Slowpokes general

[Guest Anonymous]

NED: I would be very interested in such a thread. You should make it!

 

Biotechnology:: I seem to remember a certain cyclops tetris block that stares at the player and falling tiles alternatively. Perhaps changing your tulpa's form to that of a tetris block would help.

 

Chupi: Nice! Usually, I think of how that feeling feels, and I can induce it, but while forcing, it's been a much stronger feeling. Friday, it went from feeling the best ever all over, to continuing to last for hours in the region of my head, to being an almost overwhelming weird feeling of pressure/ headache for a while, until I forced. Since it went away after I did so, I'm theorizing that the headache was my tulpa feeling hungry for a forcing session. Afterwards, the tulpa was much more active than usual, moving around in an unexpected way, and even a moment of unadulterated vocality.

[Kadoh]

I know I'm a pretty much a faetus compared to all you guys, but if you are looking for a unique perspective, try my progress log. It must be good, Irish subbed to it. http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Awakening-Shinigami

[Avalanche]

I think I fit into this thread about now.

 

80+ hours in, only one sentence said from Flora.

Korra is only 5ish hours old though, forcing time.

 

Where's the rat poison and kool aid?

[Winter]

I think I fit into this thread about now.

 

80+ hours in, only one sentence said from Flora.

Korra is only 5ish hours old though, forcing time.

 

Where's the rat poison and kool aid?

 

I took it all. I'm 142 hours in and I've only had some disjointed words. A sentence would be cause for celebration.

[Avalanche]

 

I took it all. I'm 142 hours in and I've only had some disjointed words. A sentence would be cause for celebration.

 

It was a half asleep sentence. Plus it was so clear and shit and it hasn't happened again that I'm starting to doubt how authentic it is based on how clear it was.

[Guest Anonymous]

If you've managed to not doubt until now, keep convincing yourself that the sentence was real.

There are probably many reasons for slowpokes' speeds, but the recurring reason for most people around here is doubt.

Can't doublethink yourself to tulpadom if you can't convince yourself of something that you don't expect to be true entirely.

Or one could more simply convince themselves that they can't parrot and everything said was 100% authentic tulpa speech.

Tulpacouple's good idea

[Avalanche]

I feel like I'm taking good steps to my goal, but when I look at the bigger picture it's not much. When you think of a mile, it's long, but not hugely long. I look at my feet and take a step, and it seems like a solid movement, but when I look up it's like I hadn't moved at all.

[Chupi]

It was a half asleep sentence. Plus it was so clear and shit and it hasn't happened again that I'm starting to doubt how authentic it is based on how clear it was.

 

Don't doubt it. Remember whatever it was that convinced you it was her voice. When she's able to communicate with you more reliably, ask her about it -- she'll probably remember doing it.

 

I heard my tulpa once through those half-asleep voices, at least a month ago. I get these voices as I fall asleep if I'm really tired. They usually spout some random inane sentence and disappear -- either a random thought, something I heard someone say that day, a movie line, etc., but it's never relevant to anything I'm thinking about at the moment. They're also perfectly normal-sounding voices that sound like they're coming from near my head, like what G|d30n describes fully-vocal tulpa voices being like.

 

What I heard from her was slightly wonky like the voice wasn't quite sure how it was supposed to sound. It spoke in very short sentences, which is all I was able to get from her as thoughts at the time (and with great concentration to hear her). I was also asking her questions, and the voice responded to them with sensible answers. The short sentences and answering questions sensibly were what convinced me that it was her.

 

As of now, we can still only reliably communicate with thoughts and quiet mindvoice, though I did hear a loud mindvoice 2 weeks ago. She is now capable of longer more complex thoughts and reverts to gibberish less often. Just now I talked to her about that half-asleep voice; relevant bits:

• She does remember doing it, and confirms that it was her.
  
• She describes what she did as more like speaking aloud than when she does a mindvoice now.
  
• If she does the same thing now, I either can't hear her at all or (occasionally) get a very "non-solid" voice that's maybe there but has zero volume. It's also inside my head.
  
• Doing it took "some" effort but not a whole lot, because I was in a state where I could already hear out-loud voices pretty automatically.
  
• She says she'd like to do it again, but hasn't seen me in that state again. I've heard the random voices a few times since, but she must've been asleep at the time. She generally sleeps when I do.

[Avalanche]

When I say I get responses like yes's and no's it's generally extremely quiet. And it's like I hear a murmur and I only get the answer by the intent and feeling of what was said.

 

I would ask a question, get a near inaudible answer when I listen for one and I sort of know by feeling what the reply was. This is also why I'm restricted to yes and no for answers. You can't really feel out the intent behind a whole sentence.

 

Also those voices you were talking about are what is called Radio Chatter. It's lot's of snippets of voices and phrases you have heard played over and you slip into a dream state.

[Guest Anonymous]

When you think of a mile, it's long, but not hugely long. I look at my feet and take a step, and it seems like a solid movement, but when I look up it's like I hadn't moved at all.

 

I feel the same way. But this mile is more like a mind bending mental marathon than a sprint. I'd much prefer it to be the other way around.

 

So we trudge on, a step at a time.

Though these steel toed boots weigh heavily 'pon our soles.

They'll not stop us from reaching our goals.

Soon we'll move on, past the mental blocks that we hide.