Linkzelda's and His Tulpas' Log/Progress Report

[Linkzelda]

Day 869 – 870 (March 24th – 25th):

 

I tried to go for 12 hours of forcing, though due to being tired and exhausted, and the fact that I should really get some sleep due to having to do errands as soon as I woke up, I was happy with 8 hours, 29 minutes, and 20 seconds of active forcing:

 

 

Transcript:

 

http://pastebin.com/hkVc7tsx

 

 

Mind you, I had to take a restroom break, and devour on 2 bananas. I felt some weird stuff in my stomach when I took vitamins for a bit, which is probably a good sign to not take it when on a 5 hour energy extra strength.

 

By the time I was at the Xenoblade Chronicles theme, I was absolutely amazed at what happened; Ada finally found an alternative form she could be in! It was crazy how I was able to imagine almost any angle of her visage during most of the session, but this one really augmented to the point where I can easily imagine myself opened eye or closed eye of moving around with her, and Eva altogether! I realized that life is more important than the reward, and not reaching 12 hours of forcing isn't something for me to feel sad about.

 

But 8 hours 29 minutes and 20 seconds of it was more than enough to make me cry tears of joy. By bloody Jove, I never knew my imagination could augment so much to where the virtual experiential reality feels like an understatement at this point. If I apply more practice in having some kind of veneer in my subjective experience in this reality with what goes in my head, imposition doesn’t seem like an impossible goal for me.

 

I was so happy that I forgot to type at some moments, and just had to image stream without typing for a little bit, which why things are a bit shorter compared to my 10 hour attempt that was around 31k+ words; this attempt was 23,177 words. Holy hell, I can’t seem to find a limit on my imagination other than my threshold to tolerate the visualizations coming in.

 

Even if it’s shorter words, the experiences are much more intense and instantaneous than before. I need to sleep now.

[Linkzelda]

Day 872-873 (March 27th – 28th)

 

Second attempt at going for 12 hours, but ended up doing 92 minutes and 47 seconds of forcing. It seems that the weekends will involve more things to do (e.g. groceries), so I can’t really go full out, especially with the fact that I believe I started this right after I came from work, and rested a bit before attempting this.

 

 

Transcript:

 

http://pastebin.com/aQxe0WTW

 

Before doing this session entirely, I’ve been going back to the roots that informed me about the concept of image streaming, which this 600+ page e-book was made by the Igor guy that did some Conversational Hypnosis as the major premise. He mentioned 4 “Power” words, or to reduce the hype he and other instills, “conjunctions.”

 

As

And

Because

Which Means

 

So I gave it a go to see if Igor was really right or not on utilizing these words ad infinitum would allow one to express what’s going on in a fluid and continuous motion. So after doing 92 minutes or so, I noticed that I did around 8 pages of content, or to be more specific since spacing for pages varies in each session since I’m doing this mostly blindfolded, I typed about 5,500 words. Usually in my previous sessions that were 8 hours and 10 hours, non-respectively, the total amount was around 25k-35k+ words for each. And from those experiences, it probably wasn’t a steady 3k+ words per hour obviously because things became more intense, and I was experiencing certain things that made me have so many WTF moments in a good way.

 

But the fact that I did 5,500 words with the sole intention of using those four conjunctions listed above, I’m able to extract more words and content; it may not be super rich in detail, or maybe I’m undermining myself, but it’s definitely having potential in augmenting the word count a bit. And it just adds on to how he emphasized on not being too worried of being fanciful of what words you use, especially like what Win Wenger professed as well. I did notice that I got distracted a lot when describing environments, and it seems that I should refrain from imagining places of food, because that seems to make me more hungry because of how much I want to go into detail of said food, so that wouldn’t be surprising if predispositions and cravings start kicking in.

