HenHenry November 8, 2016 November 8, 2016 Wow, have you been posting daily for 2 years? That's dedication. The name is Henry, I would've used it as a username when I signed up but it was taken. Somehow the... interesting idea of repeating the first syllable popped into my head, and now my username is HenHenry. Now you know my life story.
tulpa001 November 8, 2016 November 8, 2016 If you look at the dates, the posts are made about weekly in a large group. Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.
KruegerMeister November 9, 2016 Author November 9, 2016 I try to do daily posts. The weekly-ness is me forgetting to post for a few days.
KruegerMeister November 9, 2016 Author November 9, 2016 11/7/16: Shou showed up in the gym after I thought about him for a second. I noted that the space he was in was relatively confined/small. Hours later, Dash said I needed to do some forcing. I apologized, which got on her nerves. I visualized her and did the rapid-blinking trick to impose her. I thought that I was having trouble with distance/depth perception of her, but my gut said otherwise. I saw her sitting on my scooter and decided to get a closer look to work on depth, and she used the opportunity to boop me. She said she felt a bit neglected, but then said that maybe she or I were confusing something else with "neglected". She decided to watch Bleach right next to me (from her own POV, instead of from mine). I knew what her reason was, but had trouble putting it into words, so she said "It's an autonomy thing." She reminded me to update my tulpa thread. I had a brief encounter with an anime walk-in (Muramasa from Bleach) who gave me advice on something, in a way that seemed like a new perspective. It was weird, because I would've expected Dash or someone to do that, but a walk-in did. Dash briefly wondered whether she was sentient if she couldn't provide her own perspective/didn't have a perspective of her own to provide, but the new walk-in pointed out that her wondering indicated sentience.
KruegerMeister November 10, 2016 Author November 10, 2016 11/8/16: I re-examined Lust's idea that having a wall instead of a door would be bad, and figured someone would only be mad about being kept out of a place if they 1) knew about said place and 2) deemed it superior to where they were. I wondered if I was anthropomorphizing my preconscious too much, but then I remembered that walk-ins are characters I know of, not places or objects, so actually I wasn't anthropomorphizing anything at all. I also realized that when I'm not thinking about them, my tulpas are in my preconscious, so "mindscape on one side, preconscious on the other" isn't an apt metaphor. After reading about ways to treat walk-ins (from "get rid of one with a malicious nature" to "accept them"), I noticed that none of mine have been malicious, even though I've been through some hard times. I did a short monologue about something stupid. Dash and Muramasa both told me to stop and work on the DIY project, the latter asking why I called it that. Later, Dash told me she felt kinda weak, so I asked all walk-ins to leave so I wouldn't be distracted from active forcing with her. I realized that we hadn't done anything special for her birthday, and she told me that today's entry was pretty long.
KruegerMeister November 10, 2016 Author November 10, 2016 11/9/16: Muramasa looked through some of my memories via computer. I advised him that the info was biased. On an unrelated thing, he didn't know much about the DIY project, but recognized its importance to me. Later, I felt like I wasn't spending enough time with Dash doing stuff together, so I asked everyone else to give us some alone time. Dash suggested we do...something sick. I got pretty emotional, insisting/demanding that that was a line that no one in our head would ever cross, and she said that her suggestion was either an intrusive thought or a coping mechanism.
KruegerMeister November 13, 2016 Author November 13, 2016 11/10/16: Dash seemed kind of mad at me, then said that was an intrusive thought. We sang "Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu", but I accidentally sang her lines a few times. She teased me a bit, then admitted she was trying to get me riled up. I imposed her, and we agreed to try and keep this up for a while. She followed me down the hall to the kitchen to make lunch, then back to my room. I asked her if she wanted to watch a stupid cringe video, and she said "Sure, I could go for some stupid." She said that today was productive, based on how much I was logging. I figured that needing to concentrate on class would get in the way of her being imposed all day, and this came true (possibly because I figured it would). Later on, I hit a milestone with the DIY project, and asked Nina if she wanted today to be her birthday (we'd thought about picking "the day the DIY project is finished", but I realized that would be hard to qualify).
KruegerMeister November 13, 2016 Author November 13, 2016 11/11/16: Dash and I chatted during dinner. She liked this, because we hadn't done it in a while.
KruegerMeister November 13, 2016 Author November 13, 2016 11/12/16: I asked Dash what she wanted to do today. She said "chat about Skyrim?", which is pretty much what I'd been doing before + her. She said that my omelette was too fluffy. Later, she complimented me on my English essay so far. She suggested that visually imposing her would (somehow) get Skyrim ideas flowing, but she ended up imposing herself when I turned around.
KruegerMeister November 16, 2016 Author November 16, 2016 11/13/16: I had a headache, and Nina said this was from her working on her voice. I watched Zootopia; Dash gave it 4/5 stars, then joked that I'd end up with a Judy tulpa.
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