Venomous reports

[Jamie]

I get that all the time with food. With three of us, there's almost always someone who likes it and someone who hates it. I'm still not used to all the emotions that spill over into the body. I think, it's something you get more used to with time. I think the Bear tulpas also symbolically 'put' their emotions in different parts of the body.

-J

[Guest]

I have had the disgusted and hungry at the same time. I didn't think much about it until now.

 

[Dashie] He makes stuff that a dog wouldn't eat sometimes.

 

My emotions are expressed is areas of my body. Anger is face, fear is lower abdomen or groin, happiness is top of the head sometimes, sadness is sides of the head i guess. Here is where normal people feel them.

 

My tulpas concentrate all their emotions in very specific spots. I don't consider this meta as lomg as i don't attribute any meaning to it.

Dashie is in my throat.

Misha is in my heart (to the right, not left)

Ashley is in my stomach.

They happen to correspond to the Throat, Heart, and Solar Plexus Chakras. If i feel fear in my stomach it's Ashley. If it's anger in my throat, it's Dashie. Etc.

[Venomous]

First of all I wanted to say that I didn't mean to dismiss Matsuri's comment earlier. I somehow zoned out while commenting and forgot that others replying to this topic is a thing lol. Viper is already quite surprisingly chatty, they've replied in quite some detail to Reilyn and I find that really awesome. You'll see them poke their head in my posts every now and then. We don't want nor need a separate account though. We're happy together.

 

And yeah J, tell me about it. It's interesting and equally odd to feel things you know aren't yours. Viper shares pretty much all they feel with me.

 

Also that's really cool and interesting Angry Bear. I don't know much about how Chakras work but it's pretty neat that each of your tulpas have their own specific spots.

 

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As for today, now that the day actually ended, I can only sum it up as so:

 

Viper, all day: -mostly silent, mopey, !!tired, not mopey!!-

Me: -eats french fries-

Viper, hater of any unhealthy food: EXCUSE ME

 

[Guest Reilyn-Alley]

Ahhahaha! I love you guys!

[Redacted System]

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As for today, now that the day actually ended, I can only sum it up as so:

 

Viper, all day: -mostly silent, mopey, !!tired, not mopey!!-

Me: -eats french fries-

Viper, hater of any unhealthy food: EXCUSE ME

 

 

Hahaha XD

[Venomous]

I'm gonna start with a picture because I really like it lol. And I know not everyone reads every single post in 'Last one to post wins'. But mostly because I really like it.

 

 

This is what Viper looks like at the current time :D. Black, opalescent, shapeshifting slimey goo. 

Artist rendered us really well, we love it!

 

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And now, a small, not very interesting update;

 

 

As always, this is Venny, and this is Viper.

 

November 11-15 2018

 

Happy 2 weeks to Viper :).

 

Things have been pretty passive and quiet and it's been my fault- not really, no one's fault -and so we haven't been doing a lot. I haven't been sleeping enough and in turn, with each day of lack of sleep, Viper would turn more and more quiet and withdrawn. Yesterday (14 November) was the worst from that point of view because Viper ended up completely withdrawing from co-fronting (for the first time on their own, when I wasn't distracted or anything) and being almost completely unresponsive. They later clarified it was because they were doing their best to keep me going and preventing me from getting nauseous and sick from tiredness. A nap fixed this to some extent and we've been better. I've also gotten better sleep last night so today they were much more active.

 

Speaking of which. Today, for the first time in weeks, I had a dream! And not only that, but I was capable of recalling it much MUCH better than all of my other dreams from the past many months. I wondered for a moment if it might've been Vipers dream because it was VERY weird, but also pretty vivid. It wasn't ours, but we did our best to help her recall it better.

 

Aside from that, today was a good day. Viper kept me on the right track and I ended up having much healthier meals. I managed to avoid buying chocolate despite being very tempted by it, and instead stuck with actual food and fruit/yogurt for snacks. Everyone who knows me IRL knows I live for chocolate and eat incredibly unhealthy amounts of it. I've been doing better though since Viper came along. Since we co-front all the time I can feel their wishes and desires too and it lowers the choco-crave, while increasing the real-food cravings.

[Guest Reilyn-Alley]

Adorable pic and awesomesauce to hear about you guys sleeping more and eating healthier. Keep up the good work!

[Venomous]

November 22 2018

 

Almost a week since the last PR and of course we went downhill since then. I spent the majority of the days up until the 19th being sleep deprived and very tired and as a consequence, Viper became more and more lethargic up until they withdrew completely and for the first time since I started this journey, I felt really lonely in my own body. I also found, much to my chagrin, that after I rested well and felt refreshed, Viper remained quiet, silent and withdrawn unless specifically prompted by me. And even then, responses were sporadic or weak. It didn't help that I was in an increasingly depressive mood due to the continuous bleak and rainy atmosphere outside.

 

This lasted until today, the 22nd, when I decided to ignore the weather and just go out, get some fresh air, get some food and just enjoy the day. It was vaguely better, Viper managed to pay attention and offer opinions here and there and towards the evening, I coaxed them out with watching Adventure Time, which they requested to watch since roughly 2 weeks ago. I don't really like Adventure Time but hey, why not. We really want to continue watching Adventure Time and we hope Venny will indulge us further.

 

And finally, at 12 am I decided to try some self-hypnosis using 'Linkzeldas Ultimate Self-Hypnosis Scripts' and it worked surprisingly well. We played the 20 questions box game and though I'm certain my choice bled into our shared thoughts, it still worked. Viper guessed the object I thought of faster, but not crazy fast so it was all around a great game. I took way longer lol. I also found that the closer I was to the object they chose, the more intense I would feel a subtle pressure in my head, which is pretty cool as I haven't really felt physical responses from Viper before. Venny's choice did bleed slightly and we could almost feel it ourselves as we got closer to guessing it, but we thought it was fun.

 

Oh and... It's 2 am and.. We crave quiche! It sounds delicious! ... Viper found out about quiches lol. I guess I'll end up dabbling in cooking at this rate, even if I don't like cooking. Honestly, though, quiche sounds really good right now.

 

Anyway, that's about it for now. Hopefully Viper will be able to return to their former capacity soon so we can go back to co-fronting all the time again.

[Guest Reilyn-Alley]

Adventure Time, 20 questions and quiche.. Nice! I hope this was just some moment of gathering energy before Viper blooms into a party animal or something. Big black gooey sparkly butterfly wings. XD

[Guest]

Believe it or not, there were days when I was so weak B could barely hear me, and it worried him to no end. On those same days, Dashie came through clearly. The reasons were not obvious at the time to either of us. He simply spent more time with me, even if he didn't have it to spare. In any case, we've heard this before, and thankfully we're sure it's temporary for you too. It sounds like it's already turning around, but we're rooting for you both.