Biskoi July 28, 2012 Author July 28, 2012 quickpost 2:27 day 3 etcetc fuckfuckfuckfuckfujgfuesfkueshfiuesgfiuesfhiusefh FUCK I CANT FORCE OH GOD I AM TRIPPING HARD I CANT DO THIS TONIGHT SHIT WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS SO MESSED UP OH GOD NO NO NO NO NO THIS ISNT WHAT I WANT JHDBFKHSDBFKHSRBFKHSDBFKUSRBFKSURBFKSJRN Edit 2 hours later... I've calmed down. Basically what happened was my tupper head became deformed in a way that caused me to freak out BAD. Will post chatlog tomorrow. I've fixed it, but it still pops up sometimes. Going to force for 10 minutes which will bring today's forcing to a total of 35 minutes. Progress log!! "What kind of tupper would chop off your penis, bite off your tounge, and scare the living shit outta you?" - Sorryman54 on my tulpa
Biskoi July 29, 2012 Author July 29, 2012 Right, so this is what the FUCK happened Day 3 Jul 28th 2012 I had three sessions that night, a 15, 10, and 15 minute session. First one was in the car, 14:30 to 14:45. The next one was at 02:10 to 02:20... that's when i got scared and moved to belair. The last 15 minute session was me trying to fix it. In the first session, I dont even remember anymore, but i dont think i did any personality traits. Just told her about how my day was so far - it was pretty eventful. Anyways, nothing bad happened there, no headache, no emotional response either. Just typing "Emotional response" makes me feel giddy inside. Now, the next session. I enter the wonderland as usual, and find her to be sitting at the table i forced up a while ago. I sat down, and began forcing the trait Pride. Once i got that done, or in my case when i run out of ideas, i moved on to her being an extrovert. Finished that in no time either, so i decided to recap on past traits... when i realized i forgot to do "Open-headed". Yeeeeeppp. I literally visualized her with her head open, and when i visualized it as normal again, her eyes looked rustled, so i gave her a hug and was comforting her i'd make sure not to do it again. Then her head splits open again mfw. I put it back, and try my hardest not to think about it. I continue forcing the trait, but couldnt, due to her head splitting up every time. The last time that happened was when her head split, i put her back, but her eyes werent quite right, so i changed them back. This is where it got interesting. Once i tried to change her eyes back to yellow, they SUDDENLY TURNED BLACK, HER HEAD WAS WIDENED AND ENLARGED like Stewie from family guy AND IT WAS JUST FUCKED UP IN GENERAL. I tried forcing her normal head back as a whole, but that thing kept coming back. I was so horrified i was screaming "FUCKFUCKFUCKNONONO STOP STOP STOP" in my head. Then i opened my eyes, turned on the fuckin lights, and got on the IRC. Biskoi Oh my god guys Biskoi That was f ucking horrible 02:30 Biskoi what the FUCK, man, WTF Chupi oh? Chupi what happen? Biskoi my loli tulpa suddenly turned into a tulpa with NO EYES Biskoi an abnormally LARGE HAED Biskoi and what the FUCK i dont even Biskoi it started with me trying to the the open minded trait Pronas ahahahah 02:31 Pronas same happened to me Pronas once Biskoi and then for osme reason i visualized her with her head LITERALLY open Chupi LOL Biskoi FUCK DUDE Biskoi OH MY GOD NO Pronas a very long time ago Pronas bro Pronas calm the fuck down Pronas u.u Biskoi I am so scared right now Chupi are both of you doing an anime style, or realistic? Pronas CALM THE FUCK DOWN Pronas fuck yes anime style Biskoi I dont even want to go back to forcing tonight Pronas Biskoi Pronas what you do Pronas listen to me Pronas what you will do Pronas is get your hands Pronas ok Biskoi Right Pronas get your hands 02:32 Biskoi And then Pronas grab your tulpa's head Biskoi FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKUCK Pronas and mold it back Biskoi oh my god Pronas into the way it was Pronas like clay Chupi yeah, it's like sculpting Biskoi I dont even want to look Chupi I've done that too Pronas stop being a bitch Pronas and do it Biskoi Its like those cheap alien masks Biskoi dude Biskoi I can't stop thinking about it Pronas dude 02:33 Chupi or realize that it is a mask, and take it off her, revealing her proper face