Questions.

[KarlYoshimura]

Hello.

 

I've a few personal questions for you all. I'm curious as to how one's reasoning and reactions during tulpa creation affects the tulpa/host relationship.

 

Why did you make your tulpa? Did this reason change during the creation process? What does your tulpa think of this cause behind its inception?

 

Did you have any difficulties during the creation process? How were you able to cope with occurrences you didn't expect, or perhaps feared or even hated?

 

Most importantly, how were you and your tulpa able to enrich one another's lives? Do either of you cherish the closeness that the mind permits?

[TulpaCouple]

1. Companionship, interest in the idea of a spirit animal, curiosity if it was possible, and the desire to explore the abilities of the mind

2. During the process my tulpa became a companion, a best friend, I was less concerned about if he could do this or that or what 'abilities' he could unlock or whatever like memory recall, I just cared about living life with him. We became partners in life. The same continues for my second tulpa.

3. Jaden has a lot of pride in what he is. He knows he was born/created with someone who adored him and he has never felt alone, for which he feels very lucky.

4. Certain aspects were harder than others. I had never visualized in general, so that was tough. Learning to narrate was also hard. But they weren't extremely difficult or anything.

5. We just coped, moved on, communicated, and got through our struggles. We treated it like any other relationship

6. We do cherish the closeness we all have together. It truly is something special. My tulpas help me experience the beauty of imagination and the mind, they have enriched my dreams and encouraged me to remember them. They help me focus myself internally when I am too distracted by the world. I do my best to help them experience the world around me--making friends, making their own choices. And of course we enrich each other's lives just by being friends

[Shui]

Well, I had at least two reasons for making a tulpa:

1. It's easier to impose a tulpa than a HUD servitor, so I'm starting with my tulpa and doing the servitor afterward.

2. I wanted assistance with my writing. My tulpa has been an enormous help there.

I may have had other reasons that I can't think of at the moment.

 

My tulpa says she doesn't mind that I created her for those reasons, so long as I take her life seriously, and don't just treat her like a tool to be used and cast away.

 

My only difficulty has been a lack of focus. We're still working on that, but always getting better.

 

Everything I haven't expected has come as a pleasant surprise. Usually it's my tulpa growing in some way I hadn't foreseen.

 

We like living together. Sometimes there's some conflict, but we do our best to keep it at a minimum, and we really work well together. I bring an interest in learning, and she brings an interest in doing. In writing, I spend all my time creating worlds, whereas she fills in the details of my characters, which have been sorely lacking.

[Linkzelda]

Why did you make your tulpa?

 

To understand myself better, to become aware of my own cognitive processes and just gain as much knowledge, skill, and such in life. All sorts of reasons.

 

Did this reason change during the creation process?

 

Not really, my viewpoints stayed the same, I felt some of the things here were common sense.

 

What does your tulpa think of this cause behind its inception?

 

When a tulpa can be comfortable with them starting out as a hallucination, or mere belief and heavy emphasis on self-fulfilling prophecies, they wouldn't gravitate into exponential worrying over their origins. They would just have an urgency of doing things and wanting to live like any other being. The contemplations on their origins are just for intellectual and remedial discussion instead of the existential angst I had way before this.

 

Did you have any difficulties during the creation process?

 

I don't think anyone would be able to avoid a few scars in the process. For me it was weird, I was so used to her helping me out without her being vocal directly, and I had a minor confusion on whether or not the dream character of her was merely an ideal image that wouldn't be apparent in waking life. I just went back to common sense, and things happened.

 

How were you able to cope with occurrences you didn't expect, or perhaps feared or even hated?

 

In general, being stoic about the contemplation of any self-hatred, fear, etc. and mixing around with all sorts of life-affirming philosophies. I tried to reduce the chances of having optimism bias into this, though I feel like a hypocrite at times when telling others the good that may come in this. But it's like being in a double-bind situation, even if I were to tell them about more serious and potentially negative aspects that wouldn't want them to make a tulpa, they would just be intimidated or something.

 

It's hard trying to relate to people who mostly just want to focus on the good and just die without getting the chance to know more about themselves (for better or for worse).

 

Most importantly, how were you and your tulpa able to enrich one another's lives? Do either of you cherish the closeness that the mind permits?

 

All of those cheesy friendships movies/shows/series/etc., I guess when you have a tulpa, you just don't take that idealism for granted.

[Nobillis]

See also the Survey for fluently speaking tulpa thread.

[KarlYoshimura]

See also the Survey for fluently speaking tulpa thread.

 

I find surveys okay, but dredging through the answers of so many tulpas is daunting. I'm more comfortable with the asking of direct and slightly vague questions so I can peer into the personality and philosophy of the individual(s) answering.

[LordV]

I started making my tulpa primarily as a psychological experiment, basically to see if I could do it. That and I think I was lonelier than I was willing to admit even to myself. So far, those reason's haven't changed a whole lot, though I'm a lot more emotionally attached to my tulpa than I was when I started (which kind of makes sense, since I've gotten to know her by now).

 

Oh my gosh, it would take me forever to list all the difficulties I've had. Violent intrusive thoughts were the first thing, followed by trouble concentrating and severe time management issues, and even an instance where the servitor I was using to interact with her went rogue, turned into a zombie and started licking her, groping her, and even puked on her once. I eventually dealt with that by banishing it into the deeper recesses of my wonderland (where it is presumably still living, though neither I nor Tammy have encountered it since). I still occasionally deal with intrusive thoughts, which can be a little bit frightening now that I've started imposition, but I've learned that if I ignore them they'll eventually go away on their own.

 

Having a tulpa is still fairly new for me, so we haven't really had time to explore the full reaches of our relationship. However, I can say that having a tulpa has taught me a lot about responsibility and caring for a sentient being. And I'm always there to help her learn about the world, share her sarcastic sense of humor, etc.. Finally, we're always there to support each other whenever one of us is feeling depressed, exhausted, angry, or simply frustrated with life.

[KarlYoshimura]

Oh man. Intrusive thoughts are the worst. I still get them, and at times I misinterpret what my tulpa says because they now involve her saying or doing nasty things. Although I have a vague sense of how true said thoughts are in relation to what she actually says, it still hurts sometimes.

 

But that zombie...damn. I'd freak the fuck out if that happened to me.

 

Anyway, good luck on your tulpa endeavours lordv.

[LordV]

Thanks.

 

Yea, the zombie was really freaky, but I dealt with it. However, to be on the safe side, I don't think I'll be making any more servitors until I'm a lot more experienced at tulpamancy.