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[Quadraginta]

*sigh*

 

 

 

Too long.

 

 

 

 

 

Here are some typical scenarios between me and these fuckers.

 

 

 

 

(Visualizes Raid. Suddenly, her eyes bulge out, she whips out a bloody chainsaw, and starts swinging it around. I flinch IRL due to the suddenness, and next moment, I visualize her in my arms, her head resting gently on my chest. My reaction)

 

Me: wat? O_o

 

(Le Forcing when all of a sudden)

 

"I hate you."

 

(Le me surprised, and scared. Ask Raid for head pressure if she loves/likes/appreciates me in anyway. Ask repeatedly, when all of a sudden, head starts pounding relentlessly)

 

Me: Ok, I'm reassured now.

 

 

 

Recently:

 

"Fuck you, Raid."

 

Me: The fuck? I didn't think that! The hell is wrong with me?!

 

"Fuck you, Raid."

 

Me: (grasps head IRL) What in the hell is wrong with me? Get out of my head, intrusive thoughts! Fuck off, intrusive thoughts!

 

Another voice, which I think might be Raid's developing mindvoice, but due to how much noise is in my head, I'm still not sure whether or not it is her, but I decided to take it with a grain of salt: Ignore them, Jackie. I know it's not you.

 

Me: ...ugh......

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Intrusive thoughts are no fun. At all.

[Guest Anonymous]

For me intrusive thoughts have a sort of theme and repeat themselves as long as I'm forcing. If I stop and go back they usually end with the break.

 

There's just some parts of our minds where the thoughts feel condescending and downright irritating, but there has to be a good and bad somewhere right?

 

Does the bad have to be anywhere Linkzelda? Why do you think this? I've never wanted the thoughts that are unkind to myself, so why do they happen?

[omegaAnubis]

seconds, minutes? intrusive thoughts for me act like a little flash of the thought, and then i work to get it out of my mind. i haven't let one last unless its positive for me and the tulpa, which does happen occasionally.