Pronas my tulpa had holes where her eyes hould have been Pronas and there was blood coming out Pronas and she was screaming Pronas so stop being a faggot Pronas and mold that shit back Biskoi She isnt even screaming she's just sitting there staring at me Biskoi At the dinner table i forced up for her Chupi can't stare with no eyes Biskoi Wherer just last night we had the best dinner Biskoi God damnit chupi i dont even 02:34 Biskoi I'm so freaked out right now. Chupi I've had some disturbing intrusive changes as well Chupi and letting them get to you is the worst thing you can do Biskoi I did try to force her back to normal 02:35 Biskoi and then it would keep coming back Biskoi I was literally screaming in my head STOPPPPPP STOOOOOOOPPP NOOOOOO STOPPPPPPP Biskoi That is how freaked out i was Biskoi http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-please-respond-jpg?page=3 Here 02:36 Chupi I think part of your problem is you're getting upset about it while trying to put it back -> bilabila has joined tulpa Source sets user mode +v: bilabila may now speak if the room is moderated bilabila back Biskoi I should have seen something like this coming Biskoi Oh god. Biskoi I dont think i can go back to forcing tonight. 02:37 Chupi when stuff like that happens to Lyra, I just calmly kiss her and put it back how it should be -> SharkyDerp has joined tulpa Source sets user mode +v: SharkyDerp may now speak if the room is moderated -> Silence_ has joined tulpa Source sets user mode +v: Silence_ may now speak if the room is moderated bilabila what happened? Biskoi Shit Chupi bilabila: involuntary intrisive changes to tulpa form bilabila oh <- Silence has disconnected (Ping timeout: 240 seconds) bilabila explain please 02:38 SharkyDerp Then Leah was a Fox. Biskoi chatlog to pastebin Silence_ I have a bad habit of feeling my tulpas sexy ass legs in my mind <- BBritain has disconnected (Ping timeout: 240 seconds) Silence_ Im a mind whore Chupi SharkyDerp: what? 02:39 SharkyDerp Shes a fox now apparently. Biskoi http://pastebin.com/vDUYJndU Biskoi I've been rustled badly Chupi whoa Biskoi Good god Biskoi Why must this happen 02:40 Biskoi Was it just my fucked up sub c? <- Silence_ has disconnected Biskoi I'm fucking terrified at the fact that it's in my HEAD 02:41 Chupi basically Biskoi I can barely even stand anymore Biskoi I'm shaking 02:42 Biskoi I haven't been this scared in a very long time Vruet|Sleep changes nick to Vruet Chupi I guess it helps that my mind used to do shit like this to me when I was little... like forcing me to see a disturbing image when I close my eyes 02:43 Biskoi What do i do tomorrow, dude? Biskoi I am definitely not forcing tonight Chupi that plus spending a bit of time on /b/ pretty much made the stuff it comes up with not bother me much SharkyDerp I had a time where there was 2 Leahs and one stabbed the other. Chupi the more afraid you get of this, the more "stuck" it will become Biskoi What Biskoi then Biskoi Deal with it now? 02:44 SharkyDerp You can change it back. Feral agreed Feral ultimately it is you that can change this, she is fine, you just need ot smack down this thought Pronas holy shit 02:45 Pronas stop being such a faggot Pronas and just fix it already bilabila wahhhh Biskoi Fuckin fine -later on- Biskoi i molded her back and then looked away and then look back and then suddenly two tulpa... shinobu and that weird large face thing so i FORCED A GUN and killed it bilabila i said that i'm not going to update it in my last update Biskoi now i have my loveley shinobu back Pronas ;-; Chupi Biskoi: great 03:29 Biskoi i guess i wont be forcing "Open-minded" anytime soon Hannnibal Explain "open minded forcing" Biskoi I was trying to force the trait. Biskoi "You are open minded" Biskoi BAM head split mfw Chupi Biskoi: you are taking "open minded" way too literally After that, i spent 15 minutes just "normally" forcing other personality traits, and fixing her head whenever that thing appeared again. Started off with the corridor to the door leading to the wonderleading being plastered with stickers of the head, then when i opened the door, a whole fucking army of them appeared right infront of me. I was about to behead them all, but then