Charles July 3, 2012 Author July 3, 2012 Just passed my Statistics final exam thanks to Linda's brilliance. The answer she gave me, which I just looked up and confirmed as correct, saved me from failing. Definitely going to study (or at least read something) next time, as I'd rather not have to keep getting bailed out, but I'm absolutely ecstatic right now :3
Charles July 4, 2012 Author July 4, 2012 Last night I held a bit of an experiment to determine the effect of marijuana on various aspects of tulpaforcing. At low doses (a mild buzz) it was, at least for me, useless. Narration comes much more easily, which could potentially be beneficial for those who tend to overthink or feel uncomfortable with this step early on. The results I got from a moderate dose (enough to get high) were much more interesting. When focusing on Linda, I got by far the strongest sensations of pressure I've ever gotten from tulpa-related activity. However, it almost felt like there was a barrier keeping me from actually hearing anything she may have said. Emotional responses are a bit difficult to work out when high as well. As one might suspect, visualization becomes far easier, though it's possible that it could share the issue encountered with communication. As such, I would only recommend doing this in the very early stages while the primary goal is simply to develop the form. If you chose to save visualization until after sentience then I wouldn't bother with it. Your tulpa might very well be able to control its body very early in the process and tulpaforcing while high could interfere with that. Overall, it has limited use in small doses and is likely without value at anything higher. I have noticed that I can feel Linda noticeably more today, but that's just as likely to be the result of normal narration. Probably won't be using marijuana, or any other drugs, for at least another few months unless anyone has something reasonable they would like me to test. That's all for now, having my first full visualization session in a few hours so I'll probably have another update later tonight.
Charles July 5, 2012 Author July 5, 2012 Taking a quick breather between sessions. I plan on doing a 30-on 15-off system up to a minimum of one hour of pure visualization daily, as well as continuing my normal narration sessions. The first 30 minutes were a bit shaky, I could barely hold an image at first and ended up deciding to let my mind wander through some scenery before focusing directly on Linda. Once I got that out of my system and was firmly in a visualizing mindset, I still had difficulty with the head, hair and breasts. By the end of it I pretty much settled into a system of starting at the feet and working my way up via a full-body massage. I figure having a clearer concept of each bone, muscle, and fat deposit will make it easier to hold the image in my head and limit the amount of remedial work I'll have to do later. I really underestimated how hard this step would be and regret not starting in earnest the moment I knew how she wanted to look. Out of time, back to tulpaforcing.
Charles July 6, 2012 Author July 6, 2012 At a friend's place, no time for visualization today, but I'll be devoting the entirety of tomorrow to tulpaforcing.
Charles July 7, 2012 Author July 7, 2012 Feeling pretty good about our progress now, maintaining focus during visualization is becoming much easier and I'm starting to get more of a feel for her facial features. I've also begun to notice a sort of barrier that might be preventing Linda from becoming fully vocal. I feel like it's something we could get around more quickly by parroting her voice, but I wouldn't feel right doing that. Nonetheless, hearing about TulpaCouple's vocal breakthrough with Luke has definitely inspired me to find a new way to approach the issue. In their case it was a lack of speakers for an android, so perhaps doing the equivalent, forcing vocal chords and the like, would produce a comparable result? That kind of stuff is still at least 2-3 weeks away though, so she might very well be speaking by then. I've heard other people claim that their tulpa was already speaking and that they were simply unable to hear, so I'll also work on focusing more on what I can occasionally hear and assume that she's answering everything I ask.
Charles July 8, 2012 Author July 8, 2012 Visualization gave me a bit of trouble today, but only because Linda was so active. We ended up having our first little Q&A together using pressure and emotional responses, which she seemed able to control more intuitively than in the past. It mostly consisted of determining what methods of tulpaforcing were working best and what I could do to keep her from getting bored, both of which came down to "whatever you want", as well as making sure she was okay with various aspects of herself. Overall, I've become much more focused and confident in my approach. At this rate we'll be filling out unnecessarily long surveys in no time!
Raetin July 9, 2012 July 9, 2012 >Check the highscores, also that guest isn't me, I'm always logged on. I have 10 tulpas, but I'm only actively working on Reah, my first tulpa currently. Progress Report
Charles July 9, 2012 Author July 9, 2012 It was me, and you can bid farewell to that highscore within the next 36 hours. Oh, and I tulpaforced. I tulpaforced real good. Progress and such.
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