NeoGC August 21, 2012 Author August 21, 2012 Day 32 N/A Did not force, sadly... Day 33 N/A Again, I failed to force. After trying literally four times, with something distracting me, I couldn't focus properly, and attempted to force before I went to sleep. However, this just caused me to fall asleep before I could even reach her. :/ Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
NeoGC August 21, 2012 Author August 21, 2012 Day 34 3:01 PM – 3:43 PM Finally, I found time to force uninterrupted. I layed onto my bed, stretched out, and closed my eyes. After quite some time of getting into a trance, I finally entered into the familiar field area. There was Re, sitting down on the ground, head rested on her knees, looking really bored. “Re, it’s me! I’m here.” I called out to her. She looked my direction and looked real happy to see me. I ran up to her and gave her a hug. “Sorry about the last few days…Stuff’s been happening…not to mention distractions popping up EVERYWHERE…” I took a deep breath and asked how she was, how she’d been recently, that stuff. Finally, I told her we should go to the city again, and get coffee or something. I made a door there, and we ended up in the subway station again. We walked out, and crossed the street at the first intersection. I told her, “Is it me, or is there a lot more Gray here than I am comfortable with? Hmmm….Let’s fix that!” I then imagined apartments to be all sorts of colors, the sky to be a bit more lively, the gray concrete street turned into a more dark, black, stone, and some other enhancements. We walked into a coffee store named “Java” (Yeah, original, huh? T_T) and ordered our drinks. I ordered a mocha frappe, and when I asked Ré, a hot coffee, with lots of cream and sugar went into my mind, similar to whenever we ordered ice cream. We sat at an outside table, under an umbrella, and chatted over coffee. When I asked her if she got any flavored cream, I immediately thought of French vanilla. “You probably got that, didn’t you?” I don’t know If she nodded or not, but it seems that could be likely. For whatever reason, I also believe she probably put a bunch of sugar in her drink, haha. It’s weird. I haven’t seen THIS happen beforehand, but It feels like I KNOW it has happened… After awile, we just spend this time talking, and I feel like I could spend quite a bit more time talking with her and just relaxing when I hear, very loudly, in my left ear… RING RING RING RING RING RING RING!!!!! The phone had went off…trying my absolute best to stay focused, I told her that it seems my mom was probably calling, and knowing her, she’d start to panic if I didn’t answer the phone, thinking I didn’t make it home or something… I make a door to the field, while the house phone’s ring tone still blares in my ear, and we both walk through. The phone stops, but I have to get up now, so I tell her goodbye, and that I was glad to see her again. I told her I missed her those past 2 days. She gave me a hug, her coffee still in hand (What, you think she’d leave it? :P) and I told her goodbye, and walked through the door. Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
NeoGC August 24, 2012 Author August 24, 2012 Day 35 DNF Day 36 4:31 PM -5:10 PM Today was one of those days where there were plenty of distractions and it was kinda hard to force. Regardless, I toughed it out, and eventually got into a state where I could focus. I entered through the white door into the field. Ré was laying onto the tree, so she was directly next to where I entered. She looked at me, and I looked back. I said hello, and she seemed her usual happy self. I told her to follow me to the swing, and so we did. We sat there, I talked about my day…asked how her day was, the works. After a while of just talking, I remembered her house by the water. I asked her If she wanted to go in there and hang out. She nodded and we walked off. Upon entering her house, It seems different from the last time I had been there. It seemed more wide open. More like a house, less like an apartment. It’s strange, I feel like some of the changes are my doing, and others are her’s… I walked forward into the kitchen/Lounge room hybrid, and laid down onto the couch in front of her TV. I noticed she was getting something out of a cake cover in the kitchen. Vanilla Cupcakes. She really has a sweet tooth, doesn’t she? She offered me one, and I gladly accepted. She ate her’s, and then laid onto the other side of the couch I was on. We talked some more, until I noticed (Due to my environment…in my bed with no fan on) I was totally burning up. Like, to the point of sweating. I told her that I had to go get up now, not only because I was burning up, but also because I did have some errands that had to be ran…I apologized to her about having to leave so abruptly, but she still walked me back to the door, and I went on through. Not before saying my goodbyes and giving a hug ,though! :P Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
