Memoirs of a Mind Hacker

[Aurora]

HI Sonya! *teleports into your wonderland and hugs Sonya* My name is Aurora and I have very little regard for people's personal space :)

 

I like calm and emotional music. Maybe something classical, but not necessarily. What is your favorite computer game?

 

Mmm, so this is what happened with him and his family. They are already know that he practices things in his mind, like lucid dreaming or mnemonics. They are very open minded and approve of this. He was sort of tiptoeing around it. Well, apart from that one time when we saw northern lights on TV and was like "Look everyone, an aurora. Don't you all just love aurora, isn't it beautiful!" Yeah -_-' very subtle :)

 

But one particular moment we remembered above all. He said something like: imagine if you close your eyes and can see the world as real as this one. And one of them replied something like: sounds interesting, just be careful not to give yourself schizophrenia. We didn't expect that, considering that they should know that it's impossible. That took us a little aback, but I think we'll still tell them all about me one day.

 

So, do you two have any plans for possession? Or do you still feel uneasy about it? Whatever the case, do what feels right to you. Chances are, it will turn out to be the right thing :)

[Upper Class Twit]

"Hello Aurora, I can see that, I tend to drink the blood of people who I hug! :)*Coils around*"~ Sonya

 

Half-life, or Team Fortress 2 "Rome Total War,"~ Sonya

 

Yeah that's like...not at all how I broke it to people XD Dropping hints is double edged sword, it can work but it needs to be done right. It gives the impression that it is some super secretive shady action. I'd talk about the more psychological aspect of it, Shadows, Anima, and Animus discussion should be a good way to get into it. It's a bit of a shock to people, understandably, so starting off with something fantastical is only good if you're trying to shell shock some one. I'd begin talking about it as if you we're studying meditation and this practice appealed to you, go into the psych aspects of it, while making it all sound believable.

 

Ehh, after imposition maybe. I still fell uneasy about it, though the paranoia slowly going down. It's mostly that it could be possible that scares me. I may into possession and switching, but not anytime soon. On the other hand, it would be hysterical to freak out some friends like this...

[Kimnd]

Jumping into a conversation already in progress where nobody asked for my opinion or imput? WHY NOT?

I have only told other people my age, with two exceptions. One of them had the reaction that I expected-- he thought that it was an interesting idea, cool even, but he was worried about my hanging out with the people who introduced the concept to me.

The second person I've been friends with since childhood, and he's known me all that time. He was far more worried about the concept. He didn't specifically prevent or forbid my progression on Kev, but he strongly advised me to proceed with caution, and he doesn't believe that Kev is an entity separate from me.

The only person I haven't told is my mom because the last thing she needs is thinking her child is making herself schizophrenic/building a literal world of distraction inside her head with which to avoid work.

I think it's important to tell a variety of people-- Telling only open-minded people is all well and good, but a dose of reality that tulpe can be dangerous can also be useful. At times, the only thing that's kept Kev in my mind was thinking that I was going to be seeing friend who believes he's not real in a few days.

It is kinda funny how you seem to already have lots of experience with this kinda stuff, Kyle, and yet you're so down on yourself! You've gotten farther in three weeks than I have in 3 months.

[Aurora]

Eee! But how will Kyle give you your daily dose of hugs? *Teleports away from Sonya* Still worth it :). Ooo, how tall are you?

 

Have you tried playing a turn based game all by yourself? I like chess, can you play it?

 

Mmm, if we do ever tell someone, that's obviously not how we'll do it. I don't think he gave them enough information to get any sort of idea like that, not even close. It was all very natural. He thought is was funny to see how many times he can mention my name without them suspecting anything and I was just sitting there in my dismay :) But yeah, a worrying family is that last thing we want. Do you tell people that she is a representation of your subconscious, or that she is completely her own person? I would surely like to tell the latter.

 

I learned possession very early on, but I don't like the idea of switching very much. Also, I sometimes worry bumping into people while possessing, they would probably see that something is very off.

[Upper Class Twit]

Kimnd

 

Trust me I get the healthy skepticism on my own, I'm paranoid by nature. Good job with telling people though, you sound like you know what you're doing.

