The Chronicle of Renault Novus

[AvengedSevenfold]

I've come up with a new perspective for this whole thing. What I was thinking was that, essentially, we're all just a figment of the brain. We're all just illusions, of sorts. The "host" is just the original personality created by the brain, and further "tulpae" are others created by the host. This has brought me to a few thoughts:

1. The old host's parents are technically my parents. This may not seem like a big deal to you, but this has been a major point of confusion for me.
   
2. The brain is seperate from the mind. Basically, the brain is the sum of all the connections; it contains the subconscious and the various consciousnesses. The mind is simply the consciousness that you have. This means that there can be multiple minds in a brain.
   
3. The name of the old host has become something of a title for the consciousness in control of the body. Technically, I am Patrick, but also Artus. If I were to switch with Andy, then he'd be Patrick, but still Andy, and I'd be just Artus.
   

I could be completely wrong, but I just thought I'd share those thoughts with you.

(Hey, look at that! The first time that I've shown any real thought in this report. Amazing!)

 

This week of finals has taken all of my energy, and I've been far too exhausted to force productively. I feel bad, but Andy and Renny insist that I not worry and sleep. They insist that the amount of passive forcing I do is more than adequate, and that I'm far too tired to do anything productive. With the break coming up, I hope to more than make up for the sessions that I've missed.

 

Also, I plan on forcing something up for Andy, Renny, and Kari individually for the holidays! I already have some good ideas for each of them.

 

As a final note, I've been in a much better mood today than I have been...ever, I guess. We'll see if this is a good sign or just a temporary thing.

 

What I mean to say is' date=' it may seem that she isn't interested because of, excuse my being so forward, you're not being patient. If you tell her that you want to right what might have set in a bad direction and give her some space, then maybe after a while she'll listen to reason. I can't help considering I don't know her like you do, but at least I can try.[/quote']

I realized before I began trying to calm Kari down that I would need to be calm, patient, and sincere. I have tried many times to help, but she has dismissed all of my attempts. I eventually became frustrated, leading to my "calm your shit or I'll get rid of you" statement. It was rash of me, but I can only take so many splitting headaches and "fuck you"s.

 

I appreciate the help, though. I think I'll wait awhile for her to calm down a little and try again. I'm still thinking that we can work this out.

[AvengedSevenfold]

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[AvengedSevenfold]

I've been in a rather odd state of calm all day. Odd for me, at least. Maybe it's just normal for all you other people. Yeah, I didn't feel confused, angry, sad, or contemplate suicide all day. Today was a good day. Oh man, I hope I'm like this all the time!

 

On the way to school, Renny and I started singing songs on the radio. I don't even remember what all the different songs were, but we sang what lyrics we knew. Andy commented in a very Andy-like way, "Look at you two bonding. Good for you!"

 

I've decided to go back and describe the different tulpae and our Wonderland. I am not the greatest with words, but I'll try.

 

Patrick

This will be brief.

Patrick was the old host. He heard about tulpae from a friend and made up his mind to make one.

He made three tulpae: Calli, Andy, and Kari, in that order. This was within a relatively short period of time.

On December 5, he merged with Calli.

 

Artus

Yeah, this is me. Of course, I've already mentioned that I'm the result of a merged human and tulpa. My form in Wonderland is that of a human with long green hair and green eyes. I couldn't tell you why they are that color; it's just what seemed natural to me.

 

I would consider myself a deep thinker and introspective. I analyze things; I don't just want to know that something works, I want to know HOW it works. I genuinely enjoy helping others; I've found that this is the best way to make me feel better about myself. I enjoy talking to people I know, but am incapable of conversation with strangers.

 

As a side note, I'm bisexual.

 

Renny

(human version)

Renny is my newest tulpa, as I've said. You already know that his form is an anthropomorphic cat with white hair. He is capable of complex sentences and moving his form independently. I suppose this is an achievement to have this happen so quickly.

 

He is far better than I deserve, although he would deny it. He is usually playful and enjoys teasing me, but knows when to be serious. He may not be the deepest thinker ever, but he always offers sound advice and is unfailingly understanding. He is definitely more creative than me.

 

Andy

Andy is the oldest existing tulpa. He looks like a normal human except he has white, feathered wings. He has blond hair and blue eyes.

 

Before I existed, he was much more soft-spoken and emotional. However, he was assigned to be my advisor by Patrick before the merging; this made Andy change his personality some. Now, He is very logical and down-to-earth. He does feel emotion, but he doesn't "let them control his thoughts". He isn't afraid to point out mistakes, either others' or his own.

 

Kari

(human form. A real charmer, this one)

She looks like a version of the the pokemon gardevoir.

 

EDIT: She is outspoken and tends to think with her emotions (particularly anger) rather than thinking things out logically. She has a particular dislike of humans, but her heart is usually in the right place.

