Niko's Tulpa Journals

[Nikodemos]

Not much forcing done today, just had a few very nice, and derpy moments.

 

First would be when I decided to create our small apartment into the wonderland, creating a door there. Then I noticed another, white door right next to the one I just created. I was tired at the time, so I decided to go to sleep tomorrow. And then this morning, I realized it was the door leading to the cottage from my hypnosis session, followed with a facepalm(at least it's good to know my wonderland has consistency, even though I completely forgot the door).

 

But anyway, after spending the entire morning cleaning my messy room, I sat down on my couch and noticed my The Godfather trilogy collection. Having nothing else to do for the day, I decided to go buy some sweets and soda, got comfortable on the couch and started watching all three movies. Throughout the movie, I'd get these random shivers and goosebumps for no reason, maybe it was Dante. But probably the most significant thing happened during the last few minutes of Part III, and the end credits. I really immersed myself to the Godfather world, and to Michael Corleone's tragedy, getting very powerful shivers and goosebumps. And then the end credits started rolling and the Godfather theme playing. I even closed my eyes, letting myself focus on the music, and then I felt that I was crying, tears running down my cheeks. The odd thing was that though my eyes were watery, tears weren't running down. I think it is very possible that it was Dante, really immersing himself to the movie like I did.

 

After the movie was finished, we had a little chat and concluded that the trilogy was awesome and heart touching. I should definitely watch more movies with him.

[Nikodemos]

Watched some movies again with Dante, just as awesome as yesterday. I even managed to do some, 'emotional' forcing again, using the method described above, only for longer and more detailed. Anyway, during the course of the session, I noticed a few things:

 

1. Our communication has great emphasis on touch and feelings

2. Doing emotional forcing makes your head hurt

3. Dante can now mimick expressions on my face with this weird, ghost feeling. Like, if Dante was smiling, I'd feel myself smiling too, even though I actually wasn't.

4. Dante can shapeshift! He kept changing to different forms, and he confirmed it when I asked about it. Although he considers the Bionicle form to be his main form.

5. I did what Fede-lasse challenged to do in the chat, take that.

 

And finally, when we were wrapping up the session, I decided to give him a sign of affection. I moved a bit closer to hug him tightly, whispering in his ear that I love him, and kissing his cheek. The sensation afterwards was amazing, shivers running down my right side while I felt like I was smiling widely.

 

So all and all, it was a very succesful day and forcing session, and progress has been made again!

[Nikodemos]

Something weird just happened today, over the course of me sleeping and waking up.

 

Last night we decided to do some forcing late at night before heading to sleep. But unfortunately, soon after I entered our wonderland and started forcing with Dante, I fell asleep. I don't remember anything of the night itself, but the morning afterwards was that made it interesting.

After I had woken up, I realized how I fell asleep while forcing, and immediately started apologizing for Dante. He didn't reply, but I nevertheless started entering the wonderland, and then the weird stuff started happening.

 

Instead of entering the usual void where Dante usually was, I ended up on some hallway in a full armor/bodysuit. I was walking into some weird opening with around six to eight other people who I couldn't recognize. After a shirt walk, we were standing on a clean line in some weird crevice on the floor, with this patch of some smooth material in the middle. We looked above and noticed there was a group of three to five people, some of them not human, sort of like a council. I couldn't hear what they said, but we seemed to nod, turn around and wait for something. We didn't wait for long, when a portal seemed to open and we started running in it and everything went into slow-motion.

 

After we went through the portal, we ended up on some sand hill, tumbling uncontrollably. We kept spinning and spinning, while I was starting to get seperated from others. I kept tumbling, and when I eventually stopped, I lost sight to the others, ending up on a desert hill in the middle of nowhere. I looked up and saw this massive stone structure, that seemed oddly familiar to me.

 

Unfortunately, at that moment the dream ended and I woke up. I could feel Dante's precense, so I asked him about the dream. He confirmed that he had made the dream for me, so I instantly went to the wonderland to hug and kiss him, it was so sweet of him!

