KM & RD

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4/20/16: Dash sparred with me. She was partly imposed, partly visualized. We talked about music. She compared me to Donald Trump, cuz I used to have a wall to keep intrusive thoughts out, and Trump wants a wall to keep people out.

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4/21/16: Fluttershy had a thought that I'd say was the inverse of the thought Dash had had (troubling, but for a different reason). We didn't really do much, other than make small-talk.

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4/22/16: Dash and Shou gave me some head-pressures. We didn't do much stuff today.

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4/23/16: I was kinda tired, and saw Dash hovering in my room. I excitedly told her to sit next to me on my bed. She didn't want to, because the blankets weren't smoothed out. I asked if she was saying she could feel that, and she said "uh, yeah" like it was obvious. She also said that one of the "core things" about her was "pseudo-physicality". I forgot to log stuff. When I wrote that, Dash commented that "stuff" was mostly small-talk, and told me I didn't need to log everything that happened. Fluttershy agreed with her. Dash said that the main character of HunterxHunter was "too shonen" in her opinion.

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4/24/16: I set up an experiment to test...I'm not sure what it's called, but I had Keystroke read textbook material to me, in a sort-of trance state so that my conscious recall was impaired. We only read the material once,so that if I did well on the test, it wouldn't be because I'd read the material several times. I took a Magic the Gathering color test and got white/blue/red. Dash said she'd fit white/black/red.

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4/25/16: I proxied a long sentence for Sarah, but she changed it a few times before I was done. I was flustered by a conspiracy theorist's video, and Dash said, "I think you'll just have to accept" that some people believe conspiracies.

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4/26/16: I forgot to log stuff. I let RD hypnotize me. She said I was doing a good job on the DIY project, and was amazed that my phone knew to capitalize her initials.

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4/27/16: I forgot to log stuff. Keystroke took the same Magic: the Gathering test I did, where you say how strongly you agree or disagree with statements. His response to "people should be informed with a sufficient amount of knowledge and education, whether they want it or not" was "does not compute." He got a result that had Black as the main color, which he didn't like. I told him that just like White isn't inherently good, Black isn't inherently bad.

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4/28/16: Shou and I worked on possession. We've definitely got work to do. Dash and I chatted about Skyrim.

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4/29/16: There was some re-scheduling that messed up my experiment. Fluttershy psychoanalyzed me a little.

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4/30/16: I reread my psychology textbook; I skipped a chapter on ethics, because I was reading about unethical stuff that made me uncomfortable. I said that I already knew it, but Fluttershy called that a rationalization. I read about the Dawnguard quest line. Lust popped in to say that playing through it might be therapeutic for me. I saw something unrealistic in MLP, and Dash pointed out the characters were magical cartoon ponies. She dared me to unwrap and eat a Nerds Rope one-handed. My cat was sleeping curled up; Dash said animals that slept curled up were cute, so Shou tried to curl up. I got creeped out when I explored the sewers in Skyrim, which lead to Dash commenting on the scary atmosphere and suggesting that I play nighttime parts during the day, and daytime parts at night. She said Skyrim was "really immersive. Perhaps too immersive."

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5/1/16: With regards to yesterday's stuff, Dash said "context. There is none." She wanted to possess me. We kind of got into that, but it didn't last long.

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5/2/16: Lust had some trouble explaining why she thought playing Dawnguard would help me, but Fluttershy said she understood "the tulpish" of the message. There was some walk-in-related "mental overcrowding", and some characters explaining where they deviated from their show's canon. Oddly, I wasn't weirded out by the "walk-in" part, just the "overcrowding" part.

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5/3/16: I forgot to log stuff. Lust talked about Dawnguard, but I forgot exactly what she said, because the mental image of her going back through the door was so cool.

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5/4/16: I forgot to log stuff. Keystroke gave me a head-pressure and said I was doing a good job on a philosophy paper. Sarah gave me some coaching on the DIY project, after which Fluttershy gave me a head-pressure. We'd been watching Naruto Shippuden, and she liked the Nine-Tails' character arc.

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5/5/16: Dash and I talked about my Skyrim character. We didn't do much other than that.

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5/6/16: Dash and I talked about Final Destination and other metaphysical stuff. Lust recommended turning on a fan, and Dash gave me a head-pressure of agreement, saying it was hot in my room.

