Giving in to Ego

[Radio Hiss]

I gave him the task of searching for other thoughtforms. I, of course, completely stole this idea from Vampire. However, I thought that with my style of writing I might have accidentally made more soulbonds. Which, I did, but more on that below (It's not as fascinating as you think)

 

I should have Piano do that too. I have a feeling any other thoughtforms I have are not characters, but instead people I used to obsess over. This person I keep having dreams about might be a culprit X_X

 

How did you find out Omega was conscious, anyway? In P&HJP's case, they felt a strange presence in Eemaj, tracked it down, and ended up finding Lyra, rather than her finding them.

[Ponytail]

 

I should have Piano do that too. I have a feeling any other thoughtforms I have are not characters, but instead people I used to obsess over. This person I keep having dreams about might be a culprit X_X

 

How did you find out Omega was conscious, anyway? In P&HJP's case, they felt a strange presence in Eemaj, tracked it down, and ended up finding Lyra, rather than her finding them.

 

 

I read about soulbonds somewhere and when someone described them I was like "Hey wait a second." I remembered how writing him felt more like an RP than it did writing so I connected the dots pretty quick. I went to check and he was like "What are you doing here?" and then I said, "All I needed to know, thanks" and left.

[Ponytail]

A few developments.

 

So, I made Annabell's form, right? Well, I also made her furry ram form, Omega's form, and Omega's cat form (I mean like, a house cat. Not furry, just a cat). She's also been uh, exceedingly protective over changes to her form. She says she really likes it, and that she really appreciates the effort I put in to it. She's almost perfectly human-looking now down to the most minor details... Anywho, for the first time I saw a major form change that I didn't dictate. During a certain event, she took on an adult form. We presume her form change was because her normally child-like form made her not feel it fit the responsibility she had taken on in that even and so her form grew to fit that responsibility. Isn't tulpamancy great? Also, anecdotal but she had huge boobs in this adult form, 10/10.

 

Annabell also decided to practice walking in public. Thank god, she can now use stairs. Anywho, she decided to do this during my tutoring class. Essentially, I teach freshmen how to do math. I mean like... super, super simple algebra. So while I was walking around Annabell gradually took control of the body. After awhile she fully possessed. I then started thinking because I could ignore the freshmen because they weren't needing help. I realized Omega wasn't in the wonderland and so I went and found him... by forcing him to return to the wonderland. He was a bit pissy, understandably so, and I asked him what he was doing that was taking so much of his time. He responded by showing me a lot of dead people. I told him to carry on. I got so involved in this conversation though that when I paid a little more attention to reality I was dissociating from my senses. One guide also called this "reverse imposition." The phrase was in a switching guide so I should probably go find it and see how much farther I can go with it.

 

That's all. I hope you all have a nice day.

[Saylin]

Phase one complete. Now to take over the body and never give it back.

 

But seriously, keep up the good work. You are miles ahead of me when it comes to dissociating.

 

Pls teach me senpai.

 

[sen] I still don't understand the appeal to really big boobs, but I bet you they'll make great pillows  to sleep on at night! Keep experimenting with those forms and find something you love.  :D

[Ponytail]

But seriously, keep up the good work. You are miles ahead of me when it comes to dissociating.

 

Pls teach me senpai.

 

Easiest time for me to practice dissociation is in the morning. This way you can relax and not have to worry about falling asleep. Then you just gotta do shit in the wonderland. I find it's gotten easier as Omega becomes more and more active, as I can talk to him while Annabell focuses on taking the body. For day-to-day possession, I don't normally fully dissociate from my limbs and have Annabell immediately take over. Instead it's a process that takes some time. I'm starting to realize what the life of a tulpa is like due to all this.

 

Lesson over.

 

Actual progress now, I gave the suggestion to Omega and Annabell to blend. The result was not terrific for them, as they're basically opposites. However, it appears that Annie's force of personality is much stronger than Omega's as she was the more noticeable in the combination.

 

We have also found that Omega is better at sundry tulpa abilities, such as memory recall and pain reduction. Really comes in handy. I'm assuming this is because Omega does things in his free time. Unlike Annie who just kinda lolls around.

[Radio Hiss]

 

Easiest time for me to practice dissociation is in the morning. This way you can relax and not have to worry about falling asleep. Then you just gotta do shit in the wonderland.

 

That's what I did with Eemaj. As soon as I woke up on a non-school day, I would go to Eemaj and make P&HJP do stuff or have stuff happen to them etc. I would completely lose myself and come back into reality three hours later. I haven't yet used that method for tulpamancy because of school.

[Ponytail]

Alright so, a little thing happened today, alongside a littler thing.

 

So first the little thing. Today, Annabell did this magic little thing called full body possession. In fact, she talked to my sister. Meanwhile, I tried moving back and talking with Omega as I do. It was really, really difficult to focus when your body is moving really fast downstairs and really slow up them. I'd say we were really, really close to a full switch during this. Then Annabell said my name in place of "I" and red flags flew up and I had to help Annabell get through the awkward situation. She's not very fast on her feet I've found. I'm not either, but I'm certainly better. Still though, as I felt my senses slip slightly, I could see the wonderland as vividly as reality. It makes me wonder if you're in a place with less stimulus if you would see the WL more clearly. Or maybe a place with very little stimulation could ease switching? Maybe white noise of some sort? I know there's a psychological effect where if you are viewing red light through a white lens with white noise you can hallucinate yourself into anything so maybe that could be used to start a switch? Or would the illusion break as soon as your tulpa took off the ping pong balls you strapped to your face? There are many things I wish I had the freedom to test without the constant threat of parents holding the sword of "wtf?" above my head. Bah, I encourage you, my dear readers, to see my ramblings and to ask questions yourself but also to test them yourself. Still, point is I am understanding more what it's like to be a tulpa.

 

Now for the littler thing. Omega installed a TV in the wonderland because it's easier to use than a library.

I swear, kids these days and their damn technology.

[Fairweather]

K: Cool, you certainly are further along with it than here. Man it must be weird to be able to dissociate like that, where you start losing realworld senses.

[Ponytail]

K: Cool, you certainly are further along with it than here. Man it must be weird to be able to dissociate like that, where you start losing realworld senses.

I'm not at the point where I can ditch them, but yeah, dissociating from real world senses is sorta like... being in a really immersive daydream. You're not all there, but you don't really realize it until you're back.

...truly the life of a tulpa is such an odd one and they don't even know it until they're told.

[Two-tailed-tulpa]

Right, Kyle was assuming not fully yet. And I remember figuring out my life is weird compared to his, but think, a host's life is weird to tulpas too.