KM & RD

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9/12/16: Rainbow Dash complimented me on a good work out. She reminded me to get my homework done. Later, I felt like we were having trouble communicating (like she was shutting me out), but she reminded me that we'd talked earlier today. I rephrased the issue as "my getting emotional created a psychic block", which made sense to her, even though the getting emotional wasn't immediately before the block. She joined in when I hummed Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu. She theorized that these events were a convoluted scheme by my brain to make me write a long post like I used to. She said that getting on my case about homework was a heat-of-the-moment thing and vowed to never get mad at me over stupid stuff.

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9/13/16: I asked Dash where we'd go from yesterday's events, and she told me to keep the idea of regaining novelty value/excitement in mind. I thought of stuff we could do together, and she suggested commentating on movies. I read about video games and psychotherapy, and she happily noted that the first article I clicked was published on her birthday. I don't remember the details, but something she did throughout the day was say stuff that made me do a double-take, and reveal she was just kidding. I re-read my first few posts, one of which talked about auditory and tactile imposition. Dash said that we had yet to work on those, and I wondered if there was any benefit to them.

I had the thought that pet play is diametrically opposed to autonomy, and Dash agreed we'd cut back on it; I think this "freed up" some mental thing. I figured that I'd given up the "for science" pretense long ago, and I wondered if this had "freed up" anything and taken off some load I didn't know I was carrying. Dash happily noted that today had been eventful.

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9/14/16: I did research on my "petplay and autonomy can't coexist" idea, and Dash advised against using a Tumblr page I'd found as a resource. I figured that I'd been overestimating how much being a pet had bled into day-to-day life, and confusing obedience with the idea of reaching an agreement on what video to watch (similar to Dash's warning not to confuse indecisiveness with collaboration).

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9/15:16: I saw a black-and-white picture of Nina. She said its scariness stemmed from the odd shading around the eyes, and the design of the open mouth. I read Gulliver's Travels, and Dash jokingly suggested that Houyhnhm-land was the precursor to Equestria.

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9/16/16: I remembered that one of my early adventures with Rainbow Dash was sitting at a specific cafeteria table, and she acted like she was solid. We did that today for old time's sake. Dash was impressed by the automatic espresso/hot chocolate machine. I read about the symptoms of Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and worried while checking off which ones I saw in myself, so Dash tried hypnotizing me into being calm.

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9/17/16: I asked RD to stop a headache I was having, and it worked (alternatively, it went away on its own). Shou said...something (I forgot what), and also that we could go at this scientifically even if my original motive was companionship.

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9/18/16: Dash called one of my sneezes "underwhelming". I entertained the idea of sleeping with three pillows, but Starlight said that'd be bad for my neck. I originally typed "that would", but Dash recommended I shorten it to not sound clinical.

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9/19/16: I lol'd at the .MOV vids, and Rainbow Dash said she liked seeing me happy. She specifically requested I write "Rainbow Dash". I watched "Rappin' for Jesus" and flipped out in sheer "WTF"-ness. Dash's comment was "host.exe has short-circuited".

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9/20/16: Sarah is blonde and has white fur, and she sounds like a character with blonde hair and white skin. I asked if her former cyborg limb was a differentiating thing, like Nina's tattoo, but she said "It was just something I thought looked kinda interesting". I reread my posts, and considered censoring the "Shou's kid" stuff in case my dad ever reads it and reacts negatively.

Dash remarked that it didn't seem like we'd done "deep trance" hypnosis like we'd used to (like the entry on page 50 where she'd hypnotized me and I'd said "I'm meant to be a pony"). I thought about my past line of thinking that Fluttershy and Keystroke showed up when they did for specific reasons (Keystroke to help me figure out my abortion stance, Fluttershy when I wasn't being kind), and Lust called this "host-centric"; Fluttershy said she had a point.

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9/21/16: Sarah was opposed to the proposed censorship, on grounds of preserving history. I was about to sit at an empty table (so that I could impose Dash in the opposite chair), but she wanted me to sit with a group. There was a backpack in the chair opposite me, so she refused to sit there.