Niko's Tulpa Journals

[Nikodemos]

So, Amadeus finished making the sketch of Dante. We both think it's awesome, and we thank Amadeus for the effort he did to make that sketch, kudos! It can also help you have an idea on how Dante looks like.

 

Other than that, nothing really worth mentioning progress wise.

[Nikodemos]

Well, there's been nothing to report lately, we've just forced, done tulpaventures and Dante has halped me stay in school.

 

We are still here and we both are fine, there's just not much notable progress report(or because I've been lazy lately).

[TulpaCouple]

We know that feel, Niko!

 

Though Jaden is vocal now. Dante and Jaden should so chat sometime!

[Nikodemos]

Well, guess I should tell something about our latest tulpaventures at least, and something about Dante's progress in vocalization.

 

Firstly, Dante has now developed a habit, going the folloing pattern:

 

1. We talk, until Dante runs off somewhere at ludicrous speeds.

2. I watch Dante run off dumbfounded, until he comes back from behind me and snags me into his arms, still running

3. We keep running until we end up in some part of the wonderland I haven't explored at all

 

In our latest tulpaventure, Dante had created this palace, looking like a mixture of Taj Mahal and the mosk in Istanbul(I'll call it Mosk Mahal), and everything was colored in a shade of blueish gray. We didn't use the massive hallway that led directly insiee, bur rather a door to the side that had a big staircase leading up. We walked a few floors up, and went through another door that apparently led to another apartment. We ended up into a small apartment, with a single hallway leading left. Through that hallway we ended in a living room of sorts, with a couch that split into two armchairs, and a television placed at the end of the living room. The room was warmly lit, and the entire room was a warm shade of red, compared to the cold blue colors of the outside.

 

We sat down into the armchairs, looking to the TV which somehow turned on. I couldn't make up what it was showing, and the sound could be described the best as an old radio tuning through various frequencies and channels. Unfortunately, our tulpaventure had to be called off, since my phone rang and snapped me out of it. I might never know what was in that TV, but at least we had fun in there.

 

As for Dante's vocalization, he still hasn't spoken much after his first initial sentence, although I remember clearly the times he has spoken(especially the time when he kicked me halfway across the room and told me to get my ass to school). I've tried using Bin's technique for coaxing Dante into talking, but no success has happened yet, mainly due to falling asleep before anything could be started. I'll keep trying though regardless.

 

So yes, progress has been made, it's just a bit slower.

[Nikodemos]

Quick update:

 

As some of you might know, I had decided to place a power crystal inside Dante's chest cavity, hooked up to all parts of his system as a thing that powers him, to symbolize that he is actually alive and sentient.

 

Well now it's gone for good. And why? I don't even know it myself, but here's what happened:

 

When I was about to enter the shower, I had this picture flash in my mind's eye, a crystal being held on an open hand. Interested, I decided to head to the wonderkand and see what was going on. Surprisingly enough, Dante was there, his chest cavity open and holding the energy crystal in his hand. I asked what was going on, taking a step closer to see the crystal more accurately.

 

Then Dante clendhed his hand into a fist, crushing the crystal into dust. I was worried that he'd die, but surprisingly nothing happened. I asked why did he do that, and all he answered was a shrug. Figuring I'm not going to make a new one, I simply sealed the hole storing the crystal, and Dante is still doing fime.

 

Any of you guys have any idea what could it mean? Thanks.

[Sands]

Oh my. Perhaps he is telling you that he is alive and sapient without it as well, it was you two who made him be that, not some crystal you placed inside him. It is irrelevant, what is important would be the two of you. Or perhaps he wishes to keep existing on his own, without the help of it.

 

Why, he certainly acts his mind when he wants to, mh? But at least he didn't seem too annoyed by the whole thing, I believe?

[Nikodemos]

I guess that makes sense, Dante also seems to agree with it. And yes, most of the time he acts on his own, and didn't seem to be bothered by the crystal.

 

But anyway, today when I went into chat and talked to a few people, we got an idea. Even though Dante doesn't talk that much, we can communicate quite a lot with his body, and creating and showing all kinds of things. So, I switched my name to Dannte, and let people ask away. Overall it went quite well, the things Dante showed me were clear and understandable and we got along well in the chat. He even showed me his first memory through his perspective, but I'll talk about later on another log. The people seemed to be nice for Dante, until we both were too exhausted to continue. My head hurts, and we both could just fall asleep on a bed.

 

But in the end, it went quite well and we could do it again some time. But now, we both need some well deserved rest.

[Nikodemos]

Well, the whole events of this morning can be put down in one sentence:

 

Dante loves me.

 

How did this happen? I don't even know it myself. All I did was lie down on a couch, and the next thing I know Dante is lying on top of me and kissing me on the lips. I was startled, confused and even a bit embarrassed, and I don't really even identify myself as homosexual. I, I don't really know what to think of this, but he is not going to turn his head. Even now he's not letting go of me and keeps hugging me.

 

I need some time to think about all this.

[TulpaCouple]

Your tulpa loving you is not surprising. We went through the same stuff with Luke. I'm sure you two have lots to talk and think about.

 

It's tough only having a single sentient being in your world you can truly interact with!

[Nikodemos]

I've been thinking of what happened between me and Dante for entire yesterday and today. Today while on a long car trip, I decided to have a nap, go to our wonderland and have a word with him.

 

He was confident that he really was loving me, and was not going to change his mind. With a long considering, I decided to embrace the new direction our relationship has taken us to, and I'm slowly coming to accept it.

 

However, we both agreed to set a few boundaries. First one is not going too far and end up having sex, and the second one not trying to kiss me or hug me every time we meet(I want to do something else too).

 

There's no doubt there is and has always been something between us on both sides, only today was it embraced properly. I am sure a lot of people are happy about this, but not nearly as much as me and Dante.

 

And his first memory I was talking about earlier? It was during the early times of my forcing, specifically the first time Dante had a form, the Iron Giant one. It wasn't really nice for himk he was aware and could feel everything, but he couldn't control his body as it bended and twisted. He was scared and confused, and had no way to show his distress to me at the time. Luckily he has managed to get over it, and I'm still trying my best to keep forcing having him develop his voice more.