Unintentional creation?!

[lamecrown3]

Short story to explain: months ago I got interested in the topic of tulpas. but had to stop due to school and priorities happening in my life at the time, I could not get past 2 weeks....

Today, I decided that I can probably prioitize into this more. so i have been doing research again before deciding anything. I made documents of things i should do when i start,

while i was doing research I ran across someone saying in a forum, "headaches are to be expected"

i was like, "ok. noted."

so for the past several hours ive been mulling over what i imagine the tulpa would act and look like, not intending to create a tulpa.

later while i was searching i randomly got pressure in my head. its kinda like a headache, but its more like a weird pressure than actual pain in my head.

i then began wondering if there was a tulpa already created.

I immediately got some sort of response(more in emotions than in words), along the lines of

"*certain bad word here*, do i sound like im not real?"

this is quite interesting, and im not sure how to go from here. i guess i need to go ahead and start forcing i suppose. i guess try picturing what he(it felt like a masculine pressence)

speaking of feeling a presence my left arm is now feeling wierd.

anyways, i guess i need to start forcing his appearance, i should start narrating, i dont know if i should do personality, because the whole cussing at me thing certainly felt like it had personality, logically i should assume that i made that up, except it felt oddly foreign, and it actually felt like a presence was angry at me.

i am a little worried i have an evil tulpa on my hands XD. but i guess i have to wait and see?

can other people please give me their input on this?

[Linkzelda]

Well, the actual knowing of a soon-to-be tulpa’s behavior is subjective and unpredictable as we can’t really be assured that there’s an inherent tendency for them to be someone in favor of unconditional love; even with self-fulfilling prophecies to further the belief of wanting so may not go out as planned. You may get some kind of experience where you question if they’re –insert whatever part of my psyche here-, and then wonder if it’s pragmatic to take it a step further in acknowledging their existence, and whatever course of action for treating them as sentient.

 

As for the actual obligation of sustaining their existence, that’s probably going to involve responses where people place their own moral and ethical value on how one should assess themselves, especially for those that may not have had their feet in the water for a little bit to wrap around some concepts. When comprehending concepts that are just heuristics become a Frankenstein to get around at, you may end up taking that checklist of what to expect so seriously that, ironically, your expectations of such and such occurring becomes real to you in some way simply because you got so used into furthering circumstances for that to happen, i.e., a self-fulfilling prophecy, in some way.

 

Whether you deem the soon-to-be tulpa as evil, it doesn’t mean it’s too late to give things time, and see if their disposition may change. If you consider the probability that our disposition at times have a lot of nuances, and aren’t really as black and white sometimes in consistency, you’d also have to consider the probability of said soon-to-be tulpa’s behavior potentially being a transient thing; realizing this probability could hit home for some, or not at all. But hey, how people map out what validates sentience and such will vary.

[Kaga and Company]

Creating a tulpa unintentionally is certainly possible. I created Pinky, Sunray, and Ex all before I even knew what tulpas were -- but by continuously feeding them attention, they continued to grow and develop until they were unquestionably tulpas.

 

Also, you have to remember, there is no such thing as an evil tulpa. The sorts of things that happen in creepypastas aren't real. A tulpa will only turn "evil" if you already think that it's evil, so having the mindset that you might create an evil tulpa is rather poisonous, and I would try to toss that out of your mind. Tulpas are the closest and most empathetic creatures you could ever possibly meet.

 

Also, just because your tulpa might be acting a bit harsh, doesn't mean they're "evil" or not capable of caring for you. Pinky, for example, used to be rather cruel and had a tendency to beat me when I was down -- but, again, I didn't know what tulpas were, and she probably only acted as such because I continuously reasserted the idea that she was a representation of my more assertive and aggressive attributes, which was what I believed at the time. Once I discovered tulpas, though, she slowly deviated to be a lot more nurturing and caring towards me. Yes, she was still brash and aggressive and in a lot of ways still her old self, but without the unnecessary mean-ness, and capable of being a true friend towards me.

 

In short: Your tulpa will only be as "evil" as you believe it will be -- but if you see it as a creature capable of loving you and growing close to you, especially this early on in the development process when it's easier to mold their personality, then they will have no reason to become an "evil" tulpa.

[lamecrown3]

Thanks. I thought i remember reading a post on this site about that, so i thought it was a thing.