though better and just thought of them GONE. Then i shouted out for my shinobu. I dont remember what happened anymore, she isnt loli, sometimes she is, sometimes she isnt. This is the non loli version of her right infront of me... we talked abit, i dont care if i was puppeting or not, it just felt nice to be able to talk to her. The head kept appearing on her too, which i had to fix quite often. We sat down on the beach, and i told her about the rest of my day... when i looked back at her the head was there again. So this time i tried to change it back, but it didnt. "Who the fuck are you" "..." "You arent shinobu." "..." Poof bye bye Then loli version appears... the one i usually force. But still with the head. So i thought... maybe this is actually her? I should talk to her? Which is what i did... and by that i mean a one-sided conversation which went something like "You're the real one arent you... why are you still like this?.." Fuck it i dont remember. I do remember giving this head and it's body a hug, and she dug her nails into my back. At first i thought she was trying to harm me, but then i puppeted her to cry, because i dunno, when i was a kid and he gave me supa stern talks, he would give me a hug later and i would burst into treats while hugging him tightly. So i thought maybe that would work. Anyways, im not scared of it anymore, but i'm still having trouble getting her old form back. That's all the happened in the 15 minute session, Atleast i was able to get 40 minutes in that day. Will be working on her head again today. Maybe i was being punished by my tulpa for fapping to loli before i went in. Progress log!! "What kind of tupper would chop off your penis, bite off your tounge, and scare the living shit outta you?" - Sorryman54 on my tulpa
Sorryman54 July 29, 2012 July 29, 2012 Gotta agree with Pronas. Dude, calm your fucking balls and quit acting like a bitch. Your'e an adult, handle it like one, not like a tit sucking baby. Seriously. When you make a tulpa, leave the faggotry at the door. Sorry to sound like an ass, but you made it sound like Slenderman and Fred Kruger where DP'ing you with claws and tentacles. Get a grip, fgt. Also, fapping to your tulpa ain't bad. The sexual energy is good for concentrating if you can keep out sexual thoughts.
ThatOneGuy July 29, 2012 July 29, 2012 ...fapping to your tulpa with the intent of having them feed off of the intense emotional energy at the point of orgasm is rarely a good thing. Orange juice helps with concentration headaches.
Biskoi July 29, 2012 Author July 29, 2012 Lewd Yeah i know i was being retarded last night, more so than usual. I was just pretty shocked i guess. Progress log!! "What kind of tupper would chop off your penis, bite off your tounge, and scare the living shit outta you?" - Sorryman54 on my tulpa
Sorryman54 July 29, 2012 July 29, 2012 ...fapping to your tulpa with the intent of having them feed off of the intense emotional energy at the point of orgasm is rarely a good thing. Nonono, I mean fapping a little to "kickstart" the concentration, not fapping till orgasm. Lewd Yeah i know i was being retarded last night, more so than usual. I was just pretty shocked i guess. Maybe I was a bit harsh, sorry. But seriously,you will see much more fucked up shit. Wait till your tulpa tells you about your sub-c.
Sands July 29, 2012 July 29, 2012 Soon she is going to be the dick loli and you will love it. The THE SUBCONCIOUS ochinchin occultists frt.sys (except Roswell because he doesn't want to be a part of it)
Biskoi July 29, 2012 Author July 29, 2012 Nonono, I mean fapping a little to "kickstart" the concentration, not fapping till orgasm. Maybe I was a bit harsh, sorry. But seriously,you will see much more fucked up shit. Wait till your tulpa tells you about your sub-c. I will be looking forward to it. Soon she is going to be the yogurt cannon loli and you will love it. dicks are the best. Tonight i think i'll be doing an hour of forcing in one sitting, since i havent done any of it today at all. Progress log!! "What kind of tupper would chop off your penis, bite off your tounge, and scare the living shit outta you?" - Sorryman54 on my tulpa
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