OA's log

[Avalanche]

Well now, a girl. With a male tupper. You are a scarce combination here Ocarin. Unfortunately, it's a forum filled with a lot of guys with girl tuppers.

 

But it's no neckbeard circlejerk, don't worry. There ARE a few women here as well. Welcome to tulpa.info.

 

Please enjoy your stay, keep your hands inside the vehicle at all times, and,

 

please,

 

don't feed the Fede-lasse.

[glitchthe3rd]

Well now, a girl. With a male tupper. You are a scarce combination here Ocarin. Unfortunately, it's a forum filled with a lot of guys with girl tuppers.

 

But it's no neckbeard circlejerk, don't worry. There ARE a few women here as well. Welcome to tulpa.info.

 

Please enjoy your stay, keep your hands inside the vehicle at all times, and,

 

please,

 

don't feed the Fede-lasse.

 

Indeed. Also male tulpae in general seem to be a rarity right now, hopefully that'll change as more women join the site.

[Kadoh]

I'm a boy with a boy tulpa. No, I'm not gay either, Shin is my ultimate bro. I'm... Not so good with girls. I tend to be overly mean & cruel because I'm used to calling all my friends (that are boys) things like "puppy molester".

[OcarinAttorney]

I don't really mind that there aren't many women in this site, haha. I hope that more females get into making tulpae.

 

Anywho...

 

Yesterday was a mess. I talked to someone that hurt me long time ago and thought he would be better, but NO he kept rubbing his relationship in my face, talking about how his girlfriend was pretty, caring... etc. It just broke me again. I didn't want to think about anything, so I cried for a long time and "filled my emotions into a jar." I'll probably use the jar with Benedict someday. I could only force for 10 minutes because my condition was just... blegh.

 

Total time: IDGAF around 2 hours ??

[Pronas]

You should stop talking with these people Ocarin, they're just bastards that keep hurting you - Kate

[OcarinAttorney]

Hi Kate! And yes, I agree with you. I hope Benedict can help me cope with the pain when he becomes sentient.

[OcarinAttorney]

Jesus Christ Nikki Minaj and her stupid hoe song distracted me from visualizing today. I feel really tired and I didn't get anything from the 20 minute session. I should go work out.

 

Time: ~ 2 hours 20 minute, planning to do a 40 minute to fill up the rest of the hour.

[Avalanche]

Don't worry too much about getting a solid 3 hours a day in. A lot of people can't do that, or even if they have the time, their minds wander and they only get half the time committed to forcing.

 

I do about 2 hours a day tops, during the day and at night. Just do it as often as you can/want to and you'll be fine.

[OcarinAttorney]

I meant the total time invested since day 1, oops.

 

Got sidetracked by church and Dragon Age: Origins.

People say when they feel strong emotions, they bottle it up and give it to their tulpae and they feel a strong feeling from them. I tried to do the same (twice? Thrice?) but I felt really, really empty. Huh. I suppose I can't really expect anything. Anyhoo

I constantly visualized Benedict's face (because it's byootiful) and I think it's getting clearer. I'm having really hard time visualizing his hands and feet though. WHY

And sometimes when I'm visualizing everything just rocks back and forth in my eyes and it's nauseating. What is wrong with me

 

Time to go force

[Avalanche]

That's very strange. Almost backward. Most people complain about the face being hardest to see and their visualisations not staying clear.

 

To work on the hands and feet, try visualising touching them and feeling them all over. Or stare at your own for a while before starting. I don't know how to fix your rocking back and forth problem, maybe lie down or stand up when you force if you don't already do so. Or maybe focus on the ground and stand on it when you are visualising in your head.