KruegerMeister June 9, 2023 Author June 9, 2023 5/1/23: I forgot to log stuff. 5/2/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/3/23: I saw Keystroke and Rainbow Dash a couple times. 5/4/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/5/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/6/23: We watched the coronation at a pub. Keystroke cheered; then RD, Fluttershy and others joined in (some of my headmates were more emphatic/expressive than others). 5/7/23: Dash said I was doing good at exposure therapy. I saw Gallus on a barstool at a rooftop garden. 5/8/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/9/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/10/23: Dash said I was doing a good job at exposure therapy. Everyone else agreed. 5/11/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/12/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/13/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/14/23: I took a photo of RD sitting on a bench with the Eiffel Tower in the background. 5/15/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/16/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/17/23: Dash said I was doing a good job at exposure therapy, but there were parts that needed work. 5/18/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/19/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/20/23: We didn’t do much today. 5/21/23: I forgot to log stuff. 5/22/23: I forgot to log stuff. 5/23/23: We’ve been watching a lot of Alias; Dash did a Sydney cosplay, Kurama did a good attempt at a Sloan cosplay. 5/24/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/25/23: I had an emotional ocd moment; I remembered that Splitgate lifts my mood, so Dash and a few others sent me scenes of them in an arena, which turned into “if my headmates were in a fighting game, who’d be a match for who?” (Eg, Rainbow Dash’s fast evasion can dodge Lust’s fast extendo-finger-spear attacks). 5/26/23: We chatted about stuff. Dash’s voice was pretty clear. 5/27/23: We flew business class. Dash perched on top of my TV like a guardian pone. 5/28/23: Dash, Thorax, Fluttershy and Nina pretended to be luggage when I rode an airport bus :3. 5/29/23: We chatted about stuff. 5/30/23: We didn’t do much today. 5/31/23: We chatted about stuff.
KruegerMeister August 3, 2023 Author August 3, 2023 6/1/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/2/23: I saw Nina on my bed (really good presence + visual imposition). 6/3/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/4/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/5/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/6/23: I forgot to log stuff. 6/7/23: I forgot to log stuff. 6/8/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/9/23: I forgot to log stuff. 6/10/23: I forgot to log stuff. 6/11/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/12/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/13/23: I saw Lust sitting on the edge of my bed. I was listening to Avril Lavigne on Spotify; she held my hand when “Keep Holding On” played 🥲. 6/14/23: I forgot to log stuff. 6/15/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/16/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/17/23: Dash and I practiced possession. 6/18/23: Kurama and I chatted. 6/19/23: Kurama and I watched Boruto. I tried to get his voice down. He suggested doing that alongside vocal possession. 6/20/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/21/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/22/23: We chatted about stuff. Dash said I was doing good at therapy. 6/23/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/24/23: I forgot to log stuff. 6/25/23: Kurama was pretty vocal. 6/26/23: Kurama guided me through some mindfulness meditation :). 6/27/23: The stags & I chatted. Woodfather imposed himself and holy sheet, he looked live-action (Mikey and I both figured it was cuz of all the deer I’d seen recently). Dash imposed herself as a live-action horse for lulz. 6/28/23: We chatted about stuff. 6/29/23: I saw Woodfather in the bathroom mirror (live action again). 6/30/23: I saw Gallus in the bathroom mirror.
