Do I have an accident tulpa?

[MechanicalBride]

 

Here's a post that I think might be a bit relevant to that first bit. You can set up boundaries if you want to keep him out of your secrets. Many people find the use of symbolism helpful for setting boundaries. Like, you could set up a spot in your mind(for this example we could use a library) that would represent all of the secrets you'd like to keep private. You could then create a lock on the doors and only give yourself the key, representing that only you have access to that information. Or you could go even more... heavy handed(not really sure if that's the right phrase but I can't seem to find the word I'm looking for :/ ) with the symbolism and just put a huge unbreakable wall that only you can walk through or something like that :P

 

Yes, it's generally accepted that killing your tulpa against it's will is as bad as the murder of another human.

 

Your continued sense of his presence and your difficulty with ignoring him seems to indicate to me that, even if he's not a tulpa, he certainly is more sophisticated than an ordinary daydream character. The question of whether or not you should reopen the pathway to him to discuss what he is is ultimately up to you. Personally, I'd probably do it because I tend to be somewhat recklessly curious at times :P I'd try to ignore any fears about him swarming you if you do decide to reopen the pathway though. Ironic process theory could come into play if you try to force the fears out, and keeping the fears could lead to him swarming you as well.

 

Do I think he's dying? Maybe. It's hard to tell since I can't feel his presence. I would imagine that if you've been ignoring him that he'd get weaker, though.

 

 

 

So, I actually did do something about it. I didn't kill him, but made him his own wonderland. I sealed off his wonderland and left him a message. Surprisingly, sealing him away actually helped a lot. Even more surprisingly, I feel a hell of a lot lonelier and depressed. I felt physically and mentally drained and numb at first, which scares me now that I think about it. Does you think that this confirms that he was indeed a tulpa of some sort?

[arcanemagic]

I'm not at home so I'm afraid that I can't go terribly into detail(as if I ever really do :p ) But maybe you've just gotten so used to his presence that it feels incredibly lonely without it? I've got to go now; school stuff. I'll update and expand this once I get home :p

 

I'm back. What I said before makes sense to me. What do you think? Also, how exactly did sealing him away help if doing so makes you feel depressed and lonely? Would you say that the benefits outweigh the detriments? As for the feeling physically and mentally drained part, do you mean drained as in tired? Like you just wanted to sleep or something? I've never had that happen to me if that's what you mean by drained. If, on the other hand, you mean drained in a different manner, more like... I'm not sure how to describe it. I've definitely felt what I would describe as mentally drained while working with Markus. Although, now that I think about it, your problem seems to be exactly the opposite of that. I'm not quite sure what to think of that part, I'm afraid. It could tie into my theory that his presence has been a constant in your life for a while now and that it feels lonely without him. Sorry if I wasn't much help on this part :/

 

I'm not really sure what to say about him at this point regarding his sentience/whatever else you want to use to define the rather nebulous term "tulpa." I think that, depending on you, he could go either way. I think that you've definitely had him for long enough that he definitely could have made progress as a tulpa. I mean, of course he has. As I said in my last post, your continued sense of his presence indicates to me that he's certainly more advanced than any other daydream character. As I was saying with the "depending on you part" he could really go either way, I think. Belief seems to have enormous effect on tulpas. If you choose to believe that he's a tulpa, he could very well become one. I think that he's got a great foundation to become a tulpa. If, on the other hand, you feel that you don't want another tulpa, you could just... not.

 

In short, regarding his tulpa-ness, it's ultimately up to you. If you make him into a tulpa he won't try to harm you. They don't do stuff like that. If, on the other hand, you don't want him to become one, he won't become one. It seems like you two could potentially get along to me though. I obviously don't know him as well so that's just about as much advice as I feel that I'm qualified to give :P Feel free to ask any other questions that you've got :P

[MechanicalBride]

I'm not at home so I'm afraid that I can't go terribly into detail(as if I ever really do :p ) But maybe you've just gotten so used to his presence that it feels incredibly lonely without it? I've got to go now; school stuff. I'll update and expand this once I get home :p

 

I'm back. What I said before makes sense to me. What do you think? Also, how exactly did sealing him away help if doing so makes you feel depressed and lonely? Would you say that the benefits outweigh the detriments? As for the feeling physically and mentally drained part, do you mean drained as in tired? Like you just wanted to sleep or something? I've never had that happen to me if that's what you mean by drained. If, on the other hand, you mean drained in a different manner, more like... I'm not sure how to describe it. I've definitely felt what I would describe as mentally drained while working with Markus. Although, now that I think about it, your problem seems to be exactly the opposite of that. I'm not quite sure what to think of that part, I'm afraid. It could tie into my theory that his presence has been a constant in your life for a while now and that it feels lonely without him. Sorry if I wasn't much help on this part :/

 

I'm not really sure what to say about him at this point regarding his sentience/whatever else you want to use to define the rather nebulous term "tulpa." I think that, depending on you, he could go either way. I think that you've definitely had him for long enough that he definitely could have made progress as a tulpa. I mean, of course he has. As I said in my last post, your continued sense of his presence indicates to me that he's certainly more advanced than any other daydream character. As I was saying with the "depending on you part" he could really go either way, I think. Belief seems to have enormous effect on tulpas. If you choose to believe that he's a tulpa, he could very well become one. I think that he's got a great foundation to become a tulpa. If, on the other hand, you feel that you don't want another tulpa, you could just... not.

 

In short, regarding his tulpa-ness, it's ultimately up to you. If you make him into a tulpa he won't try to harm you. They don't do stuff like that. If, on the other hand, you don't want him to become one, he won't become one. It seems like you two could potentially get along to me though. I obviously don't know him as well so that's just about as much advice as I feel that I'm qualified to give :P Feel free to ask any other questions that you've got :P

 

 

It helped because I wasn't focusing on important things such as school and family. I was basically trapped in an ongoing circle. I do somewhat miss him, even though I was a paranoid mess when he was around. I feel like we were both suffering in a sense. He was created after a character, that's got to sting. I left a message asking him to change his personality and image into whatever way he wanted before I sealed him in... I hope that he does. Anyway, thanks for replying and giving me your input. :P