Giving in to Ego

[Doctorfoxwolf]

What would you name it Doc?

 

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 combined with the sound of dial up internet overlaying the sound of wood being sawed through.

 

But since that can't really be effectively written down, I guess you could call it "Raw Data".

[Ponytail]

I don't make a post for what, three days? And now I'm on bottom. As for what Doc said, "raw data" seems like a suitable name for this oddity.

 

Anywho, I learned that neck possession is strange to say the least. I was trying to go to sleep on a car ride home when Annabell was suddenly like "Yo dude, look at yourself." I opened my eyes and noticed everything except my head had dissociated. Annabell then grabbed my neck and kept it upright while I tried to sleep. She's such a doll, being nice like that. <3 Later she went ahead and possessed my arms and legs too, because there's no such thing as pushing yourself too damn far, apparently. This marked the second time she'd grabbed my four limbs, and now she had the neck. Then she possessed my upper back. Needless to say, I was surprised by all of this. She'd made weeks of progress in the course of a car ride. Seeing as how we needed to go to someone else's house to retrieve my dog after the family trip, I decided to take this another step further. I told Annabell to walk me there. Now, she didn't have my back muscles, so I took care of staying upright but the following walking was a little terrifying. She's very loose in her movements. She obviously still can't fully control movement of individual limbs very well. Individual stoops and rises in elevation would've caused her to fall had I not been there. She can't do fingers very well still.

Also, as for the back possessing thing, apparently it's difficult for her to find. Not sure what to think of that. Also, apparently I'm really attached to my face, gee what a surprise. I imagine it'll take awhile to get that down.

 

While visiting family, we realized we have separate dreams. It's been three days since we'd had them so I can't remember what they were about, oh well. Still, it's the first time I've had a dream since starting tulpamancy. Hopefully I have more in the future and can "analyze" them or something. Not that dream analysis is particularly fascinating to readers. Or atleast, I wouldn't think so given the highly subjective nature of them.

 

I sometimes wonder if Annabell's incredibly fast progress is due to the soulbond I already have in my head. I guess I have prior experience with thoughtforms in that case. Random thought. Maybe some of you will discuss it or something. I want you guys to talk, then I get to respond and we all get to have fun and I'll feel more important. This would also explain why possession is the only thing taking alot of time.

 

In order to practice Annabell forcing things, I'm having her stock up some imaginary cabinets with various items while I'm not looking. When I first assigned the project, immediately the first row filed with Clorox wipes, corn, and beans. Later I peaked and a ceramic whale was bent into a crescent shape and relieving it's blowhole. This could be interesting. I told her to fill 5 cabinets, each of which have three shelves. Bonus points if she does more or I can't complete looking due to fits of laughter. This could get interesting and when she finishes I'll tell you all the disastrous results.

 

Happy New Years. Your gym memberships will not be renewed at the end of the month, guaranteed.

[tulpa001]

I want you guys to talk, then I get to respond and we all get to have fun and I'll feel more important.

Uh, happy new years?

 

While visiting family, we realized we have separate dreams.

Oh man so jealous what is wrong with me?

[Ponytail]

Oh man so jealous what is wrong with me?

 

Maybe you're broken. Not sure if you have a tulpa repairman in your city though so you may be hard-pressed to find one.

Honestly I would've much preferred we have the same dream and would both interact with it or something. I dunno, I'd hardly consider this the perfect result. Not that I'm horribly bitter about this, dreams don't matter much to me anyways.

 

Now I'm posting a fun bit because while reading tulpa001's guide in the philosophy section Annabell gave some cheeky answers I found amusing so I asked her to answer more.

 

--Am I real?

As a bundle of nerves in my host's brain, yes.

--Is there a meaning of life?

It's okay, one day Jesus will come down and be like "Alright it's actually pretty simple..."

--Is the universe created?

I'm Christian, my answer may be a little biased

--Is morality relative?

How so? Amongst cultures, I'd say so. Individually? We all tend to agree whether or not something is a sin by making laws against it.

--Is infinity real?

There is no end to the stupid things humans can do, so I'd say so. Also, I believe the universe is infinite? Or have we ret-conned that theory?

--Can war be justified?

It can be, with things like religion, oil, angry citizens. They aren't good reasons though

--Is there objective truth?

Yes, the sky is blue.

--Can a person have a unique, incommunicable experience?

If someone mute has a strange dream, I'd say so

--Are things real if they are real to someone?

...this is an awfully incriminating question for this particular community.

--What is information made out of?

Like, scientific definition? I believe it's everything. Actual knowledge? Ink, electronic displays, neural pathways, etc.

--Can time be wasted?

With how my host watches Youtube, it'd be difficult to say no.

--Can a person be objectively insane?

Yes, because we have a definition for it: Doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result.