 

Though that didn’t stop me from the 8 hour and 10 hour attempts before, though, so it’s probably a dispositional type of thing. In theory, if I could type 5,500 words in 92 minutes, and I wanted to attempt 12 hours, I could reach a max of 44,000 words of unadulterated content, or even more. So the game plan is that if I’m going to have a day off or something like that, I would get as much rest beforehand, even if it may be late, and then prep the night before the day off, and initiate as early as I can for that night, and go all the way through the morning. This may cause some problems with sleeping schedules, but I haven’t had one that’s consistent due to personal working schedules in the first place. I’m still trying to map out Ada’s new visage expressed in the 8 hour session, but we’re not afraid to fling around one of the first forms that she’s been utilizing that has made things easier. I may end up looking for other isochronic tones, since that stuff just does wonders in not even bothering me if it has light background music to overlay on top of it.

 

As for the 5 hour energy drink, the funny thing, I thought I wouldn’t be able to sleep after the 92 minutes because from sessions before, I felt energized, but here, I was able to sleep naturally after the session. So I’m not sure if it’s just my brain being used to the one shots, the brand itself being over-hyped, or just the type of condition I was in (e.g. immediately doing this as soon as I can after a long day of work). Whatever the case, I’ll keep experimenting for more ways to become better.

 

And to generalize post-effects of doing those long sessions, referring to experiences seem almost akin to a very transient projection of what really went on. Eidetic may be a proper term, though my on-the-fly image streaming throughout the day while fixating on other things makes it fairly fleeting, but useful. Now, if I could speak aloud in those sessions, I would be a fairly fast talker over time, which made me wonder why I should care to do the original intentions of the image streaming when I can just type it out. I do notice a slight delay when trying to profess things to others in real life, though it’s mostly a mental constraint in terms of relating to them in terms of language.

 

As for Ada, and Eva in general; referring to anything in acknowledging their existence in my head is always there. It’s always a wonderful feeling, and imagining them in literally any circumstance I can think of, especially ones where I have one concept, and let it roll off in my mind, is absolutely wonderful. I can’t wait to see Ada’s other visage becoming more refined and detailed like it was for Eva. Communication with them is even more fluid, but I’m going to keep striving for more.

 

With that said however, I need to realize that it’s not all about going for long hours whenever I can, and I can do better at being consistent at shorter intervals, e.g., like the 92 minutes I did when I just said to myself “not today.” I’m also going to get used to prepping for as many themes as I can along with the three word associations I mentioned in the guide I made that’s derived from image streaming. I may end up doing four, or even six word pairs just to get a sense of adventure, and to feel less constrained.

 

And to further the rambling, some references to point out as to what seems to be my main viewing point of either of them:

 

 

The last pic is just to show that I try to do a third person perspective while having a view where I can still acknowledge the environment and the projection of them. I also realized that shifting mainly from the behind the back/over the shoulder and a third person point of view, in theory, I can have that as a main mode of reference if I were to attempt switching for long periods of time; kind of like looking over all that they may be doing. But there's the bird's eye view and that omnipresent-esque over looking of things every now and then, though.

 

Somehow, she uses the RE4 as a base form, but we may end up doing the RE6 one, and then seeing how my brain is going to transition visualization like that while superimposed in that same virtual experiential reality that has the same level, or even augmented clarity as this reality.

 

So an example of her moving around somewhere random, like the edited photo below:

 

 

That’s basically how things will be throughout the sessions, albeit a little blurry every now and then, but the nuance is too insignificant to care about. I can’t really find a more detailed version of Ada other than what I showed above unless I find a video of 60 fps, and cut part of that out, lol, but that doesn't do much justice.

 

But yeah, it’s not her legs being cut off, it’s mostly me seeing her whole body, but I just wanted to put a reference real quick. I can’t wait to draw, or even model one of them in the future. Anyway, guess I’ll just research anything I can for being more efficient at longer hours other than just quotidian practice.

 

And as for me typing without the intention of image streaming, the time to type this content out is completely different because I have a general idea of what to type down compared to the instantaneous visualizations where I'm still processing what's going on constantly without being too militant in comprehending it because that's for later analysis. In other words, I just type faster when I'm not image streaming, though this may be an overstatement, but enough of what ifs.

