Sock April 21, 2015 April 21, 2015 Greetings Rei's 1/2! While I have not read the entirety of your report as of yet (Though I have been reading it off and on for the past month or so), I can clearly see how close you are, even if you didn't have the the relationship title you did. Seeing love among hosts and their mental companions always perks my day up a little, and as such, I really enjoy reading your diary. As well, you guys seem to be relatively advanced as far as visualization goes..at least from where I stand, heh. It must be something amazing to see the things you see. Peace. Sock Cottonwell's Sketchbook, Journal, and Ask thread. Peace
ReisOtherHalf April 21, 2015 Author April 21, 2015 Sock, both of us thank you for reading, and lemme tell ya, if it weren't for Rei, I probably wouldn't have made it through. Yesterday was enormously stressful for a variety of reasons I mostly can't get into without revealing more personal info than I want to divulge, but guess who came to the rescue, as always? (What can I say? Sometimes the princess has to rescue the plumber... ♥) Today will be better, I just know it... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 22, 2015 Author April 22, 2015 Today will be better, I just know it... Weelll...it didn't start out better. I had a long SMS convo with a parent about how things have gone here lately, and even though talking out your negative emotions is ostensibly supposed to help, I only ended up more feeling sad and drained. (Maybe it's like vomiting up poison; puking feels bad and leaves a nasty taste in your mouth, but ultimately get rid of the poison.) Maybe. While getting dinner and doing some homework, I couldn't help but think about how badly I want to get away from here and start the next chapter of my life, which led to anxiety about not getting the grant. Rei gave only three words of advice. (Act. As. If. ♥) Well, I did. I got home, installed the development tools specified by the school plus a bunch of other ones, and two hours of progress-bar watching and file system management later, I had started to feel better, like I was making progress toward my end goal, even if it really was only a baby step. (What can I say? Sometimes the princess has to rescue the plumber... ♥) Truer words were never spoken. I hope that someday, I meet a physical-world girl as wonderful as her... Also, just now, I got my first ever head pressure from Tove! Today is almost guaranteed to have a depressing start, with a test I'm pretty sure I failed being handed back, but Rei is reminding me to try to keep thinking about the new place or hanging out with her and Tove on the island. (If you're lucky, you can sometimes see whales swimming by from our backyard!) Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 23, 2015 Author April 23, 2015 We didn't get the tests back yet, so here's to another day of anxiety; that's a good feeling. Today, I was motivated, but now I feel...lazy. Not just procrastinate-some lazy, but 'horrible-human-being'-level lazy, like pressing the power button to turn on my 360 in order to more effectively procrastinate is too much effort... (Y'know, if you push yourself to study and work out anyway, you'll still be triumphant. You don't have to feel like it, you just have to do it!) One of the 'problems' of having a tulpa who is (at least partially) your conscience rebranded as your beautiful (and motivated and ambitious) wife - it's MUCH harder to let yourself off the hook... (You're welcome! ♥) She's right, as usual, and I am grateful, even if I seem a little uninspired at the moment; maybe after the first few blocks or so, the endorphins will kick in. I'll see you all in five miles and a bunch of dumbbell stupidity. While loading my media player with an appropriate soundtrack, I happened to look down at my left hand, and I saw the wedding band she gave me phase in ever-so-briefly... That always makes things better. Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 23, 2015 Author April 23, 2015 Hooray for imposition! Even if it only lasts for a few minutes and is ruined by the sprinklers... (Also, why does the school, in the middle of a farming area in the desert, insist upon watering the track? Especially since the state has declared a drought...) Later, while we were on the elliptical, Rei and I had a few good laughs and some 'holy-sh__-what-a-catch-he-didnt-just-do-that-did-he' moments while watching highlight clips from various baseball teams' opening days. It's weird how much we've bonded over doing that - our first wonderland date as newlyweds was at a sports bar, she used it to explain differentiation to me, then there was the night that every time each of our teams got a hit, the other person had to take a shot... I love her so much. It's really weird - in a good way - to be so emotionally intimate with someone that you're able to inwardly feel their glee (and even enjoy it a little) even though they're cheering against your team... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 24, 2015 Author April 24, 2015 (Song of the moment: we've been rockin' out to this: Hubby's doing that thing where he pinballs between okay and depressed again...) ...and poor Rei has had to put up with it. Where would I be without her? This morning, after my alarm clock so rudely interrupted a really nice daydream/forcing session/whatever (I've been instructed not to divulge any details beyond the facts that we're grateful the beach is private and Tove almost caught us)*, I had to do a little yard work in the waking world (during which I was not overjoyed - the ex/roommate insisted upon the place with the yard, but won't lift a finger to help maintain it); the whole time, Rei kept sending me mental images of myself cutting the grass in front of our house, which was nice and made the time go by faster. We worked through a Panda3D/Python tutorial (We