--What is the value of science?

Medical advances, duh.

--What makes a punishment justified?

Personally, I want murderers hidden away from society. I really don't want them roaming freely. It's when they cause problems that they need to be dealt with.

[tulpa001]

I am objectively insane!

 

*rolls die*

 

Six.

 

*rolls die*

 

Four.

 

I knew it!

 

*rolls die*

 

Four.

 

Darnit!

[Ponytail]

Both you and my host came up with situations of chance :@

Do I need to elaborate in such a way to where my sentence has no flaws? Am I surrounded by genies?

[Ponytail]

So before we begin the main course of today, I have a question. How would you exercise dissociating/hiding/whatever thoughts? Unless host is flat-out not paying attention to me he can hear my thoughts but when he sits right in front of me while I stare him down. We've considered playing a guessing game of sort but I want to hear your ideas.

 

I think awhile back I briefly mentioned possibly going over the Wonderland. I think... Whatever, point is I'm going over the wonderland today. It doesn't have a name, so I offer up the chance to dub it. I may regret asking that..

 

Anywho, so the inspiration for what the hell my wonderland would be is that one of the plot-lines I plan on running one of these centuries for my D&D group is that a dude abuses an artifact to become the richest dude in the world. I can't say more in case they see this, but basically he eventually builds himself a flying fortress. Well, the very early incarnation of of the wonderland was just a couch sitting on some see-through floor looking down on a galaxy. It was a really pretty image, I wonder from what recesses of my mind I pulled it from. Anywho, I liked that "space" element to the wonderland. I also wanted to sorta-kinda map out what this fortress in the D&D campaign would contain (It's pretty mundane in it's use in the story anyways), so I decided to kill two birds with one stone and make it our wonderland but instead I made it orbital, muahaha. That was a little rambly and long-winded... TL;DR: Early wonderland had pretty space shit, I wanted to make a floating fortress that had space elements but still had an attachment to a planet, I made it orbital as a compromise. TL;DR of TL;DR: My wonderland is a orbital fortress.

 

So, we'll start at the end that points towards earth and work our way "up" from there

 

Observatory of Earth: In this room, gravity is reversed. There is a single leather chair that can recline, move around, etc. It's the best black leather chair you can imagine functionally. I'm thinking I might even add a soda dispenser to it. Yeah, definitely adding a soda dispenser. The floor is tiled and has a creamy color to it, however there are decorative caramel coloring patterns within the tile, because monochromatic floors are boring. Around the edges of the room there is foliage in pots mounted on metal stands. There is a telescope that usually sits in the center that allows those entering here to view the planet below from a god's perspective. The telescope is useless however, as the glass dome overhead (below? Gravity makes this strange) has a zoom function that allows me to see everything without the telescope. The telescope makes me feel more science-y though, as pointless as it is.

 

The Lounge: This room is woefully incomplete, but I'll give you what's currently installed. The floor is red carpet. At the far end of the room there is a bar. There is no menu, nobody manning it, and alot of clean, unused glasses behind it. Around the edges of the room there are a few of those table board games you see at places like Incredible Pizza or Chuck E' Cheese (or whatever the fuck it's called), air hockey, foosball, the like. In the center is a lowered, sizable area that has multiple tables and chairs. That's it, that's the lounge.

 

The Inn: This is under construction still. Basically only there for the sake of the D&D game.

 

The Vault/Core: The vault is basically a giant magic pocket. In the actual D&D game it's going to hold all the magical shit the rich dude owns, back in reality (kinda) it holds all the garbage we materialize occasionally. Anywho, the room is circular, just like the rest of the rooms. The floor is stone, as is the ceiling also. To either side there are wooden closets with two sliding doors a set. Within them there are objects of a variety that we don't have time to go over. These closets completely hide the wall behind them. In the inner circle of closets there is an opening that has bare stone wall there. If you have the means to move through it, within there is a chamber that holds a diamond that is suspended in midair by nothing. That diamond is magical and holds up the fortress.

 

The Room Where Annabell and I Interact and Do Things While Ignoring the Rest of the House: The name is a WIP. Anywho, in the center of this room there is a couch. This couch is the most precious item in the wonderland, as it was the start of the wonderland. The couch is dark green and is a bit beat-up and has various places where it's been worn-down or heavily stained. To the right there is a full kitchen tightly packed, two people could barely maneuver through there. To the left is the ominous and ever-changing entryway into Annabell's room. I don't really know what's in there, but from what I'm told there are cameras, mirrors, and a lot of clothes strewn about (Feel free to fap to whatever you made of those facts, pervert). Whatever, this room is fun because of what happens, not because of it's content.

