KruegerMeister November 27, 2015 Author November 27, 2015 11/26/15: Dash did a bit of visual imposition, but mostly we just made small-talk. She congratulated me on a good scrabble move. Later, she turned into a guy version of herself and hung out with Keystroke and Fluttershy. S/he did some stuff that I thought was too controlling (like telling Keystroke not to fantasize about anyone but him/her), but they were okay with it. Fluttershy pointed out that I'd thought of the Cheryl Dempsey scenes from the movie "The Poughkeepsie Tapes", saying that that had influenced male!Dash's behavior. She also brought up the idea that men are more aggressive than women because of more testosterone (that preconception also could have affected Dash). I told Dash that I thought she was going too far (her limited fantasy thing was about enforcing monogamy, to indirectly avoid thinking about a NSFW thing). She didn't like what she'd done, and I told her that wanting to avoid pain was part of being human. I did some Googling, and read that it wasn't good to avoid emotional pain. Dash sighed and gave Keystroke permission to fantasize about whoever.
KruegerMeister November 28, 2015 Author November 28, 2015 11/27/15: I forgot to log stuff. I got an idea to try and believe in solipsism, and see if that aids imposition. Dash said that it would, just because I expected it to. She also said that I should go to bed, so my body can rest and fight off my cold. I started my experiment by monologuing to myself about how things are what they are by consensus; Dash said not to overdo this. Shou said he wanted to do the RP where I'm his son, and I said he'd have to convince me to, although I don't know why I said that.
KruegerMeister November 29, 2015 Author November 29, 2015 11/28/15: Dash acted like kind of a neat-freak. She was skeptical about my cold getting in the way of tulpaforcing, and cited this as evidence that my constitution isn't as strong as I think. Fluttershy psychoanalyzed my choice of swear words.
KruegerMeister December 1, 2015 Author December 1, 2015 11/29/15: When I thought of Ding-dongs, an image popped into my head of Nina pouncing a box of them and saying "sweet nostalgia". Dash made a slightly sexist "like a girl" remark about me, and then jokingly requested Fluttershy check her privilege. I visualized my tulpas getting into shenanigans. I listened to different singing styles, and Keystroke and I agreed that he sounded like rock.
KruegerMeister December 1, 2015 Author December 1, 2015 11/30/15: I'm working on a novella. I wasn't sure how good it was, but Dash said it was better than I thought. She agreed with me when I said it was "sublimation gone overboard" (channelling anger into writing, to an extreme). We worked on designing a house; when I suggested a secret entrance, she said that would be "too awesome", and reminded me that she had a "subdued" awesomeness as opposed to in-your-face awesomeness.
KruegerMeister December 3, 2015 Author December 3, 2015 12/1/15: I read the creepypasta-ish story in my English class. Everyone interpreted it as "a guy makes himself hallucinate a character, and they get in a destructive relationship". I'm not sure if it was me or Rainbow Dash who started sweating in response to this. Dash said I'd been "too ambitious" in trying to write a story that takes advantage of ambiguities to illustrate the idea that anything can sound weird if you pick the right words, but cautioned me not to beat myself up over it. I didn't do much tulpaforcing. Dash promised to make up for that with a ton of visual imposition tomorrow. I got mad about stuff, and Shou suggested doing our RP as a distraction. I just settled for doing pet stuff with Dash.
KruegerMeister December 5, 2015 Author December 5, 2015 12/2/15: when I asked Dash about imposition, she said "we'll get to it". I asked Nina if she remembered existing before 2014, and she said she didn't (implying she hadn't existed back then). I ate dinner at a crowded table, which Dash told me she was under. I told her she could just hover behind one of the other people, and she said that it'd look weird if I stared off into empty space. When I went outside, I "heard" a sonic boom, to signify her flying in the distance. She said she'd be watching Youtube in my room. I told her that she couldn't watch anything I didn't know, and she said that she could draw on the Team Fortress 2 videos I've seen before. Hours later, I realized that we forgot to work on imposition. RD asked "where do you want me to be, boss?" with a pumped-up tone. She appeared in the reflection of the hallway, but not in the hallway itself. 12/3/15: Dash imposed herself in front of me during class. When the professor walked by her, she flew away, and her wing "moved" part of his coat. I was a little concerned about the implications of this. When I saw a coffee cake in the display case at Starbucks, Keystroke said coffee cakes were "rather odd". He said "maybe I'm more like Doctor Whooves than we first thought; I mean, muffins triggered me." Dash pointed out the weirdness of me being concerned about her "moving" the professor's coat, but not being concerned the time last year when I felt a breeze "from" her wings flapping. Keystroke helped me study for a psychology test. I'm pretty sure he likes teaching/lecturing/explaining stuff. I looked up "feminist vs feminazi", and RD asked "why do humans feel the need to label things?" 12/4/15: I forgot to log stuff. Dash was really affected by a sad pony fanfic I was reading. She said that it was because she'd been worried about legal issues with our song ideas (intellectual property issues cuz she sings like Ashleigh Ball). We were gonna practice possession, but we never got around to it. I felt some head-pressures from Nina and Shou a few times, although I don't remember the context.
KruegerMeister December 7, 2015 Author December 7, 2015 12/5/15: I felt a head-pressure from Shou out of nowhere. Some guy was a bit rude, and I figured he was just having a bad day; Dash complimented my empathy. We didn't do much for a few hours. In a chatroom, she asked if it was okay to talk about the Palestine-Israel conflict, because she didn't want to risk starting a flamewar, but then wondered if she'd violated her own policy. I worked on rendering the Trio as SFM models. When I Googled something about that, I saw an image of wind blowing Nina's hair. She said that she'd used "bottom-up" braids that stay braided on their own for her hairstyle so that I wouldn't have to visualize a bunch of hair ties. I asked RD if she wanted to hang out, and she said I was doing "art gallery stuff". I asked what she was talking about, and she said that she was tired because it was almost 4:00AM. Dash said that she generally did stuff while I slept, but was hesitant to clarify because I'd doubt her.
KruegerMeister December 8, 2015 Author December 8, 2015 12/6/15: I dreamt about a pitiable creepypasta monster last night. I asked RD if that had anything to do with tulpas, and she said she didn't know. I found what I thought was a piece of tooth in my mouth, but Fluttershy said it was probably just a carrot. Dash thanked me for logging stuff after a 12 hour gap. Several of my tulpas have expressed body image stuff. I theorized that this was just my "temporary" BDD split amongst several minds. RD air- guitared to "If You Want Blood", but I wasn't sure if I'd parroted that. I realized that full body possession (which Dash and I have experience with) was closer to switching than I thought. I asked about her claim of doing things while I'm asleep, and she pointed out that I wouldn't be skeptical if she had a separate body.
KruegerMeister December 10, 2015 Author December 10, 2015 12/7/15: Fluttershy helped me with worldbuilding. Hours later, Dash pretended to be Pinkie Pie. I looked up visualization tips. Dash pointed out that I hadn't worked on the DIY project today. She tried to motivate me by pointing out that I'd die someday (I read a Scientific American article saying that being reminded of one's eventual death could motivate one to exercise or something). 12/8/15: Dash possessed me during my psych class. She was bored, and speculated that she had ADHD. She figured that Keystroke/Dusk would be more suited to possession during lectures. She switched with Fluttershy for a few minutes, until Fluttershy felt a phantom pain. I theorized that a mental block was impeding progress: part of me sees progress's eventual end as "your tulpa's fully developed, nothing more to log, time for tearful goodbyes". Keystroke and I worked on full-body possession; he imagined himself in an Eva cockpit. We worked on vocal possession; I couldn't get his voice right.
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