KM & RD

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11/13/15: I felt like I hadn't been doing much with my tulpas today, which kind of unsettled me. Dash called me clingy. When the people I was eating dinner with left, Dash asked if they were gone. I looked under the table, and she'd been hiding there. She explained that she was "trying to emulate [her] childhood", in which she'd acted as though she was corporeal (such as moving when someone sat in the seat she was in). Later, Nina and I talked about Smile Dog. Nina said that the red version has too-garish/overly saturated colors. She dared me to "spread the word" about her.

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11/14/15: Dash showed up behind the counter at Starbucks, and excitedly asked what I was gonna get. I worked on a creepypasta-like story about her (which was basically just writing about our life, but wording it differently). I got a headache in Shou's area at one point; I wasn't sure if this was a dangerous symptom that just happened to be in that spot, but I figured based on context that it wasn't anything to worry about. Nina wanted me to work on the DIY project. I realized that I hadn't worked on it much today and apologized.

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11/15/15: I forgot to log stuff. Dash showed up under a table again. She said that she disapproved of my creepypasta idea. We did hypnosis stuff. In a chatroom, one user RPd transmuting stuff. Nina tentatively bropaw'd them, and RD wondered how to "tentatively" bropaw someone. I've had a Fallout Boy song stuck in my head. I asked Dash for her opinion of this, and she said she wanted to listen to "Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu". I asked Nina if she really liked shooter games, or if I was just doing something like parroting. She shrugged. We talked about CoD, and my nostalgia-skewed view of it (Keystroke had possessed me and won his first ever match).

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11/16/15: The current draft of the "creepypasta" story has me slowly turning into ash, only to combust and rise again like a phoenix. Dash said that she didn't like the "ash" idea, and suggested I just "crack" apart like in the "Shatter Me" music video. I noticed that Nina didn't sound 100% right, so I imagined clips of her character's voice saying things with different emotions. I was cold, so I asked Nina to possess me and see if her fur would warm me up. She advised me to not touch any part of my body, since my fingertips were cold and she was "jacked in" to my nervous system.

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11/17/15: I realized that I'd forgotten to log stuff. I worked on visualizing Nina's tattoo. I felt a sensation like wind blowing on hair on my knuckles (only I don't have hair on my knuckles), and wondered if it was Nina-related (like maybe she'd tricked my nervous system and tactilely imposed the feeling). I was surprised to see the "Cleed Disappear" guy on Tosh.O; Dash said it wasn't that big a deal. Nina said that she felt "at home" on the IRC I'm always on. After I listened to the KoRn song "Freak On a Leash", I asked Dash and Keystroke if they'd work on a song while Nina and I worked on the DIY project. I talked to Nina about this. Shortly after, Shou called me "son". I said I didn't want to do that RP because it came from spite (and what would my dad think if he read this?), and suddenly my tear ducts just overflowed. Shou asked why I cared what my dad thought.

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11/18/15: Nina appeared under a table, somehow fitting through the barstools. She speculated that working on the DIY project for Keystroke/Ed's benefit didn't work as motivation because he wasn't as invested in it as she is. I forgot to log stuff. Nina was kind of bugged when "Freak On a Leash" was stuck in my head.

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11/19/15: In English, I wrote a scene about a guy who ends up drowning in quicksand. Shou noticed that the guy had my dad's name, and said this was a Freudian slip. Nina went through a short phase wherein she wore ragged hair and listened to KoRn songs. I asked her about this, and...I don't remember what she said, but basically, listening to the songs (which I heard in...either middle school or high school) immersed her in that part of my life and brought the past to the present, which would facilitate healing. I thought that maybe my childhood played a role in the "I'm Shou's kid" RP: I watched Fullmetal Alchemist as a kid, and I may have subconsciously identified with the character of Nina Tucker. Dash dared me to drink a Pabst beer. I asked Nina if she wanted to practice possession while I ate sushi with my dad, and she growled at that prospect. Thinking of Freak On a Leash "summoned" Nina. I asked RD if she wanted any sushi, and she declined for Nina's sake.

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11/20/15: I randomly started thinking about that sad Courtney Ford song from the South Park episode "Tom's Rhinoplasty", and asked RD if my thinking of a "falling out of love" song meant our relationship was ending. She suggested not having an open relationship. I tried to analyze Keystroke's early pervy behavior. I was about to talk about social criticism, and Dash advised me to stay calm so I didn't look like a conspiracy theorist. The description for the upcoming MLP season finale is "Starlight Glimmer returns with a new spell that can change Equestria's past, present, and future"; I thought about this, and saw Nina waking up from a nightmare that a NSFW thing we consider equivalent to equalization/cutie un-marking had happened to her. She called me her brother, meaning she wanted to do that one RP. We sort of did for a few minutes, but I ended up falling asleep.

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11/21/15: I got stressed when people were being too loud while I was trying to listen to music (to get ideas for songs), and Dash said I was taking songwriting too seriously. Keystroke sang part of a parodic "Fullmetal Magician" opening song, and Nina said "my ears are bleeding. Like, literally bleeding", and then commented on her lack of a circulatory system. I read a thread about "what would 4Kids hypothetically change in Fullmetal Alchemist?". Nina approved of some of the changes, and RD was like "wat?"

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11/22/15: I forgot to log interactions with Nina. She and Keystroke (as Ed) got excited when I worked on the DIY project. I read an annoyingly long thread about body image stuff, but didn't stop when Nina asked me to (in my defense, it was like seeing a train wreck you can't look away from). RD hypnotized Fluttershy for a bit. We hanged out in our wonderland.

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11/23/15: I forgot to log something Fluttershy said. I looked up types of therapy for Nina, and Dash praised me for checking what was woo-woo and what wasn't. I was about to take a bubble bath when Nina said that she wanted to possess me, so we worked on that. We started out with me touching stuff and asking if she could feel it. She said that she didn't like the way my body looked, but she was fine with her mental "body". I asked her why she had a problem with my body, and she pointed out that it was hers, too. I watched a bunch of pony YouTube Poops, which Dash termed "pranks in video form".

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11/24/15: I theorized about why Nina showed up, trying to account for Dash's brief shapeshifting. Nina said "I don't think the shapeshifting was as big a part of it as you think it was." I reviewed my PR, and noticed that posts seemed to be longer back when it was just me and Rainbow Dash; Dash said that there was still some excitement/newness in our relationship back then. One of my tulpas added that I'd spread my attention too thin between all of them. I ascribed this to Fluttershy. Dash said "there's no rule saying it has to be super long!" I said that life was like a movie, and she replied "and we've reached a boring lull." She suggested I take a break from tulpamancy altogether. I worried this would lead to dissipation, and she said "Um, it's called 'the preconscious'? Stuff's in there forever?"

I guess Dash's suggestion was an informal agreement to take a break, because when I asked Nina for worldbuilding advice, that's what she told me.

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11/25/15: I didn't do much tulpa-related stuff. Dash called herself "awesomelicious", and I asked her if she had a big ego. A thing happened where side-by-side images of Shou's human and chimera forms said the same thing (something about science) in each other's voices, and this helped Shou get his voice right.