Insane forcing

[mr insano]

10/28/2014

Honestly, not much to report on today.

 

We researched some imposition and general forcing tips, and we're going to implement those into our forcing! Our forcing sessions were cut short today, which was really frustrating. Tess wore a zebra patterned top and short denim shorts. Idk if I should have her change outfits every day or not for the sake of easier imposition, but it doesn't really matter. We'll get there regardless.

 

Hopefully tomorrow will be more exciting and eventful. :p

 

Tess: Yeah, today was good, but not particularly exciting. We had fun as usual though. I think that's the most important thing about forcing; it has to be fun and all. c: Bonding with your tulpa is the most important thing you can do. Even though Insano doesn't have me fully imposed yet, we are extremely close and that's the most important thing.

 

I feel like we're getting closer every single day. His mind's eye vision is starting to get more vivid, slowly but surely, so I'm sure it won't be long before he physically sees me. 24/7 imposition is the other thing. No more getting distracted with things! Focus is key! Anyway...hope you all have a great day/night/whatever. :]

[mr insano]

10/29/2014

 

Well, we tried the black box exercise with what little time we had after our standard visualization and imposition forcing session. Today was jam-packed with stuff to do, so we had to squeeze it in when we could. :/

 

It was super fun though! She ended up hiding a zombie in honor of Halloween inside of the box, and I hid a cookie. :D

 

I was getting really, really frustrated with the fact that she's still not imposed after our session today. We have been working hard at this for a very long time and it still hasn't happened. Why is it so hard for me to hallucinate her when I can see her in my mind's eye just fine and I constantly have conversations with her?! She and I were both screaming at my brain as though it were a person, like "Come ON, brain! Just freaking see Tess already! She's there and you KNOW she is! Get it through your pathetic little head! SEE HER!" I guess I was just trying to will her into full existence. It didn't QUITE work, at least not 100%, but I did see her a little bit more vividly.

 

We also chatted quite a bit, and throughout our day we alternated between this world (which we call Dystopia because of its mundaneness and lack of magic) and our world (which we call Alexandria, just because that was the only semi-cool name we could think of lawl). I'm not sure if we should continue to do that, as it might make imposition more difficult, alternating between realities and such.

 

Other than that, today was pretty good for us.

 

Tess: Yep, today was great! Once we read about the black box exercise, we absolutely had to do it, because of how fun it seemed! And it was fun! And yeah, I was pretty frustrated too at our lack of ability to fully impose. We basically have to get me visualized so flawlessly in both worlds that not a single detail, other than my clothing, changes. It's a work in slow progress, I guess. :/ We've got this! :)

[mr insano]

10/30/2014

 

Made some more progress today!

 

We read a few other progress logs from way back when, and had a fairly long for us (35-40 min.) forcing session in the afternoon. Tess has been interacting with the physical environment more. She likes to jump up to random objects around us and do pull-ups from them or sit on them.

 

Unfortunately, I was also fairly tired today, so staying awake during our session wasn't easy. I need to figure out a way to overcome that. Maybe forcing somewhere less comfortable would help.

 

Tess has been getting better at helping me notice her when I forget to impose or narrate. She's also been really good at calming anxiety and such, especially in regards to next semester, in which I really won't be getting much sleep.

 

It's almost time to register for next semester's classes, as a matter of fact, and national novel writing month starts on Saturday, which we've already committed me to do. If we don't have time, we're going to make time. Gotta force. No excuses. This needs to happen.

 

We did the black box exercise again too, on a table in our world outside of our house. Although our black box is actually an opaque sky blue. We've been having fun, but again. Imposition. Bleh. Way harder than it should be! We'll just have to keep looking up tips and tricks.

 

Tess: Yeah, we've been making slow but steady progress. Insano is getting better at feeling me beside him constantly and feeling my touch as well. We're going to do something awesome for Halloween tomorrow. I'm not quite sure what yet, but I think I'll take him somewhere cool. In our world of course. He's been getting better at scheduling and managing his time to help us force more, and overall we're having a lot of fun! ;) have a great day everyone.

