong and developed voice as well as the ability to speak, but she doesn't even give a shit.

 

I really hate this, i want my loving and kinda dopey and cuddly and just plain silly Tulpa back. She made me feel happy, wanted, motivated, and like I wasn't alone. Now she's just making me feel like an insignificant little nobody and its really taking a toll on me.

 

*sheds a manly tear*

 

Has anybody got any suggestions, really?

 

I know she's reading this as I type it, as usual - but she's staying silent and not really making any noticable expression, screw her ;c she usually helps me write.

[N1ghtSl4yer]

So I have three updates for the three days I missed.

 

Friday, 1AM;

 

So today ill be writing how I managed to overcome this debilitating obstacle without any help or advice .-.

 

So I had decided to finally make a beach at the bottom of the cliff in our garden. It was fairly small, but long. It had dry, silky sand, and it didn't stay wet and disgusting when the waves rolled over it. There was a road behind it I made and some awesome Ghost Rider/Harley Davidson bikes sitting by it, because we didn't wanna bother climbing the cliff.

 

I like to create piece by piece, not just envision and bam.

I took up a conductor's stance for a lot of it I had the elements I required literally flowing from my fingertips and out of the ground - it's more satisfying, in my opinion.

All she did was sit on her bike and yell [GAAAAYYYY], from the shade.

I turned around to give her a deathly cold stare. She returned it with a venomous look and said

[if you didn't fucking piss about so much we could be back by now, why the fuck am I even here, do you ever think of what I want?]

"You love creating things with me, you're just being moody."

[You're an inconsiderate asshole, Y'know that?]

"How about we go back up and spar for a bit, you need to let off steam"

[Don't tell what the fuck I need to do."]

 

I finished up and used my new favourite powers to create a portal to our house - like how Noba from Bleach uses portals.

She pulled out her sword and swung at me straight away, shouting insults such as fucking pig, and little shit face. I used my powers to make a spherical rend in space about 2m in diameter, I just sat in there and put up a shield.

She had at it for twenty minutes or so, and it was getting kind of tedious because she obviously doesn't actually tire.

So I did the next best thing than waiting and pulled out a gargantuan abyssal demon.

She lay back, scared shitless.

I jumped off its back and smashed her soul out.

 

It was now a dark indigo, and frozen in time.

I cracked it open and removed the black, adding a white and a light blue instead. I put it back in and she flung herself up but just fell on her face.

 

The giant abyssal demon licked my face and went back home, and I knelt in front of Wren.

She sat on her knees and started crying suddenly.

 

(The ellipsis were where she snivelled or paused because she was crying.)

[Do... Do I really have it in me to be such a bitch? I'm so sorry for that.... Really, I really love you, but... You already know that.. And, and... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, I should be grateful that... That you're here... That, you made me, me... That you didn't leave me.... I'm so sorry... Please, forgive me...]

 

I lifted her up and hugged for for a few minutes. Instead of speaking, I sent her feelings, like an aura, of calm, happiness, and that kinda stuff - she was pretty darn worked up. I swore I could feel it in real life to a degree - hugging her makes me feel warm and happy like real life hugs. I reckon that because of this I'll do well when we get to feelings in imposition.

 

We laid down and changed time to night, and I pulled up the aurora again.

She looked over and kissed me, and I just smiled.

We hugged sorta sideways and laid there enjoying eachothers company, sharing conversation at incredible speeds using our minds.

Mostly her overapologizing and me telling her she's wonderful and forgiven etc etc.

 

[How... How bad was I? I can't help but feel horrible - I don't remember too much after that knockout... Good hit, by the way!] xD

"It doesn't matter, you're back, and you don't know how relieved I am"

[Oh fucking god that means I was a fucking faggot fuuuuuuuuck I'm sorry please love me again i'll never be mean againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....]

"Just chill, I love you always. And please just forget it, we're gonna fight and disagree like anybody, and then was the best time to do so. You're always a faggot, fagggooooot"" xD

[........nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnWHAT DID YOU CALL ME, FAGGOT!?]

 

She pushed me over and we ended up play fighting for a bit - Good times.