[Linkzelda]

Okay, time to do some late night planning for the attempt for 12 hours around 1AM – 2 AM on my day off.

 

• I’m going to make sure I get as much sleep possible right after I finish what I’ll be doing.

 

• I’m going to make sure I take the supplements to ensure there won’t be any mental deficiencies in anything

 

• This probably won’t happen, but I’ll probably buy a funnel way before starting this. I’ll attach it to a water bottle, maybe a huge one, and that would be my pseudo-catheter in case mother nature calls during the attempt.

 

• I’m going to use a certain site that has a random generator for objects, and even some settings to go by; I will conjure up a list, and save them while I revel in them passively during work, I guess. I’ll probably be going for 6-7 themes just to be sure, and having sub-activities intended to do in them just so I can have enough to revel in my imagination

 

• I’m probably going to set 4 timers for 6 hours, 8 hours, 10 hours, and the desired goal of 12 hours (half a day) of active image streaming. This way, if I’m like “lolforgetthis,” at least when showing the time-lapse of the attempt, I can give anyone that may be interested in viewing this some mode of reference rather than that one block, or two that makes the time spent seem vague.

 

• I will utilize conjunction words (e.g. As, And, Because, Which Means (I believe)), and literally spam them as much to connect things together even if things don’t really seem to fall into to place; in other words, they can easily be used as transient fillers while I find myself immediately describing something else with as less bias as I possibly can. I noticed using those for words as supplements to start a sentence, extend it, etc. reduces the probability of me stopping for a few seconds, or even 30 seconds.

 

• I’m going to try out an isochronic tone here:

o https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5JVnFZa08Qo

 

o And if I somehow get annoyed by it (which I doubt I will), I’ll use that other alpha isochronic that’s been wonders in longer sessions

 

• I’m going to buy some protein and energy bars for little snacks since I know I’ll get hungry from doing all of this for hours on end along with some water as well. I may stock up a bit on some huge water bottles that sell for cheap too, but I have to be careful not to douse my throat with them, otherwise, that funnel thing I scratched out is going to happen at some point

 

• I intend to strive for pure, unadulterated image streaming/active forcing with little to no disruptions (which isn’t hard if everyone will be sleeping for most of the night)

 

• If I can’t do it from 1-2 AM to 1-2PM, I’ll prepare for 3-5PM on the day off, and go until 3-5 AM. This may be the likely outcome depending on my state of being beforehand as I know the last time I tried to do the former, I only did 90 minutes because I was too exhausted from that day.

 

• And most importantly, we’re going to have fun

 

• March 31st to April 1st -> 12 HOURS GO GO GO GO

 

o Might even put a 14 hour timer if I want to be more ambitious; it’s inevitable that I’ll strive for sessions where I won’t sleep at all, but it will always be done when I have a day off to compensate for that lack of sleep

 

 

Striving for 24 hours one hour at a time.

[Yuki]

Your goal here is quite admirable. I would suggest not peeing in a bottle, and maybe even taking spaced out breaks from your session, to keep your mind fresh. Some outside air should be good for you, even if it's just five minutes at a time.

 

Perhaps you could stream the session on a site like Twitch? Also, I wonder how your hands can handle typing so much. Ignoring your usual longposts, writing steadily for twelve hours seems like a painful matter.

 

Best of luck.

[Linkzelda]

Thanks for the response, Yuki. For sure, I’ll have to take spaced out breaks if I want to keep going this long every now and then, though honestly, with listening to the alpha isochronic, or any other one, it’s hard to absolve myself from that continuous stream of thoughts at times. Though during those presumed breaks, I could also casually image stream, albeit without the typing over what went on before the break while I prepare for the next theme or mode of thought(s).