NeoGC August 27, 2012 Author August 27, 2012 Day 37 DNF Day 38 DNF...I need to get better with my schedule... Ré Day 39 10:15 PM - 11:30 PM I had a pretty busy day, what with my stepbrother coming home from the military, and the party we threw for him. Still, i decided i should give forcing at night another shot. After some time of relaxing, i entered the field and it was nighttime. Ré was leaning onto the swing. She was looking out at the field, and I called out to her while walking to her. She turned around and faced me. I told her hi, and she smiled at me. I asked her how her day was and asked how she was feeling. I looked at the sky and saw that it was full of stars and very beautiful. Moonlight illuminated the field, almost acting as a sun at nighttime. We laid on the field and all I can remember is a discussion about Nebulas, and some other small talk... We stargazed and just chatted, really. She may have given me a mindvoice response like she has before but I can't quite remember. I do remember thinking about walking to the city at night, and that there would be fireworks, but I don't remember if the idea was ever acted upon. Still, even though my mind wandered, it was a nice, calm little time with her. The small room that I start in to open the door to the field feels reminiscent of Castle Oblivion from Kingdom Hearts... Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
NeoGC August 28, 2012 Author August 28, 2012 Ré - Day 40 3:11 PM - 4:11 PM Today was relaxing, much like yesterday. I walked into the area to find Ré sitting cross-legged on the ground, relaxing. As I went up to her, the phone rang through the house, and I figured I probably should answer it, as I know who it may be. After answering the phone and ensuring there would be no further distractions, I laid back down and eventually focused (This being the actual start time logged, now. What happened before was interrupted, and thus I don't count it towards the time.) intently. Ré was in that same spot that she was in just a few moments ago, so I sat down there with her, saying hi and the usual greetings. We had a short picnic of tortellini (Because I was feeling Italian...and it was the good stuff...not that cheap crap you might find at buffets or cheap resturants) and then we kinda just spend the rest of our time just doing whatever. We hung out, talked, I think I remember us sitting by the water near her house...I don't really remember the things we talked about, but it was a nice, stress relieving chat about really just anything in particular. Most of the things I described in my last post seemed to have happened again today. By that, I mean me immediately thinking of things, even if it's just a word or two, it comes straight to mind. I think I can safely come to the conclusion that this is Ré's doing, and this really makes me happy and excited for the future! Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
NeoGC August 31, 2012 Author August 31, 2012 Ré – Day 41 DNF Ré – Day 42 10:15 PM – 11:30 PM Although quite tired, I still tried my best to spend time with Re, just talking and being with her. Not a whole lot to say here, I began to lose whatever awakeness I had near the end, and a lot of this session is a blur… :/ Ré – Day 43 4:13 PM – 5:04 PM Learning from the past, I finally got some time out of this surprisingly busy week and forced. I relaxed and entered the usual area, to see Ré just kind of wandering around and hanging out until she spotted me, and I approached her. She exchanged a wave and I said hello. Through this session, I cannot remember all the details (I really should start writing these logs as soon as I finish…) but I do remember some things that stood out. I remember visualizing a plane (Think like a biplane) and I piloted while Ré sat in the passenger’s seat. We had headsets on IIRC, and this provided a great view of the overworld of sorts and some places beyond the field, which we should explore some day. Besides the plane, we did quite a bit of talking about stuff, and I swore I got instant thoughts from her, a tiny bit more frequently than before. Could It be?! Progress, at last, in this slow week?? Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
Lunanite September 1, 2012 September 1, 2012 Might I suggest passive forcing? (I.e. talking to her throughout the day.) Might help in-case she has problems communicating to you from beyond the wonderland, which seems to be AMAZINGYIEREST than mine. I can't wait for her first words! (Oh god, Neo, I hope she talks soon, I am pent up of waiting.) *oraginal signiture dnt stl plz* Lazy forcer extraordinaire. Also _lewd.