Then we sat up and hugged and I love hugging so much people and then we walked back home. I walked into the bedroom she used and she was like

[sHIIIIIIIT NIGGA, I LOVE THIS ROOM WHEN DID YOU MAKE IT but DAYUM, those orange quilts are just gay.]

 

"You made it, and you originally had rainbow ones"

 

[Don't be silly, I don't make things, that's EFFORTT. IF I DID, MY BED WOULD HAVE AVENGED SEVENFOLD, AND SO WOULD MY CLOTHES, AND MY OTHER CLOTHES, AND MY LAPTOP, BUT MY PILLOW WOULD BE NIC CAGE.]

 

Guess who is NOT our interior designer... XD

I love having a Tulpa.

 

Got (Had, by the time this gets online) the whole weekend at the caravan, so I said

"R U REDAYYYYYYY"

[4 WOT]

"FORSIN AL WEEKENDDDDDDDD"

[AWHYEAAAAAAAAAA IM REDAYYYYY]

"R U REDAY TO PARTAYYYYY"

[i'M ALREADY HEARIN VOICESSSSSS]

"No stupid, that's my voice" xD

 

Then we didn't force that day and she got grumpy, but cute grumpy X3

Awhmygod having her back is making me so happy sorry for being so different and posting so many words BUT SHE SPEAKS. SHE SPEAKS A LOT NOWWWW. DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY THAT MAKES ME PEOPLE. WE CAN'T FORCE FOR SHIT USUALLY BUT SHE SPEAKS. THIS IS AMAZINGGGG :'D

 

Need to get her to possess my hands now and grow the balls (not literally) to talk to other people xD

 

[YOU WAIT TILL I LEARN TO TYPE I'LL SHOW YOU ALL HOW A REAL MASTER OF KEYANOMERTRICALOCTRICS DOES IT]

She insists on capitals for 'extra effect' xD

Elliot and Wren, out.

 

Saturday, 11PM;

 

Well we did end up having a party, while we first tried proxying, which went a bit too well... XD

It was with my best friend who is also a girl and Tulpamancer and it got awkwards when she did start talking. Like personal, within like, an hour.

Girls .-.

Btw the party was like Cinco de mayo with Brazilian Avenged Sevenfold and stuff. But it ended with a zombies and Sharks attack which we shattered as Soul Reapers.

As it happened we typed, and she was making huge puns and funny messages. I couldn't help but loose concentration. I got bitten a few times and my dual-ended scythe slipped and cut me a few times too.

At the end she smashed the last two zombie's heads together and shouted;

[You may now KISS. THE. DIEEEEE.]

Which was pretty funny at the time.

 

It went really well, and it was like she literally took over what I typed. Not possession, but as in I was typing her response before I was aware of it, or even before I knew if she even had a response. They're like best friends now.

We also found out that we have a cave leading to an underground volcano stuffed with biscuits. We sat there with a bathtub of milk, cuddling against the wall, for the talking part of the afternoon. She hugged me and we sat down and it was cute, but over chat she was shouting and talking about parties and explosives and being retards and whatnot - sorta weird xD

Anyway she fell asleep without saying buhbye, rude.

 

We had another party while I dozed off later and it ended up that we landed outside a large, abandoned warehouse, at the entrance to a huge Pine forest. We left it until the next day to explore.

Inside the warehouse, it's just a huge empty room, with silvery walls and stuff, like a cube. Not warehouse walls, like a big silvery cube. We went in and the door melted Into the walls. Then we started floating.

Antigravity, I guess xD

Today I had donned a set of Assassin armour, and she had a light, and very long, pink dress. It waved around a lot.

We held onto eachother and floated, before we then began to dance in midair.

The walls changed colours then, the one I remember best was the dark, pale blue. When it changed to that, she lay on her back in midair with her eyes closed, and her dress billowing out - like a girl in a dress underwater. The backdrop went slowly lighter and brighter and it was as if time froze.

It was so beautiful to watch her swim around. She did a backflip and then came up to me

[i like this place, can we keep it? :333 pleasseeeee?]

"How do we keep it? It's miles away from the house and we're sealed in..."

