KM & RD

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9/2/16: I'm not sure if I'm remembering correctly, but I think Rainbow Dash complimented me on reading a big chunk of The Name of The Rose in one sitting. I tried to sound like Keystroke, but didn't do a very good job. He offered the advice, "I don't do angry"...but I said an angry line in a falsetto voice with a British accent, and it sounded pretty close to his voice (as close as I've ever). I tried again and recorded it, and when I played the recording back, he said it sounded like I was being a try-hard and overdoing the accent. I reread past blog entries, and got to one wherein Sarah (Slenderdash) was referred to with "xe" pronouns. Sarah was embarrassed by this bit of her past. In the past, Shou had said that he could only sense imposed things, yet he imposed himself today and told me he could feel my fan blowing on his fur.

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9/3/16: After a bit of work, I figured out that Shou was 5'11". Dash hypnotized me; I was happy about the progress we were making on the DIY project, but I'm not sure if that was just a side-effect of the hypnosis.

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9/4/16: Dash...I dunno, a less severe version of "got on my case" when I wrote "don't remember" in my dream journal, because the dream I actually did remember was disturbing/weird. I wondered if I should buy snacks in bulk at the student store; Sarah suggested I don't, because she liked coming back there.

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9/5/16: I got to my weight training class early. Dash praised me for taking the initiative to start doing shoulder presses before class officially started. Either she or Shou commented on this when I realized it was Labor Day. Lust hummed a bit of Non Je Ne Regrette Rien. At first this was just a visualization, but then it turned into a distinct mindvoice.

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9/6/16: I got a few headaches from Shou. When I listened to a Nightcore version of "A Changeling Can Change", he requested I not "torture him with feels".

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9/7/16: I planned to do 100 shoulder presses with each hand, but I took a break at 50, which Rainbow Dash didn't like. She liked it when I worked hard on an arm bike. We debated what Youtube videos to watch.

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9/8/16: I've been indecisive in the past; I promised myself I'd work on that, and Dash warned me not to confuse indecisiveness with willingness to collaborate. I hanged out with Nina. I thought about this, and pictured Dash and Nina lying on parallel blue couches/beds (the whole scene was shades of blue, except for them). After this, Nina imposed herself in my room and jumped up onto my bed.

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9/9/16: I wondered if tulpas were the product of cognitive dissonance--the brain says "I believe one brain equals one mind, but this 'forcing' is contradicting that. This feels bad, so I'll resolve it by making a tulpa". I reached the conclusion that even if that's true, and tulpas have a "negative" origin, it shouldn't change how they're treated.

I tried testing a trick where you stare at a place and visualize your tulpa in that place while rapidly blinking, but it only worked for a second (the goal was for the visualization to bleed into reality due to the rapid blinking).

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9/10/16: I forgot to log stuff. Dash got on my case about putting off homework. I reminded her that I'd worked on my Philosophy and English work. I watched "Rainbow Dash Presents: My Little Dashie", and she put her wing on my back. I tried to practice touch imposition by thinking of how that would feel.

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9/11/16: Dash said that we hadn't done much today. I noticed that the things I (and I think "we") usually liked to watch weren't that enjoyable (maybe because there wasn't new content). Keystroke said he wanted to watch Doctor Who.