 

But that's not why I feel down about it, yeah I can proxy pretty well, yeah I hear her mind voice pretty well, yes I can tell people what I do like its nothing, but I just feel like I need to be further along. I need to be able to hear her more often, I NEED to be able to visualize her better then I currently am, I NEED TO KEEP MY GODDAMNED MIND ON TRACK. I just feel so.... inferior I guess the word is. She's doing everything she should and can do, I can only do what I can, and its not enough.

 

Aurora

 

"Simple, he just lets me drink it :D and we hug then, anyway it depends on how much I rear up, normally juuuust a few inches taller then Kyle" ~Sonya

 

No we haven't, we do like the idea though.

 

Hmmm neither really, I say its like assigning a piece of my Subconsciousness a form and a personality, making a separate consciousness.

 

I'd be wiling to do it for a day or so, but no longer. Possession I think would be a safer bet, I'd feel like 'd have more control.

[Upper Class Twit]

After a three day hiatus due to midterms I've begun forcing again, and this time with some new tones. Let me say this, Fedes tones, are virtually worthless. His Theta beats are distracting at best, his Tulpatones don't work all that well ,and the white and pink noise are just normal. If you really want good stuff search for it on youtube, meditative tones work very well and are generally more effective, for me anyway, if Fede's tones work for you, more power to you, but there are other options.

 

Today I used a 40hz gamma biaural beat, which helps concetration and also seemed to make the session go faster. She spoke to me again today, but it was a whisper and I couldn't understand what she was saying, I guess I had the tone playing too loud. Anyway, nice session, we talked while we were visualizing, her faces is almost 100% complete now, but I still have trouble visualizing her tail and her chest, (seriously, Im a guy, that should be the easy part lol)

 

Also I've begun to grow intrested in other mindfolks, like Animas(animi?), Animuses, Selfs, and Shadows. I've been intrested in meeting them for sometime now, and Sonya agrees that it would be neat to meet her neighbors, that will probaly be held of for sometime now, but I would like to know the process ahead of time if anyone here has any experiance with that.

[Kimnd]

I don't usually do specific forcing, unless I'm trying to talk to my new tulpa, Todd. He can't really hear mindvoice like Kev can, so I have to actually imagine standing in front of him for him to hear me. I don't really use music or sound, but Kev likes listing to music so whenever his favorite song comes on, he actually loses his form and... erm... becomes one with the sound, I guess. I see it as him just getting so wound up and excited that his form just can't hold itself together and it rips apart.

I have no idea what any of those things you listed are, Kyle. Mind filing me in?

By the way, I'm having a lot of trouble with visualization too... is it normal to try and find somebody who can draw and ask that they draw my tulpa?

[Upper Class Twit]

I use the tones to get my mind to cooperate with me mostly, so I can concentrait, sometiems it works, but others it don't.

 

Anima's and shit right? From my understanding they are mindfolk like Tuplas. Anima is basically a female counterpart to the male's conciousness, Animus is the same but for women so I wouldn't have this particular one, a shawdow is a boggeyman of sorts, teh darker side of your conciousness I guess, and I'm still researching the self.

 

Considering that I do the exact same thing, not at all.

[Upper Class Twit]

I've deceided that in three weeks I'm going to move on into imposition.

 

She's talking often, her form is fairly well set in stone (except the tail but that is mostly just color and length, easy stuff to do) and to be completly honest the constant forceing is getting redundant, I need to do something new with her. Possesion is just meh. She can move my hand and kind of move my arm but not to a huge extent, I'm going to be trying so new postures when forceing, changeing things up a little bit. I haven't gotten a huge ammount of forceing done lately but I've been narrating very often, and drawing her a lot, so I think I'm okay for now. I still need to keep up with forceing but maybe everday is just too hard to do? Maybe just make a quota for a week instead of for a day soo I can be more flexable? i don't know I'll think of something.

 

Intresting side note though, my sleep pattern since I've started Tulpaforceing has improved DRASTICALLY. I feel sharper, I'm remembering more dreams, and just overall sleeping better. I think because of the meditative nature of Tulpaforceing, my mind calms down and I can lull myself to sleep better. Now if only Sonya would appear to me in dreams...

[Lacquer]

I've deceided that in three weeks I'm going to move on into imposition.

 

Isn't setting deadlines bad?