KruegerMeister September 25, 2023 Author September 25, 2023 (edited) 7/1/23: Dash got kinda mad at me for doing a compulsion. I reminded her that praise works better. Mikey coached me a bit during a workout (I saw him standing next to me & holding my shoulder in place during bicep curls). 7/2/23: We watched Scooby Doo Mystery Incorporated. Nina was a big fan. 7/3/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/4/23: We chatted about stuff. We finished Mystery Incorporated, so Nina wondered what our next show would be. I suggested rewatching United States of Tara; Keystroke was onboard with that. Woodfather, Lance, and others who weren’t around during the original watching were onboard too. 7/5/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/6/23: Dash reminded me to do my mantras. 7/7/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/8/23: We chatted about stuff. I saw Gallus in my bedroom mirror. 7/9/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/10/23: Dash imposed herself this morning. She sounded kinda mad after I did some compulsions. Nina said she wanted to play Splitgate. 7/11/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/12/23: We chatted about stuff.. 7/13/23: We chatted about stuff. I said to call me out on it if I was ever a “coercive asshole.” 7/14/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/15/23: I thanked RD for calling me out on something (I forgot what it was). 7/16/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/17/23: Dash & a few others imposed some positive imagery relating to pwning OCD, while we were watching Spirited. 7/18/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/19/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/20/23: Rainbow Dash imposed herself a couple times. I saw cat!Pharynx curled up in a sink during my doctor’s appointment :3. I figured out that the core of my OCD is “if I’m negligent and the body is damaged, well, I’m not flying solo, I’ve got passengers in the vehicle who would go down with me.” Dash (I think) floated the idea that no system ≈ nothing for OCD to latch on to; I said I wasn’t willing to sacrifice everyone. 7/21/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/22/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/23/23: I forgot to log stuff. 7/24/23: The stags & I chatted. Nina said she wanted to play House of Da Vinci III. Shou imposed himself in my bedroom. I don’t think I could see him 100% clearly, but I wanna say he looked live-action (at least, his fur did)—did the Paxil do that 🤔? Nina was too. 7/25/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/26/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/27/23: I decided to do stuff with the system, cuz therapist recommended I do something I value & enjoy, this was the first thing that came to mind. We were gonna do a group Sims play, but I wasn’t sure what to name our Sim. 7/28/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/29/23: Dash, Nina and Sid sat next to/on (:3) me while we watched Medium. 7/30/23: We chatted about stuff. 7/31/23: We chatted about stuff. Edited September 25, 2023 by KruegerMeister
KruegerMeister September 25, 2023 Author September 25, 2023 (edited) 8/1/23: We chatted about stuff. 8/2/23: Kurama wrapped his chakra around me when I was upset. 8/3/23: Dash and Nina got kinda mad at me for doing a compulsion. 8/4/23: OCD walked me to the sink, and I could sense/feel Kurama in my legs (a chakra cloak around them) trying to walk me back. Afterward, I saw him sitting on my bed. I sat next to him and he hugged me with his tails ☺️. 8/5/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/6/23: I got some head pressures. 8/7/23: Kurama said he was proud of me for not doing a compulsion. 8/8/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/9/23: Dash helped me interrupt a hand-washing compulsion. 8/10/23: We chatted about stuff. 8/11/23: We chatted about stuff. 8/12/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/13/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/14/23: Dash & Nina got a bit mad when I went along with a compulsion. 8/15/23: Gallus and I chatted. He sat on my bed. 8/16/23: We chatted about stuff. Pharynx sat on me (in cat form). 8/17/23: Woodfather tried a strategy of daring me not to engage in a compulsion. I don’t remember if it worked or not. 8/18/23: We chatted about stuff. 8/19/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/20/23: We chatted about stuff. 8/21/23: We chatted about stuff. 8/22/23: We chatted about stuff. Nina said I was overthinking what to name our Sim. Dash called me out after a compulsion 😃🤜🤛🐴. Nina liked the emojis. 8/23/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/24/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/25/23: Dash and I did an impromptu roleplay where she was OCD and I stood up to it (this happened during a hand-washing compulsion; she called it a test). 8/26/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/27/23: I forgot to log stuff. 8/28/23: Dash winghugged me and nibbled my ear 🙃 after I did a good exposure today. 8/29/23: We chatted about stuff. I binged FOB Equestria analysis vids. When RD and Fluttershy and I talked later, their voices were pretty clear. Pretty much all the canon ponies’ were. I assessed that OCD was kind of attacking the therapy process (in addition to contamination themes); in Dash’s opinion, this was a good sign. Fluttershy agreed. 8/30/23: Thorax changed his form to Firebrand (the Brony analyst) (I’d been watching a lot of his videos recently). 8/31/23: We chatted about stuff. Edited September 25, 2023 by KruegerMeister
Ashley September 26, 2023 September 26, 2023 Less than 2 months away from the big 10 year mark, congratulations on sticking to it all this time! Planning anything special?
KruegerMeister October 9, 2023 Author October 9, 2023 9/1/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/2/23: Kurama huggled me with his fluffy tails ^.^ 9/3/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/4/23: We chatted about stuff. Fluttershy’s voice came through pretty clearly. 9/5/23: Fluttershy called me out on what we figured was a compulsion to check the front door was locked. 9/6/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/7/23: I forgot to log stuff. 9/8/23: I forgot to log stuff. 9/9/23: We chatted about stuff. Dash and Fluttershy got mad when I did compulsions. 9/10/23: 9/11/23: Dash congratulated me on ERP. 9/12/23: We chatted about stuff. Dash helped me lean into a worry. 9/13/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/14/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/15/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/16/23: I saw Gallus & others around my table at a gala event. Dash shed liquid pride during a video I appeared in. 9/17/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/18/23: I forgot to log stuff. 9/19/23: Nina possessed the body for a bit. 9/20/23: We chatted about stuff. Some imposition happened. 9/21/23: We didn’t do much today. 9/22/23: Fluttershy was miffed at me for not eating healthy. 9/23/23: We chatted a bit. 9/24/23: After I watched an adorable Instagram of a kitten getting tucked into bed, Pharynx turned into a smol kitty. 9/25/23: We chatted about those. 9/26/23: The guys clapped when I walked down the hall without my ankle brace or canes. Dash snuggled up with me on the couch ^.^. 9/27/23: I forgot to log stuff. 9/28/23: Dash and I chatted. 9/29/23: We chatted about stuff. 9/30/23: I forgot to log stuff.
KruegerMeister November 21, 2023 Author November 21, 2023 (edited) 10/1/23: Some imposition happened. 10/2/23: I forgot to log stuff. Dash and I did a bit of SFW petplay. 10/3/23: Dash said I was doing better at ERP. Gallus and I chatted. Nina reminded me to work on a DIY thing. 10/4/23: I forgot to log stuff. 10/5/23: Dash coached me a bit during a jog :). 10/6/23: We chatted about stuff. 10/7/23: Fluttershy got a bit mad about OCD stuff. 10/8/23: Dash’s voice came through pretty clearly this morning, and also tonight. She reminded me to be aware of my wins against OCD, not only my losses. Kurama fronted to nom some sushi. 10/9/23: We chatted about stuff. I forgot to log stuff. Some compulsions happened, which they were angry about. 10/10/23: Alanna Matty’s song “Nothin to Lose” kept popping into my head after a tough angry conversation with my dad. Turns out Nina and others were trying to calm me down. 10/11/23: Dash, Fluttershy, and Gallus praised me for not doing some compulsions. 10/12/23: I forgot to log stuff. 10/13/23: We chatted about stuff. 10/14/23: Kurama praised me for doing ERP. I thanked RD for calling me out on checking compulsions. 10/15/23: Kurama snuggled me ^^. 10/16/23: I forgot to log stuff. 10/17/23: Pharynx turned into a cat and sat over my shoulders ^^. 10/18/23: We didn’t do much today. 10/19/23: We didn’t do much today. 10/20/23: Dash congratulated me after not doing a compulsion. Nina wanted to front during breakfast. 10/21/23: We didn’t do much today. Kurama put a comforting cloak around me. 10/22/23: We chatted about stuff. Dash sat next to me. 10/23/23: I forgot to log stuff. 10/24/23: I forgot to log stuff. 10/25/23: We chatted about stuff. 10/26/23: We chatted about stuff. Kurama draped a chakra cloak over me :). 10/27/23: Ryuk liked the sweet n sour chicken I nuked for dinner. 10/28/23: We chatted about stuff. 10/29/23: We chatted about stuff. 10/30/23: We chatted about stuff. RD jokingly called me “Dad” :3. I saw Gallus in the mirror. Nina wore a witch hat and rode around on a broom cuz Halloween’s soon :3. 10/31/23: I forgot to log stuff. Edited November 21, 2023 by KruegerMeister
KruegerMeister December 9, 2023 Author December 9, 2023 (edited) 11/1/23: I forgot to log stuff. 11/2/23: We chatted about stuff. 11/3/23: We chatted about stuff. 11/4/23: I forgot to log stuff. 11/5/23: I forgot to log stuff. Kurama imposed a cloak around me. 11/6/23: Dash sat next to me. 11/7/23: Dash coached me during a shower so I didn’t over-wash ^^. 11/8/23: Dash and I hanged out ^^. 11/9/23: I forgot to log stuff 11/10/23: I forgot to log stuff 11/11/23: Some imposition happened. We chatted about stuff. 11/12/23: We didn’t do much today. 11/13/23: Dash and I chatted. I saw her sitting on my bed. 11/14/23: I woke up at 4:04am. I saw Shou standing in our room; he reminded me to get enough sleep :) 11/15/23: I forgot to log stuff. 11/16/23: I forgot to log stuff. 11/17/23: I saw Shou in our bedroom. His voice wasn’t coming through clearly; Dash said it’s cuz I wasn’t fully awake. Shou reminded me to get enough sleep. 11/18/23: I forgot to log stuff 11/19/23: I forgot to log stuff 11/20/23: We chatted a bit. 11/21/23: I forgot to log stuff. 11/22/23: Pharynx and I chatted. Kurama coached me through showering quicker :). Pharynx turned into a kitty cat and curled up in my lap when I was kinda sad 🥲. 11/23/23: We chatted about stuff. 11/24/23: I forgot to log stuff. 11/25/23: We chatted about stuff. 11/26/23: Some imposition happened. 11/27/23: Dash showed up in the bathroom mirror. Later, I thanked her for calling me out on BS. 11/28/23: We chatted about stuff. 11/29/23: Some imposition happened this morning while I was brushing our teeth. Keystroke surprised me by wanting to order calamari when we went out for pizza (I thought he didn’t like it). 11/30/23: Dash distracted me while I got ready for bed, so that I went by old muscle memory instead of compulsions :). She hugged me after, and I could kinda “feel” or at least sense her soft wings. Nina cuddled me. Edited December 9, 2023 by KruegerMeister
KruegerMeister January 8, 2024 Author January 8, 2024 (edited) 12/1/23: The guys complimented my singing. 12/2/23: We chatted about stuff. 12/3/23: Some imposition happened. 12/4/23: I planned to work on tactile imposition today, but forgot to. We chatted about stuff. I saw Gallus in the bathroom mirror. Nina said she wanted to play The Room 2. 12/5/23: I forgot to log stuff 12/6/23: I forgot to log stuff 12/7/23: Gallus’ voice came through pretty clear when I was partly asleep. He and RD joked about there being multiple of him (cuz something about the s-apostrophe rather than apostrophe-s). 12/8/23: We chatted about stuff 12/9/23: I forgot to log stuff 12/10/23: Dash congratulated me on making good conversation & being social. Nina wanted to play more of The Room 2, so we did. 12/11/23: I thanked Dash for helping me resist OCD. She briefly appeared as 2k3 Raphael when I opened the bathroom door, for some reason. 12/12/23: I forgot to log stuff 12/13/23: Fluttershy congratulated me on talking back to/making fun of my OCD (I don’t remember it exactly, but I said something like “I’m not gonna do this compulsion. Oooh, I’m so eeeviiiil xP”). She imposed herself in our room (floating in the air in a bipedal stance, wings not flapping) and hugged me :). 12/14/23: I sat on a couch for a Christmas photo, and Nina sat across my lap :). We chatted about stuff. 12/15/23: I forgot to log stuff. 12/16/23: We chatted about stuff. 12/17/23: We chatted about stuff. 12/18/23: Some imposition happened I think. I apologized for not doing much stuff with everyone; Nina said beating OCD was more important, to which my gut response was “technically yes.” 12/19/23: I forgot to log stuff. 12/20/23: Vinnie and I chatted. 12/21/23: We chatted about stuff. 12/22/23: I thanked Dash for holding me to integrity wrt logging my OCD stuff. 12/23/23: Nina wore a Santa hat. 12/24/23: I forgot to log stuff. 12/25/23: Nina curled up with me in bed. Dash joined :). 12/26/23: We chatted about stuff. 12/27/23: Dash, Nina and Mikey gave me birthday hugs ^^. 12/28/23: I forgot to log stuff 12/29/23: We chatted about stuff 12/30/23: We chatted about stuff 12/31/23: We chatted about stuff Edited January 8, 2024 by KruegerMeister
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