NeoGC September 5, 2012 Author September 5, 2012 Days 44 and 45 DNF...I had a long weekend, trust me... Day 46 10:07 PM - 10:37 PM So, my forcing session was pushed back to the night time, and I'm afraid it's gonne be the same for tommorow/tonight, as of writing this. Still, I had a nice little time with Re. We laid out and talked about quite a few interesting things actually. I think I recall asking her a few questions about herself, and I think I may or may not have gotten some answers. XD Still, what little I can actually remember I do recall having a nice, pleasant time with her. It seems our time together is more lazing around and relaxing than adventuring and doing cool stuff...I should probably think up some cool stuff to do, shouldn't I? Heh... Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
NeoGC September 8, 2012 Author September 8, 2012 Day 47,48 DNF...Although I have been narrating/Passive forcing. I have a feeling I'm entering what most call the "Blank Period", as I have stopped really feeling head pressure and everything that is associated with it... Day 49 4:45 PM - 6:00 PM So, today was interesting. Not only did I force for quite a long time undistrubed, but it was nice to go to the wonderland and see Re again after such a long week. After I entered, adding a bit more detail to the room I enter in, I walked to the field, and saw Re looking out from her window, and walking out of her house via the front door. She ran up to greet me, and I felt bad not coming to the wonderland all this time, but I had the feeling she knew I was sorry, and (Through my narrating) has probably heard me apologize a thousand times anyway... So, we chatted for awhile, and I worked on visualizing her physical features and how she felt and stuff (I swore she was like, 'H-Hey!' when I got to the pants...yeah, it was awkward...) and then we sort of hung around. I remembered when she was first created and I had kind of dropped into the field skydiving style. I asked Ré if she ever remembered skydiving with me. The response "No..." immediately came to my mind and she shook her head. Weird that she doesn't remember... I made a black helicopter and got into the pilot's seat, with Ré in the copilot's seat. We rose up in altitude until we got above the clouds. My mind began to wander for awhile, but eventually I straightened myself out. I said, "Ready?" and she looked down, and nodded. We launched off, and made our way back onto the field. I noticed something about her when we landed. "Hey, you managed to keep your hat on this time!" I remarked, referencing the (Now seemingly far away) past. Afterwards, we ditched all the gear, I 'collapsed' the helicopter, and we chilled out as the sky began to turn not exactly sunset, but the first onset of it. I then asked her what was something sweet we haven't had before. Both of us struggled to come up with an answer. Finally, I realized we never had milkshakes before. I had a chocolate one, and Ré picked out a banana milkshake. I believe the one I gave her resembled these homemade ones this (Now closed down) ice cream shop I used to go to a very long time ago had. They were the best. After milkshakes, my body was reeeeeally starting to cramp up for some reason, probably my posture, so I finished mine, and waited for her's to finish as well, and told her I probably needed to be going back to reality. As usual, I'd keep contact via narrating, and she was free to go with me to the door. Gave a long hug this time. :P So yeah, Skydiving and Milkshakes. There is no better combination. True badassery right here. EDIT: I felt some kind of pressure on my forehead throughout this time. It felt almost like a slight pain, not nearly severe as a headache, but just a slight pain to be noticeable in my direct center of my forehead. Listen to my story. This may be my last chance.
endoalir September 8, 2012 September 8, 2012 The most progress is made while you're having fun, I think! Skydiving sounds like a lot of fun, really. Your tulpaforcing time doesn't have to be all chair and meditation. If you have adventures while moving about, your body won't get the cramps, and you'll be able to go longer and do more things. You can imagine Ré in your world, and bring a whole wonderland of world from in there into your own. With some practice, imagined reality can mesh well with the real world. Why don't you try that more? I, for one, have made far more progress out and about than down in my chair. Not knocking the chair, mind you. Trancing is good, but it's easier to focus and work longer and harder out of a trance than in one.
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