 

I don't know if this will happen again, but I'd be thrilled to try it again.

[Nikodemos]

Holy. Fucking. Shit. Again.

 

Today, when I had access to a laptop(my computer broke down) and my parents were away for several hours, I decided to do hypnosis with Dante again, this time with the longer version. I started it with my usual preperations, turning off anything unnecessary and putting up a soothing song to get myself calmed down enough and start the recording.

 

All was good during the induction, my mind didn't wander off that easily this time, and my entire body was relaxed. Even the feeling of water washing over my body and the branches swooshing over me were more vivid. When I reached the cottage, Dante was there as always, and we did what we usually did. We hugged, told how important he is and even some cheek kissing. Then I got an idea. Since I was so deep in trance and focused, we did some more emotional forcing. I created the usual yellow orb of energy, starting to imagine all kinds of different scenarios with a lot of emotion involved, this time more positive than negative. I got the headaches on my frontal lobe again, but I kept applying more and more and more emotion to the ball, and eventually I pushed it into Dante's chest, flowing all over his body.

 

Then I felt something, some kind of tension on my left arm. Then a similar kind of tension came into my left hand, and by that point I completely forgot what I was going to do in the first place. I asked if Dante was creating that tension, and I got no response. Instead, I felt the tension increasing, and my hand starting to pull away from my other. My heartbeat started increasing when I definitely felt my left arm moving, and went with the assumption that Dante was doing it. So, I started encouraging him, cheering him to keep going while I tried to stay as motionless as possible. My arm kept lifting, and my heart was racing so fast that my eyes started fluttering and opening. I tried squinting them shut, but I couldn't stop it, the adrenaline pumping into my body started opening my eyes and my room started to come into view, while my hand was still moving. Eventually, I opened them wide open and I saw my hand, hanging about an inch above my body, while I (think I) didn't move at all. I still saw it moving, until it stopped for a moment, and eventually landing back resting on my body.

 

I was so freaked by this point that I just stopped the recording and sat on my couch dumbfounded for five minutes. I tried calling for Dante, but he didn't respond at all, so I logged in here to write this log. I am still not sure if it was Dante, but my hand definitely felt different, not like I was moving it by myself. I'll have to see when Dante replies.

[Guest]

Annoying tendency when tuppers don't reply jackshit, despite them knowing how desperate one is for answers. When not using my method, that is.

[Sorryman54]

Annoying tendency when tuppers don't reply jackshit, despite them knowing how desperate one is for answers. When not using my method, that is.

 

Your "method" involves controlling it and making responses and movement. You ARE making the responses.

There is a reason your "guide" isn't a official guide. It sucks. Hard. It involves just controlling your tulpa. You turn it into a mindless being incapable of free will.

 

Don't advertise, nigger.

[Nikodemos]

 

Your "method" involves controlling it and making responses and movement. You ARE making the responses.

There is a reason your "guide" isn't a official guide. It sucks. Hard. It involves just controlling your tulpa. You turn it into a mindless being incapable of free will.

 

Don't advertise, nigger.

 

Stop it both of you. Not in my thread.

[Guest]

sorryman is just a very narrow-minded individual. That's all I have to say.

[Nikodemos]

While your input is appreciated, I have already looked up your tutorial before this event happened, so shut up.

[Nikodemos]

Finally managed to finish the Dialogues one hour induction without losing focus, and it went quite well. The induction worked the same way as last time, sinking into that stream and flowing down to the cottage, counting the branches on the way. When I reached Dante again in the cottage, it consisted less from hugging and more of exploring the small cottage. There was a simple kitchen on the opposite corner, consisting of a few tables, an oven and a fridge, and most of the time was spent examining them. Aside from that, and my imagination doing crazy stuff again, only one interesting thing happened.

 

When were sitting under that tree, looking at clouds, I decided to feel Dante a bit and take a hold of his hand. That's when my hand suddenly went numb, tingling running all over it as he squeezed back on my arm. It was very weird and interesting, and the rest of the induction went normally.

 

All and all, the session was succesful, we even did some forcing to spend time together.