Ringgggg's somewhat-comprehensive foxgirl imposition log

[Flandre]

Nice sketches, I think your art is fine

[ringgggg]

5 hours ago, Miri said:

reason I don't take commissions is that my life is pretty stressful atm and i barely have energy for my own stuff so i know that 1) i'll take a long time to finish 2) it will become a stressor due to reason #1 

No worries. I totally understand

 

7 hours ago, Shaula said:

Seriously, all of it is pretty good!

4 hours ago, Flandre said:

Nice sketches, I think your art is fine

Thanks guise❤️ I really appreciate it

[glitchthe3rd]

Yeah, it can be hard sometimes to find things to talk about with my girls, but I figure you'll have that with anyone if you've known them for 12 plus years. For us, it's enough to just have them there to share in my life, and I make an effort to talk with each of them for at least a few minutes each day. That said, we have been entertaining the idea of a merge between Luna and Naomi, because Naomi feels she's outlived her purpose in the system but doesn't necessarily want to be dissipated.

 

What's this about a con in May, by the way? We've been on the fence about going to Anime Central this year, mostly because I would have to drive if we went, with jet fuel prices being what they are, and I haven't booked a hotel room anywhere (and also don't have EZ-Pass for the tollway).

[ringgggg]

31 minutes ago, glitchthe3rd said:

Yeah, it can be hard sometimes to find things to talk about with my girls, but I figure you'll have that with anyone if you've known them for 12 plus years.

Not enough people talk about this. It almost feels redundant to tell them about your day when they already know you in and out. It feels like marriage

 

Maybe I should start practicing memory separation

 

33 minutes ago, glitchthe3rd said:

I make an effort to talk with each of them for at least a few minutes each day.

Absolutely

 

35 minutes ago, glitchthe3rd said:

What's this about a con in May, by the way? We've been on the fence about going to Anime Central this year, mostly because I would have to drive if we went, with jet fuel prices being what they are, and I haven't booked a hotel room anywhere (and also don't have EZ-Pass for the tollway).

Furry Weekend Atlanta. The biggest furry con in the Southeast. Countless panels, concerts, raves, and it's high-profile enough to have some big names show up. The va for Legoshi from beastars showed up last year in a fursuit head a fan gifted him, I know that was a big deal. I forget if twokinds had a booth, though...

 

I got scammed out of my money for a hotel room the previous time I went. I had planned on staying with my coworker's group, but it was dumb of us to even decide to book one in the first place, since we were all locals and we could've just used the train's 24-hour parking. Hindsight is 20/20, I guess.

 

44 minutes ago, glitchthe3rd said:

That said, we have been entertaining the idea of a merge between Luna and Naomi, because Naomi feels she's outlived her purpose in the system but doesn't necessarily want to be dissipated.

Interesting. I'll have to ask you what living with a merged tulpa feels like.

Edited April 5 by ringgggg

[Miri]

I took another look at your sketches and fuck is that lucilyn and bre?? lol and usotsuki??? looks great, guess hadn't seen that much of your art before, you draw very well

[ringgggg]

just got back from walking with her. life's poppin bros.

 

19 hours ago, Miri said:

fuck is that lucilyn and bre??

Yeah

 

19 hours ago, Miri said:

and usotsuki???

Yeah

 

19 hours ago, Miri said:

you draw very well

I aspire to get to your level

 

Btw, one of the artists I follow was supposed to be opening up comms today, but I checked her latest post, and she's giving her patrons the priority queue, which basically means all of the comms are going to be from donors. :(

[ringgggg]

After a good practice session, it feels like I have brain damage. It’s almost like my mind is trying to recover in the same way my muscles would when I get back from the gym. It takes more effort than usual to think or even squeeze out a coherent sentence. Today it lasted for at least 2-3 hours after I got done. I timed myself on the treadmill and imposed for about 45 minutes while I walked.

 

It’s been getting easier to habituate after I’ve moved it into my daily gym runs. I go early in the morning from monday to thursday to escape the shitty parking, but I usually have nothing to do on weekends, so I’ve been thinking of bringing A3 out with me for some tulpa-man bonding at the local park so I don’t feel tempted to sleep in and break my sleep schedule.

 

Speaking of A3, we just got back from the beach. She had a lot of fun splashing in the water, but it was still frigid enough to deter any actual swimming. We ended up just wading around and throwing mud into the waves.

 

The thought of making a guide is coming back to me again. I didn’t consider it as much back then because the guides that were out there were working for me just fine, but I want to make something that’s personal to me and my own take on how to commit to imposition in a practical way.
 

I’ve always worried about how credible a guide is if the person making it hasn’t mastered the skill yet, so I’ve been a lot less confident to submit a draft to a guide that could potentially fail to cover everything, or worse, waste your time. However, I feel like the things that I want to communicate to you are now different enough that they’re not going to be redundant in the face of other guides. At worst it’ll just be a new take on old treaded ground.