 

The Library: It's a library. Everything is coated with dust and cobwebs though, nobody uses this room because Annabell prefers just looking through my actual brain or something. It's a sizable library, almost labyrinth like in the ways the shelves are aligned. The shelves are wood, the floor is red carpet. The books are organized in chronological order of when I had the experience/obtained the knowledge. Nothing particularly fancy.

 

The Observatory of Heaven: This room is nearly pitch black. The tiles are black with shining, star-like lights within them. Individually useless lights, they provide barely enough illumination to see the whole room. The outer edges of the room are obscured by thick black curtains. This observatory also has a nice chair and telescope. The dome above allows sight to stars and heavenly bodies. I don't know much about astronomy but it looks pretty so I stare occasionally.

 

 

So yeah, there it is. I kinda want my PR to give basic knowledge about my experiences too. This way, I don't have to explain the significance behind the couch every time. Which, the couch is important because it's like Annabell's blankey, essentially. It's an early memory of hers and she kinda latched onto it. I'd hardly consider the attachment unhealthy anymore though.

[Ponytail]

So, interesting progress today, none of it on Annabell (but don't tab out you neckbeard fanboys.)

 

 

So remember the soulbond mentioned in a previous chapter? Okay, good.

His name's Omega, you might as well say hi. Annabell and I often long deliberation over the topic eventually decided to introduce him into reality. It was fun, we went down there, got stabbed by his tentacles a dozen or so times, I transformed him into a rabbit in order to slow him down so we had a chance to talk, it was great. After transforming him into a rabbit he asked what the hell I was in a very anime style. I answered by showing him the world from orbit and saying "I'm the god of this place." I offered him the chance to become a god, however I also warned him the knowledge which came with would destroy him, an utter unmaking of who he is as a person. He said something along the lines of "You set before me the power of gods and you think I wouldn't seize it?" So I told him he lives in my head. What I was expecting was him to try and tear my mindscape asunder in a tantrum. Instead he was like "Hmm, that makes sense." Then he gave me his logic behind that and why it fits with what he knows. It was almost more terrifying seeing a perfectly calm reaction as opposed to an angered destructive one. After awhile he asked me to give him as much knowledge as I can. I was a little distracted so Annabell directed him to the library. Then we hopped on IRC and had a little fun. I forget he's really, really uncomfortable with sex. So much so that he doesn't want to be anywhere near the couch. Anywho, the internet was having problems so I started writing this PR and ta-dah you're caught up.

 

Now a few words from him: "It is strange, I've fallen so far from grace in one respect yet gained so much more in another. I was a king and a delusional mad-man over my own species. Now the species I considered cattle to further my own race have become the only species and I'm lesser than them. I have no body, I have no control over the one in which I reside. Where I was king and commanded those around me with absolute authority I now have two I live with who are my betters. It feels wrong to speak of anyone as greater. In return I have knowledge of this world and can now turn the imaginary into my play thing. I would like to remain doing what I was, being a part of the host's stories. Residing over a species as a lord. Therefore, I will not be seen often. As much as I hate the idea of being lesser than the host, I have no interest in possession or switching. Those actions would only reinforce that I am only strong here in the mind. I ramble, apologies. In summary, there is a little sorrow in knowing that which is real, however I am stronger than the minimal trials involved and will not let them deeply affect me. Sundry matter, for when I speak what color should I use here?"

 

So just a few things on him progress (which will probably never progress), he can already parallel process almost perfectly. He might be better than Annabell in this regard honestly. As for his vocality, I trip up on hearing him correctly sometimes but I imagine that won't take long to work out. His own visualization is solid, nowhere near as good as my own but he's certainly leagues above alot of beginners in tulpamancy. He made a dead, twisted tree to prove this to me. Annabell is slightly better than him in regards of visualization. I'm not sure what other skills of his are worth going over, as he's not interested in most of them. He's basically responding to everything the opposite of how I expect him to and it's incredibly annoying.

His form is painfully detailed so we'll give the short and sweet "metal humanoid with a weird triangle-shaped head and eight tentacles growing out of his back. He also has a metal disk object floating his back. It is also painfully detailed, but is essentially a halo with eight tentacles unfurling and gripping the edges. In the stories, it was an immensely powerful artifact that acted as his holy symbol. Here, it's no more than a Christmas tree ornament.

[tulpa001]

We don't know how to hide thoughts well. The only thing that sort of seems to work is not looking at each other. Or being half asleep. There are a few tests for this though. We tend to fail them. Like the partition and the mystery object. Or the mystery object in the black box.

 

LOL on trolling the soulbond like that.

 

I suggest blood red.

[Ponytail]

I suggest blood red.

 

You know, I was thinking the same thing.

 

Disregarding our local edgelord, so about what we were planning to do originally, lol. Oh well, guess I can't always search through the forums and ask it's members and get a perfect answer.