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5/7/16: Dash and I worked on vocal possession. She said the scratchiness of her voice was satisfactory, but agreed with me that I needed to adjust my pitch. Keystroke said that the rough carpet in my room hurt his hooves.

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5/8/16: Keystroke offered to help me plan what order to do Skyrim quests in. Dash and Fluttershy liked some FlutterDash pics I saw.

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5/9/16: Dash had good memories of a certain classroom, which she said my history class had been in.

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5/10/16: I didn't do much with my tulpas today.

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5/11/16: I didn't do much with my tulpas today. Dash tried to possess me and speak in her voice. She made a Grumpy Cat face after I'd realized we'd shifted out of possession. I thought that my "breathy" voice sounded on the right track. I kind of rushed into vocal exercises, and Dash recommended taking it slow. I read an old post from two years ago, where I said something like "the tulpa is the host's subconscious", or maybe Dash said that. I tried to understand that in light of things like "Nina had a nightmare once, which heavily suggests she has a subconscious".

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5/12/16: Dash got mad about the heat, guessing that it was 80 degrees out. It was 79. We talked about Skyrim, and she said I could use the "zoom in" archery perk as a camera to watch summons fight things.

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5/13/16: I forgot to log stuff. I found out there's a name for my "Skyrim therapy" idea: story therapy. I've only done a bit of research on it, and my impression was that the client couldn't be aware they were hearing anything but a story. I considered finishing my Skyrim story, and then having Dash hypnotize that knowledge away. I worked on singing a diatonic scale to figure out how high I could go. Nina said that one of my notes sounded like a braying donkey. Dash hypnotized me, and Nina helped me with the DIY project. Lust popped in and did some planning on the Dawnguard part of the story, but asked me not to read a thread I was reading, because she wasn't good at parallel processing.

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5/14/16: I had a disturbing dream about Rainbow Dash. When I woke up, Dash said I'd dreamt about the character, not her. We noted that she was more talkative after I'd watched a Rainbow Dash-centric episode of MLP, and she wondered why. Fluttershy said that maybe she just wasn't that talkative.

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5/15/16: I forgot to log stuff. A bit of stuff happened with a Starlight Glimmer walk-in, prompted by having songs from an episode parodying A Christmas Carol (with Starlight as Scrooge) stuck in my head. Thinking about this made me break out in a sweat, just like with Lust, probably because of the "

reformed villain

" trait they both have.

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5/16/16: Based on the circumstances, Fluttershy concluded Starlight was a muse. I saw a Great Pyrenese, and my first thought was "Hey, it's a Nina."

I thought about censoring last year's April Fools Day post, because bad press, but Dash accused me of running from some fear. Later, Fluttershy said that Starlight left while I was distracted. I reread my old posts, and edited some punctuation and typos. Dash wondered where "the long posts from before" went. She also said "The DIY project's a good long-term idea for the spark, but...yeah. We need short-term."

She told me (in Tulpish) that she wanted to watch a romantic comedy. I thought about watching YouTube, and she said Alex Jones was "old hat". I saw a thumbnail of a video called "what are the hagravens?" which prominently featured a hagraven's face. Dash answered the title with "ugly as fuck; please stop staring at that thing before the image is seared into my brain." She said another problem was that the DIY project lacked excitement, and it had turned into just a mundane, routine thing. I saw a clip from a certain MLP episode, which prompted Dash to comment, "Lel, dark matter ponies ^^ ". She thinks I'm still thinking like I'm writing a progress report, but said this post was "shaping up to old times ;) ". I visualized her before bed; I ended up thinking of the Pyrenees I'd played with today, and Dash said that the feel of its fur was one of Nina's "files" (like in a game).

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5/17/16: I saw a video thumbnail of a girl standing on a blue background, with "why can't men just like...die or something, amirite?" in one corner. Dash said that the inflammatory quote and the mundane rest-of-the-thumbnail cancelled each other out. I heard a random buzzing sound, and Dash joked, "I think that killed me, cuz HAARP." Starlight came close to having an identity crisis, because she couldn't recall details from an MLP episode because I couldn't.

Later, she said she preferred Velveeta microwaveable Mac n Cheese, "mostly because the shells don't get stuck in the fork when you stir".