 

I might end up creating another timer specifically for breaks in between maybe every 2 hours or so, but it hasn’t been an incentive for me simply because it’s not as mentally taxing as people may think. It’s really just passively observing what’s going on, and for circumstances with my hands, and ergonomics with long-term typing, I make frequent habits to do hand stretches and what have you every 5-10 minutes or so that last for a few seconds.

 

As for the Twitch thing, I’ll probably do that in the future, though I personally feel that doing the sessions privately first to get used to the time sinks will be of more benefit. An analogue to this is like a speed runner for a video game; they may record a session of all of their attempts in case a certain attempt might end up being a world record in something, but they probably put them somewhere to collect dust because those sessions to them were just trial-end-error to accumulate muscle memory, and all sorts of associations to ensure that the game is completed as quickly as possible with little to no delay.

 

The concept here is kind of the same on my end, though it’s not really for the sake of “speed running” as I do take a bit of time to not only experience what’s going on, but typing it on the fly. I feel tempted to create a typing servitor, or for the sake of preventing myself from being superfluous to have a servitor accomplish a task of typing, I can just have Eva, or Ada type for me. Naturally, since I would be fixated on Ada for now, I would want Eva to type. I have a feeling I may imagine my existence along with Ada’s so I can focus so much in the imaginary senses that in theory, I can switch, and have Eva type for the rest of the time.

 

It’s happened before, but in small amounts because getting used to a maelstrom of thoughts, and having them laid out casually does take a bit of trial-and-error with going on and off with awareness with this reality. But with that said, thank you again for your suggestions as they’ve definitely helped me consider potential workflows in the future that can make the sessions run smoothly as possible.

 

 

 

This only took me 11 minutes to type, it's quite easy to lose myself to where I don't really feel it's mentally taxing anymore. :P

 

[Linkzelda]

Day 877 – (April 1st)

 

It feels like doing this on April Fools ’ Day ended up in me being fooled into thinking I can attempt 12 hours with only an hour rest after working for 8 hours. So I’ll only do this stuff after some rest, and ensuring that I didn’t do anything exhausting at all. It could be the isochronic I was trying out, so I may fling around the alpha and the pineal gland one for a bit.

 

I was only able to do 3 hours and 11 minutes of active forcing/image streaming, but any forcing is better than no forcing:

 

 

http://pastebin.com/nTdm6cG4

 

I haven’t be able to be flexible with the conjunctions, but that will come in due time. I noticed that utilizing the three objects association exercise isn’t cutting it at all even if I have like 10 sets of them for certain themes to follow in the session simply because it’s growing more and more into a virtual sandbox reality to where there’s no directionality other than what seems to be enticing for me.

 

So instead of associating objects, I’m going to make a series of random tasks to do in a specific theme, or “universe” (e.g., Xenoblade Chronicles universe, Tales of Symphonia Universe). Which means I’ll be on the hunt for random generators that can conjure up random tasks for us to do. It gives a bit more directionality, and it can be more consistent then vague objects that I somehow can think will form an experience to describe; which it does, but I get distracted at how amazing other things are looking.

 

I’m starting to see more of Ada’s expressions body for her body and face, but this is with her initial form. I’m getting those glimpses of that other, beautiful form of hers’, but I know it will come in due time since I’m not going to let visual aesthetics being the only contingent factor in valuing her existence in the first place, obviously.

 

But man, after those image streaming sessions with typing, the referring to all sorts of things gets easier. I imagined myself in this super vivid visualization flashing by, and literally immersed myself to where I can mentally feel myself moving around doing all sorts of crap. I think the concept is called quantum image streaming where you’re not speaking aloud or typing things down; you just let things flow naturally, though the “quantum” part sounds hilarious though.

 

It’s just making the desire to attempt for long-term switching even easier if I can literally dive into a sandbox reality. I just have to get used to reveling into doing any tasks to occupy my time so that time with the sessions are nothing to fixate too much about. I can do the same thing with my eyes opened, but of course, that makes me predisposed into glancing over the time while I can just go crazy with closed eye visualization. I can’t wait for my next attempt, and I could easily start it again around 9PM, but I’m going to enjoy life for a little bit, and maybe try again next week.