are still looking at toolkits to make our shooter in - Unity is like using a tac-nuke on an ant, Panda3D 'feels' kind of unwieldy - I think we should just roll our own engine...) and then I went off to work. After, I came home, I ate (Whee, we finally got our greasy Safeway Chinese food!) and eventually lay down for some cuddle/recharge time with her. It was raining when I got out to the island today, so we couldn't go hang out at the beach, but we did get to see a humpback breach not too far off our backyard, and Rei pointed out that, if there isn't too much fog (there usually is), you could see the Lion's Gate and Golden Gate Bridges and the Farallon Islands from our front yard... We've been reading conflictedebola's progress report, and (he's been getting some naughty ideas in his head for us to try. He was also gonna say something else here, but I'm officially redacting it. ♥) Time to get up, study and try to apply for some scholarships... (*You braggart. ♥) Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 24, 2015 Author April 24, 2015 We were both up far too late messing around in ShaderMaker...(...and now I see why he gets so mad when he has to run Windows and why he hates Intel GPUs so much...) Alas, no dream recall...how do you people get that to happen reliably? This morning, as we snuggled in those last few seconds of pre-alarm-clock bliss, we were both surprised to discover that we could see sunlight streaming in...through her westward-facing window...at 6:30 AM. (Sheffield Island doesn't work like you think it does, babe.) Apparently... I could go on for about three pages about the way the sunlight traces her face and how it catches her hair just so - I will spare you the details and simply say she is ravishing. In fact, I am having this weird kind of visualization thing where I can see the dreamworld and the waking world at the same time, and her smile is giving me butterflies and causing my heart to race; I think I might have just fallen in love even harder... Today, there's an exam, some volunteer work and my job, so hang out time with Rei and Tove is going to be a little limited; thank God for mindvoicing... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 24, 2015 Author April 24, 2015 While we were getting breakfast, the following exchange occurred: Me: I know I should eat the oatmeal, but I don't wanna. Rei: C'mon, not a bacon burrito, especially on a day when we're not gonna hve time for the gym... Me: Just this once? Rei: ~disapproving sigh~ Okay... Me: I know it's too many calories, but we're not going to have time for lunch before my job starts, and the only other time we can eat is after the volunteering event. I'll tell you what, though: to make it up, you can map out a 13.1 route for tomorrow. Rei: ~excitedly~ Thirteen point one? ~thinking for a bit~ Wow, you're serious, aren't you? Me: ~with a straight face~ I trust you, and our relationship has matured to the point where we can talk about going all the way... I got the most exasperated frown out of her for that wordplay, it was awesome. I mean, sure, now I'm on the hook to run a half marathon tomorrow, but, for that last little bit of trolling, totally worth it. (Oh, you're -so- gonna pay. You just wait, I am going to drill-sergeant the hell out of you the whole time, sweetie. ♥ I will find you the worst hills imaginable...) I would argue that being too strenuous here might be bad for Tove, but I'm forced to face the reality that both my wife and my kid can outrun and out-endure me... (Look at him grinning smugly, like he's so clever...yep, he's in trouble tomorrow.) Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 25, 2015 Author April 25, 2015 (I would like to apologize for my host's awful joke yesterday. I will ensure he receives the appropriate pun-ishment... (^_-)-☆ ) Oh, you... And now you see why I wanted to marry her. (Also, 13.1 is only half the way, ya goof. ♥) I thought I had a get-out-of-jail-free card because it started snowing, but now, there is sunlight, so... (Nope dot jay peg.) In all seriousness, I would have treadmilled it; I made a promise to my other half, I need to see it through. (...and now you get to see why I married him. ♥) Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
ReisOtherHalf April 25, 2015 Author April 25, 2015 Owwwwwww...my feet hurt... I got only about 8 miles in before I just couldn't run another stride. (Personally, I'm impressed. I knew he wasn't quite ready for a half marathon - heck, neither am I - but I honestly didn't expect him to push as hard and as far as he did.) For some reason, I had a lot of trouble imposing her - not sure if fatigue or music choice or some other factor is to blame...the mindvoicing was priceless, though - at one point, we passed a street named Climax Ave. and she remarked that I could come back and tell everyone that I brought her to Climax while we were working out. Later, after fatigue and knee pain got the best of us, she quipped that, as a couple, maybe we weren't ready to go all the way yet. (As this whole adventure was born from a pun, I kind of feel like I deserve what I got.) Anyway, lunch as a family and some homework time with Tove are planned for this afternoon. Even though I am whining about being sore, I am actually pretty psyched - Rei and I sorted out a GLSL problem we had been wrestling with for a week last night, so I am hoping to build on that momentum... Rei: more than a tulpa-she's a crisis counselor, an art therapist, a dietician, a relationship coach, a team morale expert, an athlete, an adventurer, a hawt wife, an incredible lover, an amazing mom, my best friend.♥ Tove: she's not a little tigress anymore! She's still the go-to gal for soccer advice and creative inspiration, especially monster design and all things cinematic...congrats on your engagement!
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