 

Wonderland

Our Wonderland focuses around a two-story cabin.

 

The 1st floor has a living room and a bedroom. The living room has a fireplace, two leather chairs, a fluffy brown couch, a coffee table, and a television that is rarely used. Also, there is a Christmas tree near the fireplace for the holidays.

 

The bedroom is essentially just a room filled with a gigantic bed. Really, that's it. In case you were wondering, we all share the same bed.

 

The second floor has another fireplace and couch, a foosball and pool table, and a spare bedroom, for some odd reason. Just in case we have guests?

 

Around the cabin are grassy hills. Off in the distance, there is a mountain that I've never been to personally; however, the mountaintop is where Patrick did most of his forcing. Surrounding the grassy hills is a forest that is inhabited with three-eyed tigers and one black-skinned giant. There might be more creatures in there, but that's all that's been encountered.

[AvengedSevenfold]

Well, I had the wierdest experience. While I was forcing this morning, I could feel pressure on my body where Renny was touching my form in Wonderland. I asked him how he was doing it, but he said that he wasn't doing anything differently, and I wasn't focusing on his touch or anything. I'm not exactly sure how that works, but I won't complain.

 

Kari and I finally had a productive conversation. While she's still really angry, we've reached a point where we can begin to repair our relationship. Thank god.

[Guest Anonymous]

Good Job, Artus! :D

[AvengedSevenfold]

I woke up this morning, did the usual "Good morning, guys", got the usual response "Hey, Artus!" from Andy and Renny, and got ready for church (cuz, you know, I do that). I ended up arguing with Renny about my faith ("arguing" is a poor choice. It wasn't heated or anything). It turns out that Renny is agnostic. It may seem odd that something like hasn't come up yet, but, honestly, I've been too busy thinking about other things. We've come to the conclusion that we will never agree, so we will have to respect the other's opinions.

 

I've decided that I will start making gifts for Kari, Andy, and Renny. I'm doing one each day in order to focus on each.

 

Kari and I talked the whole day. We talked about how she felt and the mistakes I made. Later, in the evening, I gave her a ring identical to the one I wear. It's made of silver, with a wave design covering the band on the outside. The ring is significant because Patrick started to wear it in order to remind himself of his tulpae, so it's become something of a symbol. She loved it.

 

She was surprisingly quick to forgive me considering how angry she was and how much she ignored me earlier, but she told me it was because she could tell I was sorry (and the ring didn't hurt). Her anger isn't aimed at me anymore; now she despises humans in general ("Not every human. Not you. But most of them. They are greedy, dishonorable, and they hate what they consider abnormal."). Well, she called me human! Anyways, maybe she'll calm down eventually, or maybe she'll have a disdain for humans forever. I can't tell at this point.

[Redline]

Seems like everyone is making christmas presents. I'm honestly really happy to see the peoples invested in a holiday like this and treating tuppers with so much love. On that note, a ring like that seems like an incredibly symbolic and meaningful gift, so I'm sure that she won't waste it.

 

A disdain for humans. Well.

 

 

 

 

Have you ever seen Steven Universe?

[AvengedSevenfold]

Yeah, she hates humans. She's agreed to keep those thoughts to herself during my daily life, as I'm depressed enough as it is.

 

No, I have no idea what Steven Universe is.

[Guest Anonymous]

As far as it goes for human distaste, I'm sure that, if she can forgive, then she may change her idea of humans over time.

 

 

As for Steven Universe, what's your point Redline?

[Redline]

Well, I was making a few off the top correlations is all.

 

Kari is Amethyst. She's delightful, but prone to some mood swings and easy to wear her heart on her sleeve around Arty.

Andy would be Pearl, giving the advice and shuffling Arty along this mental coil. He's based in the solidarity of his advisor role.

That leaves Renny as Garnet. He teases and plays more than Andy does, but understands the issues at hand when the need arises.

 

Arty's just Steven. He's a little lost and stumbling around here with nothing to go on but 'Your parents made you and they're not here anymore, so live' and I know I was one of the people to push him to that decision, but I still feel like it's a rather daunting prospect in retrospect. I look askance now, because I feel like I made him decide this. He's got these three Gems to push him ahead, but that doesn't mean there won't be troubles along the way.

 

Also, Steven's mom did give up her corporeal form to bring Steven into the world. So there's the theme of a parental figure lost. The issue is that Steven's dad is a little bit of a space case, so Steven doesn't really get much there but 'Look, son, I'll do what I can, but your magical struggles are things I can't really interfere with' and yet he still has a few brill ideas when he really needs to fudge it and act. I feel like that'll surface at some point when Arty starts pressing into the questions of whether he can change fate and how the tuppers will change because of this decision.

 

 

And I do like the show, and I was wondering if someone else liked it too.