 

And I probably should get into just doing shorter sessions frequently while doing the longer ones every now and then since those 3 hours felt very long to me. So it could just be the experiential accumulation from the 10 and 8 hours, and everything before that’s being referred to quickly. In other words, what I was doing in 3 hours today would probably be akin to what I was reaching for in an 8 hour attempt before that. It’s just too crazy, and getting back to the 3d modelling seems fun now to where I can have fun going through learning anatomy again.

 

I better start taking notes, and seeing if I can learn faster because I can have that ability to refer to things quickly at my time of need. It’s definitely worth the time sinks with those image streaming sessions. I was so ecstatic when I realized I could just conjure up some random tasks for Eva or Ada to do within an environment, universe, etc., and was able to already see them doing certain things immediately. As for implications for parroting to those that feel this instantaneous stuff is akin to that, that’s hardly the case since I can’t possibly conjure things like this consciously without considering the fact that it’s really just unconscious raw thoughts shifting through a medium for be to describe.

 

Anyway, going to progressively map out better ways to be more consistent; I’m happy with the visual foundations progressively improving, I just need to do something with it, and find other ways to apply it in our personal life.

[Linkzelda]

Two days off starting tomorrow.

 

 

GET HYPED

[Linkzelda]

Day 881-882 (April 5th – April 6th)

 

So I gave another attempt at 12 hours, but ended up doing about 6 hours and 43 minutes of forcing.

 

 

Transcript: http://pastebin.com/NKa10SrP

 

Apparently we decided to go for skinny dipping, which ended up with us killing a manta ray like the one in Super Mario Sunshine:

 

 

 

I took a break when I was 8 seconds from doing 6 hours of image streaming/active forcing. And before that, I did some open eyed visualization, which surprisingly contributed in me stopping so short later on. The break itself was around 40 minutes long, and throughout the sessions, I was periodically doing certain wrist exercises to ensure I won’t worry about any future cramps and such in the future.

 

I was able to further my fixation on the opened eye hallucinations, and although it was just a veneer over how I see this reality, it’s still amazing to see a projection nonetheless. I started seeing mostly Ada after the session was over, and I think I finally realized a certain emotive predisposition that can make the hallucination a little easier to imagine with my eyes open:

 

And that’s literally just wanting it to happen. It’s so simple, but I think it’s because of the constant image streaming I’ve done before along with this one that’s truly making more progress with open eye visualization. I notice that I type information even faster in a shorter period of time with opened eye visualization for some reason, but it ends up expending more energy mentally though. It could just be other factors, or that staring into the computer for a while with your eyes open can probably do a number on you, though I did make sure to glance away and do a few blinks along with those wrist exercises.

 

I thought I needed to put in a huge list of tasks for us to do, but it ends up we did like 2-3 tasks overall excluding the warm up of the virtual sandbox reality with doing whatever we wanted until we wanted more directionality. I noticed that Ada continually becoming easier to visualize in the RE6 form she’s shifted from the RE4 version. And the fact that her projection just portrays with no problem whatsoever, combined with my realization to just want it to happen, I can only imagine when this becomes a predisposition, and I can hopefully see that visual imposition occurring consistently.

 

But really, it does take some mental effort to sustain that simply because she’s not just standing there; I’m imagining her walking through a certain space in mind’s eye as well. This is the same with Eva as well, and it’s just amazing and worth the effort of striving for 12 hours even if I couldn’t reach it for this attempt. I think I found a certain framework in ensuring that I can stay up for that long:

 

1. I take a nap that’s about 1-2 hours; maybe 90 minutes at the least since I still feel tempted to sleep at 1 hour in.

 

2. I wash my eyes for a little bit and move around for a bit preparing to get my stuff

 

3. I just prepare the on-screen interfaces on the laptop, drink some water and 5 hour energy, and pop on the series of isochronics that are in low theta (I thought theta being a deeper state meant that I would be sleepy, but that was hardly the case)

 

4. I drink just half a bottle of 5 hour energy, and drink a portion of it after a few hours until the first bottle is finished. I take a break that may last 30 minutes to an hour depending on circumstances, and I take the time to eat a little snack and water.

