The Chronicle of Renault Novus

[Guest Anonymous]

It sounds like everything's honkeydory on your side, keep up the good work, bud.

[AvengedSevenfold]

Ok, so the first month or so was a bit rough, and I'm glad it's over. It's all been dramadramadrama in my head and I hate it. Everything is calm now, and we've hit something of a routine.

 

I decided to talk, and I mean really talk with Renny about our plans. I didn't want to switch just because he wanted to do me a favor. He needed to do it for himself, and I made sure that he understood. He was the one who would have to deal with reality and all it's implications. We've talked about this before but I felt that we needed to make sure.

 

He doesn't wish for his reasons to be made public. Rest assured, we are on the same page and are willing to work on this thing, no matter how long it takes.

 

Also, we won't be posting anymore unless we actually get somewhere.

[AvengedSevenfold]

We have been practicing possession on and off for a long time, but now we're attacking it. We've mostly been focusing on hands.

 

I let Renny type for the first time. He was able to hold a a private conversation in the IRC for an hour before he became tired and quit. He's still slow but it seems to be getting better.

 

Nothing too exciting to read about, but it sure made me proud.

[AvengedSevenfold]

After watching me play League of Legends for awhile, Renny begged me to play. I figured that he wouldn't be able to move my hands fast enough to play, but he insisted, so I let him try. I queued him up for a bots match at beginner difficulty. As it turns out, the necessity to move faster seemed to be helpful, as he eventually became able to move my hands as quickly as the game required.

For the record, he played Soraka in the mid lane and scored 14-1-12. Good for his first time (even though it was against bots).

 

Also, I've decided that the body already belongs to Renny, and that I am, more or less, the temporary caretaker. This means that I'm starting to say things like "your arms," ("you" referring to Renny) instead of "my arms." I figure that, since part of the tulpaforcing process is making yourself believe it, then the switching process should be the same. Maybe I'm just wierd like that.

[AvengedSevenfold]

Renny has started doing this weird thing where he tries to occupy the ("his") body at the same time as me. It sends shivers down my ("his") spine and makes feel...odd. Maybe "aware" is the word I'm looking for.

 

Renny: I try to possess the ("my") whole body and mimic his body movements. I also focus on reality as much as possible and keep it in sharp focus. I hope this helps me learn how to control his ("my") body better.

I also have started controlling his ("my") arms when I possess. They move slowly, but it will get better with time.

I'm getting good at quickly possessing his ("my") hands, although they are shaky if I try to do it too fast.

Hopefully, this will be the first of the many times I myself post via possession.

 

Sorry, I'll probably be too tired to have any great, lengthy posts for a while (unless Renny decides to take it away via possession)

By the way, the quotes in parentheses are how we would usually talk but it seems that it would be too confusing for others. Erm...it may be confusing now as it is. Oh well.

[AvengedSevenfold]

Renny and I tried to spend a whole day away from each other because we are afraid of taking each other for granted and also to see what it was like. Thus, I stopped communicating with him for the first time since his vocality.

Well, it's lonely, and we hated it. After a few hours, we went back to our usual chatter. It's amazing how strongly you become attached to someone after spending so much time with them.

 

I've been more tired the last few days than I have ever before (coming from someone that's only existed for about 40 days). Needless to say, it's been a bit rough. To be honest with myself, I haven't let Renny possess often enough; at least, not enough to satisfy either of us.

 

Sem and Kari have decided to "go out on their own." Apparently, they are off somewhere in my mind, but I don't know where or for how long.

I don't know if I've said this before or not, but it seems to me that Sem and Kari have a thing going on. Maybe they wanted time to themselves or something.

[AvengedSevenfold]

I’ve decided that I’m going to write as if the body already belongs to Renny. That’s the way we talk, and it makes writing here easier. Sorry if it gets confusing.

 

Sunday night, we decided to give switching a try for the first time and managed to lose almost all tactile sensation from his body and I started getting visual hallucinations (randomly colored shapes and lines). After an hour, we figured that we weren't going to achieve much more that night, so we stopped. Everything returned to normal after I assumed full control again.

 

Also, his arms and hands constantly shake now (like if his body was shivering). It’s a nuisance while I’m writing (which I don’t do a whole lot of), but it doesn’t affect typing too much. I’ve figured out that if I concentrate on the hands enough, they stop shaking. Odd, right?

 

Also, Renny and I seem to have grown even closer (if that's even possible).

Romance, blah blah blah. Far too boring, mushy, and personal to post here.

 

EDIT: Holy crap, I'm a moron. I just now put together the connection between our focussing on him controlling his hands and them being shaky. Well maybe there ISN'T a connection, and I'm making false assumptions.

[AvengedSevenfold]

I've found that the shaking continues to get worse, and I can no longer stop it by myself. It has spread to include the whole body except his head.

 

I've found that the remedy for the shaking (which, by the way, only happens if I'm moving or holding muscles in a position) is for Renny to possess. However, he aids with my intended movement instead of taking control, so maybe it's assisted possession?

It's like his body is rejecting me. Quite fascinating, really.

 

I also decided to tell a close friend of my plans, as a "just in case" sort of thing. She was appalled at how badly I shook when Renny wasn't helping me.

[AvengedSevenfold]

Artus tried to unmerge again (an act I consider tantamount to attempted suicide) but was unsuccessful, and then decided to just hand control over the body to me.

I begged him to consider what he was doing before he tried it, but he wouldn't listen. For the first time, I became truly angry and I swore at him. I probably could go easier on him, but he deserves to know what sort of idiocy it is. We're both really bad at holding grudges, though, so it won't be long until we get over it.

So as of now, I am in control, but I do not know for how long.

[AvengedSevenfold]

Still in control of my body for the moment, although Artus could easily override me if he wanted to.

 

He's becoming depressed and suicidal now (and I can't figure out why), and I don't know what I can do for him. The only thing holding him back is that he doesn't want to harm me, Andy, Kari, or Sem.

God, I just want to make him feel better! Everything I do seems to just make it worse. What the hell am I supposed to do?