Memoirs of a Mind Hacker

[Upper Class Twit]

 

Isn't setting deadlines bad?

 

I've heard about hour counts being bad, but deadlines are new to me. Care to explain further?

[Upper Class Twit]

GOOD DAY TO REPORT OF PROGRESS. WE AM RESURRECT DEAD.

 

Yeah its been far too long since I've updated this. Since my last post on this she has been completely visualized and we've started working and Audio and visual imposition, its....tedious to say the least but I feel like I'm getting somewhere. She can move my left arm pretty well now, still not exactly fluently or gracefully but she's getting there.

[Upper Class Twit]

GOOD DAY TO REPORT OF PROGRESS. WE AM RESURRECT DEAD.

 

Yeah its been far too long since I've updated this. Since my last post on this she has been completely visualized and we've started working and Audio and visual imposition, its....tedious to say the least but I feel like I'm getting somewhere. Just the other day she brushed her fingers against my neck. She can move my left arm pretty well now, still not exactly fluently or gracefully but she's getting there. Also I tried Salvia extract 10x two days ago, actually pretty interesting what happened, it wasn't terribly enjoyable for me because my friends kept ruining it, but Sonya got about as screwed up from it as I did. I recall one instance when I was about to take another hit from it that she was pushing on the back of my head towards the bong(I think she shrunk down or something) while simultaneously telling me not to do it again. Afterwords I asked how it was to her, she wasn't too opposed to it actually I'll let her type this part.

 

"Its a very strange experience, It felt like being in one of his dreams, only I didn't have so much control over my thoughts, I think it would be better if we did it alone, and instead of the extract with the leaves, that way the effects last for longer and it is less harsh. For forcing its largely useless, but it was an interesting experience for us, I did find it easier to touch him and we felt more 'separated' I guess the word would be."~Sonya

 

I've read about lower doses being used as meditative aids, and it is completely legal which is one reason why I wasn't too opposed to this one. I agree with Sonya in that I think the leaves in a more comfortable environment could help us force better though.

[Upper Class Twit]

We've been talking more about giving her a sibling. We both want to give her a sister or brother or something, but we're not quite sure when we want to start, I want to start after imposition, that way I won't be sacrificing forcing time for Sonya, she wants to start now, because fuck how longs imposition gonna take? We have a few ideas for form, one's an Argonian, one's a small wyvern, one's a xenomorph, and that's just off the top of our collective head. We think that this is going to be a joint effort between me and her, us both forcing our mutual friend at the same time. Should be interesting, Au Revoir!

[Upper Class Twit]

I'm going to start updating this PR much more often now. Right now Sonya and I are considering doing a revitalization, We wouldn't go back to square one ignoring all progress that was made, but we'd sort of go through the process again, with her taking part in the forcing. Along for the ride, would be her Brother. I would run through her personality and her brother's at the same time. I don't feel that I've lost progress, I feel that things are cloudy and that she is sentient she but not independent(Yeah I read notAnon's post, and I hadn't though Sentience like that before, it was like a Eureka moment to me) . We are debating what to make her brother, we have two options at the moment, an Armia Krajowa (Polish Home army) operative, or a small wyvern. We think we're going to go with a Polish name although that is still up for debate, we have an idea of his template, and we will start forcing him this week, that day we'll also start with Sonya's Revitalization.

[Upper Class Twit]

Revitalization will be starting Saturday, along with birth of our new Tulpa. We are still undecided on what form he will be, so We're going to do the same thing that I did with Sonya, have multiple forms at first then let him decide which one to be. I have a good amount of personality traits and interests down and I think this will go along well. We have chosen a name, Mężny, which is Polish for Dauntless or Valiant. Sonya has been very affectionate as of late, not sure if its because of her new brother coming, or if she's just in a good mood, but she's been a lot less sarcastic. Otherwise things have remained the same. I'm just glad we feel better now. I tried taking more Salvia 10x to see if I could get the semi-dissociation I got last time, no luck, I feel that if I could get my hands on a tincture, which lasts considerably longer I may get the effect I got last time.

[Upper Class Twit]

Started the revitalization today. I began with the first step, greeting stage. I also did Mężny's greeting stage and for the first time in about a month I got a headache from forcing. I feel like this will work. I can't wait to meet him.

[Upper Class Twit]

Sonya and I have been putting mutual effort into Mężny, he seems to like his Dragon form best, as that's the one we see most often when we visualize him, so I guess he wants to be a Dragon, which is absolutely fine, and is a pretty good sign. I have a theory that a Tulpa can choose its appearance before it can speak, since the mind doesn't communicate through words, but through emotions and actions, I think its reasonable that the Tulpa doesn't pick up language until later. Sonya did the same thing, she was supposed to be a Pony at first, but even before she spoke, she flat out denied to be visualized that way. I have been pulling re-vital sessions with Sonya and general forcing with Mężny, me and Sonya are a bit liek a tag team with him, I'll do a trait, she'll do a trait, then back to me, then she visualizes, this cooperative forcine seems to work well, so we'll keep this up, I also suspect that this will allow Sonya to force him wile I can, like when I'm at work or studying for finals.

[Upper Class Twit]

Schools out, now I can finally force much more regularly. And got a raise at work, feeling much better and Sonya seems to be feeling very good as well. Still no voice from Mężny. I could of expected him to take a while. Which is fine.

[Upper Class Twit]

Turns out work isn't the best environment to force, believe it or not. I talk to her plenty there but when I get home some times past one, I am too exhausted to force. I do talk to her often. At the moment I've decided to hold off on her brother and Iron her out a bit more, I will go back to him at one point, but I'll need to get into the habit of forcing more regularly then.