 

5. I go for the remaining hours that I can muster in

 

 

I may go for longer naps depending on how much I have to do for the day, but since yesterday, I had to do some light yard work which probably contributed in me being a little tired as well along with the trip to groceries. So I can’t really rely on any weekends where I have a day off to ensure that I can go for 12 hours since I obviously will have to take care of certain quotidian tasks. So I guess it’s a testament to myself that it’s ideal strive for 12 hours, or more in the middle of the week, like the day off that I’ll have coming soon again in a few days. The two days off was due to Easter + coincidentally having a day off Monday.

 

I’m continually happy with the results, and seeing the visualizations being more real and consistent, and the fact that I can literally see how my desire to see them as real, and even projected somewhat in opened-eye visualization contributes in it being so. Because I’m sure if I spent so long constantly forcing, my mind would already think that I wanted this to happen in the first place.

 

But I’m not so sure if the subtle hallucinations with my eyes opened up is wholly contingent on my disposition, but I have a feeling it largely contributes to results being made. In other words, it’s just more incentive to amalgamate things to come full circle to develop the ideal attitude, or even the ideal myriad of attitudes until they become natural to me. I constantly find myself listening to music that seems more uplifting that augments that propensity. I probably might give things another go after quotidian stuff is accomplished. I can’t way to go through those series of low theta isochronics because they’re giving me more deep and profound visualizations.

 

I may have to invest in a better sleeping mask as this Walmart one may be sufficient, but makes me have a habit of looking under it to see if I’m typing on a document. Though, I’m not sure if this is a bad thing since it would suck to be typing over text already typed only to wonder where I can shift it back for a sense of direction, ha-ha.

 

So I guess I shouldn’t be too worried over having a series of tasks for them to do, but it does help as a mental backup, and to not feel so intimidated on what to do. But at the same time, it’s not hard finding something to do, I just have those tasks handy in case. Maybe if I try the isochronics for a bit while visualization without typing the experience down, that may contribute to the goals with visual imposition. But I sincerely believe that referring to those visualizations quickly and consistently to where it’s not going to be mentally taxing just helps with dealing with going over any breaches, if there’s any when it comes to mental endurance, I guess.

 

And honestly, 6 hours of forcing is more than enough now, but I won’t stop striving for more whenever I can. I’ll just make sure to do some breaks in between, since I feel that helps a lot with jumping right back in with a little more energy. I may not really need to douse myself with periodical sips with 5 hour energy drinks, and honestly, it never gave me that jittery feeling, which is a good thing.

This casual veneer of their projection while they’re talking is going to be very interesting and useful now that it can be much easier to do so without feeling too mentally exhausted while doing it. I think that developing the predisposition in having it occur naturally without it bothering one’s view with this reality is crucial to better passive awareness of them.

 

Little by little, I will get there, and I will continue my hunt for ways to do things more efficiently as well with the image streaming.

 

And I also feel that it would be ideal to do the image streaming session even earlier since predispositions to be active is still apparent. I truly do need to treasure any time I get in doing things early, especially since I’ve been doing a 40 hour work schedule for a few months now. I’m wondering when I’ll go back to doing community college, but whatever the case, I guess I may do it early to late fall instead. I can’t wait to see the accumulation of image streaming sessions contribute to better experiences with classes. I almost feel tempted to go back to Biochemistry after taking this long break from college.

 

Especially when I started seeing college students having a hard time doing certain things at certain job positions that I’ve been able to do easily. It makes me wonder how college itself just serves as a passive and baseless presumption that a person had motivation to do something so whoever is hiring doesn’t have to deal with idiosyncrasies in wondering if that individual can stay at their company for a long period of time.