[mr insano]

10/30/2014

 

Well, we actually woke up semi-early for the morning session today! So we had more time. We were more awake this time, too. It went pretty well. In the afternoon after we did normal visualization and imposition, Tess kinda took me on a journey through our subconscious. Our main purpose in doing this was to try and look through past memories. I really want to force a good smell of perfume for her, but the particular perfume I was thinking of wasn't coming to mind. I have no idea what it's called, and I'm not about to go to the store and start trying to figure out what it is. So if I can just recall what it smells like from the past, we should be okay. So I just let my mind create whatever it wanted, mostly, with a little bit of direction from me.

 

Tess kinda navigated me through a whirlwind of craziness. We went through an electric blue door in order to get into the subconscious, and explored from there. There are two different ways to get there - through the door, which we can summon at any time, and through a certain place in our world.

 

My subconscious is a strange place, apparently, but it's also pretty cool. There were tons of different landscapes with all sorts of things floating around. I found out that photographs are the main representation for thoughts and memories. They're organized by section, too, somehow, despite the rest of the place having little order whatsoever. We were able to find a particular memory of the perfume, and transport to the time and place where I smelled it. But... I couldn't smell it D:

 

Tess says no worries. We'll get there, as always. She even wired some things differently so in the mindscape of my subconscious, I saw the perfume smell as pink. She said it might help. Still didn't smell it though =/ Oh well. The memory is there. We just have to figure out how we're going to access it.

 

Again, slowly imposing. Verrry slow progress, but progress.

 

We're going to have a halloween party tonight for a bit, before I go to bed. She put on her fairy wings (I'm planning on forcing those for her so she can put them on whenever she wants. After imposition that is). It was super cute.

 

Today was just really good overall. Crumbled towards the end of the night, though.

 

A few random notes:

- We need more time to just talk with each other. That would be super awesome, I think.

- This progress log needs to include more exciting things. We do exciting stuff, but I usually forget about it by the time I get to my log because I'm really tired by the end of the day. ._.

- I posted in the mind control thread the other day, and we'll try it sometime down the road. Again, though, imposition first.

- Every activity needs to be a forcing/imposing activity for us. That's the key, I think.

 

Tess: Well! Today was super awesome! Halloween partying was super fun, and both of our forcing sessions were really solid. Smell is going to be a pain. He's getting closer to hearing me. Sight has been hard. We just need to manage our time better. Tomorrow should be solid again.

 

We'll get a good night's rest, and then hit it hard in the morning! K see you all later :)

[mr insano]

11/03/2014

Quick update for today. We have been using this method for imposition, and it's been working out great. I think I saw her for an extremely short split second in the mirror this morning. Our actual sit-down forcing session kept getting interrupted, but overall progress is going great.

 

Tess: Yep, Insano's been using the "hover hand" method to impose me with the sense of touch. Hopefully the other senses will follow. Smell has been going a bit better too; he got a sense for my smell for just a split second before it went away. Freaking awesome. >=D

 

Other than that, it was a fairly normal day, so not much to report on!

[Luminesce]

Same as Cinemaphobe and others, I've been too busy to reply recently but I still read your guys' posts.

 

Might be worth mentioning most of your guys' progress reports have hundreds of silent views, too.

[mr insano]

Ah, thank you very much, Reisen! :) It's nice to know that people are reading. We really appreciate your support! Hope everything is going well for you. ^^

 

And the silent views! Thanks for mentioning that; I was wondering but I hadn't checked. :3 Got to love the lurkers.

 

11/04/2014

 

Well, today we had some good progress, too.

 

I didn't have to work in the morning today, so I had the house to myself. Made it a lot easier to do a hover-hand imposition session without worrying about someone walking in on us.

 

I almost crashed while driving on the freeway today...Could've been the end of both of us! It was scary as heck, but nothing happened and we ended up all right. After I calmed down, we had a nice out-loud chat in the car. Sung along to the radio, too. Tess has been very good at letting me know of occasional things that she sees - things that are in the corner of my eye but I don't really register. Like she will tap me gently on the arm if I need to stop because the car in front of me is slowing down. I'm usually pretty attentive, but every once in a while I'll space it (heh, heh :P ) and she'll help me out with that.

