Haven and Aphelion: a tale of two pones

[Cinemaphobe]

 

I listened to it during my session today. Damn that's some good stuff. Also, saw

in the related videos and clicked on it. Beautiful. No more words.

 

Oh god you just achieved friendship status with me. and yes, Dreamcatcher is amazing as well!!!!

 

Anyway, onto the report.

 

Day 8

11-4-14

 

Wonderful day today.

Haven managed to make a vocal response on her own. The words were "I love you too..." We've engaged in a romantic relationship with each other, and...I just can't really think of what to say for this.

Moving on, I think I'm starting to get an idea of what she smells like. She doesn't have a recognizable smell, but it's something.

I did 10 1-minute sessions for the image-streaming, and it's definitely interesting. A scene just pops into my head and I work around that. Nothing else to report for today, so I'll just leave with the song I played after our session.

 

 

I am in a romantic relationship with my tulpa as well, so you are definitely not alone lol. By the way the sense of smell is more closely associated with memory than any other scent, so to get a grasp of Haven's scent, try to combine your memories of other scents to create a unique scent characteristic of only her. That's what I do to get a sense of what my tulpa smells like.

 

and finally, the Scandroid - Aphelion song reminds me of a song that would play in an 80's movie, which is a good thing. I felt nostalgia while listening to it hehehehe:)

[Actinium]

 

By the way the sense of smell is more closely associated with memory than any other scent, so to get a grasp of Haven's scent, try to combine your memories of other scents to create a unique scent characteristic of only her. That's what I do to get a sense of what my tulpa smells like.

 

So I have to create her own smell based on other things that I smelled in the past? :huh: This is definitely going to be the hardest sense to get down.

 

Day 10

11-6-14

 

Not too much happened today, but tried to get a feel of her presence.

 

Lots of hugs today, and I think I'm starting to improve in the touch sense due to it. During one of our sessions I asked Haven if she wanted to meditate with me. May as well try to improve the connection between me and her. While we were both meditating, I wanted to make it feel like she was actually sitting next to me in the room I was in. I tried to "feel her energy" and it definitely felt like she was there. After a while, we went up to the lighthouse for the first time since...well, yesterday. I decided to take a dive and jumped off into the water. Haven followed shortly afterwards. We did some normal forcing, but for the most part it was kind of an off day, just spending time with each other in the wonderland.

 

On an unrelated note, I just started replaying Deadly Premonition. I thought it would be something that would develop Haven's thought complex more. She's in for a hell of a ride.

Wouldn't you agree, Zach?

[Guest amber5885]

Okay for the smell. Yes scent is closely tied to memory and all that jazz and it does help tremendously with tulpas but it doesn't have to be made up. Just pick a smell that you both like.

 

I have a bottle of axe body spray that I really like and In the beginning I used to spray it before forcing or I would spray it on the bed next to me before going to sleep to get a sense that he was there.

 

Now I have a travel size bottle I keep in my purse and if I sniff it BOOM! Insta tulpa.

 

It also helps to force me to focus on him if I'm having an issue with my mind wondering.

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Also, there are lots of topics floating around about romantic relationships and tulpas. It's interesting to note that tulpas pretty much always love their hosts but it's up to you as two people to decide what is right for you as far a love, romance and boundaries go,

 

Toby and I have been exlusivly committed for about 4 months now so you are deffinitly not alone. But I would weigh all of the pros and cons,ale sure both of you are on the same page when it comes to what might happen if you find someone more human an all that.

[Actinium]

Okay for the smell. Yes scent is closely tied to memory and all that jazz and it does help tremendously with tulpas but it doesn't have to be made up. Just pick a smell that you both like.

 

Thanks, we'll try that and see how it works out.

 

Day 11

11-7-14

 

Very good progress today.

 

 

I was able to get two vocal responses from Haven today. The first one was about a dream I had last night.

My laptop's keyboard was completely smashed and useless, and I was in some sort of school in which I asked someone to fix it then my laptop was gone, then I was in a desert controlling a missile that would permanently seal me off from an area of said desert to which the missile landed by a bridge with a stairway that I went down. Then I was in a science room of the school I was in earlier, and I just saw all these weird obscure bootleg game cases. One of them was a Gamecube version of Ice Climbers that had its title written in the Fairly Odd Parents font that was apparently made by Gamestop and IGN, hundreds of other weird cases, and something involving Gameshark.

 

"So, what would you call last night?"

"For you, a nightmare. For everyone else, a regular dream."

 

The second response happened while I was passive forcing.

 

"How are you doing, Haven?"

"I'm doing fine." I thought this was kinda funny since that's pretty much what I always say whenever someone asks me how i'm doing.

"You're starting to sound like me now."

 

I think I've got the touch sense down for good. It feels like I'm actually holding her hoof and I have a hard time trying to close my hand whenever I do. All of those hugs really paid off! Whenever I try to feel her, I actually move my real hands to where she would be, so whenever I'm giving her a hug it looks like I'm hugging the air. This helps me out with trying to feel her presence.

Her smell is becoming present, though I'm not quite sure what it is yet. The best way I could describe it is when you breathe through your nose when you're outside and its very cold.

[Cinemaphobe]

Congratulations for your progress! and that Mass Effect song is sooo beautiful! I'm gonna use it for my forcing sessions from now on :3

[Actinium]

Day 12

11-8-14

 

Progress just keeps getting better and better.