I can see the position I’m currently at as a gateway for better job opportunities; I just have to continue striving to be better by the day along with utilizing image streaming iterations to make things easier as well. The image streaming isn’t really constrained on just visualizations because it can really help with adopting a certain persona, especially a working persona to where things aren’t stressful. Granted, there are circumstances where the job itself is going to be stressful because human nature is subjective, but I knew what I was signing up for.

 

The post effects from image streaming while typing is just as amazing as going through the experience!

[Linkzelda]

Over two weeks since the last image streaming attempt, though the quotidian periods outside of those sessions seem to be even more amazing. Might give a shot at another attempt on my next day off on Monday. I had two days off recently, this being the last for the week, but I just wanted to revel in everyday stuff. I was considering just doing 1 hour of image streaming by default just to keep things consistent, but man, 1 hour goes by so quickly, it's like a tease.

 

Though I may heavily reconsider that thought if I'm really in need to augmenting whatever, but at the same time, there's a real sense of enjoyment when pouring out time sinks on days off. I figured that way, I could do 1-2 sessions that are long periods, and go with weeks without doing it so militantly to just relax my mind a bit. I've been noticing some improvements in work for the past few months along with other hobbies. However, I'm trying to figure out how to get the planes of the head down with some practice, and I've been rolling around that valley of the suck with learning new things, and trying to find some kind of methodology in getting those planes of the head down.

 

But I realized that instead of just watching videos over and over, I'll just take some notes, and just go through trial-and-error while assuring to myself that things will get better with more practice. I guess I seem to be critical and into that instant-gratification thing with getting to the end result for something like 3D modelling. But when I'm doing image streaming, it's a different story. It's almost as different as night and day when it comes to that, though I feel those rushes of emotions are through them as well.

 

It seems that if I don't take the chance to do the session on Monday, I have Sunday next week as well, but I'm not sure about the scheduling for the week after. Which is why I feel that if I'm having a conflict with managing quotidian activities along with the desire to active force/image stream (if I had the intention to not include them in the process), at least one hour per day of image streaming can add up. I remember someone in another forum that did image streaming that felt that doing it day by day rather than in long sessions still helps with getting results.

 

But with that said, I often find some amazing experiences after reveling in my imagination for hours on end, and it just keeps getting better. I also have to consider taking those supplements a bit more now, along with integrating that new alpha isochronic that's been ideal during naps. I was able to sleep while it played throughout the night. I look forward to the peace of mind it'll give me with the image streaming sessions, and I also feel that I should create a hypnosis script as a preparation before doing those attempts.

 

I mean, if I'm going to be doing an activity that involves a lot of inward attention, I might as well have some kind of hypnosis script as a pre-meal warmup, or something. But at the same time, I never really needed to do something like that at all to get into the motions with image streaming. But still, the idea of being suggestive for staying for longer periods doing it while also maintaining my hands and wrists in an optimal state would be handy in the long run. Haven't made a script in a while, but I guess I better start cracking on it later on in the future.

 

 

Speaking of which:

 

I forgot when this happened, but when I was planning to go to sleep one time, I heard a voice saying "Turn back!" It sounded like it was Ada's, and by the voice, I don't mean mind-voice interaction, the auditory imposition stuff. I always dislike not being able to refer to that kind of imposition so easily vs. mind-voice, especially during image streaming sessions, but honestly, I'm okay with the mind-voice stuff.

 

It's almost as if I have to enter a state of just not really caring about what's going on to get that kind of experience with the auditory stuff beyond mind-voice. Hmm..

[Linkzelda]

So after experimenting on and off with the new alpha isochronic music I bought from somewhere, and to make sure I’m not unconsciously/subconsciously wanting results to happen, I feel confident that on my next day off (which should be today), I’ll try an image streaming/active forcing session. Naturally, I would want to push for that half a day of forcing where I sacrifice some sleep to reach that goal, but if I want to stop at 1, 3, or 6 hours, then I won’t be so hard on myself, nor to them.