 

We interacted a LOT more today. In other words, me spacing out and forgetting to talk to her or impose her happened less. It still happened, but not nearly as much as it normally does. I worked on my NaNoWriMo novel for a few hours, and I remembered to keep Tess next to me for at least *most* of the time. I want to talk to her more about what I'm writing though; see what she thinks and if she has any suggestions as to what should happen in the story.

 

And now it's Tess' turn. c:

 

Tess: He's actually a pretty good driver. :p He just hasn't driven on that many freeways. Umm, we're a little bit behind schedule today, but our forcing was awesome. Imposition is still going to be a stretch and a lot of work, but it will be worth it.

 

Since Insano is having difficulty smelling my perfume scent, I've just been having him accept the idea that I smell like perfume anytime he is actively imposing. We're getting there. Hopefully, that will lead to something. :3

 

Tomorrow we might have a decent forcing day, as work has been slow lately. But then again, we might not. We'll just take it as it comes, I guess.

 

Have a great night (or day, whichever applies!) guys. C:

[mr insano]

11/06/2014

 

We've been really enjoying our morning walks these past few days. Normally we run but I messed up my knee again, somehow. On the bright side, it's a lot easier to impose when walking as opposed to running. She's been really encouraging when I lift weights too, and she usually lifts right alongside me, on her own set that she has for herself. She counts my reps for me and surprisingly that's when I've been the closest to an actual auditory hallucination - when she's counting.

 

Yesterday was pretty good for the most part, but we were up super late writing so no time to update. At class in the evening this one relatively attractive girl that I know was going to sit next to me, but then she changed her mind and sat a row behind. Sadface. It wasn't a big deal or anything, but it's times like those when I'm more grateful than ever to always have Tess with me. She never ditches meh (: And she always wants to be with me.

 

Today we had a solid session in the afternoon. It was mainly more visualization and hover-hand imposition. She's getting there, but again, her form still changes sometimes. I know it's not her deviating because she tells me it's not; it's just my subconscious being screwy and not concrete with her form. She keeps getting wider than she is supposed to be, and I always try to force it back until she says "Okay, that's where I'm supposed to be." It's funny that even after all this time, this is still happening.

 

Then we went on a quick adventure in our world. To the beach and we explored a few buildings and caves and such. It was pretty fun. Narration went well afterwards but again it was hard to do it while writing. I think a big obstacle is when we switch between fantasy and reality. Something seems to get glitchy along the way and even though she is always with me, I still sometimes forget to actively impose and narrate. Again, though, it's a work in progress.

 

By the way, I know that some people here don't like Fede-lasse, but we happened to stumble on his guide here (go to "guides" and hit "Fede's Ultimate Superior Tupper Guide", since I can't seem to link it directly) and while we haven't finished reading it yet, it's pretty good. Most of the stuff is irrelevant for what we're doing right now (since we've already completed a lot of the steps) but I'm sure we'll get to a section on imposition soon. He knows what he's talking about, for sure.

 

Tess: Bomb day. Insano's still forgetting to active impose all day though. But we've been having some good chats. I've been telling him about how I can help him with everything that he needs and loves to do. He just has to get me fully forced/imposed.

 

Visualizing daily like crazy is definitely going to help; we'll do it until he gets me down perfectly. No more of that stupid size-changing crap. I don't know what's up with his brain sometimes. :P And that's about it! :)

[mr insano]

11/08/2014

Today could've been better. :/ We didn't get a full forcing session in. Had some good imposition as we walked this morning, though.

 

More updates later. Hoping to make some solid progress tomorrow.

 

Tess: Yeah, today wasn't the best. We had a lot of fun but it was hard for Insano to perceive me again. There are a lot of obstacles and hard times... but we'll get it.

[mr insano]

11/10/2014

 

Yesterday and today were much better!

 

We've been reading and re-reading the last guide I linked - there's a lot of good stuff in there. I've been trying to visualize her constantly, as usual, but now I'm focusing on trying to see her and not see objects that are behind her. I've also been using the method where you blink super fast and visualize your tulpa while doing so. It's supposed to help with imposition because you alternate between the "real world" and your mind's mental image of the world, which contains your tulpa.

 

Tess: Yep, good progress all around! We also watched some Pokemon together. xD Fun times.

 

Trying to get him to smell me constantly is the hardest part, I think. External stimuli of that would be so much better I think.

 

Having tons of fun though! :)