 

Decided to force about an hour after I woke up today. Haven's scent has become noticeable. It smelled like fruity soap or shampoo, and I think we'll stick with that smell.

A few hours later, I saw this thread. I decided to give it a shot, and we both sort of stared awkwardly at each other. A few minutes later, the right of my bottom lip starts feeling like it's being pulled back. Once it stopped, I started another session immediately, and probably had my cutest moment with Haven so far.

"Haven, did you possess my bottom lip a few minutes ago?"

"What do you mean?"

*points to the area where my lip was twitching* "My lip, it's the first time my lip ever twitched. Was that you doing that?"

"...I don't know."

Eventually she admitted that it really wasn't her, but I think the funniest part was how silent she became after I asked the question. It reminded me of the Saltlick scene from The Walking Dead game.

She also commented on how I was when I was playing MGR and cut off half of a guy's body and his gun arm and just watched him crawl.

"You're horrible."

"Yeah, I know."

[Actinium]

Day 13

11-9-14

 

I'm always very busy on sundays, so I didn't have any time to force.

 

An interesting thing that did happen, though, was that when I was on the way home, I heard

on the radio, and I heard Haven singing along. I'm not so surprised over the fact that she just started to sing, I'm more surprised over the fact that it just sort of came out of nowhere. I think Haven's starting to become aware of the environment that I'm in.

[Actinium]

Day 14

11-10-14

 

Haven is as talkative as ever. She can't speak fluently, but she's definitely getting there.

Her scent is getting stronger, and she's been responding to a lot of my questions.

 

"So, you seem to be talking a lot recently."

"..."

"Aren't you going to say something?"

"Like what?"

 

Okay, she responds to some of them, but not all of them.

Today, I decided to try out altering some of the physics in our wonderland. For example, I let Haven control the water of the beach which resulted in her getting too concentrated on controlling the water and the wave went as high as the sky.

 

"Well, it's a start."

"No, it's a victory."

 

So much progress made in just two weeks, but there's still so much more to do.

 

EDIT: Oh shit! I forgot to mention something!

I saw Haven in another dream today...Well, sort of.

She appeared as a drawing on a paper plate and ice cream scooper, and throughout the dream I was trying to bring her to life. I feel that was supposed to be symbolism for imposition. I also remember something about playing Nintendogs in some sort of log cabin, and I think it was also the same house that had the drawings of Haven on the plate.

[Actinium]

Day 15

11-11-14

 

Appearing in my dreams two nights in a row? Haven is really giving her all.

 

So, progress report first, dream comes later.

Haven's scent has started becoming very noticeable. I think we might start imposition by the end of the month or earlier if we keep up this rate of progress.

Her presence also feels like it's getting much stronger. It feels like she's standing by me, but it feels cold wherever I try to imagine where she is.

Not a word today surprisingly. I guess she used a lot of energy from either trying to get into my dream or talking too much yesterday.

 

Now, onto the dream.

 

Funny enough, the first tulpa I saw in my dream wasn't Haven, but that of Cinemaphobe's tulpa, Yumi. (Or, at least what I imagine her to look like.)

Her cameo was short lived however as she needed my help to escape from another female by getting her onto a giant arrow and launching her far away.

 

The next thing I know, I'm in an abandoned theme park with the color blue all over the place. I'm climbing up some strange catwalk when out of nowhere it switches to some strange SNES style pony game with broken english. Haven was the main character, and she even had a sprite designed like her. I wasn't the one playing the game though. It was Matt and Pat from Two Best Friends Play, and they were absolutely losing it at how bad the writing was. I wish I could remember what the dialogue said, but all I remember was "Sentiment, sentimental pony."

The rest of the dream takes place in an office building where lots of spooky shit goes down with Matt and Pat still commentating over what was going on. I think I saw Haven standing in front of me at one point though.

[Actinium]

Day 16

11-12-14

 

Emotional spike.

 

I noticed that I haven't talked to Haven about opening up to her recently, so today I got an idea. Since I keep forgetting that T.V. Head is in the wonderland I've decided to make it a way for Haven to view my memories. She'll be able to view my memories by using video tapes by putting them into T.V. Head, (I think I'm just going to call it "Echo" from now on.) and these tapes will all be organized by age, one tape for each year of my life. Only problem is that since I haven't given her complete accident to my memories yet, most of the tapes are static. They should become clear once I let into my brain though. (Even though she's already in there.)

I decided to tell her at least one memory, which one was it? The time that I almost died from choking on an ice cube. I'm not making that up, it actually happened a few years back. :( Once I told her, I got a great feeling of sadness from her and she gave me a hug. I think Haven has responded in all of the mental methods by now; mindvoice, headaches, head pressure, and now an emotional spike.

 

We wrote a poem together.

 

Here we are, in this place that we found.

I can see the stars while lying on the ground.

Truly, the night sky can be quite a sight.

I couldn't agree with you more, you're right.

And although this place may be so far,

It can't be reached by boat, plane, or car.

"So where is this place?" You ask while lying on the bed.

This place is found inside our heads.

There is nobody there, but if you just wait,

There will be an amazing friend that you can create.

It is truly a sight to behold.

Although some people may possibly scold.

So why are you waiting? Doesn't it seem grand?

They're probably waiting for you, in the wonderland.