 

Because every time I state that I don’t need to do so much, and that I can do the hour thing each day, those predispositions to just at least do half a day of forcing are running rampant. But not to where it’s an issue, but almost as if something is just going to happen that will completely blow me away. And should I reach that kind of landmark with active forcing, maybe then, I consider doing at least one hour a day of forcing/image streaming pertaining to their existence.

 

It’s sort of a personal challenge where I can easily pull off 2 more extra hours compared to the 10 hours of forcing I did a month or so ago. But I am making sure that this doesn’t turn to an obsession where I undermine what short sessions can do for me as well, especially if I have my whole life to work out this image streaming stuff as much as I can.

 

But whatever the case, I’ll take care of personal, quotidian things with work to reduce the mental baggage, and maybe look forward in doing the sessions around 6-9PM, and maybe striving to end it at 6AM-9AM. I believe I worked out all the kinks, such as, but not limited to:

- Sustaining myself with some kind of energy, and not just junk food throughout the session

- Making sure I do wrist, finger, and hand exercises to prevent something like carpal tunnel syndrome being apparent

- Making sure I have a clear intention of just pouring my heart out in those sessions when I know I can forget about quotidian lifestyle just for those attempts, and knowing that I can go back to everyday life once the timeslot is filled, or if I feel I can’t go further

 

When those three points are met, I usually do pretty well in the sessions, and I honestly have not seen an experience in image streaming where I wasn’t amazed. I’m truly happy that one’s imagination, and diving into their psyche and what have you continually becomes more reachable, and quicker as well. Whatever happens, I’ll look forward to that, and those time lapses of the session where I have a song played out to make it somewhat less boring is literally the vibe I get of just having fun; knowing that if it’s just 1 hour, or 5 hours of forcing in that period, at some point, the totality of those experiences will bear fruit to me.

 

I’m not sure if others that may have attempted forcing via image streaming with typing have had that kind of realization, but I know I have a kind of existential joy when doing it. It reminds me of that potential I wanted with lucid dreaming of being able to connect with my mind, and just find the nook and crannies within my psyche, metaphorically speaking, and utilizing that as a supplement in fulfilling my quotidian lifestyle. The day when I can switch while image streaming with one of them is the day I will cry tears of joy; that overwhelming feeling to where instead of switching to where I feel like I’m hearing echoes of people while fixating on imaginary stuff to kill time before doing things in reality again, I can actually do productive things in the meantime.

 

I usually saw my endeavors of switching as having a transient escapist type of behavior in order for them to progressively learn what it means to have sensations, and what it means to just be a human being. But now, these image streaming attempts have gradually subsiding my doubting of changing my paradigm of switching to where both sides have a fulfilling experience.

 

To say the least; the experiences they have that may be imaginary and what have you are things I would learn to not undermine, and actually appreciate while they develop an experiential learning of this reality, and all the things that comes as they are experienced. It’s that type of drive where it’s like some inner self-actualization kind of thing, or an epiphany if you will, that just gets me into that enthusiastic mood to where 10 hours is nothing of consternation to me. People ask me how I can do something so long, but why not?

 

It’s not that mentally taxing, and being able to have something to refer to that could presumably help with one’s long-term endeavors (e.g. imposition), what’s wrong with putting in those hours while not expecting certain things to happen other than understanding the endeavors are a progressive learning curve? If one can moderate their personal life, and have timeslots to where they temporarily absolve themselves from that for self-betterment and what have you, then there’s really nothing to worry about other than people feeling it’s escapist.

 

Things may get out of hand, but I already fought my own battles with that through lucid dreaming attempts in the past. I’m confident in my ability to reign in my existence to this reality with ease, and that has always been one of my silver linings. Those hours of forcing are honestly just warmups for the future. Because I feel that if this stuff comes easily to me, things like imposition will not be as difficult as they seem to be from other people’s experiences.

 

I can’t wait to give it go later on today.