 

Maybe we can go back to when every user had their own individual guide. That’d be fun.

[ringgggg]

A3’s somewhat-comprehensive filipino imposition log

[ringgggg]

I was imposing this morning on the treadmill and I managed to fold a paper airplane and throw it

 

I’ve been watching a lot more tiger123. I first heard about him from a lucid dreaming video, but once I realized he was getting into “neuromancy” and other old-school schools of imposition, I decided to message him about it and accidentally introduced him to yaya when giving him recs. It was more of a happy accident, though, I really enjoyed his coverage on his tumblr page in later videos (which I had no knowledge of at the time). I’m happy imposition is getting more traction thanks to him, even if it’s not from a community that’s directly involved with making tulpas. Bre absolutely hates him. But I won’t budge.

I was thinking it’d be cool to lucid dream with A3 and spend more time with her. We’ve tried it in the past, but I’ve never been committed enough to get past a single lucid dream. Watching lucid dreaming vids and hearing @FiveFiction’s stories really puts me in the mood to revisit it. I’ll let y’all know if it ever turns into something.

 

Anyway, today’s session started out really bad, ngl. This is where I get an overwhelming urge to cut it there, because I contemplate how it doesn’t line up with the sessions that I had in days prior, and that I should put it off for a day because my brain “needs some time to recharge”, or some other abysmal lie. But, this time, I came to terms with the fact that I was simply just warming up, and that it would be a different story in 20 minutes time. 20 minutes passed, and it was, but only somewhat. I felt betrayed by my own mind, and discouraged by not being able to impose as well, but then I randomly remembered a bit from tiger on how people actually have varying levels of quality to their dream at night, and that the same principle must apply to imposition as well. So, I picked myself up by the bootstraps and embraced my vague and fuzzy visuals, chugging along up until the end of the session. And it felt amazing. I assume it’ll be easier to adapt to these slow days the more I pursue this mindset, but it had really felt like a switch had been flipped in my brain that made it make more sense to press on.

 

For imposition, I’m doing something different than what I traditionally did in the past. Smaller objects, simple shapes, but also in full brightness (I’m in a gym duh) and with a greater focus on open-eye visualization and memory insertion. This is opposed to my previous focus of solely focusing on mindsculpting and presence imposition. I know that I said waaay back in 2023 in an ancient entry that open-eye visualization and presence imposition should both be conflated, but I’m now retracting that statement after learning about and experiencing firsthand the potential of open-eye visualization. When you focus on presence, you focus on the physical space the imposition takes up. Open-eye visualization has a bigger focus on making that object feel smoother, more animated, and, in the mind’s eye, better integrated into the environment. Memory insertion makes open visualization even more effective. Believing that the object did what it just did can be further reinforced by memory insertion if you focus on making sure the imposition is also cemented in your memories. That way, if you start thinking about the amazing session you had on x day, you can picture the imposition right there with everything else in the memory, just like that! I snagged that technique from tiger’s vid on Endoalir, by the way.
 

I’ve also had an easier time animating and moving objects while open-eye visualizing them first, then focusing on their presence via presence imposition. Trying to move the physical presence of the object using solely presence impositon was always clunky and difficult for me to pull off efficiently. But now, with open-eye visualization, I have a horse to pull my cart with.

 

It’s very important that you stay immersed in your imposition so your brain can properly latch onto it. Flip-flopping between open-eye visualization and presence imposition is a solid combo. Thank you tiger for introducing me to endoalir’s method, you’re the goat bro

[ringgggg]

It’s in my sights. Fate is guiding my right hand, and discipline is guiding my left. The hole I’m digging to reach the rock will fill with water, replacing the dirt I just uprooted. The water becomes the dirt, and the dirt becomes water. The ground becomes malleable and easier and easier and easier to dig as moisture seeps into every measure of organic matter, every nook and cranny between the edges of the dirt that just don’t get to touch. Then, as I reach the bottom, a pond forms within my mind. The rock is completely surrounded by water, allowing me to pick it up and manipulate it to my will. The pond is the dirt; new dirt that I welled up from the depths of the unconscious; they are but only a different perceptual set to the shoreline, but regardless, are connected and intertwined at every corner no matter how much of each there is. The only constant, the only thing that matters, is the size of the pond I dig. I dig.

 

My pond is big. It’s frozen over many times in the past, but now I see it truly realized as my scope narrows to my hand and my shovel. I can see it widen. Broaden. Soon my entire hand will be able to submerge and move through the new dirt. I just need more time. I just need time. I need to cultivate this beautiful skill and let it flourish like a beautiful orange flower. I love the color orange.