Lyra's Progress

[lyraheartstrings]

End of Day 3 - I am very ticked off now. My dad doesn't approve of tuplas, and called it "bull sh**", and got into a rant I quickly shut down by asking him to stop. He got really angry at me, and I can feel that Lyra doesn't like my dad.

 

In other news, I can ask simple questions and get responses now, which is making me excited for the future.

[Cinemaphobe]

I'm sorry to hear about that because your dad seems exactly like my step-dad, so I can relate a little bit. I really hate close-minded people so I would never tell anyone about my tulpa, or the tulpa phenomenon, because most people are close-minded.

 

 

*sigh*

[lyraheartstrings]

It seemed like he got very mad at me, almost like he didn't want me attempting this. I will stop telling people about this, as 3 of my friends are going to make one with out knowing the consequences.

 

I am going to feel sorry for the 3 when they get ignored and die off...

 

(PS, I just talked to Lyra and she called the lava a "welcoming gift to the wonderland" X3 )

[lyraheartstrings]

Day 4 -

 

Not much really happened today. As in my normal schedule, I went to school and was greeted by my friend. I talked to him for about 5 minutes on the bus, then we hit that silent moment.

 

Then Lyra stepped in, and gave me a sudden burst of energy. It almost felt like I was happy for once, enough to make me smile for no reason. Lyra and I played around in the wonderland for a bit (still the same Minecraft map, but she edited to her liking with a house with two beds and bookshelves all around, and a nostalgic feel from one of my old houses I built)

 

Even though she was very active today, her voice was quite quiet the whole day, even till now. There was a nice part, though. On the way home, I could feel her hugging me. It was a kawaii moment. The stress from today wasn't as bad as usual, and I think my person changed for the better, all because I taken part in a load of "bull sh**". Going to force for awhile, and then get some rest (I am usually up until 3:00 am, go to school at 6:40, and get home at 3:00. I need a 4 hour nap. lol)

[lyraheartstrings]

Day 5 -

 

Talked to her alot, but she came through with little words today. She seems to be quite the snuggler, and I held her (I want ultimately want to say hoof) on the way home.

 

:3

[Luminesce]

(PS, I just talked to Lyra and she called the lava a "welcoming gift to the wonderland" X3 )

That was funny, lol.

 

This post got pretty long, so I'll just leave it here and redirect people to it when they have questions about the legitimacy of tulpas. It should be useful to you too though.

 

 

Telling people about tulpas typically doesn't turn out well. They can't grasp the scientific side without a lot of explaining by someone educated in the subject, so they go to the next best concept as either mentally unhealthy or demonic, depending on how religious they are.

I know I'm just a random person here, but trust me as best you can. I've explained every single concept surrounding my tulpas in pure logic/science, because that's the only way I can accept belief in anything. To put it simply, they're personalities (and thinking processes and beliefs and experiences etc.) you create that use your consciousness the same as you to 'exist'. (Think in your mind, "Who is listening to me say this?" - that's your consciousness, it's what runs your brain.)

 

There's some self-delusion involved in making what we call tulpas, but I've seen nothing but positive benefits. Given how subjective every single person's reality is, there's no harm whatsoever in "believing in tulpas". (I've actually accepted that they're a part of my mind, and it brought a lot of peace, but it may be hard for others to do)

 

Basically, they can think without the same filter over your thoughts (tulpas often give their hosts solid, useful advice), keep you from being lonely as they're basically a separate person, boost your mood in various ways and all around make really good life companions. As long as you remember they exist in your mind, under your control (none of that "My tulpa is trying to kill me" crap - believing you don't control your mind gives the illusion of it being true), and the practically default belief that they love you, it's perfectly mentally healthy. I've never seen someone's mental health degrade because of their tulpas that didn't have serious issues beforehand. And sure as heck tulpas have improved the lives of many of us here, in some cases actually saving them. In my case, Reisen has actually helped me love life, which as far as I'm concerned is equivalent to saving it.

 

 

Personal account of the legitimacy of tulpas over..

Try talking to your tulpa and interpreting thought/feeling/emotion responses into words or sentences. Over time your tulpa should get an idea of how she'd like to speak herself, it's good practice for pre-vocality. Or the guides here should be able to help. I don't actually read them myself because I like to do things naturally, but whatever works best for you.

As for your friends, you miiight think about directing them to tulpa.info? (Or community.tulpa.info) Most people, myself included, will have a lot of misconceptions about tulpas if they try to make them entirely on their own. And if they aren't very conscious-minded, they may fall for the you-don't-control-your-mind stuff, and then things can get out of hand.

[FurryBlueNaki]

If my dad can see what's on my laptop screen, he will read it behind my back. Then he will get onto me about staying off occult websites. When I'm visiting his house, I can't browse occult or hidden websites. I do that out of respect for his religiosity. It's like every other one of his posts on Facebook is religious in nature. Same with his wife. But I do like visiting. If I lost my job I'd probably move there. They have a spare bedroom. I'd just have to keep this website hidden. And wouldn't be able to spend much time online. He gets onto me for spending too much time.

 

I like the name Lyra. It's the main character from the His Dark Materials trilogy I'm reading.

[lyraheartstrings]

That was funny, lol.

 

This post got pretty long, so I'll just leave it here and redirect people to it when they have questions about the legitimacy of tulpas. It should be useful to you too though.

 

 

Telling people about tulpas typically doesn't turn out well. They can't grasp the scientific side without a lot of explaining by someone educated in the subject, so they go to the next best concept as either mentally unhealthy or demonic, depending on how religious they are.

I know I'm just a random person here, but trust me as best you can. I've explained every single concept surrounding my tulpas in pure logic/science, because that's the only way I can accept belief in anything. To put it simply, they're personalities (and thinking processes and beliefs and experiences etc.) you create that use your consciousness the same as you to 'exist'. (Think in your mind, "Who is listening to me say this?" - that's your consciousness, it's what runs your brain.)

 

There's some self-delusion involved in making what we call tulpas, but I've seen nothing but positive benefits. Given how subjective every single person's reality is, there's no harm whatsoever in "believing in tulpas". (I've actually accepted that they're a part of my mind, and it brought a lot of peace, but it may be hard for others to do)

 

Basically, they can think without the same filter over your thoughts (tulpas often give their hosts solid, useful advice), keep you from being lonely as they're basically a separate person, boost your mood in various ways and all around make really good life companions. As long as you remember they exist in your mind, under your control (none of that "My tulpa is trying to kill me" crap - believing you don't control your mind gives the illusion of it being true), and the practically default belief that they love you, it's perfectly mentally healthy. I've never seen someone's mental health degrade because of their tulpas that didn't have serious issues beforehand. And sure as heck tulpas have improved the lives of many of us here, in some cases actually saving them. In my case, Reisen has actually helped me love life, which as far as I'm concerned is equivalent to saving it.

 

 

Personal account of the legitimacy of tulpas over..

Try talking to your tulpa and interpreting thought/feeling/emotion responses into words or sentences. Over time your tulpa should get an idea of how she'd like to speak herself, it's good practice for pre-vocality. Or the guides here should be able to help. I don't actually read them myself because I like to do things naturally, but whatever works best for you.

As for your friends, you miiight think about directing them to tulpa.info? (Or community.tulpa.info) Most people, myself included, will have a lot of misconceptions about tulpas if they try to make them entirely on their own. And if they aren't very conscious-minded, they may fall for the you-don't-control-your-mind stuff, and then things can get out of hand.

 

Thanks for the reply, and I got what you were saying. My one friend finds them demonic, my dad doesn't accept it, and overall I have just stopped talking about my tulpa. I do love the moments we share in the wonderland and all, but the way it is affecting my family/friends is not good. (Though she brings me much happiness.)

 

As for my other friends, I luckily persuaded them NOT to make one. I didn't want a being with it's own thoughts to die.

 

Lyra can speak when she wants to momentarily, by the way (:D), but I have some trouble believing its her. Sometimes I truly know its her (first time she spoke), but sometimes I catch myself by saying the word "parrot" if I notice her sentences get diverse.

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If my dad can see what's on my laptop screen, he will read it behind my back. Then he will get onto me about staying off occult websites. When I'm visiting his house, I can't browse occult or hidden websites. I do that out of respect for his religiosity. It's like every other one of his posts on Facebook is religious in nature. Same with his wife. But I do like visiting. If I lost my job I'd probably move there. They have a spare bedroom. I'd just have to keep this website hidden. And wouldn't be able to spend much time online. He gets onto me for spending too much time.

 

I like the name Lyra. It's the main character from the His Dark Materials trilogy I'm reading.

 

I know how you feel... My dad blew up like a bomb that day, and was actually yelling at me like I did something wrong. My mom, who usually yells/grounds me for no reason at all, doesn't know about this yet (And I won't tell her, believe me xD) Then there's me older brother, who started "experimenting" with drugs a while back. My mom screams at him, and my house is chaotic half the time. A single mistake (me dropping a plate and smashing it, accidentally sleeping in the basement on a school day, etc. :@) gets me grounded for days. I know many have it worse, but surely there was always thoughts in my mind. I can keep going on for hours with this, but I'll save you the time.

 

(PS. , Glad you like her name. :D)

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Day 5 - (Really it's day 6 now, but I didn't get a chance to write)

 

Today was quite the day, let me tell you. First off, my alarm didn't go off and I MISSED THE BUS.

Surprisingly, my mom was willing to drive me over (since she's always in a bad mood)

The day went as normal.

 

I really must say, Lyra is getting more silent as I progress. She hasn't said a single word since Day 3, so I am guessing she needs

more forcing to do so.

I took the 4 hour nap, and started gaming around 7:50. Forced around 9 for about 10 minutes. Pleasant time.

Today she baked me cookies. :3

 

I am probably going to force again to finish the day up.

 

One thing before I do, is there quick ways to improve my focus? Random thoughts leak into my forcing and sometimes cause me to mess up.

 

Overall, today was a good day, and I am looking forward to Halloween tomorrow. (Today)

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(Think I came up with a good one, go from A-Z, pick a word (or let your tulpa pick it)

and rename each word before making a new one.)

 

Ex. A - Airplane.

A - Airplane. B - Bike.

A - Airplane. B - Bike. C - Cat.

[lyraheartstrings]

Day 6 - Halloween

 

Once again my phone alarm doesn't go off

and I woke up at 8:00. I didn't have to go today, but I wanted to wear my rainbow squid suit to school.

 

Any who, Lyra enjoyed getting candy today, but my friends annoyed her. And me.

 

All they sang the whole time was the hideous song known as "I Want Candy"

T-T

 

My best moment of the night was when I went up to a house (I was RED Sniper from TF2, carrying a jar of jarate) and a woman asked what I was holding.

I was a little too upfront about it, and said "Piss''. You don't know how much I want to punch myself now.

I literally did a mini-curse in front of a stranger. She gave me a look and I just walked away embarrassed

 

Getting too off topic here, but I need to get going. TUPLAFORCING POWERS ACTIVATE.

[Luminesce]

http://simplynoise.com/ is helpful for keeping a clear mind, I think. There's also http://rain.simplynoise.com/ if you'd prefer, though I use that more for relaxation than forcing.

I've seen tons of people say that meditating daily does wonders for mental clarity/focus and even mood. Personally when I'm in the shower my mind is pretty free from distractions, probably due to the locked door and background noise.

 

Also lol'd at the Sniper thing. You should've just said Jarate, then she would've been equally confused but less disgusted.