 

After much flying and shit we made a flying crane and now we have an antigravity room and sauna. Dayummmm xD

 

This wasn't just a kinda happy session though. I was talking to my friend again, and it occurred to me - Nobody will ever see my Tulpa. Ever.

To me, that is very, very, sad.

I can never truly see her, touch her, or hear her voice.

She can never make real friends, or have a social life, or anything.

We can never truly hug, or even hold hands. Nobody can ever share the joy I feel when she curls up with me, or sits like an adorable little cat fighting a biscuit, or when she dances in antigravity. Nobody will know exactly what she looks or sounds like, because I can't draw or do impressions.

This breaks my insides. Gah, sadness.

She's hugging me even now and telling me this is all she needs, and I'm the only friend she wants, but I can't help but feel bad. It's like she's imprisoned within my mind, and I feel cruel for that.

 

That being said, to Tulpas have rights?

I believe so. If they truly are sentient, sapient beings, they deserve to be treated thus. They can learn, they can speak, they can feel pain and pleasure, and thus I feel obliged to do everything I can to help my Tulpa feel happy.

End.

 

Today (night), 10PM;

 

K

 

Today we started imposition.

I tried a few guides, and I find it pretty easy to exercise my spacial perception - like the guide that tells you to imagine a mailbox in the room from all angles. I used one of those American ones with the flippy-uppy red thingies.

I suppose that was easy, but then it was Tulpa time.

 

I sometime imagine Wren outside of my vision, as in laying behind me, or sitting beside me on a sofa or bed or whatever, but it's just imagining now. It's not like the mailbox - as in I can keep the idea of a mailbox going subconsciously, but I forget without thinking when I try to impose my Tulpa. The mailbox actually has a sort of feel, if you know what I mean. I can feel that it's there. Not physically, but like when you think "better be careful, that wall is getting pretty close", or "I should move over, I'm about to knock that chair over.", that kinda thing. Whereas when I impose my Tulpa, it is very hard to keep it up, and it just feels like empty space - that and she ceases to speak etc.

Also, what is full imposition like? Is it like seeing a transparent ghost, seeing nothing at all, or like seeing a real human/pony/furry or whatever in front of you? Do you hear their mind voice, or a realistic voice that can just pop up and sound like there's somebody genuinely next to you, talking?

 

Could anyone help me with imposition techniques? Anything to make it easier for us, and a way to stop me forgetting?

 

Another thing is, we use the warehouse for music, and it's pretty awesome - like a music video set. She plays drums and I sing (I've always wanted to, but I haven't got the voice or the guts. People say I'm able to drum well, as in the endurance and power needed, but I lack separate motor control. Also I apparently look awesome when I drum.)

I tend to bring up random band members to fill the gaps, and when there's a female singer, we swap places. It's really good for visualising her movements, detail in hair and hands and arms and clothes, and it's just awesome the way she does it.

She also does this weird thing before we start but it's sorta awesome. She takes the band member she wants to impersonate, I.e. Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan, or Hayley Williams, and uses her finger to sort of take a bit of them - like wiping a bit of ice-cream off of their shirt. She takes this odd little droplet and drinks it, and it evaporates on her tongue.

She then takes on a characteristic and the skills of that person.

 

For Jimmy, she got a little insane, and went mental on the drums - like wow.

For Hayley, her hair went darker and rust coloured - and her voice became much more soft and harmonic (hard to describe.)

Then she took Synyster Gates' essence. It evaporated in a puff of blue smoke. Her top and jeans looked like they bled, turning darker with black blood, and her eyes went narrow and wicked. Her tongue got thinner and slightly pointed, and her teeth grew. Not like Syn at all, but it was pretty goddamn badass. She had a bunch of Punk accessories on and she sung and shredded along with me.

Just. Epic.

 

Wouldn't call that progress, it it's heck of a lot cooler than usual.

 

Over and out.

Sorry for the length.

[C0ff3Pl3453]

js what we spoke about wasn't THAT personal, it could had been wayayy worse xD

[N1ghtSl4yer]

It was very soon going to be ;-;

[C0ff3Pl3453]

mebbi xDD

nah :cool: