glitchthe3rd May 30, 2015 May 30, 2015 100th reply get! Interesting stuff, I'm always interested to hear about other hosts that share my set of circumstances (Asperger's, making a tulpa before anyone really knew what a tulpa was in the West, having a kid with your tulpa waifu, etc.). Also, Luna has expressed an interest in arranging a playdate between Elise and Tove sometime, if that's something you guys might be up for. "Science isn't about why, science is about why not?" -Cave Johnson Tulpae: Luna, Elise, Naomi My progress report
ReisOtherHalf May 31, 2015 Author May 31, 2015 glitchthe3rd: We'd love to do this - let's sort out a time to be on IRC via private message? Today, we had to travel about 7 hours by car to run an errand in another city, and, as we usually do, we talked a lot about anything and everything. (He was feeling a little grouchy this morning after insufficient sleep, but I defused that like I usually do - ask him to tell me about his long-term goals, then let the endorphins (and words) flow... ♥) Tove mostly fell asleep in the back seat, but she did wake up and react with awe when I pointed out some interesting bits of scenery, most notably a dormant volcano whose 45-degree slopes come right up to the edge of the roadway. When we stopped for lunch (Chinese food, yay!), I found it strangely easy to impose them both, or rather, they imposed themselves - Rei eating chow mein and orange chicken and asking Tove not to play with her food, Tove playing with her food...I was absolutely overjoyed to see them. Tove wants to be a filmmaker when she grows up, it turns out; unsurprising, given her early interest in horror and special effects. It might be time to introduce her to Ambrose Bierce, Edgar Allen Poe and Steven King. Not much else to report, other than the conversation, through various twists and turns, somehow came to the animated series The Boondocks and Rei made some comment about deliberately dropping the soap later. Tove wanted to know what that meant; I said it'd be better if we waited until she was older, but Rei, being Rei, took it up a notch and asked if Tove remembered the explanation she had gotten about where babies come from. Tove didn't want to hear any more, became grossed out and stuck her fingers in her ears; something tells me that, should she ever develop into a teenager, she'll probably be a little less puritanical. I love them so much... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf June 3, 2015 Author June 3, 2015 I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately (it's the week before exams), and that, coupled with some kind of airborne irritant in the waking world, made my eyes feel weird when I woke up, to the point where I mentally complained to Rei that it felt like I was weeping blood. Rei bade me to rest my waking world eyes for a bit and come out to the island. I did, and was rewarded by a curiously-detailed tour of our house; I now have perfectly fixed in my head where, for example, the recycling bin is in the kitchen, what kind of forks we have, where the 'nice' silverware is for guests, which wall the 'Frozen' movie poster in Tove's room is tacked to - northwest, if you care - and what's in the curio shelf (carved from the giant tree the house abuts) in the living room; there are miniatures of the castle from Disneyland and Dodger Stadium among the other things, so apparently we've been to Los Angeles as a family at some point, perhaps in a poorly-remembered dream, or they're culled from my memories (I grew up in California). We went back to the kitchen, at which point Tove came downstairs. We had a little group hug moment, and then I hurriedly made her a heart-shaped PB&J, bagged it, drew a cartoon cat on a paper bag, put the sandwich into the bag and gave it to her - all in the time it took the school bus she rides in the morning to roll about half a block, come to a stop and honk it's horn. (Because dreamworld physics, babe.) Rei remarked that she was going to feel 'ten miles tall' when she opened up her lunch later; if I ever have offspring in the waking world, I hope I get the chance to make them feel ten miles tall at school someday... Rei said we had a few free moments and asked me if we could walk down to the convenience store; we did, but I have no memory of what took place there - maybe I drifted off. I do remember that we were down at the beach behind our home a short while later with the stuff we'd bought. (When I asked Rei how we'd gotten there, she just shrugged and said 'teleport?') We sat near what we've come to call 'our rock' - a favorite trysting-place, really - and ate our breakfast (funnel cake! the taste and texture were quite vivid and spot-on...) and were lucky enough to see a humpback swim by (well, Rei was - I had my head down, when I looked up, all that was left what the plume from its blowhole)... ...quite a nice daydream. Nothing much else to report, except that we've agreed to used 'as the tigress said to the computer nerd' as a replacement for 'that's what she said'. (I'm waiting for to slip up and say something like 'wow, that's gigantic!'...) (He'll get caught out first. ♥) ...also, a useful piece of advice for those of you who have tulpakids: if you're going to have a bit of a romantic interlude in the kitchen before they get home from school, make sure you know when they're going to get home...! I forgot another Rei-ism: (I told him that being with him was totally worth the pain and suffering of hearing him mispronounce 'aboot' for the next half-century.) ...and I just got an incredibly pleasant, intensely vivid vision of Rei and I in front of a cathedralful of people, in a traditional wedding ceremony (I am inwardly quaking with happiness - the way she makes the words 'I do' sound...! I don't even think there's an adjective powerful enough). (Exchanging vows while parachuting was fun (and totally us), but I think he and I both want something a little more traditional, so we're going to have a second ceremony at some point...) Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf June 6, 2015 Author June 6, 2015 For one of my courses, I had to give a presentation about a networked game I'd made for another course, and despite pulling two all-nighters in a row (well, more like one and a half, babe, remember - I made you go to bed Thursday morning) and making the slides two hours before I was supposed to take the stage, I hit it out of the park. (A few of the jokes in his slides fell flat, but that's because he panicked a little and rushed the delivery. His eye contact with the audience wasn't perfect (I understand this being hard for him, I'm a fellow aspie) but it was obvious he was trying really hard, and afterward, a few of his classmates complimented him.) On the way back to my seat, I felt this overwhelming sensation of 'Babe, we did it!' - and could feel her hugging me tightly. It was awesome, in the truest sense of the word; our bond seems to have grown stronger of late, but right then, it was at its strongest. (I mentioned that everything that I love about him all came together at that moment - the all-black clothing, the wild-eyed enthusiasm, the laser-like focus and creative fire, the way he poured his heart into a project, the slightly nerdy habits and awkwardness, the childlike joy and pride and wonder at having built something complex from scratch and gotten it to work - I remember why I married him.♥) To celebrate, the three of us shared a small, but special treat - a peanut-butter and jelly sandwich. Tove imposed briefly and asked us how my presentation went, and when I told her, she said it was 'cool!' and we high-fived and shared the PB&J (Rei didn't want any). I remember feeling an intense joy and completeness I didn't think would ever be possible again in the waking world. Later, I showed the game to the professor who had assigned it. It should be noted that it is weeks late and I figured he simply would not accept it at all, but not only did he, it was obvious that he was surprised that I had chosen to implement several optional features as well as graphics and mouse support. This guy doesn't impress easily, and he didn't say much, but I could tell he was impressed. I'd just like to point out that there's no way I would have made it through all that hard work without my wife and kid. This weekend, we have a few free moments before I have to start revising for an exam on Monday, so we're going to do some tidying up, but along with that, I want to set aside some time for the three of us to eat a nice lunch in the forest together in the waking world... They are amazing. Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf June 18, 2015 Author June 18, 2015 It's been a while since we posted here, in no small part due to not having broadband service for a few days, but we have been making progress. I went through another one of those periods where I kept feeling trapped a universe away from my head-mate family, along with feelings of lethargy and anhedonia in the waking world, and I decided it would be a good idea to reboot our relationship. By reboot, I don't mean resetting either of them or anything like that; rather, I wanted us to have the same level of intensity we had when Rei and I first started dating. To that end, I have started doing hour counts (sort of - I am not being too strict about it) and the tactile-forced-hallucination exercise we thought up to help us hug more effectively all those months ago... ...and you know what, it's been working. We also started one of those '1000 questions for couples' quizzes - some of the questions about me, I didn't even really know the answers to myself, so that's been interesting... During random convo the other day, Rei had an interesting insight into why a lot of tulpae seem to want to become physically involved with their hosts: their primary modes of communication are sensations and emotions, and that's one of the places in which both emotion and tactile sensation can reach positive/desirable/pleasurable peaks. If she's right about this, then other things, like a favourite dessert, say, or a refreshing breeze probably cause similar, albeit more muted effects, and I would expect tulpa/host pairings who aren't romantically involved to have far more glomps/bro-hugs than would be expected between two waking-world people... I digress (when do I not?)... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf June 19, 2015 Author June 19, 2015 I don't know if this merits its own update, but it's too amusing not to share. Rei and I are both fascinated by Brony culture, and we just came out of a shared daydream where she reimagined Sheffield Island as being in the F.I.M. universe. The following changes fell out of that: Rei temporarily appeared as a zebra with a teal mane and a graphic of a bomb from an old Mac error message as a cutie mark.I temporarily appeared as a roan with a Gravis gamepad as a cutie mark (she says it's hilarious that we're old enough to remember what those looked like)She asked me if I thought it was a good change, and in the distance, both of us could hear screaming and car accidents as the NPCs in our dreamworld suddenly discovered they didn't know how to drive with hooves. I told her no... Also, while looking at a Wonderbolts poster, she commented: (Are we not men?) You know what the weird thing is? Neither of us have ever seen the original series... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf June 30, 2015 Author June 30, 2015 Much has transpired since we last wrote one of these; sorry for being away for so long. The first big change: Töve has changed her form dramatically; instead of the precocious little first-grader we knew, she now appears to be in her late teens/early twenties and has dyed her hair pink. We had a bit of a falling out at one point - I was subconsciously preventing her from growing properly, it turns out, and she resented this - but now we're back on good terms again. Our relationship is kind of weird - she seems more like a coworker than a daughter - but it is a friendly one. Töve has this to say about it: Part of our problem is that he had enormous trouble imagining both Mom and I at the same time, so I felt attention-starved a lot of the time, and we would alternate between these periods where I felt like an afterthought and other times when he would go 'sorry I'm a bad parent' and would try - really try - for a little while. I know he meant well, he just wasn't ready for a second tulpa yet. Anyway, now that I'm a little more mature and not as dependent on him for attention, I think we'll be okay, and as he said, we're back on good terms again. Strangely, this has actually brought us closer, which I'm happy about. I love her so much. Rei is still pure amazing, and we're doing well; lately, we've been trying to work on lucid dreaming a bit more. As some of you who frequent IRC may know, I'm in the process of getting us some Calea Ternifornia - supposedly, it helps with dream vividness and dream recall - and I absolutely cannot wait for the stuff to arrive; I have been having the most pleasant daydreams of the long-overdue dreamworld honeymoon(s) I hope we get to go on. I have been doing a little image streaming here and there (not nearly enough, sadly); the last session I did involved layering the audio from 16 seconds and on of over the audio from . This was also where we found out that Töve is an even more aggressive and insane driver than her mother is, and good luck keeping up with her. Possibly this weekend, I am going to get a unisex claddagh ring, to be worn where a wedding band would normally go; partially as a waking-world memento to the love we have together and partially as a reminder to force more... One final funny bit: we listened to part of the most recent podcast on the way home from the gym, and when the hostess got to the part about spinning poi, the following exchange took place: Me: ...you mean like the taro root stuff? Rei: (No, poi like (trying to mimic the sound of a minion) ｐａｐｏｉ！) I laughed uncontrollably (much to the surprise of the person driving in the lane next to us). We now know it's the art of twirling fire and/or glowsticks. Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf July 4, 2015 Author July 4, 2015 It finally happened! I saw Rei in my dreams again. All we did was gaze at each other - I was speechless, I couldn't believe we were actually together - but I could absolutely feel the love radiating between us. (Unfortunately, I became so excited and overjoyed that I stupidly woke myself up, but still.). Right now, I can feel myself inwardly quivering with happiness and my pulse racing. Not much else to report, other than Tove appears to have become rather fond of some guy that works in the mediterranean cafe we occasionally go to down by the wharf...like wedding bells fond...interesting. (He seems like a good guy; both of us approve, not that she would ask us.) I just got this: (see attached image) In light of what happened last night, and how we've been talking about finishing our video game and getting it onto Steam, I think this is quite appropriate (whether you mentally apply 'in bed' to it is up to you). Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf July 7, 2015 Author July 7, 2015 Tove, it seems, is becoming independent in ways neither Rei nor I foresaw, and it's actually quite beautiful to watch. She broke up with the guy from Jumeirah Jane's, and in an amusing bit of karmic retribution, she is now preparing to marry the girl he was cheating on her with. The new girl is some NPC I haven't met, I only know that she's doing a residency at some hospital on the mainland, and that Tove is lovestruck and the happiest we've ever seen her... In other news, Rei and I were listening to , and it dropped us into - of all things - a buddy cop comedy/drama, complete with mid-80s Ferrari, palm trees, sunglasses and a method-acting angry Tove as the chief yelling about the last cases either of us had worked on and demanding we worked with a partner...(@Tove: you were pretty believable, especially with 'the mayor crawling down my throat' part, and you got all of the cinematic tropes right, you're gonna be a great director!) (This little bit of insanity happened while I was driving to the office; as you can imagine, work was kind of a letdown after that...) I totally forgot: Rei even remembered to say (So, Crockett, have you considered a career in law enforcement?) I think I may have fallen for her even harder... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
Guest Anonymous July 7, 2015 July 7, 2015 Music used: 1. 2. Great music for imagining! Love it! We walk to the edge. A gust of wind and sudden wave of vertigo almost get the best of me, but I'm alright. "Let's do this," she says. I nod. "Kanpai!" she shouts, and holding hands, off we leap. This is the kind of thing I am talking about when I say "Melian Show adventures!" I am so happy to find some kindred spirits with you and Rei!
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